part 38(too much)

"this file..tell'em I'll work with them"i said as i slide the file across me towards the person sitting there..

"okey boss..but how?I mean why now?you rejected their proposal before.."soobin said confusingly..

"yeah I know...i just think.. whatever happens with yoongi is my personal matter...and personal life shouldn't get in between work.."i said while signing on the contract..

"atleast you understood..so..should I set up a meeting for tomorrow?is that okay with you?"

"umm...yes In the evening."i said just then I get a call from one of my clients..

"yess mr.han.."i pick up the call while gesturing soobin to'you can go now'.he nodded and left..

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"i am home"i said to myself as i removed my shoes and step inside..

it was dark...so i turn on the lights..i am back to my apartment.yong didn't come with me..he is still at his Grandma's home..when we were leaving..he just wouldn't come he started crying.. that he wants to stay with Grandma and yoongi..and what could I do?..so i let him stay there..

it's been almost one week i guess..I took a shower..ate my dinner and got ready to sleep..just then someone has to call...

"mommy!how are you"it was yong..he video called me..i was still lying down to my left side and the phone was standing by the help of pillow..in front of my face..

"honey..why are you not asleep yet?look at the time"i said tiredly..

"i was missing you mumma"he said while pouting which made me chuckle at his cuteness..

"I miss you two..how is granny?"I asked to which he looked at his side as if looking at someone then back at me..

"granny is good.. she's sleeping already"he said showing his thumbs up..

"okeyy.."i said and he just hummed..

for a few minutes we didn't said anything to eachother...

then my eyes noticed a head peaking through the camara..

"who is it?is it granny? yong"i asked..

he shook his head..

"no mommy it's yoongi uncle..come here uncle..say hii to mommy"i convince him and yoongi came in front of the camera..

"hello..why didn't you sleep till now?"he asked..to which i rolled my eyes..

"i was sleeping then you called?.."and he laugh nervously..

"oh..yeah..yong was insisting so.."

"okey bye.."i said and turn my phonescreen towards the bed .

I stayed still for some minutes..then heard laughing coming from my phone..

i picked it up and got lost there..

yong and yoongi..both were laughing while looking at eachother..

"I told you.. she'll hung up""she got scared of you""oh really..then aren't you scared of me?""the king is not afraid of anyone ".."but the king should have some power..so I am the king""oh really show me then"okey if you say so"

and he started tickling yong..which made him laugh even harder..

their bond...it looks unbreakable...what will happen when yong will found out the truth?.. it's not like i can keep it a secret from him forever... eventually he'll grow up and will find out who his father was...or is..

before that happens...i have to do something... something that'll be for the best...

i cut the call and closed my eyes trying to sleep...but all there came is just the memories of the day we went for picnic.. one week ago...

"he looks so happy today"yoongi said as we were watching him playing near a Lake infront of us..

i hummed and took a picture of yong..

"are you just going to avoid me for all your life?"he asked a sudden question..i stopped doing whatever I was doing in my phone for a moment.

"i know i did so wrong..i shouldn't had done that..i-"he started telling me al that lies again so i cut him off..

"yong let's play hide and seek"i said as i started walking towards yong ..he looked at me and smiled while running to me..

"yoongi uncle come play with us"he bring yoongi as well..

"I'll count..you go and hide quickly"i said and closed my eyes and started counting..

"nine...ten...i am coming.."

"where is yong?...I think he is there....found you!"I started acting..as I see yong hiding behind a bench...

"it's my turn now"he said and ran off to count... I didn't tried finding yoongi..

I hide behind a tree..far away from where our mat was..

i was waiting for yong to find me just then a hand land on my shoulder which startled me..i turned around to find yoongi..

"y/n..we need to talk"he said looking serious..

"there's nothing to talk about"i said and was about to walk past him when he grabbed my wrist pinned me against the tree.

"what are you doing?leave me"i said suddenly my heart beat fastens..cause of fear or closeness..

"please let me explain everything..."he said..

"and i said there's nothing to be explained about...and...why the hell did you come back huh?you left everything behind right?then go again..why are you here?want to ruin my life again?"i said what came in my mind..there are too many questions but the basic and current one was these...

"listen to me first please"he said desperately to which i quickly said..

"what is there to listen?that you loved another woman that's why you cheated on me then suddenly you got bored of her so you came back to me thinking I'll believe you..and then you'll use my body just like you did to her-"my voice started raising little by little..all the anger, disappointment..i had for him finally coming out...

"no!...i can never think about using your body y/n...i can live my whole life without touching you....i am so sorry..i-i was a fool.."he raised his voice higher than mine which made me flonch...he held my head in his both hands..

"no..i was a fool...a fool to fall for you..but now I am mature enough to understand it...and one last thing...stay away from my son"i said and pushed passed him but his next words made me froze on my spot..

"how can I stay away from my own son?"

"he is not your-"i was cut off by him..

"i know he is...how could 8 not know?...he looks exactly like me..i am not blind... although I had this doubt that maybe I am just thinking too much...but mom confirmed it...i really thought you got married again"he said with a little smile on his face..mit was not a happy smile it was a smile that shows sadness..

i was too stunt to speak...

