Chapter 33

I woke up with burning eyes. How long was i crying last night? My head is throbing like shit. I stood up and look myself at the mirror. I look horrible! Red shot-eyes, my hair in every direction and i still wore my clothes when i meet Candace. Its sunday and Niall is going home.

I undress my self and hop in the shower. The cold water roll down my skin and im happy that it relaxes every muscles in my body.

Im broken.

Im lost.

I feel like a piece shit.

Candace apologize.

Dad needs me.

His sick, very sick.

Now i need to grab this apportunity and grab it while i can. Its been 5 years since i last saw my dad. I've got 3 months here as a senior and my dad can go anytime. Next week is my entrance exam in London university but i really really need to go and see my dad for the very last time. If Harry can be here and i'll cuddle with him while he tell me everything will gonna be okay.

Harry...

Did he love me all along? Those sweet and lovely words. His passionate and affection. His actions. His kisses. His promises... Is that all true? Did he ever change?

Im afraid to hear the answers and im not teady to hear everything.

I grab some leggings and tank top. I dont even care about combing my hair at all.

"Good morning shorty!" Niall said looking at me and i smile "Good morning" i said weakly. "Good morning Honey" Mom said handling me a bowl of cereals. I told my mom about it also and i dont want to remember her reaction, the sadness and pity. "Im coming home early. Lunch on the fridge. Bye kids" Mom said and i nod.

"I hate looking at you like this. You look horrible!" Niall said looking at me and i look at him with my deathly glare "Well thank you!" I said and he laugh. He stood up and lend his hands "What?" I asked "Stand up! Up!" He ordered and i roll my eyes as i stood up in front of him. "Change your clothes were going outside" he said "I dont want to! " i said "You wont let that stupid guy ruin your life! So get upstairs and change!" He said and i blink twice before i nod.

Wow, Niall seems very weird today. Man period i guess.

I wore some jeans and a white shirt and put my grey cardigan and maroon scarf. Its November! I put my vans on and went downstairs. "Lets go" he said as he grabs my hanuue got something to tell you" he said as we stroll down the park "What?" I said "Im not going to Ireland today" he said and i push him "What!?" I yelled "I call my mom last night. I cant leave you like these! Your going at the other side of the Earth just to see your dad again and i dont know when you will come back!" He said with sad eyes. I looked at the ground and he stood in front of me and lift my chin up so i am looking at him in the eyes. "Let's go get some ice cream?" He said with a smile and i smile back.

"Do you remember Tony?" He said and i laugh "The girl with the funny style in year 5?" I asked and he nods "Well she's a hottie now! She's like one of the hottest girl on school" he said and i laugh "What about that Rebecca girl?" I asked and he blushed "Look at Nialler getting all blushy! " i said pinching his cheeks and he laugh "Stop it! " he said and we laugh "Greg got a girlfriend" he said and i smile "Well congratulation for him. His just like you! You always got tongue tied when it comes to girls!" I said and he stuck his tongue out. We laugh and a sudden chill runs in my spine as i remember Harry. I frown and took a bite on my ice cream.

Tears glands or whatever you are dont be active now! Not here in the ice cream shop!

"You deserve someone better" he said as he wipes down my tears and i looked at him "You deserve someone who makes you laugh everyday, makes you special in different way, support you and not ruining you like this" he said.

Harry makes me laugh everyday. He always makes me special even in small ways. He support every decisions i make. Ruining? He break me. Every piece of me.

"Your dad will be delighted to see you again. Maybe there is a reason why he left." Niall said as he trace circular motions in my palm. I look at him and smile as i place my hand on top of his. "Niall, thank you for everything. Thank you for being there for me" i said and he smile back "Everything for you" he said.

Seconds later my heart stopped and my world stop spinning. Every muscle in my body stiffen. My heart ache and my body paralyzed as i heard his voice "Meg? What are you doing?" Harry said at my back. Niall looked at him as i looked at Niall with intense and scared look. "Why are you two holding hands?" Harry said and he stood beside me. His voice is angry, no... Furious.

Im afraid to look at him. Im afraid not because his angry but that when i look at him my hearts' damage will be worst than ever. Niall stood up and stood in front of him, blocking me. "Mate, give her space. Its not what it looks l-" Niall was cut off by Harry punching him.

I was shocked and scared. I saw Niall landed on the floor. I stood up and helped Niall "Are you okay? Oh my god" i said. Nialls nose is bleeding, i hope its not broken. "What the hell Meg! What are you doing with him! Why are you two holding hands! Dont tell me your cheating on me! What? Are you becoming a whore now just like your sister?" He said and i swear everyone on the shop is watching us. But i dont care. My world become blank as his words sunk in. Niall stood up and throw a punch at Harry. I in the other hand froze on my spot.

Harry never said those words to me. My Harry never hurt my feelings. My Harry will always be there for me. My Harry will come and hug me and tell me everythings gonna be okay. My Harry told me he loves me, always. My Harry...

I stood up with tears on my eyes. I cant breathe properly, it feels like the whole world is on my back. I just want to lay on the floor and never talk again. The pressures too much. But i need to fight it before i go away.

"Stop it guys" i said quietly as Niall throw a punch on Harrys face. "Stop it guys" i said in my normal voice but they keep on fighting and throwing punches "GUYS! I TOLD YOU! STOP FIGHTING!" I yelled and they stopped. "Niall go home." I said looking at the ground "Bu-" "Niall. I can handle this. Just go home and tell mom i'll be home later" i said with a weak smile as i looked at him and he sighed. "Please be careful" he said before walking away.

Its me and Harry. It took like 3 minutes before he grab my arms and pulled me into his car. His touch burning against mine. Its only been a day since we felt so happy. The drive way to somewhere is so quiet and awkward. All i can do is to stare at the window. I need to settle this thing before i go away.