Ch. 6 - the wait is over

It was now 7 p.m; four was at his desk just posting a random meme for his channel. He was proud of himself as he made himself laugh with what he has created. He didn't have to wait a while for views, likes and comments as in an instant they all came flooding in.

Four didn't really read comments often as he knew comments tend to be weird and people say things that are unnecessary.

'Just a little bit of scrolling wouldn't hurt..' He thought to himself; curiosity getting the best of him.

He clicked his channel and clicked on his newest video. He scrolled down and saw that there was an amount of 129 comments already in just three minutes. The first one he saw was rather sweet, a fan saying "I love your videos you always make my day." The next one said, "Your memes make me laugh 10/10 video."He scrolled more and more; all the comments happened to be positive and similar to one another which brought a small smile on his face That smile of his didnt last long as his eyes came upon a few comments that weren't so.. nice.

'What even is this? You call this entertainment? Stupid lol'

'Now what the hell is this???'

'Man needs to do smth with his life.'

'this is alright ig....'

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"You're doing great! Keep up the good work!"

The nice comment below the negative ones didn't really make him feel like he was doing great as a YouTuber. He kept staring at the negative ones, repeating what it said over and over again in his head.

'See?," his mind began, "you're worthless. An embarrassment..'

His eyes began to water once again.

'Really? You're going to cry? You really are pathetic.'

Smg4 didn't even try and deny it, agreeing with his mind that he really was pathetic.He closed his eyes and let his tears fall across his face as he leaned his head back. His mind with its never-ending negative thoughts. Lots of things came across his mind; things like how smg3 shouldn't have to deal with him. He started to think how stupid his nightmare was. Even though three had said he wasn't a burden, he still feels like one.

He looked out the window taking note how dark out it was getting. He began to remember the night before last night, how he had gotten out of the castle and took a walk into the dark eerie forest. It wasn't scary being out there, and he couldn't have noticed anything else but how loud his thoughts were as he roamed around.

'Let's try going outside..' he thought to himself. It took him a minute to finally get up from his desk and slowly make his way outside.

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Meanwhile with three, he had now closed up the cafe for the night and began to clean the place up. Eggdog had already gone to sleep in Smg3's room, exhausted from all the work he had to do as usual. Four hasn't left his mind all day, and it wasn't like he was extremely worried about him, just rather hoping he was doing alright. He couldn't help but replay how last night went with him and four, how this morning was for them. How close they were, how much he cared for smg4. How four looked when he was sound asleep, so delicate and beautiful.

Three felt how warm his face suddenly got, felt his lips form a small bashful grin. He moved towards the counter and saw the trash can was. He didn't mind throwing it out as he was in a good mood, his heart skipping a beat and his stomach during these flips and turns. He couldn't believe how smg4 can get him in this state, but that's just how amazing he was to him, how much four meant to him and how precious he was.

'How could he say such bad things about himself?..' Three couldn't understand, and well he knew it must be the nightmare putting him down but he just couldn't stand four saying such nonsense towards himself that obviously wasn't true.

Three was outside the cafe with a trash bag in his hand, making his way to throw it in the dumpster. When he finished with that and began to make his way back, something from a distance had caught the corner of his eye.

Smg4 was walking at a slow pace with his arms wrapped around him. His head faced upwards towards the sky, taking in the sight of how bold and bright the moon and stars were. It wasn't as cold as it was yesterday which was a shame for smg4.  "OI! SMG4!" Three shouted, startling smg4 out of the trance he was in. He turned his head to the left and locked eyes with three. Three jogged over; catching smg4 suddenly turning away and walking towards the castle. Four had made it directly in front of the castle doors but  didn't have a chance to open the door as three had caught up to him. "Hey!-" three grabbed four by the shoulder and turned him around to face him. "Four? Wh-what- where were you going?!"He asked with a tone full of worry and confusion.

