Chapter 19

"Zak, let's go to sleep." I told him as I walked int the room. He seemed to be looking at me a lot.

"Take your shirt off." He told me. I looked at him with wide eyes. He would never say that to me. That was the demon messing too much with his brain. I walked ot my bag and I opened it.

"Get off of him. Now." I said to the demon. I knew that there was a chance that Zak would remember all of this. I then grabbed my sage and I lit it.

"That isn't going to work, you know? I am using Zak's energy and your own." Zak and the demon said in synchronazation. I looked at them because of the fact that their voices together was so weird.

"Let go of Zak." I told him again. I heard it chuckle and I set the burning sage on the table.

"You are a waste of space. You keep trying so hard to help them, but all that you do is create chaos for them." They said to me. I looked at them and shook my head.

"Maybe you are right. Maybe I do that. But I know that I would do whatever I can to make sure that they don't get hurt." I said. Seeing Zak not being in control of his body was hurting me so much.

"Why don't you come and take over my body? I am easier to get inot after all!" I told him. He knew that I was right.

"No, that would be too easy. I want you to feel some pain. I want you to realize that you are worthless." The demon said alone. His voice was enough to make my stomach churn. I still had to look like I wasn't afraid of it, though.

"Lea, please don't trust it! It is using that against you. It wants to destroy you. You know that." Leonard said. I nodded my head as I still stared at Zak and the demon. He wasn't going to remember a single thing of this. I was glad that he wasn't.

"You think that you can show me pain? I doubt that you could. I don't think that you would be able to think of something that would make me feel the pain that you want me to feel." I told him. Maybe doubting it would make it come and take over my body.

"Really? I think that I can come up with something." It said. I then watched it enter Zak's body. It was completly in and it had full control.

"Remember when he said that he wouldn't ever hurt you?" Zak said. I knew that it wasn't really him. He got off of the bed and walked to me. I backed away from him as I hit the back of the door. Zak then put his hand on my upper arms and pinned me to the door. He seemed to look really aggressive.

"Zak, please stop. You are hurting me." I said as he pushed harder. I was hoping that Zak could get some control over what was going on.

"Hmm. I wonder what I could say in Zak's voice? What would make you have nightmares?" I heard him say to me. I was now trying to get away without hurting him. He was just too strong for me.

"Lea, you disgust me. Your scars are horrible reminders to me that you are nothing but a worthless slut." He said to me. I looked up at Zak's face and I saw that he was smiling.

"You aren't Zak! Get out of him!" I said. I felt like I was breaking down. I couldn't take hearing those come from Zak. It was all too much for me.

"You are worth nothing. I should have let Gage take you away." He said to me. I kept reminding myself that he wasn't actually saying any of this to me. It wasn't him saying it.

"The fact that you can see weird crap is even worse! You are nothing but a delusional whore." He then said to me. For a minute, I thought that it was really Zak. I thought that he was really saying that to me.

"No, no. Stop. That's too far, you son of a bitch." I said to it. I then kicked him in the shin. Once I did that, He let go of me. I then ran to my phone. I was glad that I had remembered to put the guys on speed dial. I was able to get the phone to call Nick, before Zak grabbed me. I held it in my hand as he grabbed my throat.

"Zak! Please stop! Please!" I choked out as he tightened his grip.

"Zak, this isn't you. Please get through." I gapsed. Then the door knob was being jiggled. Zak's grip on my neck loosened as he looked. Nick then came in the room.

"Get off of her, man!" Nick said as he bolted in the room. He came over and pulled Zak off of me. He shoved him to the bed and Zak didn't fight him. I knew that the demon was still in him.

"Hold him down while I get some thing." My voice was still raspy. He only looked at me and I walked to my bag. I grabbed some holy water and brought over to Zak. I then sprayed it in his face.

"Christo." I repeated over as I squirted him. He would yell at the contact with the water. I wasn't really surprised. Then the demon left his body. I had the necklaces in my hand and I put them around his neck quickly. Zak kept his head bowed as he recovered. I went and sat in a chair. Aaron and Billy ran in and looked at all of us. 

"What happened?" Billy asked. 

"Something that should have never happened." Zak mumbled as he still sat there. He was panting and trying to recover. 

"Do remember any of that?" I asked him. He looked up at me and nodded his head. 

"I remember feeling angry towards you and wanting to show you that you were nothing. It was horrible. I saw all of it and I couldn't stop." He told me. the guys were all looking at me. 

