how do i say goodbye?

maya

"Here lies the beloved Kyle Kuzma. He was a son, brother, and Friend to all."

The graveyard was cold and the air was stale. I could see my breath right in front of me which made me shiver.

How did I get here? How did we get here?

Over to my left, I saw my parents. My mother shook violently as she was cried into my father's shoulder.

To my right was Lavar, Tina, Zoey, Denise, and the three Ball brothers. The brother closest to me, I called my mine. His was arm draped over me over me as we all watched the men lower the casket down into the ground.

Madison sat in front of me in her wheelchair, her oxygen tank beside her. She wept loudly as they continued to put him deeper in into the dark and vacant ground.

Tears and Black clothing were the theme of today. And I hated it. Everyone was grieving especially me.

But I couldn't bring myself to cry. So I stood there in the cold and stared at the men pouring the dirt on the casket.

My mind began to linger and I thought over and over again. How did the fire start? What the hell were the events led up to it? Shit... maybe it was on purpose? What if it was..planned?

"You ready to go, shawty?"

Melo snapped me out of my thoughts and I turned around to face him. His hands were in the pockets of his black dress suit he decided to wear. His curls were defined and his mouth was slightly agape. I didn't even notice that people started to leave.

"Uh yeah, I guess."

He extended his arm for me to grab it. I gave him a small fake grin and accepted his hand. He looked down on me and proceeded to say something.

"Wake up."

"Huh?"

"Wake Up!" He yelled it this time.

Beginning to panic, I frantically looked around.

"What do you mean?"

"Maya, wake up!"

He grabbed my shoulders and started to shake them. My head went back and forth as he shook me vigorously. Feeling nauseous and uneasy I put my hands on his chest to create space between us but he would let go ofme.

Dark patches poured into my vision and my eyes rolled back into my head.

I sat up in the bed, gasping for air. I could feel the thick beads of sweat on my head.

So it wasn't real. It was just a figment of my imagination.

A Nightmare.

"Oh shit! She awake." I heard someone exclaim.

The room was awfully dark and I couldn't tell where I was or who I was with. All I remember was I was in the hospital..for my brother and Madison. Then I started looking for Melo and I don't remember anything else after that..

The light was switched on and it blinded my sight. So I covered my eyes with my hand so I could shield them.

"Sorry, Maya the light too bright."

I reopened my eyes.

"Mikey?"

I didn't even know where the hell I was but the last person I thought I would see was Mikey. We only talked over the game and I've only seen him on instagram.

"Uh yeah, how are you feeling?"

"I've been.. better. Where am I?" I blurted out, confused as to what was going on.

"The Ball Estate."

Looking around again I noticed Melo's plaid cover on the bottom of warm the bed and the faint light from his PS4.

"I should probably tell them that you up now," he turned around to head downstairs but then did a double take, "Maya?"

"Yeah?"

"Im glad you okay. I know you going through some stuff right now but it's gone get better. I promise. Oh, and if you need anything don't be scary. I got you."

I gave him a half-assed grin,"Thanks, Mikey."

He shut the door on his way out and I slowly hopped out the bed and to the bathroom. Once I flipped on the light my hand went over my mouth.

My curly hair was every which way, the sweatshirt I had on had unknown stains on them and so did my leggings. I know I had a long night but damn..

"So nobody was gone tell me I looked like this?" I shook my head as I started the shower water.

"Baby?" A yell from the room traveled to the bathroom.

"In here!"

"Im so glad you awake." He walked over to me and grabbed my face and placed a kiss on my forehead then my check then my other cheek and then my lips. I allowed him to kiss me but only for a moment.

"Chill. I didn't even brush my teeth yet."

"So? What that supposed to mean? Imma kiss you if I want to."

He went in for another kiss and I gave him another small peck

"Okay that's enough. Can I take my shower? Damn."

"Lemme get in there wit you."

"Not this time. I need to clear my mind."

"This time? So that mean we can though?" He bit his lip and rub his his hands together.

I pressed my lips together into a thin line and observed his red nike tee and black basketball shorts. I then threw my head back and laughed.

Rolling my eyes, I push him towards the door.

"Get out!"-

I opened the the door from the humid bathroom and stepped into the air conditioned bedroom. The steam slowly trickled out and soon it was a bit cloudy in the room.

Melo decided to stay up here while I was in the shower.

"So who all down there?" He lowered his phone and whipped his head around, unable to see from laying on his stomach.

"Ant, Mikey, Gelo. That's it I ain't want too many people here. You need yo space." He could be so considerate and for that I admired him even more.

"Thanks, Lafrance," I teased him while turning to his dresser to find some of his clothes to wear, "Any updates from the doctor? Gosh, I don't even remember leaving the hospital.." I rubbed my head trying to remember.

"Baby, you don't remember? You passed out at the hospital. I saw you sprawled out on the floor on my way back to yaw." Referring to Zo and I.

My hand went over my mouth. Passed out? I passed out?

Melo noticed my agony and attempted to reassure me,"I just think with all this stuff going on it was a lot on you. I just want you to take it easy for now, okay?" Before I knew it Melo was behind me. His arms wrapped around my towel covered waist and he rested his chin on my head.

"Fine, but.. I had this weird ass dream."

"What was it about?"

"It was about Kyle. We were at his... funeral."

-

hey everyone!!! hope y'all enjoyed this chapter. more to come soon.

question of the day: how y'all feel about mikey? 👀

again, sorry for not being as active!

click that 🌟 🥺

okay ttyl xx