☆Entry²

Entry no2: Nam Y/n 10/10/0000《★———————★》

Lily just gawked at you as you both sat outside in one of the open area benches as you told her the interesting things that have been happening to you

On how you had not only kissed 1 but 2 strangers barely even 2 hours apart and ontop the that , they were friends... what a way to be a bop huh.

"Holy mother of stupid souls, what the actual fuck?" She questioned and you buried your face in your hands in embarrassment, to be honest you didn't know why you've been telling her shit , she just felt like someone you could trust and tell shit to yk?

"What the actual fuck?" She repeated as you looked at her, she looked at you in utter disbelief

"what the actual fuck??"

"Are those the only words in your limited vocabulary?" You grunted earning a scowl from the older female and before she could speak a figure dropped down next to you taking a seat on the bench before a rose was dropped onto your hold.

"What the actual fuck–" Lily cried  Into her hands and honestly you wanted to do the same.

"I've decided to bless you with my presence and you don't even greet? How impolite" Minho scoffed as he looked at you then lily and back to you again. As to ask a silent question of who tf is this bitch?

"Was she here when I sat down?"

You and lily looked at each other before looking back at him "you found us here, you're supposed to greet" you mumbled and he shrugged "I'm older" he deadpanned.

"Congratulations,  you want a golden star?" You replied with a monotone and lily just remained silent boy did she not want to get involved with the o.g stayzone patients. "

A kiss would be better" Minho flirted causing you to raise a brow. "You already had two so why not grow that number princess."

What the actual fuck?

"Are you high? Just a few days ago you freaked out when I accidentally touched your hand" you reminded him "your hands were dirty" he lied , totally not because he was imagining your hands around his –

you blinked.

"Yours were too"

"They weren't"

"I'm sure they were"

"Invisible gloves" he did jazz hands

"There's no such thing" he chuckled at that before speaking.

"You'd freak out too if a random stranger touched you" he shrugged and you just stared at him with a deadpanned expression "..."

"Oh right, you're into that" He chuckled to himself and you glared.

You looked down at the rose he had given you when he blessed you and lily with his presence "please tell me this doesn't come with a threat too?" You sighed and he chuckled softly and if you were to be honest, that sound was calming and enticing.

What the actual fuck y/n?

There goes your subconscious again , being the whiny bitch it is. Being in this place is slowly but surely making you lose your marbles.

"Threat? I didn't threaten you, I just simply asked you a question" he answered,  "that was a hidden threat" lily butted in to be silenced by a cold and deadly glare from Minho 

What is yo with these people and being able to shut out talkative souls with just one look

"Yeah... no" you muttered getting up and taking lily's hand "thanks for the rose garden boy" you flashed his a small smile before leading lily away.

"He scares me, I'm trying so hard to not shit myself right now" lily joked making you huff out a laugh "he's a weird child"

"Who knew he could hold a conversation or laugh... I'm shooketh to the core" lily said as you both made your way to your room "and I'm just weirded out, what the fuck is going on in this place"

"A kdrama my dear, a freaking kdrama, this is way better than true beauty" she chuckled and you rolled your eyes in return. "Plus... you've got more than two leads" she winked

Oh boy.

As you made your way out from your therapy session with doctor average looks, you decided to tour around even if that hasn't done you any actual good. You were about to turn for the stairs back down your floor but froze as you heard soft whimpers coming from a closed door.

Debating with your subconscious on whether you should mind your business as the sane person you are or go in there and probably get murdered? And you know what you chose as the sane person you are? You opened the freaking door.

You looked around and saw nothing but the plain white walls in the room, tiled floor and a few fallen boxes by one of the corners, you were about to turn and go back to where you were heading to when another whimper stopped you in your tracks.

Each one weaker and more defeated than the last, slowly and cautiously you made your way over to the boxes stopping when you saw a pair of blue grippy socks connected to feet under the pile of boxes wiggling every one and then.

"Hello?" You called out as you got a bit closer, a gasp came from the person the all the boxes before series of sounds and noises came from them confusing you a bit, not understanding what in the dumb ways to die was going on you just stood there dumbstruck.

"Are you alright? Are you in need of some assistance?" You questioned and the same sounds responded to your question, you sighed before moving towards the person,  lifting one of the boxes off what seemed to be their head and fuck were they actually heavy.

"Jesus, what the actual fuck is in these boxes" you grunted putting one down, you looked down as the person's head popped up from the space you had provided and a small whimper left his mouth as he gazed at you with a relieved expression.

