Chapter 59

UNIQ was about to finish their dinner when Su Bin entered the restaurant. She smiles if not, she'll have to cut short her meeting with Han Bin to say goodbye to UNIQ. "Oh Su Bin!" Wenhan calls out and she waves before heading towards the Korean-Chinese group.

She sits next to Seungyoun as he passes her a bowl of rice. "But you're finishing," she says and Seungyoun laughs.

"It's okay! We got a bit more of food coming then desserts~" he says happily and the girl nods before grabbing some meat to eat with the rice.

True to Seungyoun's words, more food appeared and they all dug in. "How come you're here?" Yi Xuan asks after swallowing and wipes his mouth with the back of his hand.

"Oh I just wanted to say something. I'll tell Oppas once we're done with this meal okay?" she says and they all nod.

They started joking, laughing loudly and threw some of the lettuce at each other. "Don't waste food!" Sungjoo exclaims in his accented Chinese.

"Ah okay hyung," Yibo says, slinging his arm around the broad-shoulder.

Su Bin was happy that the last few moments with UNIQ was happy so that she had something good to look back to. Desserts arrived and they ate it happily. "So what was it that you wanted to say Su Bin?" Sungjoo asks and she takes a deep breath.

"I'm leaving soon," she says in Chinese and they all froze in their actions before looking at her.

"What?" Yibo asks in Chinese.

She stabs her spoon into the dessert, sighing. "I came today to say goodbye," she continues in Chinese. "I know its all very sudden... Just know that I did this to protect everyone..."

"I don't get it," Wenhan replies in Chinese. "How is your departure going to protect this 'everyone' that you claim. Are you a hundred percent sure they will be protected?"

"People that I care about are in danger because of me..." she trails off in Chinese. "If I leave, everyone will be safe... I will miss you guys but it's better and easier... It's a two hundred percent thing."

A heavy silence fell across the dining table. "If so... Will you come back?" Seungyoun asks hopefully.

"I will..." she says, smiling slightly. "I just don't know when."

"Shouldn't you be telling BTS sunbaenim about this?" Sungjoo asks in Chinese.

"If I told them about this... They will just try to stop me and it wouldn't go anywhere," she replies in Chinese, smiling sadly. "At least I know Min Junnie and Ji Woo are in good hands."

Yi Xuan nods as she says that. "So you're here just to say goodbye?" Yi Xuan asks in Chinese and she nods.

"How could you be so selfish?" Yibo asks in Chinese, making everyone look at him. "You're just going to go back, pack and then leave?"

"She can't help it. What's up with you, Yibo," Wenhan says in Chinese and the youngest glare at him.

"What's up with me?" Yibo asks in Chinese. "The problem is that she's just going to leave, making everyone miss her. If this isn't being selfish, what is?"

"Wang Yibo!" Yi Xuan exclaims harshly in Chinese and Su Bin shakes her head at him.

"I know that you're angry..." she says in Chinese, trailing off. "I'm also very sorry. I came to say goodbye to UNIQ Ge because Yibo Ge."

They all look at her, ignoring Yibo's fury. "I knew that Yibo will act this, so I personally came to say goodbye," she says in Chinese before laughing slightly. "Yibo ge, I'm sorry that the both of us have this mutual feeling towards the perspective of life. You finally found someone who could relate to you... But now, I'm leaving. I know how you're feeling now. You feel betrayed, you feel anger and you feel sadness."

"You knew all of this and you still want to leave?" the youngest asks in Chinese, as a tear slipped from his eye.

"Because if I didn't say goodbye, I will regret it," she replies in Chinese, moving towards him. "I wish you learnt something. I know you already did."

"The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water in the womb," he whispers in English as more tears fell and she smiles sadly.

"This means that relationships formed by choice are stronger than those formed by birth," she finishes it in English before taking a deep breath.

"I have to go," she speaks in Korean before turning to Sungjoo. "Goodbye Sungjoo Oppa."

She then proceeds to hug him lightly before doing the same for the rest of the members. "Take care of yourself," Yi Xuan whispers and she nods.

She looks at Yibo and goes to hug him tightly. "Yibo ge, I will be careful when I'm by myself. You don't have to say anything," she says and he returns the hug.

"Thank you Su Bin..." he whispers, "for teaching me so many different lessons in a short time. Gege will always be here for you."

They broke the hug and she bows formally at the five of them. She waves a final goodbye and then leaves the restaurant.

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Su Bin had a bag pack on her, packed with necessities. When packing, she had no idea if she should bring her phone along because it would cause people to try and contact her but when she opened her photo album and it was filled with pictures and videos of everyone she had, she hesitated. So she ditched her SIM card. She had packed the photo strip safely and in her phone were photos from the photobooth since the company had sent them all over to her.

On her wrist, she was wearing the bracelet given by Yibo and a Baby-G watch given by her beloved Oppas. She had a silver ring of Jimin on her second finger. On her head was Yoongi's old beanie that he didn't want anymore. She had took Jungkook's old shirt that was too small for him, Hoseok's sunnies that he complained about not looking as  nice on him as before, one of Namjoon's pens that he used to get inspiration from and only took a small figurine of Seokjin's Mario collection because he had a double for it. She took a pair of plain studs from Taehyung's collection because he used to have ear holes and when it closed up, he never got rid of the studs. Her phone cover was the sponsored case she had gotten as a first gift from BTS Oppas. She took a hair tie from Ji Woo and one of Min Jun's random toy that he had won from the capsule. The bag she had was the first thing she brought when she got her pay check. The shoes was wearing was given by Jong Kook and Ji Hyo as her birthday present.

As she waited for Han Bin below his apartment complex, she played with the white ribbon and eyeliner in her hand. She had tried to be as quiet as possible when she was in the dorm knowing that Hoseok was a light sleeper. She had almost stepped on Seokjin's hand when she went through the living room to grab her bag because they had moved it when she was gone. She was remorseful that she didn't say goodbye but if Jimin remembers her words from long time ago, he would know what to do and everything will fall in place.

"Su Bin?" she hears the familiar voice call out and she turns around to see Han Bin in casual clothing, his hair down. "Hi."

"Han Bin Oppa," she says, smiling, elated that he came earlier than expected so she could spend the extra few minutes with him.

She holds on the white ribbon and he takes his own one from his pocket. He ties it around her wrist first being the gentleman he was before she tied his around his wrist. He eyes the eyeliner curiously but she pockets it before smiling at him.

"Let's take a walk?" he suggest and she nods as they started walking around the park.

"Were you busy today?" she asks concerned and he shakes his head.

"All I did was write lyrics and mess around with the members. I was just looking forward to seeing you," he says, smiling and she blushes slightly. "What about you?"

"Me?" she says and then pretends to think. "I was working, had dinner with UNIQ Oppas before returning back to the dorm then coming to meet you."

He then notices the bag pack on her and he stops, facing her. "Why do you have a bag pack?" he asks, eyebrows furrowing.

