58. Keya

  Tyler: wat tym will u be home?

  Me: around 6. I still have a quick faculty meeting.

Tyler: u want me to come pick u up?

Me: i'll just ride a cab.

Tyler: r u sure?

  Me: i'm good Seguin.

Tyler: alright! can't wait 2 cuddle ya!

  Me: haha. We've been cuddling for 5 days straight. we should take a break

  Tyler: nope! Not gonna happen. No breaks baby!

I literally cannot hide the smile on my face as I constantly read and throw Tyler a text while I wait for the emergency faculty meeting to commence.

Ever since the date up to now, Tyler and I have been constantly sleeping and sharing the wildest sex almost every night. I even tap myself every morning that I still do have the energy to wake up early in the morning to go to school and teach students without feeling exhausted.

One thing about Tyler? The man doesn't know the word tired. Like honestly, his endurance is top level. I guess that's what you get for being an athlete, I definitely won't complain though because he is amazing! So damn amazing!

  Me: i gotta go. see u later.

I texted Tyler back and put my phone inside my bag. Seriously, I really want this meeting to be over so that I can come to Tyler's place early to see my son and obviously to be in Tyler's arms again. Gosh! The man is literally on my mind twenty-four seven.

I even get scared. But I am totally trying not to.

As the dean came inside the room, I sighed ready prepare my brain for the said meeting. According to my co-faculty members the dean is making some changes in each department's school year schedules and other curriculums by the next semester, which means another set of work for me in case I plan to stick around after I finish my master's degree.

I'm getting confused and serious about my plans right after I graduate. I'll be graduating in June, just two months from now. And based on my current situation, my life is pretty much on the right track with Tyler helping me out with Sky while I'm busy at work and school. There's no reason for me to go back in Edinburgh since life here in Texas is way too comfortable these days, I'm already way too settled out here. Except that Tyler and I haven't really talked about what we are currently.

I mean, obviously we are starting to pick up the pieces and as much as I want to clear things up about what's really going on between us, I get scared that what if I'll receive another rejection from him? And besides, I don't want him to be confused between us just because we have a baby together.

I sighed again, and this time a man suddenly voiced out which made me to look up instantly. And it's Thomas, I am way too occupied to not ever notice him sit eight next to me.

"Something's bothering you?" He asks.

I smiled. "Oh it's nothing."

"I know you Keya, I know that you're thinking of something crucial right now." He commented chuckling. Well, for a fact he is right. He knows how to read me well and it's crazy! "Mind to share?"

I shake my head. "Nothing serious Thomas, I was just thinking about my son."

He sighs resting his back on the chair. "Speaking of your son I haven't met him yet. Would you mind bringing him with you? In case you forget, you still owe me a date."

Oh shit!

"The date?" I repeated. "Right..."

He rolled his eyes grinning. "You totally forgot, but it's fine. How about lunch tomorrow? For sure you're free. Or maybe the day after tomorrow, we have a long weekend coming."

I nodded. "Tomorrow's okay! Just text me."

"Good! Then it's settled. Tomorrow it is. " He says just in time the meeting finally commences.

However, my whole attention isn't focused on the meeting anymore but rather on the question about how will I tell Tyler? Would he even care if I tell him that I'm going on a date with Thomas and bring Sky with me along? Or he'll go in rage forbidding me not to?

But I guess he won't care, will he?

--

When I arrived at Tyler's house the two of them welcomed me with kiss, and I have never felt more alive in my life. Usually when I get home from school I normally throw myself on the couch draining the exhaustion but this week has been different.

Sky and I are staying for the long weekend here at Tyler's place. He insisted that we should stay here more often rather than in my apartment since it is way too small. Also, my son is starting to hate that apartment and always demands to stay more in his father's house than there.

Besides, Tyler has also been asking me to move in ever since the beginning but as of now I still won't do it. Not until he finally address what's going on between us and when things get clear that is when I decide if I move in or not.

"How's your day?" Tyler asks letting Sky play his mini hockey toys on the floor as I sat on the couch watching him.

"Pretty busy, but its good." I answered. "What about you guys? How have you been doing?"

"He never gets tired of playing mini sticks the whole day." Tyler answers. "Let's probably eat dinner now babe, shall we?"