You tried your best to lift up the rest of the boxes and as soon as you lifted the last one , the guy let out a pained grunt before looking at you and hugging you tightly. You took it as another way this person was thanking you instead of just saying it.

"Uh– you're welcome" you said with an awkward laugh as the person pulled away to look at you and you had to admit —

You're admitting a lot of shit this year huh...

No–

You had to admit, he looked cute, you could even compare him to a puppy with the expression he hah and the sparkle in his eyes although you could tell that he probably cried a few times while stuck under those boxes.

Looking around you just wondered how one ends up in said situation, "how did you end up buried under a heavy ton of boxes?" You asked and guy started pulling some gangsigns (I'm going to hell) and after a while of naruto accented movements the puppy man looked at you only to huff out a bit in frustration when he realised you probably didn't understand what the heck he signed.

He parted his lips as if he were to speak only to close it back up , you cocked your head to the side "you can't talk can you?" You questioned the obvious and with a somewhat sad expression the guy nodded.

"Well Uh..  I'm sorry about that" you said awkwardly "I'm Park y/n by the way and you– oh right... I won't be able to understand if you were to try and tell me" you sighed before an idea popped into your empty head.

"Try checking one of the boxes for something to write on and with" you directed and with a determined nod the guy started digging threw the boxes and so did you

To be honest you should've questioned most of the things that were in those boxes, if you hadn't been the curious cat that you were the poor dude could have passed either on or out from suffocation or something. Either it happened out of stupidity or was attempted murder.

After a while you managed to find a notepad and puppy guy found a pencil, he sat down infront of you before scribbling away.

"Minnie, Minnie where are you? They're staring at me , Seungmin please" the other begged as the hallucinations today had gotten a bit more scarier than before as he cowered in the corner of the dancing studio, he whimpered as tears streaked down his face as he kept calling for his friend.

Seungmin popped his head into the room before his eyes landed on his from , worry flashed on his face before he rushed towards him and embracing the younger.

"Get away , get away" the younger cried as he was way into his head to even recognise his own best friend

"Jeongin calm down it's me" the older wanted to say but he couldn't get any words out and before he could think of anything to do he was harshly pushed off by the weeping boy causing him to tumble into the boxes they had stacked earlier in the day and less than a second later all the boxes fell on him

Jeongin cried as all he saw were the figures in his head closing up on him all yelling , weeping and trying to grab each and every inch on him causing him to stand and dash for the door not taking a second to hear seungmins cries

At that moment all he did was cry in pain. He wished he could talk again, that way he could call for help but all he could do was cry and try push himself up but his efforts resulted in nothing but pain and loss of air as the boxes were kinda winding him

He didn't know how long he had been under those boxes , minutes, hours? Days? Aha– no that's too much , he just defeatrdly laid under those boxes unsure of what's to come,  he heard his friends calling out his name at time but he couldn't even bring himself to reply with any sounds soon he heard those calls fade and that made him give up further.

A lot more time went by he let out a few more whimpers and cried trying to breathe as his body ached badly and he felt himself starting to feel a bit too sleepy but he knew better than to follow through he knew if he probably let himself close his eyes he won't be opening them again. He was about to finally give up until he heard your wearily "hello?" And decided to try and get your attention

He felt so relieved when you started lifting the boxes off him which brought you two to now.

Your jaw hung low as you finished reading the last sentence on the notepad that Seungmin had wrote on "I'm sorry that happened to you" you said your voice laced with pity and Seungmin waved his hand around as a way to say it was okay.

Seungmin wasn't much of a talker-really (I know, i know , i couldnt help it), he seemed funny and it actually shocked and warmed your heart to see how one could be like this when they couldn't express themselves in words.

Seungmin had a few friends in stayzone and had been here with them for a while and sometimes they kinda scared him, they were  unpredictable really,  sometimes they'd have panic attacks, hallucinations or just plain out have episodes and unfortunately for him he was too much of a kind soul to do anything else than try and help by comforting them.

And nothing good ever really came from that, sometimes his friends got too violent that he'd end up having to stay nights at the Infirmary, not to mention the times he almost died because of each and everyone of them, even if they scared him shitless they were still the very people that made him feel welcome when he came here or so he wrote.