She looks to her runners and then he studies her. "Are you going away?" he asks before swallowing.

She doesn't reply. "Oppa, let's just enjoy this walk, once we're done..." she says before making eye contact with him. "We'll talk okay?"

Seeing her pleading eyes, he nods before they resumed walking. Han Bin had a feeling that this was going to be the last time seeing her, he looks at their hands, not sure if he should do it. Su Bin was lost in thought and he takes this chance to intertwined their hands. Her eyes widen and he smiles, knowing that he got a reaction. "Y-Yah, what are you trying to do?" she asks, trying not to stutter and he just smiles.

"Holding your hand, is that not obvious?" he asks.

Su Bin knew it was wrong but she just let it be for herself and him. Once they finished the round, they sat down on a bench. "Why are you wearing a shirt in the middle of autumn. Do you want to die from coldness?" the leader of iKON asks and she laughs.

"Oppa, it's autumn like you said. It's not winter. I will not freeze to death," she says, shaking her head. "Oh right, I have to return something to."

She opens her bag and takes the thin sweater and then pass it to him. He looks at it in surprise. "I've washed it so now it's time to return to its owner," she says, shrugging and he frowns.

"But you said you wanted to keep this," he says, a raised eyebrow.

"I don't think I have space and I don't like how BTS Oppas keeps bugging me about whose sweater it is," she comments and then he nods, understanding.

Han Bin grabs her hand starts to play with it. Seeing the sight in front of her, she almost cries. Almost. "Han Bin-ssi," she says and he looks up with a pointed glare. "Han Bin..."

He looks at her curiously. The one thing Su Bin was torn between hating and liking was Han Bin's eyes who always had a deep amount of intensity that it was hard to read him or even look at him in the eye sometimes. "I'm leaving," she mutters out and he stares at her, fear in his eyes.

She gulps before closing her eyes, feeling very apologetic and scared that she will hurt him. She tightens her grip on his hand, trying to emit any kind of emotion from him. "My life is in danger," she whispers. "If I stay, I'll harm everyone's lives... Especially yours..."

He continues staring at her making her avert her eyesight. "Who is after your life?" he asks, taking deep breaths.

"My past," she replies, hating how she still didn't have the courage to reveal everything even till the end in front of him. "I wanted to leave at first because of BTS Oppas. I was hesitant because it didn't seem like I was going to get hurt but then... That night at your dorm, I got a warning message. By then, I knew that I had to leave and quick... But then for some twisted reason, this happened."

She tightens her hold for a second and he continues to just look at her, waiting for the girl to speak up. "When it happened, I was scared," she whispers as her voice cracked. "Ah sorry..."

She lets go of his hand before wiping away a tear and then rubs her nose slightly, a habit she picked up from Jimin. "With Dae Jun, they never attacked him because it was too dangerous and he was too high on the ladder, pyramid, whatever you call this," she explains. "Well, that's how I think they viewed it. They tried attacking him before but it didn't work because he persisted and ignored them. But with you guys... they can bring you down and I'm really scared since you guys are still quite new, they can bring you down easily."

He stays quiet for a few moments, studying the girl's emotions. "This 'they'..." he says, "is it your past?"

She nods slowly, eyes still not looking at him. "Su Bin ah... Look at me," he says softly and she turns to look at him, meeting with eyes filled with sadness and sincerity. "You see my emotions right? That's how I feel right now."

She felt the tightness in her throat as he grabs both her hands and studies them closely. "These scars," he whispers, thumb running over her knuckles. "Happened because you lived on the streets?"

"Way before..." she says, a bit ashamed at her past.

"What happened in your past life?" he asks with such tenderness, she almost broke down right there.

Not even Dae Jun had treated her like this before. She felt like a glass doll, breaking if even a little bit of pressure happened but Han Bin applied the correct amount of pressure. She gulps down the tightness in her throat before staring at him in the eye. She could feel the glass doll cracking slightly. "I don't want to leave a bad memory with you before I leave," she replies, turning her face away.

"Just tell me... Please open up your heart to me just before you leave," he whispers and she whimpers.

"I-I-I," she stutters before taking a deep breath. "I was kidnapped when I was younger, I grew up with a pair of parents who I really thought was my parents... But that was because I banged my head against the van ground when they kidnapped me... After a few years, I started working as a..."

She looks at him, not wanting him to know the truth. "I can't... I'm sorry," she mutters before crying and Han Bin immediately wraps his arms around her tightly and she could feel her heartbeat race a bit faster. "I don't want to spoil my image in your head Han Bin..."

He pats her head softly as she tucks her face into his neck, sobbing silently. "I'm so sorry that still at this moment I cannot muster up courage and the guts to tell you about my past life," she mumbles against his neck and he sighs. "I want to but I can't utter those words that could change your whole perspective on me..."

"Su Bin... Please..." he says pleadingly as she gripped his shirt tighter.

She mumbles something but he doesn't hear it. "Su Bin?" he calls out gently and she moves away from his neck, to make eye contact with him so that she could see his emotions once she told him.

"I was forced to offer sexual services..." she says in between her tears, "the worst thing is that my reactions showed that I like it..."

Su Bin expected disgust and disinterest in his eyes but instead, it had longing-ness, sorriness, sadness and anger. "Why... Why aren't you like the ones who push me away when they hear my story?" she asks softly as Han Bin wipes her tears away gingerly.

"I'm not like the rest," he replies. "To hell their opinions, I don't care about your past. With the scars on your knuckles, it showed that you did fight back... heavily too. Plus, you said you were forced..."

She whimpers once again and look away from him, never having met someone so understanding and willing to accept her no matter what. He was raised correctly. "So your boss wants you back, something like that?" he asks and she nods. "And running away is the best decision because it protects yourself and the people you care about like... me?"

She looks up to make eye contact before nodding and he smiles. "Then go run, baby," he whispers, a smile still on his lips. "Will you come back? Stop crying please..."

"I will," she says before slowly wiping her tears away. "I promise. I just don't know when... Maybe when he's brought down or maybe when no one can find me anymore..."

He nods understandingly. "Han Bin, you're a very decent guy, totally boyfriend material," the blue-haired girl says, making him smile once again. "Find someone who isn't like me. Someone who wouldn't put your life into danger."

"What if I don't want to?" he asks. "I've lived twenty years alone, I'm pretty sure another ten years would be nothing."

She laughs, shaking her head. "Don't be silly!" she exclaims. "Life goes on, if fate happens, it happens. Don't mess with fate Han Bin ah!"

She then intertwines their hands again. "Maybe if I met you in a different time frame, we could've have ended together but we're talking about fate which hits us at weird timings but I believe the weirder the timing is, the more beautiful the memory becomes," she says before looking at the taller, smiling contentedly. "Please don't get hurt by me."

"But didn't you tell me that love is the only thing in the world that doesn't hurt?" Han Bin says, playing with the ring she took from Jimin and she glares at him.

"You don't love me. We just met pabo," she says and he grins before sticking his tongue out cutely.

