My Hope

Joshua and I took the bus home, he fell asleep on my shoulder. It gave me time to text detective Seung to be at my house before I get there. He should be there by now.

I looked down at Joshua, laying and sleeping peacefully on my shoulder.

Perhaps he didn't deserve what he got, but maybe there was a reason for it. A reason I may never know but, shit happens.

He's still a murderer regardless, his sob story does not change my perspective of him. But aside from suffering the consequences, he needs mental help. Otherwise he could get worse.

We arrived to my bus stop and I gently shook him, "Joshua wake up." I whispered.

He sat up and rubbed his eyes, "Hmm?"

"We're home."

He sits up, "Oh is that so?"

I nod and we get off the bus and start walking to my house.

In all honesty, I want to run, to know that detective Seung is there waiting to finally arrest this man is so scary yet relieving.

"I'm glad I can trust you, Mai." He said with a sheer smile.

"Yeah.." I avoid his gaze, "You need it."

He chuckles, "When I get better, I'll be sure to thank you."

You can thank me by not killing me after this.

"Were you ever afraid of me?" He asked.

Why? Why ask such a thing that has such an obvious answer?

I sighed, "I'll admit I was a little.."

He giggles, "Oh Mai."

At last we arrived to my block, but I didn't see detective Seung anywhere. It only made me more cautious and worried.

He walked me up to my doorstep, "You know I'm very happy, now that things are settled between us." He said.

I noticed detective Seung coming up behind Joshua, handcuffs ready. And his handgun in hand.

I smiled, "Not quite." I said.

He tilted his head, "Huh?"

"Put your hands up, you're under arrest." Detective Seung said targeting Joshua.

He glared at me, "You fucking bitch." He muttered.

I gulped.

DS: Just cooperate with me and no one will get hurt.

"It's for your own good, Joshua," I told him, "I promise they'll get you help."

"You lied to me." He growled as detective Seung handcuffed him.

"You will thank me later.." I mumbled.

"Bullshit!" He hissed, I gasped and took a step back.

Detective Seung swung him forward and pressed him against the wall, "Don't you dare try a move, I have been chasing you for over 4 years now, you bastard."

Joshua chuckled, "It's been 4 years? Hm. Eunah would be having her first child by now..wouldn't she?"

Detective Seung smashed his against the wall.

I gasped, "Stop!" I exclaimed.

"You low life piece of shit. How dare you mention her name in front of me." Detective Seung muttered.

"Detective Seung please..just do your job." I pleaded.

"Yeah do your job, Jae, haha or do you still suck since you couldn't save your sister?" Joshua said.

"Shut the fuck up!" Detective Seung exclaimed and hurt him again

I covered my face.

Joshua huffed, "Gosh no need to be so violent."

"Let's go. Move your ass." Detective Seung ordered and handed him over to his partner.

Joshua smiled at me, "I will see you again." He said.

I shivered.

"Get his ass in the car." Detective Seung ordered and his partner did just that.

He looked at me, "Are you ok, Mai?"

I nod, "A bit shaken up but I'm fine.."

At least Joshua won't be able to stalk me anymore, or I hope..

"I'm so sorry I didn't get to you sooner." He said

"It's ok, he broke the button, so clearly, it isn't your fault." I said

He puts his hand over my shoulder, "This isn't the last time we'll speak, Mai, keep my number some place safe. If you ever need anything, anything at all. Call me. I'll be glad to help." He smiles.

I smiled back along with a hug, he yelped then chuckled and hugged me back, "Take care."

I pull away, "Thank you so much."

He waves and gets in his car, I looked at the backseat and stared into Joshua's devious eyes.

He had the only smirk glued to me, my heart raced, even with him in handcuffs, and in the car, I felt unsafe.

The car drove off and I gladly went inside and locked all doors/windows.

"What a fucking day." I told myself then gasped once I heard a knock at my door.

"Who is it?" I called.

"Mai?"

Hoseok..

Omg do I dare answer?

I thought for a moment, Joshua will be behind bars now, Hoseok and I can see each other again without having to worry, I'm sure Eunice can forgive me, maybe even Jimin, perhaps everything can go back to normal since Joshua is out of the picture.

I smiled, "Coming!"

He walked inside as soon as I opened the door, "Did a cop car just leave your house?!" He asked.

