Heartbeat

HEY!, here is the second chapter in the ER (emotion rollercoaster) chapters, hope you guys... like it?, ANYWAY, I FOUND THE MOST AMAZAYN SONG THAT MATCHES THESE ER CHAPTERS PERFECTLY AND I THINK YOU GUYS SHOULD LISTEN TO IT!!, IT'S SOOOO SAD! I'VE ATTATCHED IT TO THIS CHAPTEEEER! <3 thanks for being so patient Babycakers and thanks for all the lovely comments and everything, you guys are Extrodanharry.,(see what i did thuur?)eeeeeeeenjoy!VOMMENT! (Vote and comment!)xxIsabelle._____________________________________BEFORE THE ACCIDENT-HARRY ~ 

It was getting dark on the boat, and I think the both of us were getting worried.

“they’ll notice that we’re not there, right?” Jaycee asks me, nudging into my chest a little more

“I promise they’ll notice us, Jay, I promise”

“You’ve made a lot of promises Harry”

“Only ones I intend to keep”

“What about the promise you made me, back in England”

“Which one?”

“The one where you said you’d love me, forever”

“I never said I didn’t love you anymore, Jaycee”

“it sure felt like it”

I turn to look at her, and she looks down, silly girl, I know she’s insecure, but she has nothing to be insecure about.

I bring my finger up to her chin, tilting it slightly.

“I promised to love you forever, and forever I shall” I say, kissing her just lightly on the nose.

She shivers.

“I’m cold”

my heart faulters the second she says that, I don’t want her to be cold. Let alone… worried.

“come here-“ I pull us both to the bottom of the boat, she lay on my chest.

It was so much warmer down here, both of us lying on our backs, staring up at the night sky.

The stars were so bright tonight.

“do you remember that time we spent together… in the bus?” she asks me, and I could tell it was a touchy subject for her.. once she tensed under my glance.

“I remember” I whisper into her ear

“did you know that… you were my first?”

I feel a smile come across her face, which triggered one of mine.

I didn’t know that.

“well, I know now, and I am honored”

“Harry?”

“Yes?”

“do you still love me, you know, the way you used to?”

“what do you mean?”

“Do you love me… in that way”

I blush, of course I do Jaycee!

“my opinion has never changed of you, I have always loved you Jaycee, and I always will. In all the ways that are possible” I felt an urge, an urge to kiss her.

She snuggles into me, her bare leg, entwining with mine.

“I love you too” she whispers, planting a sweet kiss on my cheek.

Jaycee was everything I wanted. And even right now, when we are trapped in a small metal boat, floating around the river randomly, I still felt like having her in my arms was the best feeling… it always is.

I love you, Jaycee.

And I always will.

 

ICU, POST ACCIDENT

5 DAYS LATER.

Harry was becoming tired. He’d been waiting and waiting for her to make.. even the smallest movement.

Just a twitch of the finger,

Just the flutter of the lashes.

Anything.

But no, after five days in a coma, he and the boys had seen no progress. Sure, she was in a stable state (well, that’s what they were told) but the least she could do was move something.

Harry’d never, ever left her side. Occasionally for the toilet and lunch stops, but aside from those, he hasn’t left the hospital. Harry felt like, if he left, then she would leave, too.

He didn’t want to spend a second away from her, and if she did pass over, he didn’t know what he would do with himself, he’d be an absolute wreck.

He just couldn’t stand to go another second without hearing her voice.

Harry’s head snapped up, and he shook her arm violently. Alarming the rest of the boys.

“wake up Jaycee… PLEASE!” he yelped, continuing with the shaking.

“PLEASE!... I NEED YOU!”

“Harry… stop!” Niall yells, pulling his arm back

“NO!, not until… i… hear….her….voice!” he screams inbetween tugs.

“Harry, you need to accept that she’s NOT going to wake up for a while!, we can’t DO anything!” Liam inturrups, helping Niall pull him back. But when Harry was angry, he was strong.

He moved to her shoulders, shaking them violently, too.

“JAYCEE… Please!” He hugs her body tightly, not caring about the cramp that was forming in his neck from craning it to her level.

“I just… I just need you” he gives up and says, placing himself back down on the chair, swiping at the multiple tears rolling down his flushed red cheeks.

Louis felt a whole lot of guilt hit him then, he wanted to help his friend through this, he wanted him to be okay. But he knew that if anything was said about ‘being okay’ Harry would most likely run off.

Louis’s impulses got the better of him, and he just hoped that Harry’s didn’t, either.

“You’ll both be okay” he says, standing out of his chair.

“No, Lou, we wont, she’s most likely gonna die!”

“You don’t know that, Harry, none of us know that, LOOK, her heart rate is normal, her blood pressure is just a LITTLE higher than normal… but she is OKAY for gods sake!, you don’t need to be at her side 24 hours of the day!, I know it’s hard for you to let go, but you bloody well have to!, FOR EVERYONE ELSES SAKE!”

Harry flushes red, he was angry, and Louis could see that.

Harry picked up what emotions he had hanging, and finally stood up, looked at all the boys and said; “I’m leaving”.

He stomped out of the hospital room and ran down the hall, through the reception, and out the front door.

He had no idea where he was going.

And he didn’t bloody care.

THREE HOURS LATER-

ICU.

Liam stood over Jaycee’s bed, watching her intently.

What had happened? All he remembered is Harry carrying Jaycee to shore, shouting things in an unidentifiable language. He felt bad about not knowing they were stuck out on a boat, if he had known, he would have been out there quicker then they could yell ‘help’.

