Best of Me

Jin's POV

I still love Taehyung. Lying to myself are dumb. Why would I let him kiss me or hold my hand if I don't love him? In fact I miss him.

5 years ago he left me and it hurt like hell. Even now, I'm not sure why we even broke up. I just woke up one day with the news that he's no longer in Seoul.

I tried everything to reach him but even Jimin can't tell me what happened to his bestfriend.

I just jump into conclusion that Taehyung got tired of me and didn't want me anymore which is a slap in my already low self esteem.

And now he came back. But what scares me most is the fact that he still have a hold in my heart.

"You're worldwide handsome. You can make anyone fall for you"

I recited my mantra.

"You're handsome Kim SeokJin. You're loved. You're enough"

I decided to make Taehyung fall for me.

I smiled. I need to remind myself that I'm no longer the old Seokjin. I slept tonight with our memories playing on my mind.

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"Taehyungie, do you really love me?" I asked while playing with Taehyung's fingers. We're in his apartment right now, just cuddling.

"Of course" He knotted his forehead. "You don't believe me?"

"I do, but it felt like a dream" I looked at him. "You're too perfect that it's hard to believe that you like me"

"I don't just like you. I love you" He leaned to peck my lips.

"I love you too"

"I'm not special though. I'm just like everyone else"

"Nope. You're one in a million" I locked our fingers.

"How come?"

"Sharp eyes and long lashes" Kiss.

"Perfect nose" Kiss.

"Beautiful lips" Kiss.

"I really wonder why you like me? Is it just because of my face?"

"Hmm... You're kind, lovable, innocent..."

Taehyung is a big baby.

"and not too innocent.."

He smirked.

There are times I will find myself pinned on the wall while he kissed me senseless.

Taehyung and his raging hormones.

I rolled my eyes but continued.

"You're the first person who ever smiled at me."

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"Remember the day we bumped on each other?"

He nodded.

"I thought you're going to hit me or yell at me"

"Why would I do that?" He frowned.

"Well.. Everyone is like that everytime they see me" I lowered my gaze. I'm ashamed to let Taehyung know how pathetic I am.

He's not aware of me being bullied because my classmates will act nice everytime he fetched me. Taehyung is in lower year and we often meet after class so he don't know much about my life in our school. And, I never told him anyway.

He cupped my chin to look at me in the eyes.

"Who's bullying you?" He sound mad so I flinched.

"Uhm.. I'm good at avoiding them so don't worry" I quickly explained but not directly answering his question. Did he hate me now?

"I'm sorry" I whispered while tears started to stream down in my eyes.

"Why are you saying sorry?"

I covered my face. "I'm pathetic"

He pulled me in a tight hug while gently caressing my hair.

"You're not pathetic. Don't ever say that again"

Taehyung's words made me cry more. It's as if the drum of unshed tears was unsealed.

When my classmates say nasty things about me or hit me, I never cried. I refused to cry. I will just act as if nothing happened.

I'm used to it. At some point, I thought I really deserve it.

"Shh.. Listen to me, Baby" He kissed my tears. "Don't let them make you feel less about yourself. If you're going to ask me, you deserve all the best in this world"

My heart fluttered. "I love you Taehyungie"