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Taylor's POV:

I open my eyes and look over at the big blue clock hanging on the wall. Its 4:06am and I'm still laying on the floor in my music room. I try to sit up but all my muscles hurt from the floor so I lay back down and close my eyes once more.

Karlie is gone, you scared her away Swift.

Just like you scare everyone away.

You're going to be alone forever.

I open my eyes again, they hurt from all the crying. I sit up again, going through the pain and decide to stand up completely this time. Dizziness takes over though as I start seeing black dots everywhere in the room out of nowhere. I grab the wall and make my way over to the door of the room slowly. When I finally get there, my dizziness is mostly gone and I make my way over to my bedroom. I literally let myself fall onto the bed and fall asleep right there.

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I wake up because of a weird feeling on my arm. "Spiders!" I scream in a panic. But I soon notice its just Meredith's tail stroking my arm. "Mer, why do you always have to wake me up like that?" I ask her out loud, then realizing I'm once more, talking to a cat. The grumpy animal meows back though, gets up and jumps from the bed. "Yeah fine. Leave me." I say to her as she sassily parades out of the bedroom. Like everyone does.

I lay back down and try to sleep some more but when I've tried for what feels 5 hours long, I get up out of bed and into the bathroom to pee. I then brush my teeth, but when I look in the mirror, I see that my eyes are really red and that my face looks slightly swolen. I splash some cold water on it and get downstairs and into the kitchen. I see my phone laying on the counter and see that I have a meeting today at 2pm. "Great." I mumble as I open the 'cat food drawer' and give the meowing monster something to eat. I look at the time and see that its already 12pm. "Great!" I say, quite a bit louder now. I walk over to the fridge to get some milk and I grab a pack of cereal. Then after all this effort I sit down at the kitchen table.

I look across the table and see her brown coat hanging right there on the chair. God I miss her. I get up from the chair again and grab the coat. Her smell is all over it, and I can feel the tears forming in my eyes again so I sit down. "I miss you Karlie." I sob. "So much."

I have to see her.

Today.

I get up from the chair once more and grab my phone. I directly dial Tree's number:

"Tree? Hi.."

"Hey Taylor. Are you almost ready for our meeting today? Its a big one about new songs and such."

"Acutally Tree.." I start. "Im not feeling that well and plan on staying in bed today. Could you guys maybe put that meeting like somewhere else. Tomorrow maybe?" She is going to be so annoyed.

"Taylor I.. don't.. Ill.. Ill see what I can do. Hope you get better soon." Then she hangs up the phone.

"Well that was better than expected." I say out loud as I take a bite of the cereal. Then after not even a minute two texts arrive;

Tree: "Meeting tomorrow 2pm."

Mom: "Hi sweetie, are you okay? Tree texted me that we had to reschedule the meeting because you weren't feeling well. Should I come over?"

I decide to text Tree a thumbs up and my mom:

"Hi mom. Im feeling a bit sick but I'm sure ill just have to rest a lot and ill be fine tomorrow. I love you xx"

"I love you too sweetie, hope you will feel better soon then xx"

I lay the phone down on the table and take another bite of the cereal. So now what?

I want to see Karlie. But how? No one can know I'm gonna be out of my house. What am I even gonna tell her? "Ugh.." I let out a long sigh. Then an idea pops into my head. "Eric." I mumble. He is my security guard, he must be able to get me out of here secretly.

I jump up from the chair but soon I realize I'm not really wearing proper clothes to see the love of my life and so I run back upstairs and into my bedroom.

"Casual but pretty. Casual but pretty.. Ahaa!" I grab a blue-ish summer dress out of my closet and try it on. "Casual and pretty, yes." I say approvingly as I look at myself. I rush over to the bathroom and brush my hair, brush my teeth again and apply my makeup. "Red lip?"

"Yes." I have to impress her.

When I'm all done and ready I run back downstairs and grab Karlie's coat from the kitchen chair and put it on. Im overwhelmed by the smell of it and almost start crying again. Keep it together Swift. Keep it together. I decide to wear some white heels and rush out of the front door and there I meet Eric.

"Eric I need you to help me." I say quickly.

"What is it miss?" He says, surprised by my sudden arrival.

"Well you see I'm 'sick in bed' right now." I make sure to say the words clearly to him. "But I need to get to Karlie Kloss's house. Please drive me there secretly?"

Eric just nods and walks over to the garage which is right next to the front door. I can already hear the paparazzi talk and really don't want them to see me. Eric pulls the security car up in front of me. I get into the back of it and make sure to hide behind the tinted windows. We drive out of the driveway and I can hear the paparazzi shout: "Oh fuck. Its just security." Good.

The drive is about ten minutes long in the busy New York City traffic and I've never had a more stressful drive in my entire life.

What if she doesn't even like me anymore?

What if she is dating Josh again?

What if she hates me?

What if she doesn't love me back?

Eric's voice breaks my thoughts as I hear him say: "Miss Swift, were here. Theres no paparazzi."

