Dreams

I had my wand pointed, straight at a man's face. A flesh wound still oozing blood and the entire right side of his body wore a purple-yellow smear of bruise.

"Please." He begged. "No more. Please."

{Crucio.} I flicked my wand and his screams filled my ears.

(Stop! What am I doing! Stop!)I tried to retract my wand. I tried to run away but I was stuck watching that man wither before me.

(No! Stop!)I slashed my wand and a purple light flew out. The man withering in front of me started to bleed and choke on his own blood.

(No!)

"Solace!"

(No!)

"Angel!"

"No!" I opened my eyes to see Draco straddling my side and holding my wings still. "Draco." I silently cried.

Draco looked at me sadly. "You're awake now. It was a dream." He got off me and cupped my cheek, filling my mind with his memories. "You're awake. It's over."

(I hurt him. I hurt him.)"Draco. I.. I.."

"Shhh." Draco pulled me up into his lap and kissed my forehead. "It's over. It was only a dream. You're awake." I relaxed in his hold. "I'm here."

(It was a dream. It was Dolohov.)I moved my wings back to their normal position. "Did-Did I wake y-you?" I sucked in a shaky breath.

"No." He pulled the blanket over me. "I was making breakfast and I heard you scream." I nodded, Draco wiped the tears that dripped down my face. "Are you alright?"

I nodded. "It's his memories... Dolohov..." I held his hand. "I couldn't stop hurting him."

"Who?"

"I dont know. A stranger." I pulled his hand to my chest. "The memories... I see them as if they are my own."

Draco wrapped his arms around me for comfort. "They aren't your memories, Solace. You would never do something like that."

(It was just a dream. I'm fine.)"I know." I sniffled, Draco wiped my cheeks. "I haven't had a nightmare in years." I let out a shaky breath. "And never one that wasn't my own."

"I shouldn't have let you help him." Draco said guiltily.

"You didn't know." I looked up at his eyes full of sadness, he hates seeing me hurt and sad. "Im fine, Draco."

Draco brushed his fingers on my cheek and kissed my forehead. "Why don't you take a shower while I finish breakfast."

I nodded and sat up. "What's on the menu?"

Draco immediately closed his eyes. "It's a surprise."

I smiled and kissed him. "Alright. Keep them closed then." I got off the bed. "Thank you, Draco."

I walked to the bathroom and started the water, stripping as I waited for it to warm. (Calm down. It was only a nightmare that isn't your own to be guilty about.)

I walked into the shower and started to bathe. My hair, body, wings as best as I could. After I finished washing I turned off the water and stepped out, brushing my teeth and hair then walking back into the room.

I got my wand, dried myself then put on a turquoise bikini and then one of my specially made cover ups. One that is like a normal cover up but cut straight down in two places on the back for the base of the wings to fit.

I walked out of the bedroom and into the kitchen where Draco was plating the fluffiest pancakes onto a plate.

(He always thinks of me.)A smile grew on my lips. "Pancakes?"

Draco turned to me and smiled softly. "Chocolate chip pancakes." I smiled more, he placed them on the island and I took a seat. "With chocolate syrup in case." He placed a small bowl of melted chocolate.

"Thank you, Draco."

Draco smiled. "You're welcome." He grabbed his plate of eggs and sausage before moving to sit next to me.

I cut into my pancake and took a bite. (They are so fluffy. Oh, my god.)"Mmm. Oh, my god. How did you make this?"

Draco took a bite of his food. "Don't give me to much credit. I had to go through a couple trials before I got ones like those."

I smiled. "I promise I won't look in the trash." Draco smiled and looked at his food, I sobered at seeing Draco's thoughts. "I'm fine, Draco."

Draco's food was pushed around. "Solace you were screaming."

I frowned and looked at my plate. "I'm fine."

"You're not." Draco choked out, I looked up at him, Draco took a deep breath. "Solace."

I reached over and grabbed his hand, he looked at me. "As long as you are here I'm wonderful, Draco."

Draco's brows furrowed and his eyes showed how he feels useless. "How are you fine? I try and make you happy but then... another thing comes and..." He sighed and looked at our hands. "I feel as if I can't do anything."

"You are doing something by just being here with me." Draco glanced at my eyes then to his plate. "Happiness for me is you. Love for me is you. Future for me is you. Home for me is you." Draco looked at me.

(Some other people who I can't speak to at the moment are also apart of my life being so much better. But you are the one I wouldn't want to live without.)

(How did we get this way? Why do you effect me so? How can I love someone and someone love me so much after a life full of pain and hate?)

Draco brought my hand to his lips and kissed my ring. "I just wish I could keep you happy."

I smiled softly. "You just made me chocolate pancakes." Draco smiled softly. "Draco Malfoy actually learned how to cook for me. You make me very happy. Even if somethings are out of our control you always try your best to make me happy, that's all I need."

"Solace." Draco said sadly. "You were screaming." I frowned and squeezed his hand, he didn't squeezed my hand back. "I've never... I've seen you shield yourself or not smile but I've never heard you scream. Not even when you were in the cellar." He looked at me with lost eyes. "You scared me."

I watched the memory of him. Hearing my scream, dropping everything and running to me, tripping over his own feet. Seeing me flailing on the bed and coming over to me to hold me still as he woke me up.

"It was a dream, Draco." I squeezed his hand. "I had a nightmare. No one has hurt me, I'm safe. I'm fine, I'm awake now and you're here with me. I'm happy."

Draco looked down at his plate. "I know."

I squeezed his hand and he looked back at me. "It will happen again." Draco frowned. "But I know you will be there to stop it. Because I trust you, Draco and I know you would never want anything to happen to me." I smiled softly. "That is something I could only say about a few."

Draco's mind relaxed more and he exhaled a slow breath. "I will be there." I smiled with a nod. "I love you, Solace."

"I love you too, Draco." He smiled softly, I smiled. "Now I need both hands to eat these pancakes." I squeezed his hand.

Draco smiled and kissed my hand before letting it go. "Eat all of that, alright."

I nodded. "Yes sir." Draco rolled his eyes, I smiled and turned to my plate. "Can we go on a walk after this?"

"Always."