"Oh..yeah." I nod.

"Why?" He asked concerned.

I sighed and hold his hand, "Take a seat."

"Aigoo.." he whined.

He must've caught somethings up, my baby knows me so well.

I sat him down and began to explain what happened and why. How I made it and why the cop car just left my house.

"You're crazy, you know that?" He asked.

I smile, "Not as crazy as I am for you.."

He smiled, "Still mad?"

I shake my head no, "Why would I stay mad at you?" I asked.

He pushed me playfully, "You said some hurtful shit to me, babe."

I giggled, "Bae is sorry." I pouted.

He lifts my chin and smiles, "I forgive you." He chuckles light heartedly, "And you look damn sexy in black hair.." he said in a husky voice.

Ever so passionately he pressed his lips against mine.

I close my eyes and cup his face, deepening the kiss he lifts me up.

Hoseok layed me down on the couch and did sexual devious things to me, touching me places and teasing me.

Like the first time, I'm the first one to remove my clothing, I like to think that maybe he's shy to do it first. Which is cute as fuck if you ask me.

Hoseok carried me to my room, my legs around his waist and soon we were pleasuring each other so soundly.

Never in my life did I think this was going to happen to me, and I'm so god damn grateful it did. I'm the one. The girl. His only one.

Now I can truly believe this is all real, and I don't care what the consequences are, because I know Hoseok got me. I know he will not turn me down for anything, he's shown it since the beginning.

"I love you.." I whispered.

He kissed me like the first time, if only I can do this to him all the time, whenever and wherever.

We'll be together.

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-That Night-

To my surprise, Hoseok decided to stay all day with me. I was worried his manager might call but frankly, he didn't. Which of course is good news for me.

I think this is the first time we actually spend A WHOLE day together.

We spent it cuddling in bed, talking and eating, going for a few "more rounds" and literally living in the moment.

Nothing is more precious than looking at Hoseok and saying, "That's mine."

I never want this to end, in fact it isn't going to, I won't let it happen, I will do anything to stay with him.

My alter ego sometimes takes the best of me and doesn't allow me to do what I want. I sometimes let my conscience control me and take over my decisions.

But not now. Not anymore.

I'm in control, life doesn't drag me, I'm on top of it and guiding it myself.

That's the kinda mindset I need to develop in order for me to actually fight for my relationship with Hoseok. We have the right to love.

Anyone who isn't ok with that, can suck it for all I care.

"Babe how do I look?" He asked.

I turned my head, my eyes widen, "Jung Hoseok what the fuck are you wearing?!" I exclaimed.

He giggles, "Your red dress, I was just curious..."

"Omg take it off!" I ordered, "You'll stretch it!" I said.

He twirled, "No I don't think so...it actually fits me perfectly." He said.

I laughed so hard, "Omg!"

He smiled at my actions

I never seen Hoseok dress all girly before, wait correction, I don't think most Armys have seen him in girl clothes.

I held my stomach and continued to laugh my ass off.

"Ok enough. You're making fun of me now -_-" he said.

"You're the one who put on my dress!" I screamed while laughing.

He giggled, "Ok I'm taking it off."

He walked back into my closet.

I wiped my tears of laughter, "Babe you want to do something tonight?" I asked.

"Yeah like what?"

"Hmm...I'm not sure."

"Let's just stay in, I'll sleepover, how about that?" He asked.

I smiled, "Would you really?"

He steps out just in sweatpants, "Yeah baby."

I open my arms out to him, "Come here.."

He shakes his head and chuckles, "I'm coming.."

Hoseok snuggled into bed with me as I embrace him into my arms. He kissed my cheek and held me close.

I stroke his hair, "Do you think we'll ever build the courage to announce our relationship?" I asked.

He nods immediately, "Oh yeah, definitely. I'm not gonna be like Jimin who's been waiting for who knows how long."

"Hey don't judge him, give him props, him and Eunice have been happy ever since." I informed.

"True that, but still, I don't always want to hide you. I feel bad, but I also don't want you to get hurt."

I've gotten hurt so many times I'm used to the pain, but still, I'm just as fragile.

I sighed and laid my head against his, "I hope someday I can go to award shows with you, video shootings, photo shoots, fan signs even, and just stand on the side and support you." I said and smiled looking at him.

