Chapter 53 - You'll Be Okay

Carl's P.O.V.

We've been here for a week, only because Alex won't talk or eat. Dad doesn't want to leave until she's better. Michonne told me that when a mother miscarries she's in denial and won't eat or talk for weeks.

"Hey Carl." Michonne says getting my attention. "Can you bring this up to Alex?" She asks. I nod and grab the bowl of cereal. I walk up stairs and walk into our room. Alex is sitting up in bed.

"Honey?" I ask. She doesn't even look at me and that breaks my heart. I place the bowl of cereal on the night stand and sit on the bed. I grab her hands and hold them tight. "Please talk to me." I say. She stares blankly in my eyes. "It was my fault." She says. "No, no it wasn't. Absolutely not." I tell her. "It was inside of me. It had to be my fault." I can tell she's about to cry. "It wasn't your fault." I say. "You did nothing wrong okay...there was just a complication...you did nothing wrong." I say stroking her hand with my thumb

Right there she lets out her tears. I pull her into a hug. "You'll be okay." I say kissing her her head.

Alex's P.O.V.

Carl helped me realize that it wasn't my fault and I believe him. It wasn't my fault. Carl left a couple minutes ago with Michonne. They are going to go search the other houses. Rick is up stairs sleeping. I might as well take a nap.

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"I can't get the door open Joe!"

My eyes bolt open as the door is trying to open. I can feel the couch beneath me shaking. I run upstairs to Rick.

"Rick!" I scream running into his room. He quickly wakes up. "People are trying to get in!" His eyes grow wide. We hear footsteps and men talking.

"There's girls here! I call dibs on one!" I hear one of the men yell.

Shit! They probably found Michonne's old shirt!

Rick grabs me and pulls me under the bed as we hear them coming up stairs. I can see their feet and their coming into the room. One of the men flop on the bed. I was about to scream but Rick coverd my mouth.

"Hey, Get out." Another man said walking in. "Sorry this ones claimed." The guy on the bed says. "There are other ones in here, go find ya one of them."

They argue back and forth until the guy on the bed gets up and starts a fight. One of the guys fall down and see us. I freaked out a bit but Rick coverd my mouth again. The guy was being strangled and his eyes soon shut. Before the guy could get on the bed again someone called his name and he ran downstairs. Rick and I quickly got up. We ran into the bathroom.

"Who the hell are you!?" A guy gets up from the toilet and starts strangling Rick. I look quickly for a weapon and see scissors on the counter. I grab them and stab the guy in the eye. He stumbles off of Rick and falls into the shower. I grab my gun and shoot him in the head.

It had to be done.

"Let's go." Rick opens the bathroom window and we jump on the roof. He jumps off first.

"I don't know about this." I say. "Don't worry I'll catch you." He says. I nod and jump. Rick catches me like he said he would. Before we could take off one of the men sit on the porch. I could see Rick was about to kill the guy. He ended up not because the guy ran back in after he heard the other men scream.

"Rick go now, there coming." I say as I see Michonne and Carl walking towards the house. Rick and I run off.

"Go!" I say. Carl and Michonne don't ask why they just run.

That was a close one.

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We've been walking for awhile. My legs hurt and I just want to sit down. It's almost dark out.

"Look." I say pointing to a car on the side of the road. It looks big enough to sleep in. "Can we stay in it tonight? Please?" I beg Rick. "Alright. " We walk over to the car and we check it for walkers. Once we know its clear we pulled the back seats down. I layed on one and Carl layed on the other. Rick and Michonne sat outside.

"Alex...?" Carl whines. "What?" I ask. "I want you in my arms." He pouts. I laugh as he crawls over to my seat. His body is hovering over me. He kisses my neck. If he's trying to get me into the mood it's working. "I wanna..." He whines. I nod. He smiles and takes off his shirt. I take off my shirt and pants. He unbuckles his jeans and takes off his boxers. I quickly take of my underwear. "I've never had sex in a car before." I laugh "Theres a first time for everything."

He kisses my neck and works his way up to my lips. I moan as he enters my body. "I love you." I say "I fucking love you!" I scream. "I love you too." Carl says inbetween kisses. He moves my legs up and holds my hips.

I guess Michonne and Rick noticed the car moving back and forth because I hear them saying things.

"I guess we should just let them, they've been through alot." Michonne yells. "Please stop Michonne! That's my son, just shut up."

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"Wow." I say. "I'm so surprised." He says "Yeah I know, you finally lasted twenty minuets." He laughs and playfully hits my arm. "That's not what I was talking about." He laughs. "Why are you surprised?" I ask "Doing it in a car is actually pretty hot." He says. "It turned me on." He laughs. "Oh my Gosh! Your sick!" I laugh. We lay there just laughing. I loved this.

"Looks like we found you." We hear someone say. Carl and I quickly got dressed. "Shh..." He tells me.

The door by Carl opens.

"We got two love bird's back here."

