We're even

We went back to 4's room for the time being, make sure everyone has calmed down. Cato needed to go to the hospital to get the knife removed.

Oops.

" Nice throw." River says eventually. When he looked at me he looked for leery then comfortable around me.

I half smile not really wanting to say anything.

"Are you ok?" Enobaria asks.

" Yea." I rasp completely regarding what I just said. I cough clearing my throat " It's just going to hurt a little bit. I bet by morning I'll feel better."

" We'll get a nurse for that later." She says. " Can I have some time to talk with her?" Enobaria asked Finnick.

" Yea." Finnick says hurrying away with River and Prim.

She takes a breath before looking at me, her jaw was clenched, here we go" WHAT was that?" She asks trying to keep her composure.

" I don't know." I say quietly.

She laughs, " You don't know?... Your THREW a knife, Kaylaya!"

" And he sprained my wrists."

" He's your mentor."

I scoff." He's been everything but a mentor. He can't just walk around thinking he can do whatever he wants. He watched us spar, he watched Aspen choking me, but as soon as I hit him he rips me off and I'm the bad guy!"

She sighs, " I never said what he does is right either."

I shake my head, " What did he even say to make Aspen just switch on me like that?"

She shakes her head, " I don't know. Don't worry about it right now ok? We have bigger things to focus on. I just hope you didn't hit anything important. We can only cover one major injury, this one someone will take notice of."

" I wasn't aiming. I didn't even know I threw it until I saw it hit him."

" Then I guess I'm glad it hit him instead of someone else."

We both laughed before she gave me a nudge. " Rest up. When I come back we can go back to our room."

She left going to get 4, I stayed on the couch twiddling my fingers thinking until I heard a door open.

I look over to see them walking in.

" How's are little thrower doing?" Finnick asks a smile curling on his lips.

" Fine, my throat hurts a little though but I'm ok."

" I can't believe you actually threw that knife at him."

I look down picking at my nails, " Sorry."

Finnick laughs, " No, I didn't say it was a bad thing, hopefully this teaches him to have a little more self control."

I smile, River comes sitting down by me " I agree. Did you need anything?" He asks.

" No I'm fine. Nothing like some sleep can't help. I'll have Neffy get me the good stuff."

" ok." River says.

Prim sits on the other chair beside us looking at the two of us. She looked annoyed but her face quickly turns when she realizes I was looking at her.

I gave her a small smile which he returned, we talk for a bit, just getting to know eachother. They were really interesting people, they all had siblings, the Odairs have a set of twins yet  and Prim has 3 more siblings, her being the oldest.

Talking to the both of them makes me feel a little guilty, they'll be dead. Their siblings will never talk to them again.

No, you not thinking about that. Stop thinking like that.

Soon Enobaria comes back. She closed the door a little to hard, meaning she was mad, or annoyed.

" Cato requested to see you." She mumbles.

I look at her, " I'm not going."

" Yes, you are. I'm coming with you. Otherwise he'll report this. I don't want my tribute killed before the games even start."

I sigh before getting up.

" Be careful Kay." Prim says with a small smile.

I nod before going with Enobaria.

" You just need to apologize then we can leave." She says.

I scoff, " He just wants an apology?"

" It's Cato."

Good point.

" Of course he does, all this work for a stupid 'I'm sorry' pathetic." I mutter annoyed.

Soon we arrive to the Hospital, he was one room down from where I was, It's like deja vu. Enobaria knocks on the door and I could hear him say to come in. We walk in, me behind Enobaria.

" How are you feeling?" Baria asks.

He completely ignores what she just said looking around her to me, " You can throw that's for sure. I guess call it even, I sprained your wrists and strangled you. While you gave me a 3 inch hole in my shoulder."

I smile, " I think you got the brunt end of the deal."

He smiles, " Yea, I think I did too."

I swallow taking a small breath before my apology "Well I'm sorry, I got mad and I didn't think what I was doing and I had the knife-"

Cato interrupts me," Enobaria could you let us have a minute." He says not breaking his gaze on me.

I shut my mouth looking at Cato then at Baria. I give her a nod.

I watch her go out the door before I turn back to Cato.

" You can come closer you know." He comments.

I go closer sitting on the foot of the bed. " I really am sorry. I didn't mean to."

He didn't say anything, he was just staring.

" Cato?" I ask.

" I think I just about have you figured out." He says.

I stay quiet looking at him, what do I even say.

" He taught you didn't he?" He finally said. I see a smile form " He did.. didn't he?"

What do I even say to that?"

" Don't lie to me Kaylaya." He says.

" I didn't have a choice." I whisper barely audible.

He whole face fell, he looked hurt even. Soon a soft laugh escaped, " Damn, not even his own kid."

I just stayed there watching him carefully.

" My father and I never really had the best realationship. But I assume you already knew that didn't you?" He asked.

" I did."

He nods, " Of course you did. You know, he never really liked me, He wanted to get rid of me but My mom didn't let that happen she gave him an out but he didn't take it. He wanted to stay with her, you remind me of her."

" How do I remind you?" I say trying to stay calm.

" Just..everything. She never really had many friends either, she was always content. A lot of guys wanted her though she never really paid attention to any either. Even if my dad did leave.. I would've had some sort of father figure, everyone wanted her."

I smile. " I think I just made it look like I was content. They never let me have a lot of friends, they didn't want anyone to find out."

Again he nods. " As I grew up,my dad would keep my mom happy, talk, do things with me but it was the bare minimum, just enough so my parents wouldn't fight. He was gone a lot, not drinking or anything he's head with your father."