"Won't you miss all of us?" he asks after a moment of silence.

"I got items to remember each of them, the people I care about the most," she says before lifting her arm up. "Bracelet from Yibo Oppa, watch from BTS Oppa, ring from Jimin Oppa, studs from Taehyung Oppa, beanie from Yoongi Oppa, pen from Namjoon Oppa, Mario figurine from Jin Oppa, sunnies from Hoseok Oppa, shirt from Jungkook Oppa, shoes from Jong Kook Oppa and Ji Hyo Unnie, hair clip from Ji Woo and finally a small toy from Min Junnie. I took it from them... It was the less significant things or things they didn't want."

"What about me?" he asks and she stares at the white ribbon before gesturing to it. "That's all?"

"I have photos of the both of us too... There isn't a need to take anything from you," she says, shrugging.

He removes his hand from hers before putting it behind him and unlatches the necklace he had on. "I got this when I first debuted but I'm giving this to you now," he says before latching it around her neck. "It brings good luck."

He then passes back the thin sweater to remove the warm hoodie before putting it on her. "Winter's coming. You need it more than me," he comments and she smiles, feeling warmer in her heart than the heat radiating off the hoodie.

She remembers the eyeliner in her pocket and takes it out. She draws a small heart on the inside of left hand fourth finger. She grabs his left hand and does the same. "Tattoo?" he asks and she nods, smiling widely.

"Picture?" she asks and he nods before they separately used their phones to take picture of the temporary tattoos put together.

They took some selfies together and the last one snapped on Han Bin's camera, she turned to kiss him on the cheek, shocking him. He smiles and pockets his phone and takes the eyeliner before writing out 'B.I' on the inner side of her middle finger. He then writes out 'S.B' on his own finger. "You're so cheesy Han Bin," she says rolling her eyes and he smiles. She engraves his smiling face with his dimple, into her mind.

She checks the time and realizes she has to go. "I have to go now..." she says quietly, fiddling with her fingers in her lap.

He grabs one of her hand and intertwines their hands tightly. "Don't forget this feeling ever," he mumbles and pulls her up to stand with him.

He pushes her towards his chest, hugging her tightly. "Don't forget your heart racing like this with strong arms wrapped around you because when the next time it happens, it will be even stronger arms and your heart will race even quicker," he whispers and she smiles at his silliness.

He breaks the hug and she moves back. Han Bin smiled seeing his hoodie on her. She waves goodbye shyly and turns around to leave. She stops then quickly runs back to Han Bin, tip-toeing before pecking him on the lips. "I'm sorry," she whispers as she stands back properly on the ground. "Goodbye Han Bin Oppa. Work hard okay?"

She then turns and this time, she doesn't turn back.

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Jimin sits next to a window, staring out. He was sent out because he kept messing up the choreography. Su Bin had left for almost a month, all of them felt empty. He remembers when they woke up that morning to realize no trace of Su Bin was left in the dorm. No letter, no goodbye just a dorm with the members and twins. He grits his teeth as he reminisces when all they did was look for Su Bin, nothing else. He knows that Su Bin wouldn't leave him hanging but he didn't know what was it that they had to do. He searches his memory for the past year that Su Bin was in their lives. He was the only one left in the group who didn't do it because it hurt picturing her face.

"Oppa," she says seriously. "If anything happens to me, take the notebook and read it. You will understand everything."

His eyes flew open as he gets up, almost tripping himself. "Jimin! Where are you going?!" their manager yells but he ignores as he sprints back to the dorm.

He flings open the door after stumbling to open the door. He then flipped the whole dorm around to look for the notebook and it was below Su Bin's old bed. No one touched or dared to move anything in fear that one day she'll magically come back. He reads the post-it note stuck to it.

Oh you finally found it~ How long did it take you? One month? Aigoo, Jimin Oppa, your memory is getting worse! :P

He scoffs at her words, still not believing how stupid he was and how she could predict it. He immediately opens it to the first page to see their messages to her and he skips them.

Hey there! So Jimin Oppa said you'll be my best friend from now on~ Well he brought you because I wasn't opening up so yea! I'm pretty sure you'll be filled very soon ^^ I just wonder sometimes, why do they take care of me so well? I mean, everyone else who took us in kicked us out again... I'm really scared that would happen... So I won't eat that much, spend too much, wouldn't be a bother to them. Well till next time!

As he reads, he understood that Su Bin didn't want to waste any space so she wrote her entries in a chuck and only left one line to separate each of the entries. He flips a couple of pages down.

Hi... I'm quite sad now because Yoongi Oppa has been spending a lot of time with Anna-ssi. He even forgot the twins' birthday! :( Ji Woo is quite scared of him now because he keeps yelling at her whenever he sees her... I don't understand why he would do this... Ji Woo is closest with him, seeing him like that, I know she's hurting. She's a very strong child though... But then, Yoongi Oppa came back one night, grumpy and he yelled at Ji Woo, making her cry and thinking that he didn't want her anymore. Whenever they were on stage, Ji Woo would sit on my lap and ask me if Oppas didn't want her anymore... I told her no. But who am I to make the decision of them?

He frowns at that memory before flipping again.

He came back. He's here. He came to mess up the whole dorm because he wanted us to be kicked out again. Surprisingly, I fought back. I never did. I thought my life was going to end when he dug his pockets but he didn't bring anything. Why couldn't he have just killed me there and then? Now, I wouldn't need to suffer avoiding him or trying to protect the twins... Why did I fight back though? I've been thinking a lot and I still can't think about the reason why I would try to stop him. I usually let him be because I knew if I interfered, my life would be in danger. Maybe it was just adrenaline that made me act this way. Yea. It's adrenaline. He came to warn Min Jun, Ji Woo and I when we were buying food the other day, he said that he swears to make us live on the streets again so we shouldn't get too comfy and enjoy while we can. Enjoy while we can?! What the heck does he mean enjoy while we can? With those words, we're on cautious mode 24/7. I think he's an idiot. Why does he keep coming back to make our lives miserable? Why?

He finally understood why she was writing so furiously that it look like she was about to break her pen. He flips the pages to see a very short entry.

I understand now... I accepted them as my family... They look so peaceful sleeping.

The Busan dance smiles at that sentence as he notices the tear stains, gracing the paper. He turns a few more pages, skimming through the entries.

He came back. Not him... My 'ex'. I was forced into a relationship with him. I would tell you in detail what happened but I do not wish to relive those moments. But I can say all I have left from this incident is just bruises around my neck... I know Oppas blame themselves for not watching over me.

He winces at the memory before flipping the page to a relatively long entry.

