Chapter 23

Calum's POV

I took the keys out of the ignition and sat in my car scared to go in the house to face Luke. I didn't know what to do. I'm a screwed up mess.

Why did I have to meet Mona in the first place? Why didn't I let go of her? My head hurt and I needed help. I slowly opened the car door and walked up to the house door. I took a deep breath before unlocking it and going it to be questioned by Luke and who knows could be there with him.

I closed the door behind me quietly and made my way to my room to drop my stuff off.

"Calum."

I heard Luke through my door way as I threw my clothes in the dirty hamper. I looked up but my back was still facing him.

I felt a hand on my shoulder turning me towards him.

"What did you do?"

I swallowed and clenched my jaw to think of ways to tell Luke without him freaking out and lashing out on me.

I heard Luke sigh and sit down on my bed clasping his hands together.

"You went to Mona's house again."

It was more of a statement than an answer. I didn't say anything so I looked down at him scared.

"Calum why?"

His face twisted in anger but his voice was still calm.

"She called and told me everything."

I looked away and sat down beside him.

"Everything as in what? And why would you go?"

"Everything as in why she was acting like how she was the day that Misty was at the mall with us."

"Why would you go over there? Calum, I know you did something you regretted there."

I groaned and laid back on the bed covering my face with my arms.

"I kissed her Luke. I kissed Mona. I forgot about Misty. I forgot."

My voice cracked and I didn't realize that I was crying until Luke pulled my arm away and my sight became blurry.

"She was worried about you Cal, she really was."

Luke stood up and walked to the doorway.

"She was worried about you and she cried."

He stuffed his hands into his pockets and walked out of the door leaving me alone.

I didn't know what to do. I was angry at myself. I took my pillow and chucked it at the opposite wall screaming to take out my anger. I took my phone and ran my fingers through my hair unlocking it and going through my messages with Misty.

-Morning have a good day recording! See you later! I love you (: Xx.

I scrolled down not reading any other messages but I read the most recent one which was two hours ago.

-Please be safe ): I love you.

I felt like crap my head hurt and I didn't feel right. Nothing was right.

And it was all my fault.

The worst part about this was that Misty didn't know and that she still loved me like I was innocent. we only had a week left before we were going to leave to go on tour.

I stood up to go to the bathroom to wash my face and clean myself up to sleep. I was tired of everything.

Everything would've been better if I could rewind.

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Misty's POV

I went back to Jess's house tired. My eyes were puffy because I cried at the boy's house. I don't know where Calum went.

What if something bad happened to him?

What if he got into another fight?

Is he okay?

He didn't call or text back any of us to tell him where he was. I gave up and decided to go home instead of staying at the boy's house waiting for Calum to come home.

Luke told me to stay but I didn't want to be a bother to him and the guys.

I unlocked the door to the house and went up the stairs in the dark. Jess was probably sleeping since it was already 10:30 pm.

I went up to my room and closed the door behind me tossing my phone on my bed not bothering to check it anymore. I went into the bathroom to wash up to sleep. Tossing my hair into a messy bun I washed my body to clean myself.

I sighed as I looked into the mirror staring at a tired looking Misty with pink bags under her eyes. It was from crying earlier at the boy's house.

I pulled on Calum's Santa Cruz muscle shirt and plaid pajama shorts. I covered myself with the comforter and tried to sleep but I couldn't. I looked up at the ceiling fan instead thinking about Calum.

A few minutes passed by and my eyes were dropping. I turned to my side and saw that my phone had a notification. I picked the bright screen up about to lock it until the message caught me.

1 week till Calum leaves ):

My heart ached to know that he was going to leave again and that I wouldn't see him again for another 6 months.

Yes I will miss him.

My eyes became teary as I locked my phone turning it over. I pulled Calum's shirt over my nose and cuddled with it smelling his strong scent that was still on it from yesterday. I held onto his shirt until I finally fell asleep.

• • •

I was escorted to the backstage door located behind the stadium that they played on a couple minutes ago. I was excited to see Calum after all these months without him. It's been 10 months since he has left for the tour.

We've been keeping contact by skype and calling but it wasn't as great as being physically there. I was so excited I was going to cry.

Doug, their new body guard lead me through the crowd of girls who were leaving after a meet and greet that they just had.

"Alright there you go."

Doug said as he closed the door behind me letting me find my way around myself. Only Ashton know that I was coming to see them so I decided to look for him first. As I walked down the hallway I saw Ashton drinking a water bottle dripping in sweat as he walked into his private dressing room.

I quickly walked to the room and poked my head in just in time to see him take his cut up shirt and wiping his sweaty body with it.

"Ash!"

I whispered making him turn around surprised but then smiling.

"Misty! You came!"

He squeeze me in a tight hug, sweat from his head dripping down on my arms.

"Gross!"

I screamed wiping it back on his body. He laughed and shook his head.

"I'll take you to Calum in a minute let me get another shirt."

He walked over to his rack of clothing choosing another white 5sos muscle shirt that he probably cut and slipping it on.

"C'mon."

He grabbed my arm pulling me out of his room. We walked down a concrete hallway passing Luke's dressing room.

"Ash!"

We both turned to the sound of the voice which came from a hallway that was connected to ours.

It was Michael who jogged up to us holding a water bottle and a play station controller in the other.

"Misty? Is that you?"

Michael's eyes widened as he placed his hands on my shoulders shaking me then giving me a big hug.

"Yeah I'm actually here."

I giggled as we broke from our embrace.

"Did you see Calum yet?"

"Im actually taking her now I'll see you later."

And at that Ashton took my arm again pulling me down the hall passing Michael's dressing room. Ashton stopped us before walking any further.

"Just go down there and Calum's dressing room should be on your right. I'll see you later!"

I thanked him and continued to walk to Calum's room which was cracked open. I placed my hand on the doorknob ready to push it open. But before I did I heard voices coming from the room.

I recognized one of the voices to be Calum's. The other belonged to a girl's.

I placed one of my eyes through the crack to see what was going on. My stomach dropped as I saw Calum sitting on the couch with his back facing the door and right in front of him was Mona.

"Tell me that you want me Calum."

She said as she started getting closer to Calum.

"I can't. I have Misty."

I don't know if I should be relieved because Calum just stated that he still had me or mad because he was in the same room as Mona.

"Ok well tell me to leave now and I will. Tell me to stay and I will stay forever."

Now Mona was crawling over Calum with her hands on his chest and her legs spread out. I felt my anger rise inside of me as she placed her forehead to Calum's forehead.

"Tell me Calum. She's not here for you but I am."

Mona was referring to me. I swallowed as I waited for Calum's response.

"I- I want you to stay."

My eyes widened and a gasp escaped my mouth before I could cover it with my mouth. Calum turned around to see me standing in the door way. I wanted to run but I couldn't. My feet were glued to the ground. Calum stood up and walk towards the door.

"Misty."

"No. no no"

I kept mumbling but he wouldn't stop.

"No!"

I shouted.

I sat up from my bed, my forehead drenched in sweat and tears in the corners of my eyes. I was shaking as I laid back down. The dream was so real it was scary.

I checked the time.

4:37 am

I felt tired. But my eyes refused to go to sleep. I needed Calum not just his shirt. I checked my phone to see if he had called or texted or communicated to me in anyway but of course there was no notification besides the 1 week count down.

I sighed and closed my eyes trying to sleep as I pulled his shirt close to me.

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OK so I typed this whole chapter while driving to Lake Tahoe and there was so service and I guess when I "saved" it, it didn't save so I had to retype it.

Sorry if it took long!

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