26

Janet

She was walking on eggshells. Maybe she didn't think I noticed but how could I have not noticed? She didn't entertain her sisters or mother. Instead she stayed glued to my side.

Which is how we were right now. She laid on me, her head in my lap as the plane took off. We had at least a two hour flight. Her sisters and mother sat in the rows ahead of me. Phoebe and Ember refusing to communicate and their mother being silent since I laid my eyes on her.

Kyrin thought it was best to get them out of Texas as they planned for the funeral. So they would be with us— well everyone except Phoebe who had a permanent home to go to.

Shaking her slightly caused her to look up at me. "Come with me to the back." She nodded as we got up and walked to the back of my jet. I closed the door behind us and faced her. "How are you?"

"I'm fine," She brushed me off. "Why wouldn't I be?"

"You aren't fine princess. Tell me the truth."

Kyrin shot me a look. "Baby I'm fine. Really."

Taking a deep breath, I pushed her back onto the bed. Straddling her lap, I began kissing her. Her hands found their way to my ass on instinct as we made out.

Lifting my head a bit, I studied her for a second. Her licking her lips and her eyes on me waiting for my next move. Shaking my head slightly, I kissed on her neck. "You know I know when you're lying to me right baby?"

I watched her blink slowly as she nodded and shifted with me on top of her. "Yeah. I know."

"Yet you're still trying to lie to me?"

She sighed. "Do you think he's in hell?"

"Your father?"

"Yes J, my father. Do you think God spared that evil vindictive man? I mean He is a forgiving God. That's in the word, right? That all sins weigh the same. Do you think he got his ticket to heaven? After doing what he did?"

My eyes shifted everywhere but to hers for a moment as I took a breath. "Baby... I- I don't know. It's a possibility. If he confessed his sins. Gave his life to Christ and—."

Kyrin sat up with me on her lap. "Baby, I know that. I know the ABC's. Accept. Believe. Confess. I know that but sometimes it just feels unreal that someone can just walk into heaven so easily. So freely. I don't know. I've just been in my head about everything. He's dead. Half of me is rejoicing and the other half is doing a head dive into a pool of depressing thoughts and mood swings."

"So you figure out what you want to feel. Cause trust me going between the two isn't good. In public you'll be strong. Behind closed doors you'll break down. I've done it. With Mike. With Joe. I've lived it and I'll be damned if I let you do the same thing and I'm right here. So weather you want to cry or weather you want to just lay here. We will do it. Just let me know."

"Option two with cuddles, hair rubs and kisses in between please." Kyrin told me sadly.

"Then that's what we will do." Nodding, she pulled us back down and she snuggled into my chest. I kissed her forehead and ran my fingers through her hair as she latched on to me.

She spoke after a moment. "I don't want him in hell. I just— I just don't think he deserved heaven either. Does that sound bad? Does that make me a horrible person?"

"No." I pecked her nose. "It doesn't. At the end of it all, your father faced the greatest force. He answered to Him. That's all that matters. Try not to think so deep into it baby, cause it won't take you anywhere you want to be. It's easy to get into but hard as hell to get out of."

Kyrin looked up at me. "How'd you get through this by yourself?"

I replied easily. "I had Tiff and Gil. Well whenever they did see me and get to be around me. Eissa was with my mother most of the time. Still, you aren't by yourself. I'm here. So there's no need for me to even explain the details because I only went through it because I felt alone. You are not alone."

"I know that." Her voice was soft. "So, question."

"Mhm."

"Why is your ass in Texas when I specifically asked you not to come to Texas? You're stubborn."

Making a face, I denied. "Am not. I was just worried."

"No, you were just being hardheaded. We had a deal."

"I crossed my fingers." I lied as I looked at her smiling.

She shook her head as she smiled. "You're something else, woman."

"Kyrin!" Phoebes voice yelled through the plane.

My girlfriend shot up in annoyance. "They're at it again."