I GOT A JOB!!! Ji Hyo Unnie got the job for me ^^ That's why I haven't wrote to you much :P Well today Namjoon Oppa came in looking really tired... I wonder why... He almost fainted today and it scared me so much. Well Jiyong Oppa knows the truth now and he didn't treat me differently. I was quite surprised but didn't show it. I was used to people not accepting my past and judging me based on my past... Is everyone like this? Because if they are, I have to watch out. I have to be careful who I let in. There's this guy called Joonhyeon and he's wooing me. But I don't like the vibe he gives out, it makes me remember my past life... He's Jungkook Oppa's ex-best friend. How could they be friends? Jungkook Oppa is so nice and he's so... nasty... It turns out that Namjoon Oppa had depression but now he's been feeling like rock bottom like how Hobi Oppa was previously. Suga Oppa had stopped him in time before he could do anything and I'm very thankful for that... Namjoon Oppa is like the anchor of BTS, if he dies, who will take care of BTS? I would then lose someone who I trust in and it will take a long time to find someone else to trust. Thank God that he didn't manage to do anything...

As he goes past each entry, he realizes that she notices so many things like how Jimin was on the verge of breaking his body because he was afraid of not being good enough for comeback. How Taehyung starved a bit because he was afraid of the criticism. How Yoongi had difficulties writing songs.

I met this guy called Park Dae Jun today >///< He was really nice and a gentleman. He made my heart go badum badum! Ah this is so embarrassing to write... He seems really nice and stuff but I'll be friends with him at the moment. Min Jun and Ji Woo seems to like him which is good because I have a feeling, he'll be a permanent figure in our lives... hehe ^^

He smiles, practically feeling the happiness when she wrote the entry.

We had the press conference today... It wasn't that good :( They asked about my past life and I knew he let the rumour loose. Before the conference, Taehyungie Oppa was really nervous and fidgety... I knew he was afraid but not really sure what it was about but I overheard him talking to Kookie Oppa that he was doubting if it was right to let the public know about the twins and me... I hate how they have to think about me with any step they take. They can't even go overseas because of me. I'm just a burden to them. Why did manager Oppa even saved the twins and I? We were fine staying on the streets. Even if we weren't, I would make it okay because their too young to experience stupid things like this. They don't deserve this, what did they do in their past lives to have to these kind of things happen to him? I'm talking to you God. What did this two innocent and kind-hearted girl and boy ever do to you that you had to let them go through such hardships?! Why did you bring us to this world to just let us suffer?

He realizes that she presses really hard whenever she writes about him or the word 'he'. He didn't think that such thoughts would invade her mind but then he remembers, she's still human. Everyone is... He forgets that whenever he feels alone in the world, it is possible that the six other people in his dorm might have felt the same as him.

You know sometimes I envy BTS Oppas. Not only them... Big Bang, Running Man, 2NE1, ZE:A, Block B etc. Just all the bands. They so tightly knit together and they really been there for each other's ups and downs without fail. They don't back out on their words, especially the leaders who take care of the members faithfully, without fail. I wished I could have something like them... I wonder what role I will take? :D

He smiles at her random thoughts and was thankful how she wrote almost anything that came to her mind into the notebook.

Ugh. Hyun Min is such a brat. Threatening Ji Woo and Min Jun like this. But come to think about it... It kind of isn't his fault for acting this way because that is just society works and his parents didn't teach him properly. But what is the correct way to teach your kids? I mean everyone has their own ways but still a child can grow up differently according to the individual parent and how they act around their kids. If they encourage something negative, the kids follow too because they think that it is okay. Parents have a huge burden to take upon. Come to think about it, my parents weren't great but at least I had parents. So I'm kinda blessed I guess! ^^

He knew behind those words, there was still sadness and disappointment.

Forever is such bullshit. He said he'll stay next to me forever, supporting me. But where is he now? In his own home, bitter with anger and I'm here in my own room, trying not to cry. But I drove him away. It was just a stupid fight. Why did I have to utter those stupid words?! If I just kept my stupid trap shut, we still would have been laughing away with BTS Oppas and the twins over dinner. Sometimes, I feel like I'm a failure. Do you get me? Somehow I feel that whenever I speak too much, I get insecure because people look me but then I laugh it off so that it shows that I never really cared. I don't know why, I feel like around BTS Oppas too. Even though they're family, I feel like if I overstep my boundaries or say something too sensitive or something that doesn't make sense, I feel that they will judge at me, look at me weirdly because I said something so stupid. Maybe I became too comfortable with Dae Jun that's why this exactly happened... Sigh... This always happens that's why I stop myself from being comfortable around people because I feel that they all leave me in the end and it leave emptiness and longingness in my heart. It hurts me so much that it sucks because it is all my fault. I believe their empty words and when they leave, I realize that it is my fault for holding high hopes. The higher the hope, the more you crash... Hope Oppa... With him around, there will be no disappointment. If that is true, then why the hell am I feeling like my world is just going to crumble any moment?

Jimin wished he had punched Dae Jun earlier instead of listening to Su Bin's pleads. The hurt he brought her.

I didn't want to write this... But I did. It's been weeks since I written and I'm very sorry... They got me... I was out with Dongjun Oppa at the stationery store to buy post-it notes for Yoongi Oppa... We just separated so that we could find it quicker but somehow I got caught. *scoffs* How stupid could I be? That whole night... I don't even know where to start. There were different men the whole night... But they were all rich because they only made me serve the rich. I know its because as much as I hate it my body reacts as if I like it... My body reacted, not me. I got lucky and got away from them but ended up in front of EXO's dorm... Lay Oppa took care of me because he saved me once when I was younger and someone paid as a birthday present... He told me not to tell anyone about it because he knew about their reactions... I felt so dirty and I didn't want Oppas to see me but they saw me in the end. I'm sorry for dirtying you again... I couldn't speak about it to anyone... I think they will be ashamed of me and it would change their image of me in their minds.

Jimin swallows the tears that was about to released, not wanting to think about the pain she could have felt during that time frame. He sighs before putting down the notebook next to him. He runs his hands through his hair, squeezing his eyes shut before clenching his fist tightly, his nails digging into his palm. "Appa!" he hears a high-pitched voice and he looks up see Min Jun.

"Min Jun?" he says, confused as there was no one else was behind him.

"Min Junnie followed Min Appa!" the small boy exclaims before sitting on his lap.

"Ah you shouldn't do that! It's dangerous!" he exclaims worriedly, biting on his lower lip but the small boy just smiles.

"Appa. You look sad... Wae?" Min Jun asks and the dad sighs. "Is it Su Bin Noona?"

"Don't you miss her, Min Junnie?" Jimin asks, looking at the boy on his lap who was playing with his fingers and he replies a shake of his head. "Wae?"

"Noona had told Ji Woo and Min Jun before..." he says, still preoccupied with his fingers. "If she leaves without saying anything, we shouldn't look for her because she is trying to protect us... And she said to miss her once a day so we wouldn't feel the hurt because we're missing her."

"Ah I see..." Jimin says trailing off before being deep in thought.

Min Jun notices the notebook before moving to take it. "Appa, this is Noona's notebook right?" he asks, flipping through.

"Ah ne," he replies as he observes the sight of the boy flipping through the pages and he smiles. "Do you want to read it together?"