"It's okay. I know that it wasn't you. I know that you were fighting it." I told him as I got up from the chair. I walked to him and put my hand on his shoulder. I realized that he could have done a lot more damage as I looked at his size.

"Did he hurt you?" Aaron asked me as he walked to me. He then grabbed my face and lifted it up so that he could see me better. He was looking for a slap mark or a black eye. Then he saw my neck.

"It wasn't his fault. It wasn't him. It was something that had control over him." I tried to tell them. I knew that I wasn't going to get anything through to them. Not now. Not now that they were all looking at my neck.

"You did this to her? How could you?" Nick asked Zak as he got off of the bed. Zak just sat there with his head down. He wasn't even going to try to defend himself. 

"Guys, really. It wasn't him." I told them all. 

"I am sorry. For everything. All those things that I said, they aren't true." I heard Zak say. I looked at him and he was looking at me. He was about to fall apart. 

"Zak, please. I don't blame you. I know that it wasn't you." I told him. 

"What did he say?" Nick asked me. I looked to see that he was glaring at Zak. 

"It's not important. It happened and we are now here and safe." I told him as I tried to calm him down. He had just hit his head a couple of hours ago. 

"I said that she was a disgusting, horrible, freaky, slut. Which you aren't." Zak told me as he grabbed my hand. I held his hand but I still stayed between him and Aaron. I saw that Nick was getting more and more agitated. 

"You called her that? Why would you do that? How?" Nick asked him. I looked to see that Billy was trying to keep out of it. I knew that he wasn't going to get into this battle. 

"I did. I said it. I told her those things. I didn't mean any of it, though. It wasn't true. None of it was." He told me. I squeezed his hand to reassure him. We then hit another silent moment. I didn't want a fight to break out, but I kept feeling like Nick was going to beat Zak's face in.

"Lea, I want you to come and sleep in my cabin." Nick finally said. I looked at him and he looked completely serious.

"What? I think that it taking it a bit too far." I told him.

"No, it's not up for debate. I want you to come and stay in my room. I don't think that you should be near Zak right now." He told me. I looked at Zak and he seemed to be speachless.

"I agree with Nick. You would be the safest with him." Billy said from the door. I wasn't expecting him to say that.

"Why would you say that? Don't you all trust Zak?" I asked them.

"After tonight? Not really. I have always had a bad feeling that he was going to do something to you. The size difference between you two was enough of a hint." Nick said. I couldn't believe that he was saying this about his best friend.

"Lea, please go with him. I need you to." Zak then told me. I then got on my knees before him and made him look at me.

"Zak, I don't blame you. Please know that. I really don't." I told him.

"I said that I wasn't going to ever hurt you, but I did. I hurt you. Just accept that and get out." He told me. I knew that this was now him.

"I am stronger than you think, you know. I don't want to leave you alone." I said to him.

"Do it. I don't want to hurt you. I don't want it to happen again." He told me. 

"Come on, Lea. Let's go." Nick told me. I looked up at him and he extended his hand to me. 

"I love you." I said to Zak as I put my hands on his face. He looked at me in the eyes. 

"I love you more than you could ever know." He told me. He then pulled me into a hug. I hugged him back just as tight. He kissed my shoulder as I pulled away. 

I then walked out of the room with Nick and Aaron they both walked be to his room where I saw that Billy was talking with Zak. I sat on Nick's bed and he looked at me like he was trying to be a father to me. 

"You know, if you are trying to be my father, you are doing it wrong. You would have done a spot of job if you had left me in there with him." I told Nick. I was trying to be humorous, but it wasn't catching on. 

"I guess that was an inside joke." I whispered to myself. 

"Is this even worth anything to you? Do you want to die?" Nick asked me. 

"Maybe I do! You don't know what I have had to deal with. I know what happened. I know that Zak wasn't the one that hurt me." I told him. 

"But he was. He could hurt you again. You know that he could really do some damage, right?" He asked me. 

"I know that he could, but he wouldn't. I am fine, really. I don't need protection from my boyfriend, or whatever the hell he is this week! And you don't need to alienate your best friend like that either!" I yelled at him. 

"You don't need to get hurt. Like what just happened right there." He said to me. I knew that this was going to go no where. 

"Lea, we are just trying to make sure that neither of you do something that you are going to regret later. Please just stay here for a while." Aaron told me. I saw that we were all exhausted. None of us havve had any sleep in a while.