"There you are" the man he had been hiding from growled as he pulled the youngers leg from his hiding place , literally dragging him across the room

Belt ready in hand and Seungmin knew exactly what was next, he dreaded every single time his adoptive father would do this to him. He wanted to ask for help , to tell the world that the person they called heavensent was actually a demon in disguise but he couldn't bring himself to.

Mr Kim was already going through a lot, he didn't want to add to his stress even if it meant he'd have to deal with the abuse until he was 18 he'd do it.

Or also cause he said he's kill him if he happened to even whimper to anyone as he had shut down to nothing but a mute to come.

"Smile" hissed his father as he slapped seungmin harshly "You're gonna go and read this verse okay? I give zero fucks that you're playing the silent game, you are priests son no son of mine will play a devil's game and ruin my family name!" He yelled at seungmin who nodded wiping away his tears as he smiled even when he wanted to break down.

Just smile.

So he did

And someday he hoped that the heavens above would answer to his prayers and take away the man who painted himself in gold when it was something he could barely afford.

Seungmin held the shovel to his chest as his adoptive mother hugged him tightly to keep him warm as the riverside was colder at night

"He's gone baby" she kissed his forehead before washing here bloody hands in the water and disposing the gun "he's never gonna hurt you ever again"

And them Seungmin knew, he was surrounded by demons.

"Would you like me to help you to the Infirmary?" You asked kindly and Seungmin nodded with a smile as you swung his arm over your shoulders as you both made your way to the 2nd floor Infirmary.

"There you are" a voice shouted and the person made their way towards you two, you were kinda pushed out of the way as the said person embraced Seungmin in the tight hug that made the puppy man grunt in discomfort

"Where the fuck were you Minnie? We looked everywhere for you, what did i say about wondering off by yourself?" Scolded the man and seungmin signed something to the other who just sighed heavily before looking at you.

"She did?" He asked seungmin who nodded with a smile, "she looks too weak to do that", oh that fucker,  after a while of staring you down the other smiled at you "oh well, atleast you're not like dead or something " he joked and you and seungmin just looked at each other silently.

"I'm Han jisung by the way" he smiled at you before swinging an arm over you and you noted that this guy must've been the space invader pal seungmin had mentioned while telling you about his 'great' friends

"Well since you're here can you take Seungmin down to the infirmary?" You asked and Han looked at seungmin before speaking "he looks fine to me"

"I'm not sure what fine means to you but he's clearly not" you argued pulling away from his contact amd he scoffed getting intimidatedly close to you while glaring "you just met him ,princess and I've known him for years, so how about you shut your pretty little mouth before I make you" he threatened and it was your turn to scoff

Seungmin tried to sign something to Jisung but got pushed away "not now seungie I wanna deal with your little friend right now, I kinda don't have time to decode you" (hell.. is a place)

"Seriously?!" You yelled "you call yourself a friend of his but talk to him like that as if he's below you or something? Just because he's verbally impared? What the actual fuck is up with you" you pointed your index finger at him

He glared down at you and before you knew it you were winded up against the nearest wall, seungmin tried to help out but with one glare from the feral quokka looking male he guiltily stood down.

"I'm not sure who the fuck you think you are" he hissed as he pulled roughly on your hair and you let out a pained whimper as your hands pushed against his chest "you have no right to talk to him like he's a freaking child" you yelled and you saw fire in his eyes and honestly it made you want to do nothing more than cowar in fear but you stood your ground

there's no freaking way in hell that you were gonna sit back and let an Overgrown bully that was way into his power trip bully you into submission, mama didn't raise no puss in boots.

Who in the glory did this fucker think he is?

You harshly pushed him off and sent a heavy and heated punch to his cheek causing him to fall back.

glaring daggers at him as he sat on the ground now steaming , you shook your  head at his immature behaviour "cmon seungmin,  let's get you to the infirmary" you said and he just stood there in fear.

"Trust me bbg if this little shit tries to do shit, I will personally and gladly  pull out the stick in his ass that I hope is puncturing some vital organs right now" and with that you took one more look at jisung who looked just about ready to murder you before taking seungmin away like the Knight in shinning armour  you were.

"Aigoo" cooed someone as they leaned against a wall "about time someone showed you your place" teased the person as jisung rolled his eyes Standing up, rubbing his cheek muttering curses under his breath.

"Easy there tiger" teased another voice appearing next to the first one with a small laugh the two continued to tease the ticking time bomb "I swear to God I'll kill her"

"I'm afraid you can't Sungie, unless you wanna face the wrath of the poetic duo" the poetic duo was what their mini group called Hwang Hyunjin and Lee Minho with how they chose to dramatically express themselves.