He locks eyes with me and smiles back, "You know that would be very distracting."

I chuckled and playfully hit him, "You know what I mean!"

He laughs, "I know I know, I'm just teasing~"

I sigh and caress his cheek, "You're everything to me, I could stare at you all day and be totally fine."

He held my hand and kissed it, "Oh Mai, I knew you were the one since the day I laid my eyes on you."

My heart skipped a beat, remembering the moment I met him.

-Flashback-

I grabbed the folder that awaited me and opened it as I stepped out into the waiting room.

"Jung Hoseok." I called.

Wait-

"Here," he said and walked to me. "Anneyong." He smiles

It's..

It's uhm..what was his stage name again?

I dropped my pen.

He noticed, "Oh." He mumbled and picked it up for me. I watched in shock, "Here ya go." He said with a slight smile.

I nervously grasped the pen and took it, "Uh..Gamsahabnida.." I nearly whispered.

-End of Flashback-

"Who would've thought?" I asked.

He smiles, "I already knew."

"Huh?" I seemed confused.

"I saw you way before the dentist appointment."

ㅇ ㅡ ㅇ

He chuckles, "I saw you at the Cafe," he began.

-Flashback-

Hoseok had accompanied Jimin to go get beverages for the rest of the members.

"Here's the money, you go on and order," Hoseok told Jimin, "I'll wait here." He assured.

"Ok hyung!" Jimin said obeying his orders.

Hoseok sat down at a small table and scrolled through his phone.

He smiled at the lovely things he normally saw on the media, how much love his fans express towards him. But his smile fades instantly.

'Why do I feel so low? I'm J-Hope'. He thought.

It wasn't the first time Hoseok felt so lonely and out of place.

Suddenly, Hoseok heard a very soft and low gasp, it caught his attention right away and his eyes scattered all over the Cafe, eager to find who just made that sound.

Then at that very fortunate moment, he laid eyes on a girl. A non-Korean girl to be exact, she looked Caucasian, very tiny but cute. Her luscious brunette hair was nicely braided to one side. Her small lips and big hazel eyes seemed to have caught Hoseoks attention, he just couldn't keep his eyes off her.

However, while his attention was on hers, her attention was all over Jimin, who didn't seem to be paying attention to anything.

'Who is that?' Hoseok asked himself.

The tiny girl looked down at her phone, looking like she's about to freak, at first Hoseok was confused and wondered if something was wrong.

But then he caught on very quick, "She's a fan." He mumbled to himself.

The girl didn't say anything, or move a muscle, but that's all it took for Hoseok to conclude that the girl was indeed an Army.

He smiles at her without her noticing and leaves the Cafe before Jimin does, he waits outside instead. Considering the fact he wasn't wearing his mask, so if the girl had noticed him too, she might've freaked out for real.

Hoseok tried not to stare at her too much but he couldn't help himself, she was too beautiful, her eyes were too big to miss, big like Jungkooks.

"My gosh you're so pretty.." he whispered to himself.

He watched as the girl grabbed her order and left the Cafe, he turned around facing away from her, only listening to the sound of her footsteps, getting lower and lower.

He smiled ever so happily and turned his head to take one last look at her.

"I'll see you again." He said to himself.

"Who the hell are you talking to?" Jimin asked him, looking at him weirdly.

"Nothing." Hoseok shrugged, "Gaja."

-End of Flashback-

My jaw dropped, "So you knew?" I asked him.

He nods, "I knew way before, I almost believed you though, thinking you weren't a fan. But when you admitted you were, I didn't care because I was happy. I was right hehe."

I giggled, "I can't believe this."

"Well believe it jagiya! I'm J-Hope!"

I smiled and pulled him into a kiss, "You're my hope."

He returned the kiss, "Yes baby, your hope."

^-^

Although I know someday we'll have to announce our relationship, I am not going to worry.

I know he isn't going to choose anything over me, he loves me.

And I love him.

》》 TO BE CONTINUED 》》

A/N: Credits to the talented artist that drew the picture I attached <3 her instagram is @dlazaru she has AMAZING WORK. Check her out~

BTW! I did not steal her work therefore am giving her credit so that I can use her picture in my story. I do not copyright (x

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