Chapter 22

"What?" 

"Harry, I'm in love with you. I knew that a long time ago. I talked to my mother but a doctor warned me of the dangers that come with being involved with you if you feel differently. It literally needs to stop before it gets any worse or it endangers my life literally. So before we continue this conversation I need an answer." I looked up to see him with a look of surprise and relief? 

"I don't feel differently about you or our relationship. I do love you too you dork. I wouldn't drive you around after midnight to get coco. I wouldn't be at your house because I missed you if I didn't love you, baby. Come here." He tapped me so I could move closer. I felt my heart beat rapidly as he pulled me over to his lap, my legs on either side of him. 

"I love you. Okay? I just need you to get this conversation moving because I don't want to see you cry." He warned me and I pressed a soft kiss to his lip, bursting into tears after. He sighed heavily as I sobbed into his neck. 

"What did your therapist say?" He soothed my back as I stopped crying. 

"She wanted me to ask you if you'd be willing to go to a session tomorrow to try to find my breakthrough." I sniffled and he nodded. 

"Yeah, of course. Now what's with the journals?" 

"She wants you to read them. By yourself. She said if I don't let someone in eventually it'll be way too much and I'd go into a physic breakdown which I'd have little chance of recovery from." I sniffled and he sighed, rubbing my arm but I winced in pain, flinching back.

"What?" He tried to roll up my sleeves but I shook my head. "I got blood taken and got vaccines." I mumbled and he kissed my arm.  

"Hurt?" 

"Yeah, I got 6 tubes taken out, RIP my soul. 4 shots. One of them I think bruised me." I said rolling up my sleeve to expose my taped arm. I undid the tape carefully, looking to see if one of them bruised, which it did. 

"Did you eat?" 

"No. I haven't gotten around to it." 

"Baby." He groaned, tapping my bum softly. "Let's go." "Go?" I tilted my head and he rolled his eyes. "Eat. We're going out to eat. Come on." "No, I do-" "It wasn't a question my love." He warned me, pressing a kiss to my lips as we unlocked my door and walked downstairs to see my family waiting anxiously. 

"Are you okay, Gracie?" Josh was the first to ask when he saw I had cried. 

"She's fine." Harry shook his head. 

"Did you guys break up?" Marissa was next. 

"No." 

"Are you okay, Harry?" Mari asked.

"Yes." Harry answered all the questions but sighed heavily as he ran one hand over his face, the other was hooked around my waist to keep me pressed to his front. 

"Actually I'm not. Your sister irritates me since it's." He took out his phone to show it was 6. 

"6 o'clock and she has yet to eat breakfast. So, with all due respect to all of you I do love you all from the bottom of my heart but I'm taking her out for the night cause we have a few other things to discuss. I promise she won't be out too late." He yawned and I tilted my head to look up at him. 

"I don't really want to eat." 

"I don't really care if you don't." He whispered as he dragged me out the house.

"You know my mom said that you could spend nights at my place." I shrugged as we drove towards a taco bell.

"Did she?" Harry asked and I nodded, shivering and put the jacket he had used to keep me warm last night, over my body. 

"Is that your way of asking me to sleep over?" He smirked as we waited in line. "No, it's me telling my boyfriend that he's going to spend the night at my place because he loves his girlfriend so very much." I nodded as I looked up at him with my arms around his torso, he only rolled his eyes and ordered the 2 orders of the 12 taco box, quesadillas with a few other assorted goodies since he didn't eat, knowing we were both going to knock out everything. 

"I want to take it to go, I want to try something with you." I said to Harry who gave me a weird stare, nonetheless he asked them to put it in a to go bag(s). 

"Can I drive? It's a super special spot." I stuck my bottom lip out and he rolled his eyes, nodding. I grinned as he placed the keys in my hand and I helped him carry the food out to the car, placing it in the backseat. 

"I love you." I hummed happily as I situated my seat. "I love you too darling but you're scaring me." He laughed as I leaned over, pressing a kiss to his lips. 

"I promise. We'll have fun. We gotta make a tiny stop." I said driving to Nessas house to get a bag of gummies from her before going back in the car, shoving the bag in my pocket. 

"What did you get?" 

"Nothing. You'll see. I have a really secret spot I love going out and just hanging out, it overlooks the city and the stars." I hummed driving up the various mountains to park at a little parking structure, turning off the car. He helped me take the food to the hood of the car, helping me get over. 

"What's in your pocket, baby?" He asked me, his eyes looking into mine. 

"Edibles. It'll really help us mellow out cause you're obviously still tense about earlier." I began to massage his shoulders, he sighed, shaking his head. 

"I've never done them before." 

"You don't hav-" "I never said I wasn't going to do it." He warned me, sitting next to me on the other side of the pile of food. 

"They're gummies. Superduper strong." I said taking one of the squares into my finger, feeding it to him. I took one of my own which ended in me 

I laid to where my back was on his windshield and my legs were crossed as I ate my tacos. 

"Babe." Harry said, turning his head to face me. "Yeah?" I returned his tilted smile. 

"I really love you. From the bottom of my heart, I do. Maybe it's the weed talking or maybe I just feel my happiest when I'm with you but." He took a sip of his drink and supported his weight on his elbow. 

"I'm going to give it to you straight. You are the love of my life. You got me to settle down. You are my entire world and you know, baby, more than anyone that the world is so small." His eyes widened and I smiled. 

"My love for you is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me." 

"I love you too, Harry, if that's what you're getting at." 

"I love you too, princess, but that's not what I'm getting at. Would you do anything for me?" He asked and I shifted my weight to my elbow to face him. 

"I would." 

"So, hypothetically speaking. A year and a couple months from now we'll graduate, will we not?" 

"We will." I was confused but he had a goofy smile on his face. 

"I want you to marry me before we go off to college."