Lauren made her way home, back to England that was, she felt like there was nothing here for her anymore, and that was true, there wasn’t.

Harry had always loved Jaycee, and all the boys saw that, including Liam. Sure, sometimes they both can be so blunt to each other, showing no emotion or feelings for their relationship, but deep down they knew what they had was different. And Harry getting with Lauren, was NOT a good idea, no matter how many times Liam told him that, he just didn’t listen, and he never planned to. The rest of the boys knew that it was just a cover up for Jaycee being miles and miles away, but that still was no excuse, Harry and Jaycee’s relationship, Liam knew, was s’post to last. And this happening to Jaycee… he could see that it had struck a nerve inside of Harry, and now he was in a fragile state.

A fragile state that was roaming the street for three and a bit hours now.

Liam traces his finger up Jaycee’s arm, raising goosebumps on her pale skin.

Then he watches the way her nose twitches when she gets touched, and the way her fingers fold gently-

It took Liam a while to process that her fingers weren’t s’post to move. Nor was her nose.

He jumped back.

“Jaycee?” he asks, bringing his face closer to hers.

He watches her eyes flutter open, and then flutter shut again.

Liam dives towards the nurse button, pressing it several times.

“BOYS!” he yells, and all three of them stand from their seats on the opposite side of the room

“SHE’S AWAKE!”

5 MINUTES BEFORE THE ACCIDENT BOAT.

 JAYCEE’S P.O.V-

 

Maybe I should have told him.

Maybe I should tell him.

This damn pain has been eating away at me for hours now, and I haven’t gotten any sleep because of it.

I’d kill for a Panadol.

I stand myself up, the early morning sunshine hitting my face like a fireball, causing me to squint my eyes.

“Harry-“ I shake his shoulder gently, making sure not to wake him up too violently.

I check where we were, and we were still far away from shore, but if it was a REAL emergency, we could swim back now, it’s alright.

That darn sun keeps blinding me!

I take a step back, hitting the back of my ankle on the metal seat, causing me to fall backwards.

I feel a sharp pain fly up my side, and then my head slams into something hard, shattering the world around me.it takes me a couple of seconds to adjust to the light, and a couple of minutes to get my head steady.after that, i couldn't move it. 

I bring my hand up to the back of my head, touching the tender part.

Looking at my palm, I see loads of blood running from my fingers and into a pool beside me.

“shit…” I mumble, half breathless.

I hate blood.

I just lay there, for who knows how long. I tried my best to kick Harry, just to WAKE him for a second, just to help me… but he wouldn’t move.

“Harry…” I whine, wincing at the throbbing pain at the back of my head

“Harry… help” I choke, feeling lightheaded now.i cough for a couple of seconds, and blood spurts out from my tounge, leaving a satly/metallic taste lingering there. 

I reach my foot forward one last time, trying to kick Harry as hard as I could. “please, wake up” is the only thing I have time to say, before the world goes black.

And so does my mind.

ICU

 

“SHE’S AWAKE!” Liam hollers from the hospital bed, Zayn, Niall and Louis jump up and run over to her bedside, they all stop and watch her intently.

Jaycee’s eyes fluttered again, opening half way.

That’s when the bustling started.

Liam jumped over to his mobile, flipping it open and dialing the first number he could reach;

Harrys.

Zayn got the closest nurse, Niall got a cup of water, and Louis held Jay’s hand.

Jaycee’s eyes fluttered open once more, and she breathed in, choking on her breathing tube.

The nurse came running in just in time, telling the boys to look away while she brought the thing up and out of her stomach.

The sound she made was unimaginable.

Once the nurse had left, the boys came rushing back to her bedside.

“Harry isn’t answering, guys” Liam says, shutting the phone for the second time.

“Jaycee?” Zayn says, bringing his face closer to hers.

“Z-“ she starts, but then stops.

“Li-“

“Ni-“

“Lo-“

“Ha-Harry” the word she was trying to get out, became clear.Jaycee fought past the coma, past the treatments, just so she could open her eyes and see... him. 

The boys were distraught, knowing that the one she wanted, had ran off into the rain.

And the one thing he wanted, was waiting here, for him.

“He’s not here” Liam says, taking her other hand in his

“W-why?” she studders, her breath getting caught in her throat.

“He ran away” Niall says bluntly, and Liam feels the tears prick the back of his eyelids.

Harry just HAD to run off right now…

“w-hy would he-“ Jaycee barely started her sentence when a familiar heart monitor beeping came ringing through all the boys’ ears.

Jaycee’s eyes close again, and her head flops to the side.

she was loosing herself again.

“Jaycee! NO!” they all yell, Niall runs off and calls another nurse, who brought in more and more doctors.

Jaycee’s heart rate had dropped, and her blood pressure rose dramatically. And the sound those monitors were making, was… indescribable.

just this horrid blank sound. 

 /\__/\__/\__/\__/\______________________ 

They say something had sent her into shock, something had pulled her heartstrings… something that impacted the way her heart beated, something broke the steady rhythm it took so long to uphold.

And that something was Harry. She wanted him there.

She wanted to see him.

Even just for a second.

And that’s, what killed her the second time.

The boys watched from behind the glass window, their hearts beating faster than it could be possible.

They all knew why she had gone back in coma, they all knew what had happened.

They all knew, it was Harry. 

Liam flicked out his phone one more time, pressing ‘3’ speed dialing Harry.

“What do you want Liam?” He asks, angrly.

“Jaycee… she woke up”

there was a long silence between the boys, and then Harry slammed the phone shut,

Liam tried to finish his sentence with; “but she’s back out again”, but he just couldn’t get the damn words out of his mouth.