- It's All My Fault -

⚠️T/W: Suicidal Thoughts.___________________________________________

3rd POV:

Sounds of shouting could be heard from Al haitham and Kaveh's house as the two got into another fight.

"Will you stop making things complicated.. ", Al haitham said, trying to calm down.

"Oh, so now I'm the problem..!?" Kaveh said shouting back again.

That just made Alhaitham unhinged..

"Yes, YOU are the PROBLEM...!! " Alhaitham shouted as he pointed at Kaveh..

Kaveh was shocked which quickly turned into an angry look. " What..! ", he said as he went to Al haitham and grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. " Yes, you heard me right..! You are always the problem to everything!! You were probably the reason why your father died..!!".

'It's my fault...?", Kaveh's eyes widened as tears started to fall from eyes. His hands started to go weak and let go of Alhaitham's collar...

'yes. ", Alhaitham said sternly.

More tears started forming from Kaveh's eyes... "It's my fault.. "

Alhaitham started walking outside the door and it closed with a loud bang.

Kaveh's POV:

As Alhaitham left, I just kept crying. When I finally sat down on the couch, I thought about everything Alhaitham said..

"You're always the problem toeverything." Those words stabbed my heart like a knife..

they hurt so much..

But he's right, I'm probably the reason why my mother had so much pain... I'm also the reason for why bad things happen to people...

"it's my fault.." I say to my self quietly.

I looked down to my hands only to see them shaking in my lap. Then I saw small droplets of tears fall into my palms and settle in the crevices.

"It's all... My fault..." I repeated to myself once more, my breath becoming shaky and unsteady.

I looked up. Straight ahead right out the window infront of me, I saw clouds forming and rolling into Sumeru City. Dark thunder clouds like the ones above Inazuma's Ocean.

I look back down to my tear stained hands, then try to stand up, steadying myself on the arm of the couch. I carefully walk around the coffee table infront of me and head towards the stairs to go to my bedroom.

Suddenly, the word starts to spin. I can't see straight, no matter how hard I try. I continue to attempt to walk towards the stairs so I could get to the safe refuge of my bedroom. When suddenly my knees buckle underneath me and I lose my balance. Falling towards the floor I try to bring my hands to my head to protect it,  but I'm to slow, and I hit the ground before I could protect any part of me.

With a loud thud my body hits the wooden flooring. I bounce up a little from the impact but hit the floor once more before my body settles in it's place on the floor.

Once my mind catches up with what just happened, I wince from the pain of hitting the floor.

I attempt to lift myself from the cold wood floor of the lounge room, with my weak architect arms, but they lose the little strength they have and give way for my face to hit the floor again.

I groan from the pain of my face getting squished between the floor and my skull.

I finally give up and rest there for about 10 minutes until I feel ready to attempt to get up once again.

This time, I succeed in getting on my feet, standing straight up with a little help from the small lamp table I narrowly missed smashing my head on.

I have a shot at taking a step, but as soon as I lift my leg it starts physically shaking, so I put my leg back down and turn slowly on my heels, using various pieces of furniture to steadily  guide myself back to the couch.

I sit down on the far end of the couch, leaning against the arm.

Then suddenly a flash of bright light shoots through my eyes and all my memories of the previous argument coming rushing back to me.

Alhaitham's words from our argument resonate and echo through out my head, never leaving.

"It's all your fault".

"Your father died because of you".

"Your just a problem to everyone".

"YOU ARE THE PROBLEM, KAVEH".

The last sentence echoes the loudest in my head and refuses to leave me alone. I couldn't block it out. No matter how hard I tried, it always came back with the rest, echoing louder than before.

"I am the reason for everyone's suffering, everyone I love suffers because of me! My mother suffered because of me. My father died because of me.  Alhaitham can't live a day in peace because of me", I muttered these words over and over again to myself, over and over again.

Until I finally stopped, when I realized what the answer was to resolve everyone's suffering; to stop all their pain.

"I have to leave. I have to never come back..."

"I... have to..."

"Die".

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Hello Everyone 👋Just wanted to let you know that this Fanfic will probably be updated really slowly, and I cannot guarantee that I will finish it, but I will try really hard too!-Elumini <3Words: 833