Someone under him came in today to take Ji Woo. Why did he strike all of the sudden, it isn't like him. I was so scared but I hated him. Because of that guy, Jungkook Oppa went crazy and when he calmed down, he cried so hard that I felt so bad for him. He didn't need to experience pain or trying to explain himself through tears because of us. Maybe sometimes... I just think that BTS Oppas are better off without Min Jun, Ji Woo and I. No wait, just without me.

Min Jun looks at the entry before pressing on the page hardly. "Noona... You're so stupid," he whispers below his breath but Jimin heard it.

I miss the twins... They're currently staying with Block B and ZE:A. Ji Woo with ZE:A, Min Jun with Block B. Without their laughter, the dorm seems empty. The first day we ate dinner without them, it was funny but the day before they had to come back, when eating dinner, it kind of seemed okay without them around. Like it was normal. I think that was the scariest thing. Not having the twins in my life and feeling okay. Oh did I tell you that Dae Jun came back?

"Noona... was really sad wasn't she?" Min Jun asks, looking up at Jimin who just stares at the entry. "Why didn't we see it?"

"Because she hid it too well..." he replies.

This past week, Ji Woo got into an accident... When she out buying something for ZE:A with some of the members. I don't think it was just an accident but its something planned because of the timing and I went to the accident scene. But people tell me that I think too much. Maybe I'm just overreacting... I can't find that line between actual thoughts and overthinking. Seeing Ji Woo lie there helplessly, it was so scary. No one had the same blood type as her but luckily Seungyoun had the same blood type and Jungkook Oppa thought fast. She's not awake yet and I'm scared for her. Even though the doctors said that she will be alright but I'm still so scared. I don't want anything to happen to her. I don't want to learn to live without her in my life... Dae Jun hugged me to comfort me but I felt nothing. I didn't feel anything anymore. Security and warmness were all gone. I didn't tell him... I promised that we'll give it shot at trying the whole dating thing. If I just tell him that, he wouldn't be happy and it means that I never tried. But honestly, I feel suffocating to be with Dae Jun sometimes. I don't know what to do anymore...

Jimin didn't understand how she kept all of that feelings and thinking to herself and still didn't burst. If she had talked to him about her feelings, he would told her to leave. The moment someone feels suffocated in a relationship, no matter what kind, it just means that he/she should leave. It just means that it is time to leave because he/she are just forcing themselves and it wouldn't be a happy ending.

Dae Jun asked me to be his girlfriend and I accepted. I did say I would give it a shot. I told him today that I wanted to leave BTS Oppas because the gut feeling is just growing everyday about him coming back. When he does, I really don't want to be around anyone who I care about. It will just hurt them and I would hate it if it happened. You know, I think Yibo and I are very similar... We're both broken... But isn't everyone a bit broken? But we have a mutual brokenness and sadness that no one understands. He left his family really young and started training. He has come so far. The only thing I'm afraid that would happen to him is that he'll be so used to that image he has now that he grows cold. I could already see that he has a hard time expressing affection to his group even though they have been together for so long. I hope it will change. Sigh. Waking up from a nightmare always sucks... I got off the phone with Dae Jun. I decided to leave because I woke up today with a bigger feeling that the day is approaching... I don't want to be a burden to BTS Oppas anymore. Actually I don't want to be a burden to anyone anymore. I told Dae Jun to find another girl to date so that I could make it look like that I was upset because of him finding someone so I left. I hope this goes well. Wish me luck *fingers crossed*

Maybe he should have taught her long ago that she shouldn't be restrained because of a promise. Then all these stupid drama could have been avoided with Dae Jun. "Wah Noona is smart," Min Jun before smiling cutely and claps his hands. "Min Jun wouldn't have taught of that."

"That's because you're still young Min Jun ah," Jimin replies as he styles his hair properly.

It worked. But why does it hurt?

"Pabo yah. It hurts because you still want him to be yours," Jimin comments dryly making the small boy look at him weirdly with that cute scrunched up nose of his.

Joonhyeon came today to ask me out again. Every single time I am near him, I feel uneasy. The vibe was stronger than before. Han Bin-ssi came in and I thought it was the end of me but then he played along and I was happy. If not, it probably would have been a disaster... I'm in iKON's dorm for the night because Bangtan Oppas said that they were busy. Bullshit. They must have been lazy... Wouldn't even send a car to save their precious princess from the heavy rain. Got Bobby-ssi to do so... In the end, he got wet too. Ah pabo oppas! DX It was so embarrassing after I realized that my underwear was wet and they had gave me white shirt >< Chan Woo-ssi saw them... Ah... So embarrassing >///< Luckily, Han Bin-ssi gave me a thin sweater to wear over the shirt, if not I would have gone around the whole time with my arms around my chest. Han Bin-ssi is very kind. He is also very good-looking... Han Bin-ssi is sleeping on the ground because he is scared that the other members would come in to annoy me... Han Bin-ssi is so nice... I got a message from him saying that my end is coming soon and that I should enjoy while I can... I'm scared I guess.

Now, he wants to punch Chan Woo and he doesn't even have a face to match with the name. But for Han Bin, he was really curious because he suspected something but it was always too faint to pinpoint what it is.

iKON are really friendly and nice. Even though they're huge perverts... Han Bin-ssi keeps protecting me from their teasing by making them go to practice almost two hours earlier... I feel so bad. I should have just played along with them so iKON didn't need to practice earlier. I don't have work so I'm stuck in their dorm till afternoon. Chan Woo and Bobby-ssi came in last night to look at me because they said that I was really pretty >///< Han Bin-ssi scolded them and I felt so bad again but Han Bin-ssi smiles slightly while reassuring that it isn't my fault, I actually don't feel like its my fault... It's so weird. I saw Han Bin-ssi's body in the morning by accident >< It's a bit weird because Dae Jun and I never got to that stage. It isn't the same for Jungkook because I see him as my guardian, it is just wrong thinking that way. Ew. Did I mentioned that it was my birthday and no one, I meant no one messaged a happy birthday to me from Bangtan? I thought they loved me :( Han Bin-ssi brought me lunch and came before the rest of iKON came because he knew that I wasn't that comfortable around them. Han Bin-ssi has this calming aura. Maybe it has the fact that he's a leader. Jinhwan-ssi has a comforting aura and he made me feel okay staying in the dorm other than Han Bin-ssi. Han Bin-ssi told me not to force my smile because I don't look as pretty. Ah... What's up with this wrong and trying to make my blush? Especially Bobby-ssi and Chan Woo... They keep talking about how pretty I was... It's kind of overwhelming I guess? I got a call from Mrs Song... She said how sorry she was about Dae Jun and me but I knew she wasn't sincere. She never liked me in the first place... My background, my looks, my educational status... I didn't need her fake words. I almost forgot that Dae Jun and So Hyun-ssi was dating but she had to bring it up. I felt all the hurt all over again. But why? I wanted to throw up so badly... But I suggested this idea. I shouldn't feel hurt because of him. Did I actually like him? Ah its so bad... iKON heard me crying >< How am I going to face them from now on?