"Me?.. uh I-well-" Four couldn't seem to find the words to respond as he kept his gaze on the dirt beneath him, feeling like he did something that he shouldn't have done. Four began backing up as nerves have started to build up within him. His back made contact with the castle door, having no more space to back up into anymore.

"Don't tell me you were going back into the damn forest smg4.." Three spoke softly as he closed the distance between him and four and of course he was upset but not angry at him, just worried. "I- I'm sorry. I just wanted to go on a walk to clear my head.." Smg3 sighed, putting his hand on smg4's shoulder."I get that but why do that when you know, you have me- you have your friends. You can talk to us. Not saying that taking a walk doesn't help, I understand that it does in a way." "I know I know.. I just- I don't want to be err..annoying?" Three couldn't believe it. Once again here was four putting himself down, thinking the worst of himself.

In sudden frustration he groaned out loud."Four, what did I say about you saying negative things about yourself?"".. because it's true.""It's not true-""It. Is. I-" Smg4 got rather impatient and frustrated as much as three did, slightly shaking his leg in place in desperation."I don't get why you can't see that. I mean, everyone else does..."  "And who the hell is 'everyone'?! I doubt anyone of your friends think that way." Smg3 had blurted out in pure rage, raising his hands in the process in confusion. Four hid his face in the palms of his hands as he felt how blurry his vision gotten. His head felt like it was on fire; feeling physically sick and exhausted from his overwhelming thoughts, the constant crying. Three took a moment to relax and take his anger down a notch as he took in the sight on how fidgety smg4 was getting. He lowered his hands, adjusting himself before he spoke within the loud silence between them only for smg4 to beat him to it.

"I was looking at my comments earlier when I posted another video." Three listened close as four began to speak again. "I normally don't but.. curiosity got the best of me.""Did you get hate comments?" ".. yeah.""Listen to me four. Don't let those idiots get to you. THEY'RE the ones who are losers and who have nothing better to do with their pathetic lives." "Yeah.. I guess you're right." He quietly said, crossing his arms. The cold night started to become a windy one; gently breezes coming down onto the two meme guardians. They both felt at ease with the air hitting their warm bodies, their muscles not as tense as they were a few seconds ago.

Three suddenly got an idea. He eyed smg4, taking note on how he was possibly feeling before he did anything; noticing how calm and tired he looked as he stared at the ground beneath them.

'Besides it's now or never..' he was determined to make this happened, even if it was nerve-racking but it had to be done.

"Four..?" His sudden soft tone grabbed four's attention, taking in his gentle eyes and his rosy cheeks. "Do.. do you believe that I truly care for you?.."Four was surprised with the sudden question. "Well.. I feel that you do, considering all you've done for me." "And.. and do you know how much you mean to me?""... I-" Four was speechless. His stomach was doing that thing again; the flipping and turning, feeling goosebumps now littering his arms and his body. "Do you believe that you mean so much to me?""I.. I don't-" four began, stumbling on his words. "I don't know.. I'm- I'm not so sure.."

As four was stuck on figuring out what to do or what to say, three pressed himself against four, intertwining his hand with four's and pinning them above his head.  Four's tan colored face had immediately changed into a dark shade of red, feeling his own heart beating as fast as it possibly could. Three with his other hand, grabbed a hold of four's waist as he stared into his bright soft blue colored eyes. ".. I can show you just how much you truly mean to me." Three whispered, making four's body feel something more as three's warm skin was pressed against his rather cold one. He honestly couldn't believe how bold smg3 was with this, and he couldn't even take in through his mind that this was really happening.

Three's lips were just an inch away from touching four's, four slowly closing his eyes in the process. Three kept his eyes on four's soft, delicate looking lips, ready to finally do what he's been yearning to do since his feelings for smg4 had grown over time.

Four and three's minds have been blanked out; their focus only on what was going on at this very moment. Four didn't have to wait long as three, his three.. the man who seen him as something more, the man he has always felt was more than just a simple friend, had finally kissed him.

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"I love you four.."