He slightly laughed. " I gave him ALL he wanted, I trained with him, put in the hours and beyond. I went to that stupid academy trained some more."

I could see him turn slightly red I can tell there's much anger and jealousy built up.

" Cato you don't need to tell me this-"

" No! I do. I do." He says, the way he says it so determined like he needed to get it off his chest.

" Now thinking about it...How was I so stupid? He was always rushy to get me out of the house in the mornings. Like he was... expecting someone."

He kept slightly laughing and looking at me and around the room, he was trying so hard to keep calm.

" I just went with it, tried my hardest put in the time, all my reports came back higher then the maximum, I was always so excited to bring them home, he was happy at first but slowly he stopped caring, one night we got in a fight, I got in a fight with some punk kid." He sighs.

" He said he didn't know me, Winning got to my head, I changed. Really funny considering he wanted me to volunteer because it would-"

" - Help get higher ranked for Peacekeeping?" I questioned " Yea, I had plenty of those conversations."

" And I did.. I did all of.. this and for what? I have all these dreams for what? I watched people get killed for what? I killed...for what? While you..you get to get trained for the same position, I always knew we'd be going for the same thing, I thought I'd get it considering I went through all of that." He stated bluntly. " I thought you'd be my second in command easily."

My eyes started to water I didn't know all this happened to him That explains the toxic coping he does. Still he continues anger glazing his face.

His face hardens.

" Then this.. I always wondered why he pushed so hard for us to never associate, I'd figured it was just because of their friendships with each other. They didn't want me to ' taint' you or something."

He slowly sits more upright in his bed trying not to use the arm with the hole. " Then you volunteered, I was shocked, I heard you had confidence but volunteering I thought was stupidity."

He shook his head," I thought you just put on a good act, your from 2 so don't act scared. I mean you were a techy what could you do rig up some traps, but I knew you were more I think we could all tell by the way you talked. My mind flashed to when I saw you punch that boy. Then the first day on the train when watching interviews, you hit every accusation on the head. Lastly was these last couple of training."

I bite my lip nervously. I'm still not sure how mad he is.

" The way you threw it with your wrist, it was flawless like hours and hours of intense training right? Your fit also I knew you had some training you fight just like my dad you know that? You were the one better then me." He says.

He looked like he wanted to cry, I'd probably feel betrayed to if my dad didn't give me the time of day, instead training and taking care of a kid that's not his.

I take a huge sigh. " I was told not to talk to you either. Or tell anyone about my training hence no friends or little association."

He hums in response.

I shake my head, " I never meant to take your dad away Cato."

" No, keep him honestly. It's not like he was much of a dad to me anyways." He sniffs.

" Cato-"

" I want you to leave." He says " Let's just hope his training keeps you alive."

I stand up, I was about to leave but I stop myself. " You can't be mad at me." I spit. " I did nothing to you. If your going to be mad..be mad at them! They held me back to, I barely got a childhood. I got ridiculed everyday from the both of them. You and I both know how controlling they were with our lives."

He looks just a little taken back, but his face went back to being void. I know he was mad, and maybe.. I don't blame him.

I feel guilty. I know I shouldn't.. but I do.

Now I do walk out of the door closing it.

Enobaria was leaning on the wall across from me. She had a look on her face, " I didn't know." I said softly, I feel tears well in my eyes.

" He's just hurt. I've trained him my whole life, he tried hard. It's not your fault, Zane... is hard to please. Now let's go."

We got back to the rooms, I went straight to bed. I didn't feel like talking to anyone after all of that.

It's not my fault.

Our fathers knew what they were doing, I can't help Zane was like that to Cato. It makes me view him a lot differently.

Cato is good. I know that from watching him, last years games he scored high, went right into the blood bath and had the most kills, though that's not exactly something to be proud of but he did take down that brute of a boy from 11.

He went after him after he killed Clove.

I wrap the blanket closer to me, trying to fall asleep. It was no use I felt horrible.

I laid there for awhile thinking before I drifted off to sleep.

It was no use. I couldn't sleep.

I went into the main area, there Aspen was laying asleep on the couch.

I get some water taking it back int my room trying to be as quiet as possible.

" How's Cato?"

I jump looking back at Aspen now up looking at me. " He's fine."

" What did he want you there for? Your the one who put a knife in his shoulder."

" He wanted me to apologize."

Aspen scoffs, " Apologize?"

I nod, taking a drink of the water.

" That's all that happened?" He asks, though something in his voice is telling me he knows more then what he's saying.

" He knows. If that's going to make you feel better. Congrats."

" You shouldn't worry. You have skill unlike your team members." He says, he says the last part quietly.

I set my cup down rather loud.

" If you really want to talk about teams Apsen, let's talk about yours. It's you and 1...1! There's a male and female victor how easy would it for the both of them to kill you?"

" Same goes for you, you proved not once but twice you can easily beat the toughest ones here!"

I shrug, " I have two sets, we'd stay togther longer before we seperate."

" How easy would it be for the four of them too kill you." He restates.

I smile. " I'd kill someone in the process."

Aspen scoffs, " Your not untouchable Kaylaya."

" Maybe not. But at least I have some brains. You'll be killed so fast Aspen it'll be embarrassing."

" I just need to make it long enough to kill the majority." He says smartly.

" Then what?" I ask.

He stays quiet.

I hum, " That's what I thought."

With that I stormed into my room, locking the door.