Chapter 8 - Gotta be you

Liam was speechless. If he could or would say anything right now, it would definitely be: “I don’t know what to say!” Liam really liked it though. He knew some part of him want to hear Zayn’s confession, perhaps earlier than since he realised. What is that part anyway?! It was definitely his heart! Liam put an arms on his chest. It was beating widely. Liam didn’t know at the same time, his face turned whole red. He was mad by now.

Liam wanted Zayn. And he knew, every part of him wanted Zayn, except his head. It somehow wouldn’t allow the fact that he was driven crazy by the bad evil black-haired boy, Zayn Jawaad Malik. It knew that the feeling Liam was having could do damage badly to his life, not to mention Zayn’s. Liam regreted having dared Zayn to kiss him from the first place. It was his fault that they became like this. It was his fault that Zayn said those words. And it was his fault breaking Zayn’s heart. Liam wished they hadn’t have kissed, or even been involved in the so-called bromance. Or maybe, worst, he wished they had never have met. NO! He shouldn’t think about it. Being 1/5 of One Direction was the most beautiful thing he had accomplished and he wouldn’t give it up, or even think of changing it. Liam felt bad that he had made Zayn said such things, not for loving Zayn. What if he hadn’t advoided Zayn? The guy wouldn’t be forced into making a confession. What should Liam do now? To keep advoiding Zayn? He hadn’t had a single personal conversation with Zayn the last week while he was keeping himself away from Zayn and he thought that he couldn’t hang on any longer. Liam missed Zayn, he missed all the old good memories they had been through together.

What would Niall, Louis and Harry say about it if they knew this incident? Liam knew the lads had been good brothers of his and somehow, he knew they would approve of his stupid love, although it might take a lot of time to explain to them. But of course, it would be very tough for them to stand up against their fans and management. Liam didn’t want them to ruin their career because of him. And what would Liam’s and Zayn’s family say about this? They wouldn’t be proud of this. They might not call him their son, they might call him their daughter. Oh my gosh what was Liam thinking? Fear crept into his mind. He knew he was a coward. Liam found himself not deserve Zayn’s love, his feeling for Zayn wasn’t strong enough to overcome his fear. That was exactly what Liam had thought about Zayn’s ex-girlfriend when she broke up with the boy, and now things had turned back on him.

He had headed back to his room. Liam didn’t even want to go out now. He threw himself on his bed. The room somehow was filled with Zayn’s scent in it. Liam was struggling with his thought. He didn’t think this day would come. He didn’t see this coming. He was alone in the two-bed room all morning long. WHERE IS ZAYN?

Zayn stormed out of the house although he didn’t actually know where to go. Actually it was not “storm out” at all, it was just “leaving”. Zayn always hoped that Liam would chase after him and pull him back. But what the hell was he thinking? He had said something that was not meant to be said, and now he was paying the prize. Zayn just simply couldn’t hide himself anymore from Liam. He found it really hard, as if he would explode if he did. Zayn didn’t think much when he said that, he was smart, yet wasn’t the kind that would take account for every little silly thing. And Zayn couldn’t think why Liam did, everything wasn’t that complicated. However Zayn tried to blame Liam for being such coward, he couldn’t stop questioning himself: WHAT IS LIAM DOING NOW?

“Hey handsome!” Some voice pulled Zayn back to reality. He realised a sexy girl standing over the bar, winked at him. She was flirting him. “Mind buy me a drink?”

The girl gigled. It was so unlike Zayn that he didn’t feel any interest in girls now. Liam had taken up all his thought.

Zayn waved, signified the girl to leave. “Not interested.” Then he looked up and saw the girl’s angry face. Annoying bitch! “If what you want is a drink, just say so. Whiskey!”

This rude behave was not like Zayn at all. However, that was all he could think of. Zayn got up from his seat and walked away.

“Gay!” – he suddenly heard a woman sarcastic voice as he tried to flee.

If it was a usual day, he would let it go. But hello, this is not a usual day and what the hell was wrong with gay? He couldn’t control himself and realised how much he wanted to kick that chick’s arse.

“What did you say bitch?” what Zayn was thinking now was how to kill her. He suddenly realised that Liam was right when he said Zayn was sometimes really hot-tempered. At that time, Zayn didn’t know that Liam was right and he even thought the boy didn’t know him at all.

“I didn’t say anything.” The woman blinked, acting innocent. Zayn knew he loved it when Liam acted innocent, but this girl… not a chance. She was so fake.

Zayn turned away, he knew he shouldn’t talk or trouble with these kind of girls. But as he tended to leave, he heard the girl muttered.” Shooshoo, get back to your boyfriend beautiful.”

Zayn had reached his top. The only one who could call him beautiful was Liam, always be Liam.

