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"Okay, that's fine. It's just a video, after all." I say, but it sound like if I was just trying to convince myself.

"Okay, let's start filming. Me and Shannon will go first." Bryan shouts.

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"Alright. I think that's enough filming. Johnnie, you and Imogen are next." Bryan says after 10 minutes of filming with Shannon.

"Okay." I respond and step in front of the camera; in Kyle's view.

"Get into position." Kyle says quietly.

"Three, two, one..."

"Hey, it's Johnnie! And I'm here with my super amazing friend, Imogen!" Johnnie says while pointing to me.

"Hey guys!" I say cheerfully.

"It's our turn to do the Chapstick challenge." Johnnie states.

"Ya ready?" He turns to look at me, and I nod.

"Okay, you're going to be the one wearing the Chapstick" Johnnie explains while putting on a blindfold.

"Okay." I say as I start to apply the Strawberry flavored Chapstick.

"Okay, go!" Johnnie says.

On command, I start leaning into Johnnie, closing my eyes, and I'm about to kiss him when...

"STOP!" Kyle shouts at the top of his lungs.

"What?" Johnnie says, taking off his blindfold.

"Well, uh, you're not in the frame. Lean in closer." Kyle responds.

"Okay, like this?"

"Perfect. Ready for round 2 of shooting?" Kyle asks with uneasiness.

"Ready." Johnnie states again.

Within seconds I'm leaning in again, when I hear...

"STOP!"

"What now?!" Johnnie shouts, taking off his blindfold once again.

"I uh, i-i need to talk to Imogen." Kyle mumbles and grabs my arm forcefully and drags me behind a near-by bush.

"Ow, you're hurting me!" I yell, as Kyle holds strongly onto my arm and pulls me away.

"Stop talking." He says with anger laced in his voice.

Once we were finally behind the bush, he let go of my arm and turned to face me.

My arm was red with Kyle's handprint and stung to the touch. When I saw my arm I felt my throat close up and tears threatened to spill out of my eyes.

"What do you think you're doing?" Kyle says, looking into my eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"Don't act stupid!"

"I don't know what you're talking about!"

"You were about to kiss Johnnie..."

"So? It's not like you care anyway."

"Don't say that."

"It's true!"

"No it's not..."

"Really, Kyle? Because I remember VERY clearly that last time I saw you, you were mad at me for liking you. So what does it matter that I'm kissing Johnnie?"

"I-i, uh-"

"No, Kyle. You don't get to win. Not this time. I'm tired of playing games with you. Do you like me? Do you hate me? I NEVER KNOW! You're so indecisive and it hurts, Kyle. It really does. I can't get beaten up by your words ever time you have a bad day. I'm tired of being your slave, and you only using me when you need me and then kicking me off to the curb when you don't."

Kyle looked at me with sadness in his eyes. This was the first time I've ever seen him like this.

"I'm so, so sorry. I like you, I really do. I just, don't know how to express it, you know? Like I don't know how to treat a girl right because I've never really had a good relationship with one. Every girl I've ever dated has either cheated on me or just stopped talking to me. I'm a YouTuber, okay? People use me just like you say that I use you. It does hurt. And I didn't realize I was putting you through that. Please forgive me! I'm sorry! I've always had my guard up because I was afraid of getting hurt, but I didn't realize that I was hurting you..."

By this time, we were both crying. I didn't say anything to him after what he told me. I just leaned in and hugged him, and held on to him for a very long time, not ever wanting to let go.

As much as I want to ignore him, I can't. As much as I don't want to believe him, I do. I wanted to get over him, but I couldn't. Why? Because you just can't get over a boy like Kyle David Hall.