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Eddy woke up first the following morning to Brett's shaky grip around his waist and unintelligible mumbles in his sleep. He yawned silently and carefully caressed Brett's cheek in an attempt to calm his distressed sleeping boyfriend. Or well, fiancé. The thought of the word made Eddy smile to himself and butterflies rummage around his stomach.What made Eddy snap out of it was Brett's silent sob as he buried his face into Eddy's t-shirt, still asleep. Eddy's heart shattered seeing him like that, and he had to work hard to not blame himself for it. He knew blaming himself didn't make sense, but maybe if he'd done something different. Maybe if he had become closer with his parents or something like that, they would've reacted like his own parents had? 

"Brett, love?" he whispered, carefully trying to shake him awake. "Come on, gotta wake up." He leaned down to kiss his hair just as his eyes fluttered open. Brett looked up at his with teary, sleepy eyes."Hey", Eddy mumbled, reaching out to wipe a singular tear running down Brett's cheek."Hi", Brett sighed, burying his face into Eddy's t-shirt again. He didn't feel ready to deal with the world just yet. Everything felt heavy, like that day where his blanket felt like lead and he stayed in bed for a while day instead of practicing before Eddy came over with their takeaway dinner. The main difference between that day and today was that not even Eddy's soothing touch and calm voice made him feel better today."How are you feeling?" Eddy asked, even though the answer was obvious. Brett sighed heavily."Fine, obviously", he mumbled into Eddy's chest with a hint of attempted sarcasm that sounded more like he was breaking apart."It's okay not to be fine, you know", Eddy said, running his finger feather lightly over the back of Brett's neck. "But you haven't really talked to them, maybe they're just busy with something."Brett groaned at Eddy's remark, grabbing a fist of his t-shirt in an attempt to comfort himself."Sure, because hanging up after learning your son has gotten engaged, not calling back and then not picking up when he calls again sure sounds like parents who still love their son. Sure." The pain in Brett's voice cut through Eddy's heart once again."I'm sorry, I don't know what to say to make you feel better", Eddy sighed in defeat, still tracing the shape of the bone in Brett's neck softly with his fingertips. He wanted to make Brett feel better, but nothing he could possibly do would make the situation they were in better unless time travel were invented soon."Don't apologize for that, I'm just... ugh, I don't know, but it doesn't help if I'm pulling you down with me." He turned his head so that his ear was still resting against Eddy's chest, but he could look up at his face. "You're not, I'm just worried about you", Eddy assured, running his hand through Brett's hair, moving some strands away from his forehead. "I love you, you know."Brett nodded quietly. "I love you too", he mumbled back, with a the tiniest smile. 

They stayed in bed for several hours, Eddy waiting patiently for Brett to feel like doing anything. When the clock on the tv showed way past noon, Eddy ran his hand over Brett's back softly to get his attention."Do you wanna go out and get some food with me? Just to move a bit today?" Eddy suggested quietly, for the most part expecting Brett to refuse him so that he would have to go get food for them on his own. He didn't mind, but he didn't really believe it to be healthy for him to stay in bed all day."Do I have to?" Brett sighed. Just the thought of going out and seeing people felt like the hardest task in the world. Eddy ran his hand through his hair softly."I mean, I can't make you, but I think it would be good for you."Brett sighed again and pushed himself up to a half sitting position, rubbing his eyes."Okay", he mumbled, not even trying to move further from there. He already felt mentally exhausted. Eddy reached over to the nightstand where Brett's glasses were. He grabbed them and carefully put them on Brett's face."Let's take a shower first, yeah?" Eddy suggested, and Brett just nodded quietly.

A few moments later, Brett was leaning heavily onto Eddy under the warm water."I'm sorry I'm so difficult to deal with", he mumbled as Eddy reached for the shampoo and put some in his hand to wash Brett's hair."You're not difficult, you're going through some stuff. There's a difference", Eddy replied as he started massaging the shampoo into Brett's hair."I just feel bad. One's supposed to feel happy after getting engaged, right? I feel like I'm ruining that for you. I'm sorry." It felt nice getting his hair shampooed, but he couldn't make himself actually enjoy it."Does it seem like I'm not happy from the engagement?" Eddy asked while carefully tilting Brett's head so that he could rinse out the shampoo from his hair without it getting into his eyes."I don't know", Brett sighed, moving his head back when the shampoo was all rinsed out. "Maybe I'm just being stupid again. I'm sorry."Eddy started shampooing his own hair, not wanting to ask more of Brett than nescessary."Don't apologize, you haven't done anything wrong", he said firmly, still working the shampoo into his hair. Brett looked up at him."Oh I uh... I could have... done that for you", he mumbled, feeling like an idiot for not paying attention."It's alright, I'm a big boy and know how to shampoo my own hair", Eddy smiled at him before starting to rinse out the shampoo. Brett moved his gaze away again."I know, sorry", he mumbled, feeling silly for suggesting it. Eddy placed both his hands around Brett's face and kissed him intensely. "You don't have to apologize for anything, you have done nothing wrong", he said after pulling away again, but Brett just looked up at him with sad eyes."Sorry", he mouthed, barely with any sound, willing himself not to cry again. Nothing went right that day, and that was why he should have stayed in bed.