The only word in Jimin's mind was 'Han Bin-ssi' and it was making him dizzy. Min Jun giggles before speaking, "Does Noona like Han Bin hyung?"

Jimin stares at the small boy in disbelief and re-reads the entry. He kind of accepts the fact that Su Bin may like Han Bin but doesn't know it herself.

So I ended up being iKON's goddess. Well according to Bobby-ssi. He's a funny guy, I like spending time with him because he makes me laugh. Turns out, Bangtan Oppa was planning a huge and when I say huge, I mean huge, birthday party. 'Turning eighteen is a once in a life time thing', thanks a lot Jimin Oppa. I was so surprised so many people turned up. They got me this really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really pretty dress. IT IS JUST AMAZING c: I wished I could hug it to sleep but then it'll have creases then I'll be sad :( Oh guess what lie Bangtan Oppa used? THEY SAID THEY NEEDED A GIRL IN THEIR PHOTOSHOOT. Pabo. But I believed them so I'm equally stupid aye? :P Yibo gave me a bracelet with a elephant charm like Ji Woo's. But he brought it from Thailand. Guess what?! I met the Song triplets! They were soooooo cute :D Maybe even cuter than Min Jun when he pouts? Hehehe ^^ Dae Han said that I was pretty, how cute is he? Well the five kids ended up dragging me to the photo booth that I didn't know existed till they told me. When we entered the booth, I didn't know what to do because it was five kids to the ratio of one teenager/adult. Not that good. Fate happened and we bumped into iKON who had just arrived at the party. Han Bin Oppa looked really good in a suit though. He stared at me when he saw me. Well one thing is that, every time he stares at me, I don't know if that is a good thing or not. I sometimes like it, sometimes I hate it. And another round of making Su Bin blush happened. In the end, Han Bin Oppa took pictures with the five of and we looked like a family. I know I'm not supposed to feel that way! But I couldn't help it... Han Bin Oppa gave me a white ribbon that he also has and an eyeliner. He claims that white ribbon reminds him of me. But white ribbons remind me of hopeless love because of Jimin from 15&, not Jimin Oppa! Well because of that thought, I knew that we liked each other at the wrong timing. It was just messed up fate. I told Han Bin Oppa that not everything has a happy ending because it is life. Death isn't happy. Han Bin Oppa makes me feel so many things that I never thought that I would ever feel. Whatever I felt when I met Dae Jun is intensified... Like I can feel everything at every single area of my body and it's a wonderful feeling... It's amazing. It's feels awesome. So Hyun-ssi and Dae Jun turned up together. Holding hands. But this time, it didn't hurt as much as the first time. It proves that time heals. Or maybe it could have been because of Han Bin Oppa too. Chan Woo is my friend now! Even though he said it previously that we were but now I came to accept that he is my friend! I imagine Hiya, Jane from The Ark, Jimin (15&), Yibo, Chan Woo and Jungkook Oppa as a group with me! We'll be really good friends, maybe even best friends :P Wouldn't that be cool? But sadly... I can't make that happen... I'm leaving already and I'm sorry... Joonhyeon appeared... He gave me a warning. I only talked to him because of his men. I knew they were ready to harm and I didn't want any of them to get hurt because I care about all of them too much. I am very blessed to have so many people to protect me. Daesung Oppa, Jiyong Oppa, Hiya (she told me not to call unnie because she felt old! ^^), Seungri Oppa, Jungkook Oppa and so much more. They had gotten Min Jun and I was really distraught when I heard his cries. It's been too long since he had experienced him but now at least I know that he isn't after the twins anymore. I can put down my burden of the twins being harmed. Everything will be alright once I'm gone. Well at least their biggest worry will be gone. Because of the twins, I'm leaving.

Jimin is now sure that Su Bin likes Han Bin. "Noona is really random," Min Jun says.

"Why do you think so?" Jimin asks curiously and he looks up to Jimin.

"Min Appa, don't you feel that Noona writing is like mood swings? Happy one moment, sad the next?" he asks and Jimin ruffles his hair before blowing a raspberry at his neck, making the younger laugh loudly.

"Brat," the elder mumbles and Min Jun giggles.

Jimin flips to the last page and then he notices the envelops, sticking out at the edges and wonders why he never saw that when he first took the notebook.

I'm leaving today... There's a lot of feelings going through my whole body. It's very, very mixed and I hate it. Sitting behind this counter on a rainy day on my last day of work. The perk is that there isn't that much people around so I can write... It's a bittersweet feeling on my last day of work. I mean, I met so many people here while making coffee for them. If I didn't start working, I wouldn't have met so many awesome people and became friends with them... I mean I wouldn't have become friends with Big Bang Oppas. I wouldn't have became friends with Gary Oppa. I wouldn't have found my love in coffee-making. I wouldn't have met Han Bin Oppa... So I have to thank Ji Hyo Unnie~ But I can't personally say it... Reading back on the entries, I realized that I was too negative and too hard on myself. I wish after leaving, I'll become more optimistic and be a happier girl that even if I were to die, it doesn't matter because I wouldn't have regrets :)

Jimin chokes reading that sentence. He didn't want Su Bin to die. Never.

At least I made so many people smile through my coffee and just being me. I'm contented :) Leaving everyone is a bittersweet thing. Do you understand? I know that I'll be protecting them if I leave but I don't want to leave, I don't want to just leave all this behind... BTS, Ji Woo, Min Jun, Jong Kook Oppa, Ji Hyo Unnie, UNIQ, the cafe, the warmth, the love, the protection and Han Bin... Funny how it always goes back to him. I must really like writing his name down. Everyone keeps asking me what am I doing to him. I wanted to teach him a beautiful lesson. A very beautiful lesson. If I could rewind time, I would still say okay to Manager Oppa to bring me back. I will open up to BTS Oppas. I will allow Jong Kook Oppa in my life. I will still come back to this cafe and make coffee for people according to their tastes. I don't mind going through all those difficulties but this time I will share with people because they are my family. I will still going through that awkward process of trying to figure out my feelings for boys. Jimin Oppa, you're reading this right...? I'm sorry for not opening up as much as you wanted me to. I'm sorry for being too hard on myself when none of you think of me that way. I'm sorry for making Oppas try and figure out how I was feeling. Min Junnie, Ji Woo, I can't see you grow up but I believe that the both of you will grow up to be a very beautiful princess and a very handsome prince because you're our prince and princess forever! :D Grow up well~ I love you all of you my family... It's time to say goodbye. What would I see at the end of this road? I see success, unity and love. That's my answer for BTS Oppas whenever they feel down. God, I wish that BTS Oppas will release more songs that touch the teenagers' heart and that people will love them for them. God, I wish that Running Man will do good for their show ratings and be jjang~ ^^ I pray that iKON will be a huge hit and tour around the world. I want everyone to see how awesome iKON is. Well its time to say goodbye I guess.