And that’s for the reason his mind went black and after a few minutes, Zayn figured out he was holding an empty glass of wine and the bitch was soaked. Did he… just splash water on her?

The girl’s mouth formed an ‘o’ shape and Zayn knew that he had put himself into trouble. Luckily, the light was dim and there’s no Directioner here.

“You didn’t!” – The woman’s face turned red while Zayn’s turned white. What was he to do then? He just did something really bad and if Simon knew, he would definitely be fired.

“What are you doing here?” – There’s another voice behind him. Oh no, someone saw. What was he to do? The girl approached him, he recognised she was Alisa, Liam’s ex – girlfriend. What was she doing here? And as Zayn was taken aback, Alisa had figured out everything by looking at the other girl’s angry face. She simply put some money, ok a lot of money, on the table and whispered something into her ears, it sounded like: “Leave… boyfriend… hook up… bitch…”

And before Zayn understood anything, the girl looked at Zayn and then Alisa with fears over her face. She mumbled something and finally left with the money in her hands. Zayn must admit it, seeing Alisa was his lucky, but now when his thought was all about Liam, he felt so annoying when got caught in such a place by someone Liam used to love, or still loved.

“Interesting Zayn! What you did! I don’t know you could do that.” What the hell was she talking about? It sounded like Zayn was an innocent one. Well, it was probably because she didn’t know Zayn well, at least as well as Liam. Zayn caught himself thinking about Liam everytime, every minutes. Did Liam put some sorts of spell on him? “Anyway,what did you do that for Zayn?”

“What do you think?” – Zayn asked with a smirk, maybe a painful one, on his face. He was a jerk, but even when he was, girls still fell for that, for his face, his look. Liam was different…No snap out of it. Leave Zayn alone Liam. And for a moment, there’s something flashed through his mind. That’s it, he will hook up with Alisa as a revenge for what Liam has done to his heart. As the thought approached, Zayn’s smile got bigger. “I came here with the same purpose as you, babe. Hook up with girls.”

Zayn crossed his arms around Alisa’s shoulder. He could feel the girl slightly shiver.

“Haha” – Alisa let out a laughter, flirty. “I haven’t found any! You?”

“Actually I did, and she is standing in front of me right now.”

Zayn would never think of it, of this day, that he cheated on the love of his best friend, his brother, if not his love! HE CHEATED ON THE LOVE OF HIS LOVE. What the fuck is that supposed to mean? And what had Alisa become? She used to be, according to Zayn’s memory, a pretty, smart, cute, introverted person. Why did she turn into a slut after breaking up with Liam? Or did she break up with Liam because she had become a slut and Liam was no longer interested to her? As thinking about it, Zayn turned totally insane and he hated the girl he was trying to hook up so badly. What had Liam turned him into?

They got room for whatever-they-wanna-do. Zayn found the tension when he had sex with her was quite boring. I mean, what kind of girl would easily take off her clothes and jumped on top of the other boy? And it was disappointing when she opened her legs right after he asked her to. It was so easy-going that he couldn’t feel anything at all. He couldn’t reach his top, it hardly ever happened. Zayn wanted to have hard sex, wanted to come numerous times, and mostly, he wanted to call out Liam’s name while doing it. But Alisa wasn’t Liam, even if he had tried to fucking the other boy.

“Ouch Zayn. You hurt me.” – Alisa moaned and interrupted Zayn’s thought. It seemed like she was at the top of her bearing.

After a few minutes, Zayn found himself tired. He came only once, and it was unbelievably slow. He couldn’t understand how Liam did it. It sucked, to be honest.

“How was it?” – Zayn asked with a nonchalant tone.

“What?” – Alisa looked at him, breathing for air.

“IT! Comparing to Liam.” – Zayn felt weak in his knees as he spoke Liam’s name.

“Oawwww are you jealous?” – What the fuck was she thinking? NO, HELL NO. “Don’t worry you’re better than him for sure. He doesn’t seem to be interested in making love with me.”

What? Wait? Could it be? No! HELL, NO Zayn. Liam had stated it that he was not a gay. What the hell were you thinking?

Silence filled him, only their gasps could he hear.

“Hey Zayn, do you think we could do it again?” – Alisa rolled over and pressed him down. BITCH, NO! Zayn was tired.

“… OK. But maybe sometime later.” – Zayn didn’t know why he said it. He didn’t mean it. He wanted to deny. But thinking about making Liam jealous, he couldn’t stop wanting it. “I’ll call you later, ok?”

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A/N: Is this the only thing I don't write in P.O.V? Oh well, P.O.V will come soon, I promise! Always want to name this chapter Gotta be you. Inbox me if you know why the name is "Gotta be you". I'll dedicate this chapter to you if you got it right. It's quite obvious, isn't it?!

I'll be here, by your side

No more fears, no more crying

But if you walk away

I know I'll fade

'Cause there is nobody else