Barista 33

It didn’t end up as how I expected.

Soobin hyung came and talked to us to not to tell our parents about it. They all caused a fuss as well when they saw Aera getting hurt and I used it as an excuse to go home.

She followed me again in my unit and I just let her. She rest inside me room while I’m in the living room. I tried calling again Taehyun but it’s not really working out at all.

_daniel:Dude, i told him that u want to talk to himBut he refusesHe’s so freakin busyfr business speaking, he isI’m sorry man

choigyu:thanksI’ll just come to him personally soon

_daniel:I suggest, no

choigyu:I’ll do what I want

_daniel:Then go on hurt yourselfDumbass

I threw away my phone in my side and forcedly closed my eyes even if I know I’m not going to sleep. The next morning, I checked Aera and she’s still sleeping. I left her alone and went to Itaewon to check the construction.

At least this progress is making me smile. This’ll be finish in no time. I offered a hot cup of coffee to the workers because of the season we have right now.

It’ll snow soon, I missed him.

I spend the rest of my time in there just to get some fresh air. I entered this bar when night came and started to drink alone. Some girls approached me but casually turned them all down.

I’m not in a fucking mood to dick around.

My phone lights and read Soobin hyung’s message that Aera messaged me about me not yet coming home and she’s starting to overthink things again.

choigyu:I’m not seeing anyoneAnd tell her even if I fuck anyone right nowShe doesn’t have to care

I slid my phone back to my pocket and then started drinking again. Then there’s woman in fitted laced dress approached me. I ignored her but I think she found it even more interesting.

“So you’re not really going to talk to me?” she asked again and smiles.

I just glanced at her and sip on my drink again. Then she stood up and sits on my lap. She’s hot, I know but I don’t really give a fuck about her feature.

“Stand up or I’ll push you?” I asked her.

She laughs and placed her hands around my neck. “I don’t care getting pushed by someone who’s hot as you.”

In a snapped, she started kissing me. I didn’t respond at all. She’s biting my lips already but I just stay still in there not until someone caught my eyes.

He’s looking at me from afar. In this unexpected place, I saw him. In this peculiar situation, our eyes meet again.

I pushed the girl that actually made her fall on the floor. She’s about to grab my hand but I already walked away from her. My eyes started to wander where he is right now. He suddenly disappears.

Am I just seeing things? No, I really saw him looking intently at my eyes.

I walk around and started looking from him. There are so much people inside and it’s really loud. I went to every corner until I went out, expecting he might here to avoid me.

“Goddamnit, where are you Kang Taehyun?”

My phone vibrates again and it’s Soobin hyung calling me. I ignored it and started looking for Taehyun again. Then I froze when I heard his voice from the side of the building, in this narrow space between two walls.

“Stop touching me asshole! I don’t want to get fucked by you!”

“Acting again, huh? I bet you’re already that dry that’s why you’re here,” a man’s voice replied in sarcasm.

“Shut up. You’re the first one to approach me and dragged me out in here. I am busying myself and you want me to have sex with you. Gross,” Taehyun replied and I bet her rolled his eyes.

The other man scoffs, “I think you already forgot how you moan my name before? And I bet you want me to fill you up again.”

My fists clenched after hearing that from him. Like how many guys did he hooked up with!?

“Yeah, looking back at it, it’s so gross,” Taehyun replied in disgust. “Let me go, asshole! I don’t know you anymore. What the fuck!?” he suddenly yelled.

“No! After I gave up on everything for you— I left my girlfriend for you and then you suddenly disappeared!? I’m not going to let you go this time—“

“What the fuck is wrong with you!? Let me go! Why? Did I tell you to break up with her? I never! It was your fucking decision, asshole! So, don’t drag me with your stupidity!”

“Come here—“

He fell on the ground when I throw a punch at his face. I saw Taehyun getting shocked and I dragged him out but he pulled his arm from me. “What the heck is your deal!?” he yelled at me.

“Who are you? Are you one of his guys too?” that asshole asked and is about to stand up when I kicked him from the side that made him hit the wall and he spits blood.

I didn’t say anything and dragged Taehyun out of there. I got us room and when we reached the hotel room, I locked it and that’s when he pushed me away.

“What the fuck is this!?”

“How many relationship you already ruined?” I asked him with the hint of anger in my voice.

He smirks, “The fuck do you care about that? I’m getting out in here,” he replied and passed by me but before he could touch the doorknob I pulled him back and pressed him against the door.

“What do you really want from me since then, Kang Taehyun?” I asked him.

“Do you really want to know? Fine! I’m an asshole who wants to end your relationship with your girlfriend! You heard that? Yes! I really want you to break up with her without any reason! I know eventually you’re going to fall for me, I expected it already. Are you happy!?” he growl, glaring at me.

My grip on his shoulder tightens. “How could you do that? How could you come to me, drugged me then tricked me!? I am peacefully being with her! I love her so much but you fucking ruined it! You ruined everything! You approached me first and I’m so stupid to fucking welcome you! I thought we’re on the same page!”

“That’s why I left! I’m at my fault! I know what I did! I left so stop following me! Please! P-please, let’s just not see each other again,” his voice suddenly turned down and looked down.

“Stop looking for me. Stop talking to me. Stop making things complicated. I don’t want to see you again. I hate you so much!” he yelled and I heard a low sob. “I so fucking hate you, Choi. Leave me alone already, we’re done!”

“Did you ever love me, Kang?”

He shook his head. “I never— will never, Choi.”

“So all you really want from me is to fuck you?” I asked in hopeless voice and I let go of him.

“Yeah!” he looked up and our eyes meet. He’s crying. “Because I’m bullshit after all. I don’t want you to be with me anymore. I got what I want from you so leave me alone!”

“And what!? Let other guys fucked you!? Touch you!? Didn’t I tell you, you are mine!?” I raved at him.

“The hell you care if I let others fuck me!? You don’t own me anymore! You don’t fucking own me, Choi Beomgyu! So please! P-please... let’s just have our o-own ways already!” he pleaded and falls on the floor while crying.

I looked up to stop myself from crying and I breathe in and out to remain myself calm. I can hear his low sobs that I don’t really want to hear since then. I don’t want him crying especially if it’s because of me.

“Kang, are you just giving up like this?”

“I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want you to be with someone like me,” he replied between his sobs.

I lowered myself and hugged him. He tried pushing me away but I even hugged him tighter and he eventually gives up and then grips the hem of my clothes as he cried on my chest.

“I missed you,” I whispered.

His sobs grow even louder so I rubbed his back. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I yelled at you,” I apologized. “I was just angry with the thought that I’m the only one who’s fighting for the both of us. Why? Why won’t you fight with me?”

“I c-can’t— I can’t risk anymore. I’m still afraid. I’m afraid it’ll just end up the same way. W-we’re just going to end up hurting each other,” he reasoned.

I pulled him gently and looked at him. I smiled. I brushed the tears from his cheeks. “I can’t too without you,” I said. “Should I just really give up?” I asked him.

He slowly nods his head. “Our relationship won’t get us anywhere. Let’s just let go of each other for our own sake.”

It hurts me. It hurts me so much knowing I can’t do anything about this anymore. He wants me to give up because he thinks it’s what can help us. I’m hurt but what he said is true.

I smiled again and held both of his hand. “Then just stay with me for the meantime, please?”

He didn’t reply anything and I just kissed him. I felt him responding to my kisses. I held him up and clothes dropped as we walk towards the bed. I placed him there and kissed him even deeper.

“I own every part of your body, Kang Taehyun.”

“Then rule me tonight, Choi Beomgyu.”