"Okay. Thanks Eric." I say kindly to him. My voice shaking from the nervousness. "You don't have to wait here. Ill call you when I need you." He nods once more. I get out of the car and walk over to Karlie's front door like some kind of spy. Not wanting to be seen by anyone.

Okay you can do this. Just ring the bell.

I stand there for about a full two minutes before finally ringing it and then the nervousness grows even bigger when waiting for her to open the door. It feels like hours before she opens it, her eyes are red and her expression shocked.

"Taylor? What.. what are.. you.. you doing here?" She stutters nervously, trying to avoid my gaze.

"Can I come in?" I ask, my voice shaking just as much as the rest of my body.

"Uhmm.. yeah I guess.." She says. Opening the door a bit more to let me walk past her. I stop in the middle of the hallway, not really knowing what to do or say. We both turn around to face each other and I can see that she had started crying.

"Why are you here?" She asks. I can hear that she is trying not to sound sad but her tears prove me differently.

"For you." I say. Not knowing what else I should say.

"Taylor I.. yesterday.. we cant.." She stutters softly, her eyes looking into mine.

"I love you." I interrupt her. "I love you so much. I don't think I can be me without you, Karlie."

My face is as shocked as hers when I hear myself say the words. "I love you." I repeat in a softer volume now. She looks into my eyes with her watery green ones and steps forward. "I love you." I repeat once more. Thats when she crashes her lips onto mine. At first I'm too shocked to respond, but then I bring my hands over to her the back of her neck to move her closer to me. Her hands are on my back now and she is tracing circles with her thumbs. The kiss becomes more heated as she pushes me against the hallway wall and touches my lips with her tongue softly. I part my lips a little but more and let our tongues move in sync.

Then I suddenly hear a deep voice cough awkwardly. I open my eyes, move my head backwards abruptly, bumping my head against the wall and look over to the person the sound came from. Its Josh..

Karlie lets go of me and takes a step backwards. "Sorry Josh.. I uhmm.. this is Taylor." She says awkwardly.

"Thats okay." Josh awkwardly says, his face looks hurt. "Nice to meet you miss Taylor Swift. Ive heard a lot about you." He says while winking playfully at me, sticking his hand out to shake mine. Did he? I shake his hand and say: "Hi, nice to meet you too. Bit of a strange way but well.. sorry." I mumble. He just smiles and turns to Karlie, hos expression sad.

"I told you, you guys were going to be okay, Karlie." He says, Karlies cheeks are redder than a tomato. "Yeah.." She says as she looks over to Josh who is dressed in a fancy suit and got a tiny suitcase in his hand. "Business trip?" She then awkwardly asks.

"Yep." Josh says. "Ill be in LA the whole weekend. So Taylor, please make yourself feel at home." I know that he probably means it all in a good way but it sounds weird to hear all of this coming out of his mouth. Knowing that Karlie and I were kissing very passionatly just a few seconds ago. Karlie, his ex-girlfriend.

"Well bye ladies. Have a good weekend. Oh and Karlie, ill leave the house officially on Tuesday, just that you know." He passes us and walks out of the house, shutting the door closed behind him.

"Karlie." I say after a minute of silence. "That was probably the most awkward moment of my entire life." Im still really shocked by all the events that just took place. She kissed me though.

"Yep. Imagine now, how that was for me." She says, looking over at me. She isn't smiling and she doesn't seem happy at all.

"So he knew already?" I decide to ask.

"Yeah since last night." Karlie says. Her face looks so unhappy that I decide to drop the subject for now.

"Would you like to.. sit down and have a talk about.. well.. us?" I say, trying to smile at her.

"Yeah I would like to." She says, not looking at me but walking into the living room and towards the big couch. We both take a seat quite a bit away from each other and stay silent for a while.

"So Karlie." I start nervously. "I.. uhmm.. yesterday was horrible and I want to apologize for the things I've said. I.."

"Don't apologize for the things you actually meant, Taylor." Karlie cuts me off angrily. I stay silent for a bit to collect my thoughts and to let her cool down.

"But I never meant to say that I want us to stop being friends. Or that we should disappear out of each other's life's. I.. I.. am just so scared of what can come." I say softly. Of course I start crying again. Naturally.

"Do you think Im not scared? I would be Karlie Kloss, super gay supermodel. Taylor fucking Swift's girlfriend. Everyone would think I'm a joke." She says, throwing her hands up in the air wildly, sobbing while forming the words. Her voice sounds angry and full of sadness.

"I.. I.. think were both scared. And that why we have all this.. shit now." I say, hopefully clearly enough for her to understand it. The sobs are a constant thing now.

"Well will we ever get through the shit then?" She asks, tears falling from her face. Her beautiful face.

"I hope." I say, trying to look into her eyes but she keeps looking away.

"Karlie?" I ask.

"Yeah?" She says, looking into my eyes finally now.

