Chapter 87

"Call me if there are any problems." I told my mom as I grabbed for my bag. My mom wasn't my favorite person in the world but she was my mom and she was there for me at the moment which I was grateful for.

"Of course honey. Call me if you need anything and I hope everything works out baby." She pulled me into an embrace and kissed my temple before letting me go.

I walked outside and got in the car trying to clear my mind. I needed to think of what I was going to say and what I should do...

My mind has been so clouded and I just want things to clear up and be happy again, like they were before. Happy.

I took the long way, my fingers nervously tapping on the steering wheel as I played out all my options. I loved Niall, there was no doubt about that but I'm not sure if I love him enough to put myself through... this. 

When I got to the complex his car was in a different spot which made me nervous. Had he gone out drinking? Even after what I told him... My stomach was doing flips as I was walking up the stairs. I really really didn't want him to be drunk. I don't know what I would do.

I got to the door and unlocked it, the smell of cleaning supplies almost knocking me off my feet. The living room was spotless. All Nat's stuff put in the corner neatly, picture frames dustless and the floor shining. 

"Niall?" I called out and he shouted back from the kitchen. I put my bag down and walked into the kitchen, the smell of waffles and sausage filling the room.

"Babe." He breathed smiling as he turned around. He put the spatula down and walked over to me, well more like ran, and enveloped me in a huge hug. I sunk into his arm, the feeling too good. "Hi."

"Hey." I whispered burying my head into his neck. He had my favorite cologne on. He was trying and I was happy.

"I, uh, I wasn't sure if you would have eaten so I went out and got some breakfast stuff."

"I just went food shopping a few days ago." I told him taking a seat at the table.

"I know, but we had no waffles and they're your favorite." He flashed a smile at me before taking all them off the pan and putting them on the plate. He put everything on the table and poured us both a glass of orange juice. 

"Uh, Niall I don't like orange juice." I told him feeling kind of bad because of how hard he was trying.

"Oh fuck, I'm so sorry. I forgot, I'm so sorry." He jumped up and took my glass rinsing it out. "Milk? Coffee? Tea? What do you want? I'm so sorry." He asked frantically searching the cabinets. 

"Ni, it's alright." I laughed a little, trying to make him feel better. "Just give me one of Nat's juice boxes." He gave me a small smile and got one from the fridge, placing it infront of me. "Calm down, yeah?" I placed my hand on top of his rubbing the top of it.

"Sorry, I just, I'm sorry." He took in a deep breath, closing his eyes. "I've just been so jittery thinking about you and Nat not being in my life and I've been so fucking stupid. I mean I must really be an idiot." 

"I know you are." I smiled removing my hand from his and cutting up my waffles. "But you're my idiot. That's only okay though when you're being an idiot without alcohol. A sober idiot, that's my idiot."

"As soon as I have time I'm gonna go talk to someone, you know, to help me. I'm not gonna do what you're dad did to you. I'm not him, I promise." He pleaded, his eyes burning into mine.

"I believe your words but I haven't seen anything yet. I love you so much Niall, and it kills me to even imagine living without you, so please, for me and Nat, try. If it helps I'll talk to the boys and we can all figure out a way to help you steer clear of the pubs and such. Okay?"

"Okay." He sighed, but a happy and relieved sigh. "I love you, I am in love with you and I will do anything, and I mean anything, to be the best for you and my boy." 

His boy.

"I know you will, I just hope you stick with it. It's okay, we'll get past this and be happy." 

"Oh, for our honeymoon. I found us a place. Harry and Riley said they would watch Nat, and you're going to love it." He smirked making me look at him curiously.

"Hint?"

"Nope." He shook his head winking at me. "You'll see." 

"Well I'm glad you got the honeymoon set up but we haven't planned anything for the wedding." I pointed out and he let out a groan, nobody likes wedding planning. "I don't want a big wedding. Just something small and quick ya know?"

"Yeah, I got it. I'll do everything, you have enough to do. Go dress shopping tomorrow, sunday afternoons are good for that. I'll take Nat and me and Louis or someone will go find a good wedding planner." He offered and I smiled happy to see he really was trying. It was making me happy, so happy.

"Sounds good. I missed ya Niall." I grinned putting down my fork and knife and leaning my chin on my hands.

"I missed you too baby." He muffled out through the waffles stuffed into his mouth, romantic. I laughed standing up and walking over to him, sitting on his knee. 

"You have syrup all over your chin. You're messier than your son." I joked wiping his chin off. 

"It still amazes me that we're parents. It's just so crazy." He admitted and to be honest I felt the same way. "I mean you're a mom, a hot mom, and I'm a dad, a hot dad." I laughed nudging him in the side. "I am a hot dad right?"

"The hottest." I giggles grabbing his cheeks and pressing my forehead to mine. "You're a dilf."

"A what?" 

"You know, like a milf but dad version." I shrugged stroking his cheek, nice a cleanly shaven.

"Oh, so you like to fuck me?" He smirked throwing me off a guard a bit.

"We have a kid so you could say so." I gave him a kiss as he looped his arm around my waist squeezing my hip. 

"I do have to apologize, I haven't been taking care of you lately, if you know what I mean." He mumbled kissing my neck. I missed this feeling. I just mumbled his hands moving around my waist. "I missed touching you."

"I missed being touched by you." I whispered, a small moan leaving my lips as he kissed across my collarbone. "But I really missed hearing you mo-" and just on cue my phone went right off.

"C'mon ignore it, I want you." He groaned as I shifted off his lap to reach my phone. 

"It's my mom, she has Nat." I told him before answering. "Hey mom, everything alright?"

