Prologue

Jaeni's POV

Hello, I am Park Jaeni, I am the mother to my adorable son Park Soobin. I work as a wedding planner and party coordinator. As Soobin was growing up, I have been working hard to provide for him as all mothers would do.

I know it would be easier if there were complete parents, like a mother and and father but...

The truth is, Soobin never met his father.

Because, the father of my son is a dangerous man.

Soobin's father is Kim Namjoon, a powerful and rich man. A well-known man in the gang world, also known as RM.

We were in love.

Very much.

He was a loving and caring boyfriend, but I had to leave.

I had to..

I was afraid..

~~~Flashback~~~

"Mmm..." I moaned as I felt kisses on my neck. "Mmm..Namjoon.." I said and he chuckled. "Good morning Love.." he rasped out with his morning voice.

I rubbed my eyes and yawned. I sat up from our bed and Namjoon wrapped his arm around me. I leaned in his touch.

"Good morning Joonie.." I said. "Morning Love.." he said and kissed my forehead. "Mmmm...I wish everyday was like this.." I said.

"It will." He said. "Joonie?" I said and he hums in response. "Have you ever thought of us having a family? Like get married and have kids?" I asked. He sighed, he turned me to face him.

"Love, that's not really my priority right now, I don't think I'll ever be ready to have kids.." he said.

"But what about getting married?" I asked. "Of course Love, some day."

"Then kids?"

"Love no, I don't think I'll ever think of that." He said and I just nodded sadly.

"Love, there's a reason why you went on birth control, it's not easy to raise a child, especially when I work dangerously. You know how I can get when something ticks me off." He said.

"I know, I'm sorry if I pressured you." I said and he smiles. "It's alright my Love, now let's go shower and get ready." He said.

We went to the bathroom and washed up, I was blow drying my hair as Namjoon dried his hair with a towel. We got dressed and I sat on the bed.

"I need to go now Love.." Namjoon said and kissed my forehead. "Okay, stay safe, I love you.." I said.

"I love you too.." he said before leaving.I went to the the kitchen to make breakfast and maids helped me as well. When my food was ready, I set up the dining table and ate my breakfast.

Once I was done, I took my plate and went to the kitchen to wash it. When I stood up, I felt myself get dizzy.

Woah, head rush..

I shook my head then continued to walk to the kitchen. I placed my dishes in the counter when a maid came in. "Oh miss Jaeni, let me do that.." she said and I shook my head. "No it's fine." I said and smiled. Suddenly my head started to spin and my stomach churned. I held my head.

"Are you okay miss?" The maid asked worriedly. "I don't feel too--" I palmed my mouth and ran to the nearest bathroom. I threw up in the toilet and the maid follows and pulled my hair up as I puked.

Once I calmed down, I wiped my mouth and flushed the toilet. "Are you sure you're okay miss Jaeni? Would you like me to call master Namjoon?" She asked and I shook my head. "N-no, there's no need to make him worry, it's probably just me." I said and she nods.

I walked back to me and Namjoon's room and took my phone. I dialed my brother Chanyeol's number. A few rings later, he picked up.

"Hey sis, what's up?" He said.

"Channy I think I'm sick.."

"What? Why? Are you okay?"

"Yeah but I threw up a little while ago and got a little dizzy."

"Why don't you call Jisoo for an appointment? Then I'll come by and take you there to make sure you're okay."

"Okay, thanks Channy."

He hung up and I got ready. I quickly did my makeup and hair and put on an outfit. After awhile I texted Chanyeol that I was ready and he said he was one his way. I dialed Jisoo's office number, she was a doctor friend of mine and her boyfriend was Namjoon's good friend, Jin. A few rings later, they picked up.

"Doctor Kim Jisoo's assistant nurse, how may I help you?"

"Hello, this is Park Jaeni, Jisoo's friend."

"Ah miss Park, what is it that you need?"

"Could I make an appointment with Jisoo? I am not feeling well and I wanna know why."

"Of course miss, just come in her office at the hospital, she is still free right nowp."

"Okay, thank you."

I hung up and went to grab my purse. "Miss Jaeni? You're brother is here." A maid said and I nodded. I walked out if the room and went downstairs where Chanyeol was.

"Sis, are you okay?" He said and hugged me. "I'm okay now Channy, but I still need to find out what's wrong with me."

"Right, let's go then, did you make an appointment?" He asked and I nodded. We left the house and got in his car. It was only a ten minute drive to the hospital so we arrived really soon. Once Chanyeol parked his car, we headed in the hospital and walked to Jisoo's office.

I opened the door and it revealed Jisoo. "Jaeni, you're here, I was told by my assistant you weren't feeling well." She said standing up and giving me a hug. "Yes unnie, I felt really dizzy and lightheaded this morning after breakfast and also threw up." I explained as we pulled away.

"Well I'll do a couple of test. Oh, hello Chanyeol." She said when she saw Chanyeol. "Hey Jisoo, hope you can find out what's wrong with my sister." Chanyeol said worriedly. "I will, now let's do some tests."

Jisoo had me do a few physical test and even a blood test. Once she got the result from my blood test, her eyes widened when she read it.

"Unnie? What's wrong?" I asked, she looked up at me with worry in her eyes. "Jaeni, you're pregnant."

W-what?

This can't be.

"W-what? It has to be a mistake! I was on birth control!" I said, Chanyeol wrapped his arms around me when I felt like I was gonna cry. "Shh..it's okay sis.." He said and rubbed my back.

"No, it's not a mistake, you really are pregnant." Jisoo said. "I-I can't, Namjoon wouldn't be able to accept the child! He said he won't be ready for it, w-we just had this conversation this morning." I said while crying, I was afraid.

Namjoon can be scary and ruthless when something doesn't go right to his plans and this baby, his baby, was not part of his plan. "Hey, hey, Jaeni, don't worry, I won't tell Namjoon or Jin, I promise." Jisoo said.

"Thanks Jisoo but this can't be kept a secret for long, what if her stomach begins to swell up, she could get killed by Namjoon." Chanyeol said while trying to calm me down.

"Right, I'm sorry that I'm asking this Jaeni but I have to, do you wanna consider, getting an abortion?" Jisoo asked me and my eyes widened.

"N-no, I don't want to kill my own child." I said wiping my tears away. "I-I'm sorry, I just needed to ask." She said. I smiled. "It's okay unnie."

I fixed myself up as I thought of an idea. "What if I...leave?" I said and both of them looked at me. "What do you mean sis?" Chanyeol asked.

"I leave without telling Namjoon, for the safety of our child, because he has many connections, he can easily find me if I tell him." I said.

"Where are you gonna go?" Jisoo asked. "I-I'm not sure, just somewhere safe for now." I said while trying to think of some place. "I'm going with you." My brother said. "What? Chanyeol, you don't have--"

"I will, I'm not comfortable with you alone and pregnant." He said.

"He's right Jaeni, it's not good for you to be alone while you're pregnant, something might happen to you." Jisoo said. "Fine, unnie, please don't tell anyone about this." I said.

"Don't worry, you're secrets safe with me."