chapter 12

Chapter 12.

On a fine evening, the bar Endless Night.

SuA sat drinking alone in the corner between the noisy and crowded space. She rarely goes to such crowded places alone, if she does, she usually goes with a group of friends. But now she is alone.

Indeed, Lee Siyeon is the only one she has, when Siyeon is no longer there, she is completely alone.

Dami is having a party at home so SuA has to stay at the hotel today. Dami keeps her promise not to reveal anything about SuA to her friends.

If someone found out, Kim SuA would have to find a hole to hide in, she felt so embarrassed.

No one ever gets violated for the same mistake twice, only Kim SuA.

It was foolish of her to let herself be entangled in such toxic relationships.

Once again her beloved father was right, he said that she was blind in love, and indeed, she was. She was blind so she couldn't see Lee Siyeon's promiscuous personality, when the two had a distance Siyeon  quickly had temporary pleasures.

Siyeon's excessive love, kindness and thoughtfulness made her completely blind. She had put her heart into trusting Siyeon absolutely without a doubt.

Maybe she should listen to her father Kim, love someone he accepts?

- May I sit here? – a beautiful girl smiling with SuA, wearing a black vest with deep mid-chest looks very attractive.

- You can sit anywhere, I'm not the owner of this bar - SuA carelessly replied, raising a glass to take a sip of wine, her words made the other girl laugh.

- My name is Kang Seulgi, what's your name? - The other girl sat down next to SuA.

- Kim SuA.

- Why are you sitting here alone, where are your friends?

- I do not have.

- You’re so beautiful but you do not have, is the world blind?

- No, I'm the one who's blind - said SuA emotionlessly. In the process of working, there are many people who want to be friends with her, but she is friendly with limits, she only considers those relationships as social, she does not want to be too close to anyone.

There were even many men and women who flirted with her, but she ignored it. She only considers JiU's friends as close friends, including Dami, because that's JiU's friend.

Then there was Lee Siyeon, who she allowed herself to open her heart to to let Siyeon go deeper.

She thought that after JiU she couldn't love anyone that much anymore, but Siyeon objected to that statement. Siyeon was right because she loved Siyeon as much, even more.

But Siyeon made her feel disappointed, as if watching the beautiful scenery on the top of the mountain suddenly pushed down the cliff.

SuA was too careless and she promised herself that she would never let this happen again.

SuA continued to raise a glass of wine and drink, gossiping about topics related to life with the person next to her in a drunken state, she couldn't even remember the name or the face of the person, even though they had just introduced to her.

After finishing the one-liter bottle of wine, SuA got up and went to the hotel room she had reserved, she didn't even bother to say goodbye to the person who just talked to her. She thought she would be judged as impolite.

But she didn't really care.

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Time passed, at the bank of the Han River, early in the morning.

Dami asked Siyeon to stand here to talk, currently there are only a few passersby to exercise, the space is very quiet, the weather is fresh.

- Where is SuA? – Siyeon hastily asked, two weeks have passed since that night and she has had no way of contacting SuA.

She persisted in calling SuA every day and texting SuA with different content but received no response. Even Siyeon went to DCC headquarters to ask about SuA, but the security there didn't answer because she couldn't prove her relationship with SuA, and she didn't have an appointment scheduled.

Two weeks that felt like two months, Siyeon died with every tick of the clock. Her grief dyed those around her, causing the person closest to her, Wendy, to drop the mood as well.

Wendy tried the best to advise Siyeon that she should consider her and SuA to be out of love, this relationship is only in its infancy, lasting for a few months, not worth her time to invest painfully in it.

But Siyeon couldn't agree to this. It's been almost 7 months since she met SuA that she's completely stuck in the kind of love she has for SuA, unable to get out. How could she be so deeply in love with someone she just met? In such a short time that she wanted to live in the same house with SuA, even wanted to have children with SuA, everything was her own initiative and planning, something she had never done before.

SuA appeared in her life in a flash and disappeared from her in the same overwhelming way.

She jumped for joy when SuA's friend actively contacted her, she couldn't wait to see SuA again, so she quickly set up an appointment with Dami. But Dami was quite busy, so it took a few days for the two to meet.

- I didn't meet you to talk about SuA's whereabouts - Dami said coldly.

The look on the other's face made Siyeon shiver, Lee Dami has a very poise and serious aura, she's only about Siyeon’s age, looks like a smart person.

- SuA has some necessary things at home that she needs to use for work, such as a laptop, document  files. So go out of the house for a day so she can get her things.

- It's her house, she can come back anytime - Siyeon is annoyed with Dami's attitude.

- You know it's not.

- ……………………

- I already know everything between you and SuA, you are a toxic, Lee Siyeon - Dami looked at Siyeon with half eyes.

- Be careful what you say - Siyeon annoyed.

- SuA was betrayed and she was very sad, when SuA got to know you, I thought she met the right person, no one expected you to be no different.

- I didn't betray, everything was just a misunderstanding - Siyeon lost her temper and said loudly.

- Misunderstanding? You're an adult and you still think about sleeping with someone it's because you've been harmed? - Dami sarcastically.

Siyeon angrily clenched her fist, if this is not SuA's friend, she is ready to give this girl a punch.

- SuA's father went to prison and she lived very negatively for a few weeks, she didn't want to see me, pushed me away, at that time I was extremely miserable because I couldn't help her - Siyeon explained slowly.

- And then you slept with another person to heal misering? – the sarcasm in Dami's words increasingly damaging.

