44. Keya

The surprise on Tyler's face is indescribable, but the same time the confusion. He is indeed unable to process everything that I have said, well, it is kind of my fault too since I also panicked and have been very nervous about confessing the lies I did.

"He is alive? How come he-- you told me-- I am so confused." Tyler said.

"I am sorry I lied to you." I sighed. "I was just afraid that you'll take him away from me once I let you meet him."

"What? And why would you think that I will do that?"

"Because I don't trust you." I fessed up not even thinking on what the consequences would be and not considering Tyler's feelings at all.

However, despite of what I have said he just managed to nod which really surprises me. I expected him to react in rage, say further words that will surely hurt my feelings but no. He just sighed and deal with all of these calmly, like, this is not the Tyler I knew three years ago.

"I don't blame you, and I totally understand." He started looking down on his knees. "I hurt you big time before and I totally deserve it. Although I am not gonna lie I'm a bit disappointed that you don't want to let me meet my son."

"I know, I am so sorry." I apologized again feeling the guilt crawl into my bones once more. "I was selfish."

"What made you change your mind?"

"Obviously your mom." I said snorting. "But I was thinking about it for so long, it's just that I always get scared thinking about what might happen once I let you guys meet. And I was so angry at you that the first time I saw you after three years the only thing that was in my head was revenge."

He nodded and was silent still looking at his knees. I am sensing a massive regret coming from his face but it is the right time to let everything out, I guess this is also the right time to say those words that weren't said.

"My life was a great mess right before you and our son came in, and I thought it became even messier. But I was wrong, it happened because it is the key to make me a better version of myself and I didn't realized that not until you left." Tyler said and looked at me with his watery eyes. "I regret everything that I did, and you were right I don't deserve to be a father because of what I did."

Tyler reaches to hold both of my hands. "But I promise you Keya that I have done everything that I needed to do to fix myself to be worthy of my son! I want another chance Keya, let me prove it to you and our son."

I didn't felt any doubt by now, yes, I may have still don't trust Tyler but I don't want to be selfish and feel guilty anymore. I want what is best for my son, Sky deserves to know who his father is and whatever happens next, we'll go from there.

I nodded. "Okay."

I thought dinner with Tyler and his mom will be chaotic, considering the fact that I lied about Sky. But no, it didn't. It wasn't that good and fun but it was not bad either. The whole dinner was just Tyler's mom telling me how he spends every summer and off-season in Scotland to come find me in the last two years. He also told me that months after I left, he went to several therapies.

It really surprises me to know all of that and I also appreciated it that somehow after all the negative things that he did, he wants to be a father so bad at the end of the day.

After eating dinner, I offered to wash the dishes but Jackie insisted that she'll just do it herself later and just let ourselves enjoy drinking wine at the living room and chill for a bit. She demands to talk about Sky, how my labor went and just basically all the things they missed about my son and I's life back in Scotland right before I came back in here. Plus the whole silly incident that happened earlier which brought us to now.

"He's turning three in the next five days." I said sighing. "Time flies so fast, I was just carrying him before because he was really tiny but now he is turning into a big boy."

"I cannot wait to meet him." Tyler said with great excitement painted on his face. "Can I do that tonight? I'll come with you."

I somehow smiled. "Yeah, but I'm not sure if he is still awake once we get there."

"Oh it's totally fine! I just can't contain my excitement right now and if I don't meet him this instant I won't probably be able to go to sleep."

"Alright then sure." I replied.

"Actually Tyler, we can go bond with him tomorrow! You're free right?" Jackie suggested.

"I have practice tomorrow morning, but I don't mind bringing him with me. If he wants to, can we?" Tyler asks beaming at me.

"Sure."

Jackie clapped her hands in excitement. "I cannot wait... And both of you should go now! Maybe by then my grandson is still up so you can go hang with him Ty for a bit."

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When I made it back to my apartment, the surprise on my mom and sister's face is still up in the roof when they saw Tyler coming in with me and introduced him to them. Yeah right, they saw the man on the television screens few days ago for sure they are in awe.

"Sky is in your room sleeping, the kid is absolutely knackered after today's incident." My mom said after I ask her.

Tyler and I then went straight to my room to see our little Sky sleeping heavily on the bed. Without even saying anything, Tyler rushed to the side of the bed and admired our son. Happiness is painted all over Tyler's face as he touches Sky's hands.

He even smiled like a five year old when Sky gripped his hands and looked up on me. I laugh totally considering these whole situation right now as iconic! It was amazing, and I didn't thought about this instances at all. I was blinded by hatred and it was totally not alright.

"What's his complete name by the way?" Tyler asks as he slowly settles himself on the edge of the bed to lay next to our son.

"Skyler." I answered. "A combination of your name and the word sky."

He looked at me in surprise, and I didn't see it coming! Tears just fell down on his face.

"Why are you crying?" I asked and snickered.

He laughed back. "I just can't believe you included me on deciding about our son's name."

I sighed. "He's still your flesh and blood Seguin. I don't have him if its not because of you. But for the record, I am quite annoyed that he looks like you and he doesn't have any resemblance to me!"

He laughed and look down on Sky caressing his hair. "Yeah, he's a mini me. Literally!"

"And he surprisingly likes hockey too."

"Really?"

I nodded. "Nobody introduced him to that sport but I don't know! Eversince he got here, he wants to watch hockey."

"Wow!" Tyler whispered in great surprise.

Sky then moved and slowly opened his eyes.

"Oh shoot! We woke him up." Tyler said whispering.

"Mommy?" Sky started calling and instantly looked around to see me and Tyler on the different side of the bed.

Sky looked at his father in complete confusion right before coming towards me to and sit on my lap. He is still looking at Tyler, completely wondering who the stranger is.

"Who is he mom?" He finally asked.

"You want to meet Daddy right?" I slowly ask him. My son slowly nodded and looked back at Tyler who is now smiling widely at him.

"Is he my dad?"

I nodded, controlling myself not to cry. "You want to go say hi and give him a hug?"

"Hey buddy!" Tyler finally speaks up. "It's me, your daddy Tyler."

My son still looks at him with no reaction and then looks back at me. "Go on!"

"Daddy?" Sky repeated as he slowly rose to his feet.

Tyler nods and taps his lap to signal him to come seat on it. And the tears I have been holding on just went out when I see Sky hugged Tyler tight enough. Sky was as excited as his father and I couldn't believe that the situation I have been picturing out as a complete nightmare turned out to be such a dream I could never forget!

My decision was right! Everybody is right! My son deserves to know who his father is.

I just hope that Tyler won't ruin everything this time...