Min Jun kept quiet as he reads the short paragraph at the bottom.

Family... Thank you for letting me know what a family is like. Maybe some endings can be happy... :)

The small boy then smiles, happy that Su Bin was finally thinking happier thoughts. "Appa, these letters... Can I deliver them?" he asks.

"By yourself?" Jimin asks.

"Ne. Appa, you should go back to practice! Min Junnie will go back with you before taking a company van so Appas wouldn't worry," he replies.

"What about Ji Woo?" he asks cautiously, wondering what his reaction will be like.

"Appa, I think its time for me to think for myself..." he says before smiling brightly and Jimin smiles like a proud father.

"Ppo-ppo," Jimin says, pointing to his cheek and Min Jun does it. "Let's go Min Junnie."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Annyeong-haseyo!" Min Jun exclaims before bowing at the security guard outside YG building. "I'm Song Min Jun. I'm looking for iKON hyungs."

"How old are you kid?" the guard asks.

"Min Jun is four years old," he replies formally.

"Wa. You're smart for your age but I can't just let anyone in," he replies.

"Please Uncle! Min Jun needs to pass iKON hyungs something important!" Min Jun exclaims before bowing.

"I'll pass it for you," he says, stretching out his hand.

"Min Jun was told to pass to iKON hyungs personally. Please let Min Jun in," the small boy says before bowing.

"Min Junnie?" a voice calls out and he turns around to see Seungri and Daesung.

"Seungri hyung, Daesung hyung," he greets, bowing.

"What are you doing here yourself?" Daesung asks, kneeling in front of him.

"Min Junnie has to pass something to iKON hyungs! Min Jun took BigHit's van so that Appas could feel okay with me going around myself," he says before smiling happily.

"How about Daesung hyung passes this something to iKON for Min Jun? How does that sound?" Seungri suggests and Min Jun shakes his head.

"Yah! Song Min Jun! I was so worried about you. You should have asked me to come along," Ji Woo says before pouting.

She greets Daesung and Seungri. "Min Junnie wanted to do something without Ji Woo's help..." he says trailing off.

"I wasn't going to help out Min Jun..." she says and he looks at her shocked. "I was just going to make sure everything was okay and no one was going to be mean to you."

Ji Woo smiles at him and he beams back, happy that Ji Woo trusts him now doesn't treat him like a little kid anymore. "Ji Woo!" he exclaims happily and she replies with a nod.

"Why is there so many people out here?" Hyun-suk asks and the two Big Bang members immediately stand up to greet him.

The twins greet him and introduced themselves. "Oh BTS' kids?" he says and they before nod their heads. "Go in. From now this two twins can freely enter whenever they want to."

The guard nods at the order. "Kamsahamnida!" they exclaimed loudly.

"Take care of them," he says to the Big Bang members before entering the building.

"Let's go!" Seungri exclaims before he carries Min Jun while Daesung carries Ji Woo.

They go to the practice room first and peers through the glass door to see them preparing for their next comeback. The two members let the twins down. "Thank you!" they both exclaim before bowing.

"Ppo-ppo," Daesung says to Ji Woo and she does so, making him smile.

Ji Woo does the same to Seungri and they leave the twins. "Su Bin unnie's letter for Han Bin Oppa?" she asks and the younger nods.

When they saw that they were resting, they knocked on the door before opening it with much difficulty. "Min Jun? Ji Woo?" Han Bin says curiously, standing up.

"Annyeong-haseyo! We're the Song twins, Song Min Jun and Song Ji Woo!" they both exclaims and bows, learning their greeting style ever since UNIQ had told them that a lot of people wanted to meet them.

The members introduce themselves and they would greet them before bowing. "What are you doing here by yourselves?" Han Bin asks, sitting next to them.

"Where is BTS sunbaenim?" Bobby asks, sitting next to his leader.

"Min Junnie has something for Han Bin hyung," the younger twin says before handing over the envelop that has been hidden well and he bows. "I was told to give it to you personally."

Han Bin takes it before turning to around to see no writing and frowns. "Who is it from?" he asks, holding it up in between two fingers.

The twins just smile at him before running off to play with the other iKON members who happily welcome them. "Su Bin?" Bobby suggests and Han Bin looks at him. "I know how you feel for her. If not, you wouldn't tie that white ribbon."

The leader avoids eye contact. "What did she say when you met up with her that night?" Bobby asks and the other continues to keep quiet, making the older sigh. "I see... I'll leave you alone..."

Bobby gets up before joining the circle where the twins were teaching them a game. "So we all have to choose one animal and an action with it before we can actually start. I'm going to be unicorn so..." Han Bin hears the young girl's voice cheerfully explaining and his team mates going along, adding sound effects from time to time, making him smile and thankful that the twins came in when they were really frustrated from the preparations.

He stares at the letter after he put it on the ground in front of him. He sits cross-legged and with his hands curled up into fists, he rest his face against the fists, thinking if he should open it now or later in the dorm. "Wahhhhhhh! Junhoe hyung you missed the beat!" Min Jun exclaims loudly, pointing out the mistake that Junhoe was trying to cover up.

All the members look him with a fake disappointed look. "Ah. How could you lie to Min Junnie?" Jinhwan says before hitting the younger lightly while smiling.

"Ah I'm sorry," he says with aegyo, making the twins laugh.

Han Bin looks up and makes eye contact with Yunhyeong who was facing him. The leader sighs but the older smiles before nodding his head once to indicate that he should open it. "Yunhyeong Oppa!" Ji Woo exclaims happily when Yunhyeong failed to receive the action.

Han Bin missed Hanbyul. Ji Woo reminded him of Hanbyul but more mature. He looks back down at the envelop again before sighing. He reaches out and turns it around to open it. He fumbles a bit with the opening and takes out the folded paper to unfold it.