"I love you, and I'm in love with you. You're not just my best friend, I think you're supposed to be my lover too. You make me so happy and I hope I can make you as happy as you make me." I say, wiping her tears away gently. Her face goes from a frown to a smile.

"I love you too Taylor Swift. Im so in love with you. You don't even know how happy you make me." She says, smiling at me now.

I lean forward and kiss her forehead. "We are so weird." I say, smiling and looking at her.

"Yeah we kinda are." She agrees, smiling. "Can we make.. us work though?" She asks, her face turning to sad again.

"There must be a way. We can keep us a secret for a while maybe?" I say, looking into her beautiful green eyes. "Maybe we can start telling our families in a while? Lets just see where this goes first maybe?" I add. "Oh and we can ask my publicist for advise on this later. Its her job and I have to say, she is quite good at it."

Karlie looks overwhelmed by all the information I just gave her but nods at me. "Lets see where this goes okay?" She says. "Yeah sorry, I was rambling this time huh?" I ask, causing her to smile at me. Mission accomplished.

"I just like you a lot Karlie Kloss." I say, smiling at her pretty face. "I like everything about you." She smiles back at me and asks:

"Will the hottest superstar in the world be my girlfriend?"

"Uhmm, of course I will date this smoking hot supermodel." I say, chuckling at her cuteness.

"Uhm I was not even talking about you miss Swift." She says, playfully pushing me away.

"Oh so which superstar will you date then?" I ask her.

"Nikki Minaj, duh." She says, which causes me to laugh really loud. She starts laughing with me.

"God, I like you." I say as I lay my head on her shoulder. "And I like you." She says, kissing the top of my head.

"Thank you for saying you love me. I needed that." She says after a while.

I move my head up from her shoulder. "I should have told you earlier. But I was scared Im sorry." I say while looking at her.

"Its okay now. Im just happy that you're here with me and that were okay again." She says.

"Me too."

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"So Josh knows?" I ask after a while.

"Yeah we had a really good conversation yesterday and well he found out." She says. Im laying on top of her on the couch. She put the tv on and a random soap is playing now.

"Will he.. you know.. tell anyone?" I ask her. Im terrified the media will find out.

"He promised me to keep it a secret." She says calmly, which relaxes me a bit more.

"Okay." I say.

"Tay?"

"Yeah?"

"I cant really breathe."

"Oh god I'm sorry." I lean backwards and sit up. Im now sitting on top of her. "Hmm.. I don't mind this." I hear her say.

"You're such a sexual person." I say, smiling widely at her.

"Thats because I have such a hot.." She starts tickling the side of my belly. "Girlfriend!" She continues.

"Oh so now I'm your girlfriend huh?" I say in between giggles and laughs, trying to avoid her tickles but misserably failing.

"Yeah I like you more I think." She says as she pulls me towards her and pecks my lips. Its short but nice and her lips feel so soft. I giggle and say: "Good, because I like you a lot too." I lean down towards her face again and kiss her lips softly. I fully lay down on her body, not disconnecting our lips and I move my hands under her shirt a bit to stroke her trained belly with my hands. I can feel her body tense and move my hands back to the side of her head and stroke her cheek. Then our lips disconnect because were both smiling so brightly.

"That was a nice kiss." She says, smiling at me and putting a strain of hair behind my ear. I nod and kiss her lips softly once more. This time shorter. I then sit up again and get off her lap.

"What are you doing?" She asks. "You cant just leave me like that." I was already on my way to the kitchen but stop and turn around.

"Why? Did I.. turn you on?" I wiggle my eyebrows while saying it. She quickly looks away from me and murmurs: "Ehmm.. no.. I just..ugh nothing." Her cheeks are red again as I turn around again and make my way over to the kitchen, a big grin on my face.

"What are you even doing?" I hear her shout from the living room.

"Im hungry." I simply state.

"Lets go our for a late lunch then?" She asks. I hear she got up from the couch now and that she is making her way over to the kitchen too.

"Uhhm.." I start. "Im actually 'sick in bed' today." I mumble, kind of embarrassed of my childish action. "I had this meeting planned but I wanted to see you so yeah. Here I am." She smiles at me and shakes her head. "You're such a kid." She says while walking towards me.

"Im not!" I say, smiling back at her and jokingly pushing her away.

"Pancakes then? Ill make them." She says.

"Oh my god. You're the best girlfriend ever!" I squeak as I throw my hands around her neck. "Yeah yeah you cheese ball, just sit down and watch the chef do her job." She says jokingly.

I kiss her soft cheek gently, walk over to the kitchen stools and sit down on one of them.

"Im waiting." I say, causing her to look at me with a fake annoyed expression on her face.

"Shut up and let the pancake master do her work." She says with a big grin on her face she puts on this silly cooking head and starts getting pans and other cooking stuff out of different drawers.

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A/N

Hi! Hope you like this, I think its somehow differently written than the other chapters. I dont know. Let me know what you think?

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