The man looked like he could do something really horrible if he wanted to. I'm supposed to be strong but I cried. I hugged Carl and cried.

"Take em out!" That voice said. I hold onto Carl tighter. The man grabs Carl. "No! Please! No!" I scream as he grabs him out of my hands. Once Carl was taken my door opened and another guy grabbed me.

"Carl!" I cry. I look over at him and see that man holding a knife to his throat. The guy who had me held me close and put a knife to my throat also. I looked at Rick. Right away I recognized the man. He's part of that group. He has a gun up to Ricks head.

"You killed one of my men!" He yells "Gregg here, saw you before he blacked out. We tracked you down and here we are." He says. "Woah! Joe! I know these people! What are you doing!?"

Of course I know that voice. Daryl.

"They killed one of our men Daryl." Joe says. "Let them go! They're good people!" Daryl begs. "Now that right there is a damn lie. And you know what we do to people who lie, don't you Daryl?" He says.

Daryl falls to the ground as Joes men kicks him. I can't help but cry. Daryl is family.

"First we get the boy." My heart stopped. The boy....the boy is Carl! "Then we beat Daryl to death." My breathing gets heavy as I worry. "Then the girls." My breath stops. What are they going to do to me. "Then lastly you, so you can watch." He says referring to Rick.

I close my eyes but quickly open them when I hear Carl cry. I look at him and see the man rubbing the knife up against his cheek. "Carl!" I scream trying to get out of the mans grib. The guy holds onto me tight. So tight that it hurt. I let out a little whimper. Carl tries to get out of the mans grip "Alex!" He cries. The man that has me puts the knife back up to my throat. "Try to get away again boy your hot girlfriend gets it!" I could see Carl's jaw clench at his words.

The guy who has Carl put his knife back on Carl's cheek. "Your gonna hate all the things I do to you." I hear the guy say. Tears pour out of my eyes. What are they going to do to him!?

I hear Carl scream as I see the man pin him on the ground. I hear a zipper go down.

Oh. My. God! No! No!

I see the man start to grind on Carl. So many things are going on in my mind.

Everything went slow after that.

Gunshots went off. I fell out of the mans grip. When I fell it all settled in. I saw Carl's face. He was crying badly. He was scared for his life...I was scared for his life. I quickly grab Carl's knife from the car and sneak up behind the man. I grab the man by his hair and pinned him up against the car. That basically took all my strength because he was a big man. I shoved Carl's knife into the guys stomach. As I dug deeper, in my mind I checked off the things that he did to my boyfriend.

I feel arms wrap around my waist. It was Carl. I was coverd in blood. I dropped his knife and just cried.

Is that what I've became. I'm killing people. My sister. That guy in the bathroom. Him.

It had to he done though.

Carl hugs me and kisses my head.

Him and I really didn't have time to talk about it. We had to quickly stab the men in the head and throw them in the woods. Then I had to clean that mans blood off of me.

Carl stayed up all night. I actually fell asleep a time or two, but now It's really early in the morning. We were the only ones who slept in the car.

"Carl?" I ask sitting up in my seat. "Yes?" He asks. I smiled at his voice. He hasn't talked since last night. "Are you okay?" I ask. He shakes his head "Just come here." He tells me. I climb over to his seat and sit in his lap. He hugs me tightly. He cries into my shoulder. "Did that man hurt you?" He asks in between muffled tears. I don't answer him. He pulls away from my shoulder and looks at me. "D-Did he?" He asks again. I sigh and pull up my shirt. Last night when I was cleaning off I looked to make sure I was okay. I have a bruise on my torso. "How did that happen?" He asks worried "The guy was just holding me too tight. The real question is are you okay? Did that man hurt you?" I ask worried. "If your asking if he rapped me..." He says "No..but he was close than you saved me." He tells me. I kiss his lips and smile "I'm just glad your okay." I say "I'm glad your okay baby....I love you." He says kissing me. I pull away and smile "I love you too."

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We started walking after Daryl and Michonne woke up. We don't know where we are heading but lets just hope everything goes smoothly.

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Carl's P.O.V.

I don't know why but we've been walking for a week. I guess it's because all the bathroom breaks and resting we have done. Alex and I are holding hands. My dad and them are alittle head of us.

"So are you sure you're okay? Are you over thinking that you're a monster?" She asks. I nod. "Yeah."

The other day I told her how I really felt about that night with those men. I watched my dad bite that Joe guys neck. My dad thinks I'm perfect and he expects best from me but the truth is...I am just like him.

"Good." She says kissing me. All was good until Alex stopped and looked at me. "What?" I ask worried. She doesn't say anything. "Guys, there's something wrong!" I yell. They stop and walk towards us. "Alex are you okay?" Daryl asks. She doesn't say anything. Alex takes her hand away from mine and covers her mouth. She makes a gagging noice and runs to the side of the road. I run to her. She's throwing up. I pat her back. Why would she be throwing up?

Then it hit me.

She looked at me when she was done.

"A-Am I-..?" She asks

"I don't know."