"Shut up Felix, I don't give a shit about that right now"

" oh well, I'm off to let the others know that we don't need to prepare a coffin after all" flashing the two a smile felix walked off to find the rest of his friends

"Took your meds today?" Questioned Changbin as he was responded to with a mumbled "no"

"Okay" sung the older "off to that with you" guiding the other by the shoulders they went off to their room to make jisung drink the meds he liked skipping so much. Leave that to Jeongin and jisung to skip their needed meds and almost kill someone.

"But seriously, try not to bully seungmin so much, the kid is going through a lot already" changbin spoke after a while and jisung rolled his eyes "it's not like he's mute mute, he can still defend himself" retorted the younger.

"His selective mutism is something big Jisung, plus he's getting worse , he's speaking less and standing up for himself less , as his friends let's not push him around  for that" argued changbin gently

"You say that as if you don't do things to him too"

"I never said I was an angel" he shrugged.

Oh how the world was messed up.

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"That should get his body to ache less when he wakes up" Jeung Tzuyang or what she introduced herself as said as she just finished putting seungmin to sleep with some painkillers.

"Poor thing has visited this place way more than any other" she sighed as she put her gloves away before sitting on a chair infront of yours as you just looked at seungmin who looked peacefully asleep.

"Do they hurt him a lot?" You asked and with a nod received from Tzuyang you frowned.

"Why doesn't anyone do anything? He's going through so much if people can see that he's being abused and bullied as such why don't them do something to the bullies , why didnt they take Seungmin to a safer place" you complained and Tzuyang shook her head

"There's nothing to be done, if Seungmin doesn't report this there's nothing to be done about it. Plus this place is owned by one of the perpetrators parents so they'd just shut him up" she explained and you sighed. You hated injustice heavily and stood against it with your heart, arse and mind probably cause you had diplomats/ politicians as parents who always stood up against what's wrong. The apple never falls too far from the tree after all.

"Unnie" you said after a while "can you tell me about him, about seungmin?" You asked and she nodded and spoke after a few minutes of thinking.

"Kim Seungmin was brought into stayzone at the ripe age of 10, he was beat , bruised and shooken to the core, he had suffered so much abuse that the kid could no longer speak unless he was truly comfortable. He'd just let out whimpers and grunts cause all his words failed him."

"Not being to speak took a huge toll on his self esteem too and as the years went by he just became more and more of a shell of his former self, the boys first treated him as if he was  as fragile as glass but as time went on they started being the abusers too, I'm not saying they're entirely to blame, they aren't in their right minds."

"When Seungmin turned 15 he was removed from the 2nd floor and put into the 1st floor and soon he'd be out of this place" she paused letting out a heavy breath

"But I guess the thought of losing one of their own scared them that they made sure to break him when he was getting better, he started losing his built confidence, ate less, gained insomnia, started self harm and became more and more mute and all they did was just make me put him back on medication and he was sent right back to them, back to the second floor." Tzuyangs voice cracked a bit as she spoke , wiping a tear that managed to fall.

From that you could tell that she cared deeply about Seungmin and sewing him suffer as such and being unable to do anything but watch and treat the aftermath with medication Hurt her too.

"If it's okay for me to ask... why was Seungmin admitted here in the first place?" You asked silently after she calmed down.

"He got adopted by one of the kim families when he was 5 and things were said to be going well for the first few years until they weren't anymore , his adoptive father was a terrible , terrible man, he started drinking a lot when his wife left him and took out all of his frustrations out on the kid when he did nothing at all."

"It went from verbal abuse, to physical then later to sexual. He'd beat seungmin up as if he was fighting someone his age, touch him in places one should never touch someone they care for as family and it went from just touches to sexually assaulting him and stabbing him with knives whenever he did so to silence him"

"That's where his mutism came from, having no one to talk to and being silenced caused him to be mute and get use to the abuse even when it wasn't okay, it was a way for him to cope by pretending that it was okay,  that he would soon be free and get away from the monster he lived with, so when he turned 10 he was found in his room bleeding out by his adoptive mother when she came to take some of her stuff from the house."

"Seeing him in such a state,  she blamed herself for leaving home behind with such a monster, a few months later she won custody over him and got him sent here hoping it would help get better... but did it really?"

You looked at the sleeping male sadly as you just asked yourself, how could one still love and smile at those who hurt him the most?