"Fine, I will stay here." I told them. Aaron smiled at me and gave em a hug before he went to his room. I watched Nick as he crawled in the bed. I got on the otherside and laid down.

When I woke up, I saw that Nick was still asleep next to me. I saw that it was nearly 4:00pm. Leonard was sitting on the other side of the room. He seemed to be really upset about something. He and I looked at each other then he walked to me.

"Zak had a rough time getting to sleep. So I put a memory in his head. It was just one of the two of you sleeping. He might be okay today. Although, you should go get tattoos of those symbols so that you don't get anymore attatchments." He told me. I sighed and looked at Nick again.

"I told him that I would stay in here. Is Zak awake?" I asked him.

"No, he is still asleep. I think that Billy is awake." He said to me. I nodded my head and I got out of the bed. I then walked to the desk and I wrote Nick a note. I let him know that I was with Billy. I put it on the nightstand next to him before I left to see Billy.

I walked to Billy's room quickly. He was sitting outside and looking at the huge field that was before us. He looked at me slowly and I smiled at him.

"Are you okay?" He asked me. I walked over to him and sat next to him.

"Yeah, I am. What about you?" I said. He sighed and put an arm around me.

"I'm fine. Does your neck hurt you?" He asked as he looked at it. I figured that it was a little bruised.

"No, not really." I told him. We then hit a silent moment. It wasn't awkward. It was really comfortable. I leaned my head on his shoulder and we just looked out at everything.

"What did you talk to Zak about?" I asked him. I felt him breathe in deeply.

"It was about what had happened. I know that he didn't mean to hurt you. But he remembered all of it. He remembered every bit of it." Billy said. I closed my eyes and tried to hold back some tears.

"I was hoping that he wouldn't." I told him.

"I am sorry about what happened." He whispered. He knew that it wasn't his fault. It was more mine than anyone else's.

"It's okay. I need to see him, though." I told Billy. He smiled at me and looked at the direction that Zak's cabin was in.

"Go see him. I think that he will be fine. I'll be nearby." He told me. I smiled at him as I got up.

"Thanks, Billy." I told him. We then walked to the cabin. I looked at him one more time, befor eI walked in. It was unlocked and I saw that Zak was laying in the bed. He wasn't sleeping, though. He was just lying there.

"Zak?" I said as I walked in the room and to the bed. He sat up and looked at me. I stopped when I got to the end of the bed.

"What are you doing here?" He asked me.

"You must think that I hate you." I mumbled. He seemed to look at me like I read his mind.

"I don't. I don't hate you. Hell, I don't even blame you. It was my own fault. I should have left. I should have just kept walking down that road." I told him. He shook his head as he looked at me.

"No, you stayed where you belong." He told me. I smiled at him then I got on the bed. I crawled to him. As I got closer to him, I straddled his waist.

"Zak, you didn't do any of that. It wasn't you. I could never blame you for that." I told him. He smiled at me. Then I kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I moaned as he pulled me closer to his body. I could feel how warm he was. He was being so gentle with me.

"Wait, they might come in." He told me. I then started to kiss his neck.

"Let them. They might like it." I moaned in Zak's neck. I knew that the vibrations went through his body. I chuckled a little when he shivered. He then flipped us over so that he was on top of me. I smiled at him. He then took my shirt off of me and grasped my breasts. I arched my back toawrds him and moaned his name.

We took each other's clothes off quickly. We needed to show each other that it was okay. He trailed his fingers gently over each of the words on me. When he got to Gage's name, I looked at his face.

"Mine. You are mine." He groaned as he then kissed the area. It felt strangely comforting when he did that to me. He then kissed around to my inner thigh. He seemed to kiss everywhere, but where I needed him. He chuckled when I moaned in frustration.

"Don't be so greedy." He said to me. I then felt him start to tease me with his member. I gasped and grabbed the bed sheet. He then thrusted into me slowly. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he leaned over me. I needed to be close to him.

He was being so gentle with me. I felt like he was afriad that I was going to break. I moaned his name over and over again. He kept his hands on me as we continued through all of it. He then started to moan my name. I looked in his eyes as we unraveled together. 

Our foreheads met as we tried to catch our breaths. His body was laying on my own. My legs were wrapped around his wasit still. I didn't want to move. I loved the feeling of his heat and skin on me. 

"You aren't afriad of me?" He asked me. I kissed him hard in response. 

"Of course not. I would never be. You are nothing but a little puppy." I told him with a smile on my face. He smiled back at me and kissed me one more time.