I followed her back into the main space and listened at Ember and Phoebe go at it.

Ember smacked her lips. "Always calling your watch dog."

"Ember. She's really your watch dog. I'm trying to save you because I have my razor and lemon juice in my suitcase. That blade don't have no destination either. Just quit talking to me." Phoebe replied as she rolled her eyes.

"Kyrin..." Ember called out warningly.

Kyrin simply blinked slowly before shaking her head. "My heads killing me. My nerves are bad. My anxiety is through the roof. I haven't slept in almost a day. Put that all together with the fact that our father is dead and you have a black woman about to lose her shit. I'm not you alls counselor, quit calling me. Stop arguing. Stop fighting because at the end of the day the mans still going to be dead. Happy about it or not happy about it. Instead of fighting, how about you two check on our mother? Distract yourselves while I go do the same."

She turned around and pulled me away with her. Back in the room, she closed the door and took off her shirt. Next went her sweats and when she went to take off her bra, I quickly stopped her and did it for her.

"Lay down baby, let me take some stress off of you." I whispered in her ear. Kyrin looked at me as she bit her lip before laying back on the bed completely.

I laid against her body and started my assault on her neck where I knew she liked it most. I had no reservations about using my tongue, so I licked her up her neck to her ear causing her to shiver.

This earned me a gasp from her accompanied with her opening her legs a bit for me to slide one of my own between them. I dropped kisses all over her neck and collarbones while she started to grind her hips into me.

My hands slid from her waist to her ass, then trailed to her breasts which were pressed into mine. I squeezed each one and worked my hands towards her already hard nipples.

Bringing my mouth to each one, I used my teeth and tongue to lash them individually. When I knew her nipples could get no harder, I peppered her chest with more kisses, sinking lower and lower towards her center. I licked her inner thighs with a rough flat tongue until her hand was in my hair pushing my face where she truly wanted me. I nipped each thigh causing her to shudder both times, then l let her have her way.

Grabbing her panties and pushing them to the side, i ambushed her with my tongue, alternating between ice cream licks and pointed ones. I let my nails wander, dragging them wherever I pleased. It wasn't long before she was covering her mouth in hopes of stifling her moans, and when I stuck two fingers into her, her body bucked against mines.

"Mm. Mama!" Her moans got louder and I used my free hand to cover her mouth as well. Yet she says I'm the screamer.

Our bodies were pressed together tightly so I felt when her back arched some as she began grinding against my fingers. She was tightening around them which let me know she was close.

Taking my hand from her mouth, I mumbled. "Don't get loud, baby."

She nodded frantically as I drifted back down and began eating her out again.

That nod was a lie cause when I bit down on her nub slightly she yelled. "Janet! Fuck!"

Smiling to myself slightly, I realized that she would regret this later but I wouldn't. I continued and she took her free hand and grabbed my hair while her other stayed over her mouth. Looking up at her, we met eye contact before I sped my finger movements up causing her eyes to roll back slightly as her head hit the pillow again.

Kyrin became stiff suddenly. And it only made me slow my pumps as she came against my tongue. I caught every drop as she moaned out. "I love you so much."

Licking up the last of it, I lifted up as I took my fingers out slowly. "I love you more baby."

I licked my fingers clean and she pulled me down next to her. We began kissing again before she pulled away. "Yeah, suddenly I feel way better."

"Really? You aren't still a black woman about to lose her shit?" I asked with widened eyes as I laughed.

She rolled her eyes slightly. "Leave me alone."

"Mhm, you're rolling your eyes now— but a few ago—."

"Stop talking. Hold me. I'm tired." She mumbled as she nuzzled into my chest. I put my arms around her as she closed her eyes.

"You know, you were moaning pretty loud." I pointed out softly.

"Don't mention it. Maybe they'll forget." By the way her words slowed I knew she was halfway asleep. "I love you baby."

These days, Kyrin was quick to say that to me. Still, I'd never  complain because I was just as quick replying with, "I love you too."