"Yeah uh do I give him the blue bottle or the yellow bottle that you put in the fridge?"

"Mom, they're the same thing." I groaned resting my head on Niall's shoulder.

"Oh, so sorry. How's everything going with Niall?"

"Good, I gotta go, we're in the middle of talking." I answered, Niall smirking and hooking his finger into my skirt.

"Oh alright, see you soon darling." The line went dead and I threw my phone on the table turning around to straddle niall. 

"C'mon, I want you too." I whispered, kissing his neck. 

"Right here?"

"Mhm, right here." I smirked and he got that dark glint in his eye. I loved that. 

(it's gonna get a little dirty so beware)

"Wait where are your underwear?" He asked as his hand went up my thigh, under my skirt.

"I didn't pack any, I forgot. Stop asking dumb questions and fuck me." I groaned unbuttoning his pants and moving my hands to push them down. 

"I've never been so attracted to you." Niall gasped as I reached my hands into his boxers. He was always the more dominant one but right now I didn't want to wait for him to take his time, I needed him right fucking now.

I stood up a bit allowing Niall to pull his pants and boxers down. I lowered myself down onto him, a different feeling. This is the first time we'd ever done anything like this but I could tell he liked it. Really liked it.

"Oh my gosh, why have we not done this before." He groaned, his hands holding my hips, his hips coming up to meet mine.

"I don't know, but I fucking love it." I moaned resting my head in the crook of his neck, my hips moving up and down. 

I don't even know how long we were in the kitchen for but we were there for a long time and we did it, well, everywhere. "I love you." Niall whispered, slow pants leaving his mouth as he stood in front of me, my legs on either side of him as I sat on the counter.

"I love you too." I mumbled as I moved some of the matted down hair from his forehead. I trailed my hands up and down his chest, drawing little patterns. "Nat needs to go by my moms more often."

"Kaylee that's horrible to say. He's our son." Niall scolded before his face broke into a huge grin. "I agree completely." 

"Oh wait shit, I gotta go get him." I laughed getting off the counter, putting all my clothes back on. "Then again, I'm sure he's doing just fine. Round 2?"

Harry's P.O.V.

Don't take this as creepy but you know what I was thinking about?" I asked Riley, her head resting on my chest.

"Hm?" She asked her fingers picking at little blades of grass.

"The first time we had sex." She looked up at me, her chin resting on my chest. 

"What about it?" She asked curiously.

"I don't know, just the whole thing. It was nice." I smiled thinking back to how it was.

"Really all this?" She smiled as we walked into the room. As cheesy as it is, I set up the whole room with candles and all that romantic stuff. 

"I'm sorry, I know it's cheesy but I just thought it'd be nice." I shrugged scratching the back of my neck. 

"Don't be sorry." She smirked turning around and giving me a kiss. I could tell she was nervous but the kiss just made me want her more. I turned her around pushing her down onto the bed, my legs on either side of her as I moved her hair out of the way kissing her neck. 

One by one our clothes seemed to come off until we were both completely naked and aching for each other. "Lay down." She mumbled pushing me down on the bed. She took my length in her hand moving her hand up and down placing her mouth over it. 

"Oh Riley, damn, you sure you haven't done this before?" I laughed letting out a little moan.

"I said I was a virgin, doesn't mean I never sucked dick." She told me before going back to what she was doing. Oh, well, that makes sense? 

"C'mon as much as I want nothing more than to cum I want to get this over with for you, lay down." She sat up pulling her hair into a bun as she switched positions with me. I ran my finger over her slit making her shiver before I leaned down kissing her lips. I put my hands on either side of her head as she held onto my forearms, my tip slowly pushing into her. "Does it hurt?"

"Not too bad." She mumbled, her nails lightly pushing into my skin. "That does a little." She said through gritted teeth grabbing the back of my neck. She pulled my head down into the crook of her neck as she kissed mine. "Just keep going." She whispered, her fingers twirling into my hair. 

As soon as I was completely in I began to move slowly, small puffs of air leaving her lips. "How does it feel?"

"Good, a little uncomfortable, but good." She smiled as I came back up looking down at her face. 

"You look so beautiful." I smiled kissing her collarbones, my hips moving to meet hers.

"Oh fuck, Harry." She moaned grabbing onto my forearm as she grabbed onto my forearms again. I moved a bit faster, her moans becoming for frequent. At least she liked it.

I could tell she was a little embarrassed after she climaxed, my sweaty body rolling down next to hers. "C'mon look at me princess." I cooed trying to turn hre face toward mine. 

"Nooo." She laughed looking away. She eventually looked over at me, her eyes holding a little glint. "I love you."

"I love you too, baby."

"Yeah it was." She admitted, twiddling her fingers. "So long ago."

"Mhm." I agreed nodding. "I love you more than I did that day." I smiled as she sat up looking at me.

"I love you Harry." She smiled giving me a kiss. 

I sat up looking at the world in front of me. The hill curving down to meet the rivre, wild flowers spread out everywhere, the clear blue sy above. This place was so peaceful and beautiful, I could spend the rest of my life here. "Would you marry me?"

"What? Where did that come from?" She looked at me, her cheeks pink. 

"I was just thinking about how beautiful and peaceful this place is and how much I would love to spend the rest of my life here but I couldn't do that alone, I would want to do it with someone I love which is you. It's just a yes or no question and I know we're young but what''s the point of waiting when we could start our lives together now." I grinned excitedly. "I mean you only live once Riley why would you want to waste time?" 

"I see what you're saying." She laughed as I stood up. 

"So I'm asking you, as nature as my witness, if you would please marry me."

"And I'm telling you with nature as my witness that I would absolutely love to."

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