- You…… Damn it – Siyeon gritted her teeth, looking at Dami like an enemy.

- If the relationship has been in trouble in just a few weeks and you have become so weak, then it's best for you not to have a relationship with SuA anymore. Because she is someone who needs a healthy and long-lasting relationship, like her previous love.

- Her previous love? Healthy and long lasting? May I ask where the healthy comes from? Don't make silly comparisons here - Siyeon growled.

- I see you texting SuA a lot, but please let her go, leave her alone - Dami said emphatically.

- Finally, where is SuA?

- Don't ask me that question again. Even though two of you are suffering at the same time, but you’re  the only one to reach the top and achieve orgasm, you have no right to see SuA again.

- You can fucking say whatever you want here, I'm the one to have mistake, I'm wrong, but I'm sure of one thing that my feelings for SuA are many and never change, even while I sleep with others, I still remember her.

- ……………………..

- I acted too carelessly, it's a mistake that I deeply regret every day, I'm a toxic person, whatever, but I won't give up on SuA, absolutely not.

After Siyeon said that, turning her back to walk, she heard Dami's last words behind her.

- Text me the day you leave the house so that SuA can come back and get her things.

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A short time passed.

SuA stepped out of the bathroom after taking a shower, feeling a bit bewildered in her heart. She has already missed her period by 10 days, could it be……

SuA shook her head, that couldn't be. The doctor said that the success rate of conception is about 30%, if she wants complete success, she needs to have several implants, so it is impossible to get pregnant at the first time.

She just went to the living room with such a blank face, sat down with Dami to watch a movie.

- SuA , I say you something - Dami twisted her tongue a few times and then said.

- What?

- Not long ago, I made an appointment to meet Siyeon to talk.

- What a good meeting - SuA said carelessly and sarcasm, eating strawberries and watching TV, her brain was completely empty, so she didn't even pay attention to why Dami was able to contact Siyeon.

- I told her that you want to go home to get some necessary things, she needs to go out for a day so you can go home.

- …………..

- Siyeon texted me saying she's going to Malaysia the day after tomorrow because Wendy is holding a concert, you can come back then.

- ………….

- I checked the information online, it is true that Wendy has a concert overseas on that day, so please come back the day after tomorrow to get your things.

- Yeah.. - SuA slightly compromised, the data in her laptop won't be needed until next month, so she's in a delayed state, she hasn't thought about it at all. At first, she was very worried about how to go home to get her things, but then she gradually had an attitude of letting go, because she was too tired.

She was really tired thinking about Lee Siyeon.

This feeling is much more exhausting than when she found out about JiU and Yoohyeon.

The reason why she was so tired could be because Siyeon was still stubbornly contacting her, and JiU had no longer contacted her, giving her peace.

But Siyeon is not, she is bothered by Siyeon quite a lot.

She gets Siyeon’s calls almost every day and she always has to turn off the ringer to put it on silent mode, every time Siyeon calls she will put the phone face down. Siyeon's unread messages piled up day by day, the number had reached 80.

SuA doesn't want to open and read, she doesn't want to be shaken and stupid again.

JiU and she have such a long relationship that she was betrayed, so she has no hope anymore in someone she had only met for a few months like Siyeon.

She recently changed the name of Siyeon's phone number, from "Singnie" to "Toxic".

This word each time a notification pops up on her phone, reminding her that she needs to stay away from this person.

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Two days later, early morning

SuA suddenly woke up, ran to the bathroom and vomited.

She feels so bad, what's going on.

After vomiting, SuA sat on the floor, her back against the wall panting, she felt tired and chest tightness. Yesterday she ate very well, can't be the reason for this vomiting.

And to this day she still missed her period, could it be……

SuA went to buy a pregnancy test and then returned to Dami's house, feeling extremely worried and nervous while waiting for the results.

2 lines.

- Oh my God - SuA put her face on her knees, she kept sitting in such a corner in the bathroom, her spirit was extremely negative.

People who have a successful pregnancy are happy, but she is the complete opposite. She didn't want this to happen.

The person who suggested this was Lee Siyeon, she followed with a confused spirit, and now she was the one to bear the consequences.

Why is she so easy to get pregnant? she only went to the artificial insemination hospital once. Why is it so easy to succeed...?

The phone rings.

- Hello - SuA is tired of answering the phone.

“Miss Kim, I have found a suitable house, when do you want to see the house?” – real estate agent, Park Jihyo said.

- I... don't want to be in Korea anymore.

"What?"

- Maybe I need to go somewhere else.

According to the schedule, SuA has to go to Siyeon's house to get her necessary items. She rested in bed for a while to calm down and then drove home.

It is currently noon, SuA entered the familiar house. She has only been in this house for only two months, but she already has a lot of beautiful memories lingering here.

SuA blankly looked at the whole house, corner by corner, every place had her and Siyeon's memories there. From the kitchen, to the living room, to the bathroom, to the bedroom. SuA sighed and started moving, she didn't take her clothes and jewelry because those are not so important, she took all the work related documents and her laptop into a big bag.

“Clack” – the sound of the door.

SuA turned around, startled because Siyeon was standing there. She was completely motionless.

So Siyeon lied to Dami to be able to meet her here, why didn't she think of this trick?

Dami was also careful to see if the information Siyeon said was correct, but why is Siyeon still at home?

Siyeon has been looking for her for the past few weeks as if Siyeon wanted to hunt her down, she needs to be smart to figure this out.

That's stupid.

End chapter 12.