Han Binnie! ^^ I write in chucks so we good now? XP When you get this, I'm guessing it will be one month from when I last saw you. How have you been? Is iKON well? I wish I had more time to know them better. You're not bullying Chan Woo right? :P That chingu of mine is too nice. Yah! Stop bullying him! You know sometimes... I ask God why we happened. Why we met. Why was it that when I needed someone in the cafe to get rid of the awkwardness between Joonhyeon and I, you appeared. I never got an answer back but... I mean if I didn't meet you, maybe it wouldn't have been that hard to leave? A few days of mulling over it, I thought about how everything was planned out. I guess being with Dae Jun was toxic to my own body and even though I asked him to date someone else as part of an idea for me to leave, it still hurt seeing him with someone else other than me. I guess it really hurt when other people tell me about how great So Hyun is with Dae Jun. But you ended up in my life and unconsciously, you changed me. You pulled me out of my self-hate and pulled me away from the negativity of life. I'm grateful for that happening. I saw from somewhere that the best kind of people are the ones that come into your life, and make you see the sun where you once saw clouds. The people that believe in you so much, you start to believe in you too. The people that love you, simply for being you. The once in a lifetime kind of people. You have a gift in this area, use it well and correctly. I guess even though knowing that I was leaving soon, some part of me wanted to hold onto something. I knew we weren't going to happen but for some reason... I went along knowing that I could end up hurting you. People asked me what I was doing being close with you because things just ended with Dae Jun. They said I'll hurt you. That's the last thing I want to happen. A selfish part of me made it seem like I wanted to teach you something but I guess I just wanted to spend more time with you because I simply liked it. I guess I would rather have five minutes of something wonderful, than a lifetime of nothing special. I told you before that not everything has a happy ending. It applies for us. It isn't a happy ending but it is an ending. We didn't end up being together then getting married then have kids accompanied with the perfect life like iKON climbing up to fame easily or he leaving my life completely. Happy endings isn't a must because sad endings are sometimes equally as beautiful. I would say our ending was bittersweet. Not exactly knowing what kind of emotions to portray... I want you know that having feelings towards a girl that who was leaving soon is okay. Don't feel confused and hold yourself back from fully enjoying the experience of liking someone. Hold onto that feeling and when one day, someone comes along and you feel so many new things and when you look back, you realize that the like you had for the first person now, you didn't really like her ever. Feelings are things you have no control over. It happened with me. I thought Dae Jun would be the one who I would marry and grow old, all the cheesy crap but I learnt that people leave. They don't hold onto your promises. And forever is just... nothing. Meeting you, all these weird feeling came up and I fought with myself, saying that we're just friends when I want to have something with you. Did you know... you predicted our ending? Those white ribbons, to me it represented hopeless love because of Jimin Park's (15&) music video where she and Seungyoun didn't end up together because he went with another girl. With that present, it reminded me so badly about the music video and still then, I didn't pull away, instead we became closer. I wish I did because whatever I planned doesn't make sense anymore. I better end this before it sounds like a confusing mess :P I pray that iKON will be a huge hit and tour around the world. I want iKON to write more songs like Climax. I want everyone to see how awesome iKON is. I want everyone to hear how beautiful Jinhwan-ssi's voice is. I want everyone to get chills when they hear Junhoe-ssi's voice. I want everyone to be awed by Donghyuk-ssi's dance moves. I want everyone to long for a maknae like Chan Woo. I want everyone to party along with Bobby-ssi's raps. I want everyone to smile because of Yunhyeong-ssi's smile. Lastly, I want everyone to see how great a leader you are Han Bin. You are a great leader and I believe that you can do it, no matter how hard it gets because you're Kim Han Bin, B.I, the leader of iKON. CEO YG once said something along of 'A great leader is someone who stands behind and quietly claps but when crisis arise, the leader would stand all the way in front to protect them.' Work hard Han Bin! ^^ Remember time heals everything, no matter how long it take, time heals everything. Fighting! iKON fighting!

No sign off. Han Bin lowers the piece of paper before taking off his beanie in frustration. He didn't understand how time could heal everything. Everyday he is still hurt from his dad's action especially when he was about to debut. He doesn't understand how his mother just forgave him and told him that his family would be waiting. People were saying that he should drop out of iKON. That was his lowest and somehow she dares to tell him that time heals everything. He grits his teeth remembering back to the bad times and the members pleaded with YG Entertainment not to let him drop out of the team because there wouldn't be another leader like him.

"Oppa?" Ji Woo says and he looks up before smiling slightly.

He realizes that Min Jun was still playing a very intense duo game with Donghyuk. "Yes Ji Woo?" Han Bin before opening his arms and the small girl goes towards him before hugging him, catching him off guard.

"Unnie told me to do so after you read the letter. She knew you always cheered up easily around kids my age," she replies before sitting in front of him. "Do you not understand something Oppa?"

"How can you speak so well for your age?" Han Bin wonders and she smiles.

"I'm not my age," she simply replies, making the older stare at her curiously. "Min Jun and I are not twins... Not even related."

"But..." he trails off before realizing that they hardly looked alike.

"We call ourselves twins because its easier. Seoul knows us as twins... Revealing the truth just makes things very complicated and we don't like being under the media's eyes," she explains. "I'm guessing I'm about six."

Han Bin nods, her actions and words making sense now. "Does time heal everything?" Han Bin asks and she looks at him in the eye before nodding seriously. "How?"

She mulls over it before remembering something. "Oppa, your song, Climax. Remember that?" she asks.

"Of course, many people cried listening to the song," the leader says and she smiles, happy that she could use this example.

"Unnie listened to the song at first and while listening to Bobby Oppa's rap, she almost cried because she pictured her real eomma. But then days later when she listened to the song, she didn't want to cry and it was as if another song... That proves that with time, things heal," she says before realizing that he looked confused. "Okay uh..."

"This may sting a little and please say the truth okay, Oppa?" Ji Woo says and he nods. "Han Bin Oppa's father was involved with a case that threaten iKON's debut... Oppa, you're hurt right?"

He looks away but nods. "But do you feel that hurt growing smaller everyday?" she asks and his eyes widen before looking at her. "Answer me honestly. Put your pride away, Oppa. I'm just a kid. Remember the hurt you felt when you first heard the news and compare it to now."

He does what she says and thinks back to when he just heard the news and then compared it to now. There was a difference, he wasn't that hurt anymore. "There isn't much difference," he lies, uneasy.

"That just means that you're holding a grudge, Oppa. Oppa, you are throwing your own pity-party and it isn't going anywhere anymore. It just makes you look stupid," she says and his eyes widen. "Ah sorry... I get carried away sometimes... Su Bin unnie has that influence on me..."

He then sees Su Bin in Ji Woo. He sees bits and pieces left in the small girl. Her straightforwardness, strength and understanding. That's why Su Bin told Ji Woo to speak to him because the small girl would be able to explain whatever he didn't understand.

"Oppa, you're lying right?" Ji Woo asks and he nods. "Ji Woo knew it... Because Ji Woo and Min Jun knows that time heals everything. We used to be so hurt because of him but after meeting BTS Appas, we suddenly woke up one day and realized that it was all gone because the longer the incident happened, you don't think about it a lot so you slowly heal like how a wound is like. If you keep opening it, it will never heal but if you just leave it, it will heal. It's like how Unnie hated him but as time when by, she couldn't bring herself to hate him anymore because she realize holding onto her past was just going to make her path difficult."

"Oppa..." she calls and he looks at her before seeing that Min Jun was heading over to them.

Min Jun jumps onto Han Bin, laughing loudly. The other members crowd around them. "Hyungie," Min Jun says, giggling like a small baby. "You deserve true happiness!"

The small boy then brings his hand in front of Han Bin before pulling his hand back towards himself. "You should pull off the disguise that you wear," Min Jun says and flings his hand backwards as if he's throwing it away.

Min Jun smiles widely, showing off his slight dimples and crescents. "Thank you, Ji Woo, Min Jun," Han Bin says before hugging the twins tightly.

"Ah hyung, you're so emotional," Junhoe pokes fun as the leader playfully glares at him.