"why didn't you told me?"he asked..but i couldn't say anything..

"would you have stayed?..if i had told you?"I asked after the silence.. quietly..

"found both of you!....why did you hide so far away"yong startled us both..

"i am tired let's go home"yong said..

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"can I call you dad for today?"we were walking in a park..there are other families too..

"yong wha-"i was about to deny him but yoongi was fast enough to cut me off..

"of course.."he said smiling while side eyeing me..

"hey iseul,ji hoon"yong called them as he spotted his two school friends..

"oh hey..what are you doing here today?...are they your parents?"they asked..

"yess.."he nodded proudly..

"is he your dad?.. let's go meet him"

they came running towards us..

"oh hello..kids how are you"i said as i ruffled their hair .

"are you his dad"he asked yoongi to which he nodded proudly..

"yes I am his dad...yong are they the ones that teased you about not having a dad?"he asked to which yong nodded..

"we are sorry uncle"they apologise md immediately..

i was surprised..cause yong ne er talk about his dad to anyone... except me..but he told yoongi about that ...

"you both look good together"they said to which i coughed..

but yoongi smiled and said"thanku"

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"I'll run you both catch me"yong said and started running..we started chasing him..

we both caught him together.. laughing and giggles echoes in the whole park where no one was...yoongi lifted yong and spin him..

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"i am sorry y/n.."yoongi said...we were sitting in the car going home..yong was asleep on the passenger seat..and me and yoongi in front..

i was looking outside the window..

"if i could go back in time..i would have never done that.."he said but I kept silent..i closed my eyes pretending to be asleep.

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i woke up to the sound of loud music bursting in my ears...I woke up and removed the earphones from my ears..

"yong...what is this!"I yelled to which he laughed..

"mommy how long will you sleep?"he said and i frowned..

what time is it?...i took my phone and saw the time...and immediately sat up..

"why didn't you woke me up?"i asked yong..

"cause I said not to"soobin came with a tray of breakfast..

"you!...what are you doing here and who's at the office and why is yong not in school"I asked panicking..

"today is holiday...man"they both said and i held my face in my hands..

"oh god..."i sighed.

"let me go freshen up first..."i said and left..

"but what are you doing here this early?"i asked as i started eating breakfast..

"i was bored and i need you to come with me somewhere today so here I am"he said casually...

"are you okey?..I mean you are looking stressed..."I asked cause he was looking like he has been fighting over something I don't know... it's been four month since I am here and for the past one month he looks like he is in some distress ...is there something going on i don't know?and now there's this dullness on his face...the dark circles that are noticeable...

"yes I am fine.. don't worry"he said smiling...i smiled back...

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"so where are we going?and why did you drop yong to mom's house?why can't he come with us?"I asked to which he chuckled..

"why are you asking so many questions? it's not like i am kidnapping you..."he said glancing at me..

"still.... atleast tell me where are we going"I asked impatiently..

"on a date...happy?"he said but when I didn't respond he looked towards me the. again towards the road..

"just kidding... it's a surprise.."he said to which i punched his arm...

"wake me up when we get there"i said and goes back to sleep...

~~"hey...wake up we are here..."I woke up as I heared muffled sounds of someone waking me and shaking me...

i looked around and say a beautiful view...i step out from the car and stand at the edge of the mountain...

"wonderful..."i said...

"you like it?"he asked...

"love it"i said still admiring the place...

it is buit between mountains...we can see smoke covered mountains and waterfall from the railing...it's like I am In a dream...

it's winters so the fog is more than normal weather...

there was no one..just us...

"come sit here..or you'll catch cold.."he called out...

i turn around and goes inside the little cafe...it was more of a dating place than a cafe...our table was just beside the glass window..

we started sipping our coffee...

"you know when we first met..you used to hate coffee..you would always drink tea no matter what happens.."soobin said to which i smiled remembering the days...

"habits do change...when life gets hard"i said as i put my cup down..

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"i had so much fun today"i said as i looked at the mountains for one last time before we go..

"good to know that you liked it here"he said as he stand beside me..

"this view is more beautiful than morning"i said and he hummed as if thinking something...

"Y/n...can I ask you something?"he asked and i looked towards him..

"yes..of course...why taking permission?"i said..

he was silent for a few minutes then he asked something..i never expected...

"will you marry me?"he asked and that one question blanked my mind...

just then snow started to drop...and the view looked even more beautiful..starts in the black sky... mountains hiding behind the fog.. waterfall shining and white snow dropping...

i don't know what to say anymore...

"i was thinking of telling you this for a very long time but couldn't..."he keep talking but words weren't coming out from my mouth...

"i know it's so sudden...you don't have to answer me now...you can take your time.."

"we should go back it-its late..."i said and turn around to go towards our car...

"no matter what your answer will be... nothing's gonna change between us...so don't worry...just...do whatever your heart says..."he said..

"thanku..soobin"i thanked him for understanding me..

"tomorrow is my birthday..you remember right?...if you came I'll take it as a 'yes'.."

to be continued...

the end is near buddies 🥹

so some of you choose the 1st cover..thanku for letting me know...