Chapter 32

(A/N: This book is ALMOST OVER!!!!!!!! I'm ending it just like Jesse did with her book about me...with 34 Chapters, well the last chapter was an epilogue, BUT THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO AS WELL!!!!! I CANNOT WAIT! THIS WILL BE MY FOURTH BOOK THAT'S BEEN COMPLETED!!!!)

Chapter 32 :D

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Jesse's POV

***Recap***

"You know, if you dated me, but lost your job, I have a lot of money...it's not like I'm in the world's biggest boy band or anything." Harry shrugged, smiling.

"I'm not taking your money, Harry...I just. I don't know what I would do. Can we just hang out at the hotel?" I asked him.

"Yeah...sure." Harry mumbled, looking out of the window.

I felt guilt all over me. I didn't like this, he was mad, I know he is. I practically just rejected his date, but this IS the right thing to do, isn't it?

The whole car ride was silent between us and we just kept it that way. I didn't know what to do or say, but one step into the hotel and the words 'I'm sorry.' kept coming out of my mouth.

"Harry I'm sorry.." I said for the fifth time since we've gotten in our hotel again. The boys decided they would eat at the buffet in the hotel, but Harry wanted to go back to our room so I followed because I wanted to apologize.

"Harry? Please talk to me..." I whispered, we had reached our room, he opened it, and tossed his blazer onto the couch, and then sat down. His hand went for the remote, but I swiftly grabbed it, staring at him with a sad look.

"I'm sorry for not wanting to lose my job over somewhere we can eat! I'm sorry for you being upset with me and I'm sorry I'd rather hang out here than get mobbed by fans." I threw my hands in the air, heading into my room, and slamming the door.

Harry didn't even look at me once, that bothers me. I didn't mean to hurt his feelings, but wouldn't he rather have me here than go home? Still be in the band than no crappy job?

I grabbed my phone and decided to contact Kristin since it's been a while in seeing her and she always knew what to do with these kind of situations.

"Jesse? It's been so long, hiii!" She answered, I grinned as I remembered the good days we had of hanging out soo often.

"Hey! Uhh, have you known that I've became a drummer in the biggest boy band?"

"Yeah, One Direction right?"

"Yeah, that band...and you know...the curly haired one..?" I whispered the last part, I couldn't tell if Harry was listening.

"The one that you've been cuddling more up to than the others, of course." I bet she was smirking right now.

"I need some help, recently before we were secretly dating because my contract says that I can't do that, but we broke off, and today he asked me on a date and I said yes, but then their management made a meeting with us and I told him that we should just hang out in the hotel room. He's all upset with me now and won't listen to me, I don't know what to do." My voice cracked at the end because I really care for Harry and the way he's been acting now...

"So he's been angry that you broke off the date, is it because of their management?" Kristin asked.

"Yes, they said they'll fire me in seconds if they see us around with each other and I can't risk my job, but he won't see what I see. I'm still with him in the hotel, he's acting like we can't just have fun here...I even apologized several times. He won't even bother to listen to me or to even look at me." I sighed, laying across my bed.

"He's just being a grouch. As soon as he realizes what could happen when you're gone, he'll be the one apologizing, you don't need to be saying sorry, it's him. Let him cool off, but dont' let him treat you like that, give it back to him. Stand on your grounds, but don't slam doors or make it seem like your mad. Act normal, pretend like he isn't even there. If you need anymore help, you know you can always call me."

"Thank you, KK. Why does things have to be so complicated?" I questioned, more to myself than her, but oh well.

"It's life, babe. If we didn't have bumps in the road or pain, then what's life? Life wouldn't be life without it. Remember what I told you and don't give in. Alright, my boss is calling me. I'll talk to you later, bye Jess." 

"Bye KK."

I put my phone next to me and bit my lip. Pretend like he isn't there. That's not too hard...but what if I wanted to anger Harry more, or is it just the jealousy I'm aiming for?

To: Nialler

Will you come get me from my room? I want to come eat with you boys! I MISS YOU GUYS.

Sent.

From: Nialler

Of course, on my way! I deserve a hug for leaving my food right now!!! x

I let out a small laugh and put my phone inside of my back pocket. I'll go wait in the other room, it shouldn't take him that long to get up here.

Harry was laying on his side, flipping channels, but he looked depressed in that way. Wait, stop Jesse, keep going. I got up on the bar stool, it was kind of loud when I pulled it out. I heard Harry shuffle on the couch, maybe he was trying to see what had happened.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

I hopped off of the bar stool and opened the door. Niall greeted me with a hug.

"Is Harry coming too?" Niall asked.

"Probably not," I shrugged, "I don't care."

"Okay...uh Harry? You want to come grab some food?" Niall decided to be polite since Harry had his eyes on us, mostly on Niall though, more like a glare.

"No.." Harry whispered, tearing his eyes from us, and back towards the tele.

"Shall we go?" Niall said in a different accent which made me giggle.

"Of course." I nodded. Time to actually have some dinner.

"Thanks boys!" I waved, shutting my hotel door behind me with a smile.

"So you'd go on a date with them, but not me, is that it?" Harry crossed his arms, his eye brows furrowed at me.

I walked past him with the same smile, but his hand grabbed onto my arm.

"Don't do this. Talk to me." Harry said, firmly.

I tried to bring my arm back, but his grip pulled me closer to him. I still acted as if he wasn't there. 

"Jesse. Look, I'm sorry for acting like a prick. I just want to have the freedom of going on a date with you and not get the both of us in trouble for it. I don't want you to lose your job, but I can't help my feelings for you. I'm sorry for taking my anger out on you when it's not your fault. Talk to me?" Harry's voice cracked towards the end. I took a deep breath and faced him.

"Harry, you won't get everything you want. You have to know that there are rules in life, you can't break every single one of them, but you can move around them. I told you we could hang out here, but you decided to ignore me and let me feel super guilty about my decisions, now I don't even care. Get mad because I'm just doing my career and having fun on the wa.y" I let a simple shrug take place. He angrily sighed.

"But I want you. I want you to be mine. I don't like what management is doing to me, the restrictions are out of line. They can't tell me that I can't like you because I can't even stop that. I've fallen for you and there is no way to get up. I didn't want you to leave when Niall came up here, I wanted you to stay here with me, I was going to talk to you...I just needed to feel calm again, but it built right back up after Niall showed up, but I'm not mad anymore...because I know you like me, a lot." Harry started to smirk. I stood silent and rolled my eyes.

"I had a lot of time to think and you aren't interested in Niall or the other boys, you're interested in me." Harry said, backing me up into the wall. I catched my breath, realizing how close he was.

"I have this affect on you." He whispered, pressing his lips down on my cheek, then moving down to my jaw, leaving wet little kisses. I contained a moan wanting to slip. I wasn't going to let his slyness win.

"Harry." I said sternly.

"Mhm." He hummed, kissing around my neck before sucking softly.

"Stop." I pushed my hands on his chest, he grabbed the both of my wrists, and pushed them above my head on the wall.

"I won't hesitate to kick you in the balls, Harold." I replied to his actions. He backed off slowly, but kept a smile.

"Do you forgive me?"

"I don't know."

"You will..." Harry mumbled before heading into his room, shutting the door behind him.

I will? What is he talking about?

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