As the three of us eats dinner together I keep on looking at my baby daddy, he obviously looks a bit tired and I couldn't help but laugh. "You look tired today, d'you know that?"

He rolls his eyes and without saying anything, he pointed his index finger to our son who is silently munching his food I gave him. I laugh again.

"Aww..." I said in complete sympathy. "Now you know how it feels like to babysit your very hyper son all by yourself."

"He only took about an hour nap and then gets way too hyper again." He says. "Now I'm worried how will you handle him this weekend without me."

"I'm used to it Seguin, don't worry." I answered. "By the way, why? Do you have errands this weekend?"

"I'll be flying to Michigan tomorrow for a quick commercial shoot. But I'll be home by Sunday." He says.

After eating dinner, I excused myself to go take a quick shower and to change my clothes. I still find it weird how I get to have my own room and a bloody studio inside Tyler's mansion. When I get out, my son continues to play mini sticks all by himself and Tyler is currently turning on the TV to watch some hockey game replay.

I sat next to him and instantly he pulled me close letting me rest on his chest, stroking my hair and I couldn't help but yawn.

"Way too tired?" He asks kissing my head.

"Mm-hmm." I answer. "Per usual."

"Are you sure that you'll be okay tomorrow?" He says. "You know we can hire a babysitter to help you."

"No Seguin, it's okay." I refused. Finding some courage to tell him about my date tomorrow.

But you know what, fuck it! If he reacts negatively then who cares right? At least I became honest. But probably, I won't says that it is going to be a date, just lunch. Right? Urgh! That's it. I'm telling him.

"Uhmm... Ty?" I voiced out still resting my head on his chest.

"Hmmm?"

"Thomas asked me to have lunch tomorrow, he wants to meet Sky." I slowly said.

Without any second Tyler moves letting me face him. "Thomas? The same guy who used to drive you from school before?"

I nod.

He squints his eyes studying me. "What is he to you? I mean, is he a friend? A boyfriend? An ex?"

"More like... Well, we kind of dated before but it didn't became official a--"

"And he wants to take you on a date tomorrow?"

"It's not a date Seguin. It's just lunch." I reasoned out which was a complete lie because he is right, it is a date.

"No. That is still a date." Tyler insists. For the first time since we reunited again, his expression flashes with emotion—annoyance. "I mean, what the hell? Did you say that you'll go?"

"It's just lunch so I said yes, but—"

Tyler's  eyes blaze. "You actually said yes? When did he ask you?"

"He's been asking me ever since I got back here." I admit. "As far as I can remember, I guess that was the day when you showed up in school to come pick me up."

His face relaxes. Just slightly. "So it was few months ago? Before you and I…?"

I nod.

"Okay." He takes a breath. "Okay. Not as bad as I thought." But then his features turn to stone again and his nostrils flare. "You know what, you better come along with me in Michigan."

"Ty..."

"You’re not fucking going, Keya!"His sharp voice makes me wince.

"Says who? You? Because the last time I checked, you and I aren’t dating. We’re just fooling around."

"Is that what you really—" He stops, his mouth twisting in a scowl. He closes the gap between us searching my face. "I know you’re into me, Keya. And I’m definitely into you. Would it really be so bad if we made this thing official?"

My eyes widen in complete shock, unable to process the words he said. "Of--official? You and me?"

He nodded cupping my cheeks. "I want us to be together, I want us to finally be a family!"

I was just silent the whole time. I didn't see this confession coming. "Wouldn't that be so bad?"

"I..." I started taking a deep breathe. "I don't want you to get confused Seguin. I didn't ask you to be there for me or us to be official. I just want you to be there with my son."

"Are you fucking rejecting me right now?" Tyler asks.

His hoarse words echo in my head, and a vise of emotion constricts my heart, because I really want us to be official too. But before I can say anything his hands dropped and stood up ready to leave.

"You know what, that's okay. I was an asshole, I totally deserve it." He says in complete frustration. "I should not forbid you to go out with Thomas, who am I anyway?"

I still haven't found the words to say, and then I just found Tyler carrying Sky out in the living room. And I was left there all by myself.

I stare at the empty space he was taking up a second ago and got scared that because of a few moments of me unable to do any decision, I'll just throw away the opportunity of us becoming  a whole family.