Fake Love

A/N: I want to say sorry in advance T.T Next part will be on weekend or weekdays (But I can't promise)

Jin's POV

After we left the Art shop, Tae's mood changed. He's giving me his fake smiles again which I hate.

At first glance you wouldn't notice it since he's smiling but the glow in his eyes were gone.

I sighed as my gripped tightened at the paper bag I'm holding.

I came back to the shop to get the camera that Tae wanted. He's looking at it so longingly that I'm surprised that he didn't purchase it, so I decided to buy it for him.

But now I felt frustrated since he's pretending to be okay again. Why can't he trust me enough to show me his pain?

We made two more stops but I felt that we're too lost with our own thoughts to enjoy our date.

We decided to call it a night so we took a cab and go home. We're both silent during our whole ride.

I tugged Taehyung's shirt after we entered my apartment.

"I hate it" I mumbled, almost inaudible.

"What's the problem Jin?"

"You" I answered with a firm voice even though my resolve are quivering.

Am I ready for this confrontation?

"W-what do you mean?"

"Your smile. Stop faking it"

Taehyung eyes widened and slowly, his face went blank. He lowered his head but didn't answer.

"If you're not okay, say it. If you're in pain, tell me. Let me give you a shoulder to cry on. Tae, I'm here"

Tears started to stream down from my face. All my emotions erupting like a volcano.

"What are you hiding from me? Why can't you be honest with me for once?"

I tried to convince myself that things will get better soon. That he will start to open up once I proved to him that I'll be here no matter what. That Tae will learn to trust me. But I'm getting tired of waiting.

"Please Jin, don't do this" He pleads. Tae's voice cracked while clenching his jaw tight to keep himself from crying.

I wanted to stop. I wanted to pretend that everything is okay, but Namjoon was right. If we will not face our problems soon, we will get burned by this fake love in the end.

"Tae, we need to face this..together. Tell me what's going on inside your head"

I cupped his cheeks and pulled him in a tight hug.

Taehyung buried his face in the crook of my neck. "I'm afraid Jin. I don't want to lose you"

"You won't lose me. Trust me" I captured Taehyung's gaze to show how much I love him.

He nodded slowly. "I-I will tell you the truth"

He guided me to my room and gently close the door.

He took few steps backwards and let go of my hands.

"I-If you hate me after you know the truth, I w-won't blame you. If you leave me, I will understand"

I clamped my hands on my mouth to keep myself from crying. My heart hurts. Not for myself but for Taehyung.

Whatever happened in the past broke him. In my eyes, he's still the same beautiful guy I loved 5 years ago but deep down he changed. He was already consumed by his self hatred.

"Tae, tell me everything"

He slowly unbuttoned his shirt with his trembling fingers and turned to reveal two long scars that looked like wings have been cut from his back.

I gasped.

Taehyung looked like a fallen angel. Beautiful but scarred.

"I'm ugly" he said when he saw me looking at his scars. He tried to cover it but I stopped him.

I shook my head. "You're still beautiful" I gently feel the surface of his scar. "Did it still hurt?"

"No, it's already healed. It's been 5 years"

My eyes widened. "F-five years?"

He nodded. "Jin, I never wanted to leave you, but I have to"

"W-what do you mean?"

"I was raped"