Secret (Jakeward) 🔞

JACOB's POV

I was so fucking unhappy about what happened at Bella's house that day. I couldn't believe I had really fought with Edward. I knew I had to do it to keep up my facade and to protect my secret.

No, our secret. But I still felt bad about it, my chest tightened as I thought about all the things I said.

I had said so many insulting words to him that merely remembering them made me sick to my stomach. All the words we exchanged had really hurt me. It felt like a part of me was being ripped apart when I grabbed his collar, not to pull him into a kiss but to threaten him.

Like I gave a damn about her. The only thing real about my emotions was the jealousy I felt boiling under my skin when he spoke to her, when I heard him whisper sweet nothings to her. Like she mattered.

I should be the one he held close, I should be in that position but it could never happen. At least not out in the open. Not where anyone could see us. I felt like ripping her off him but I couldn't, I had to Lee up the facade, pretend I hated him even when my heart was calling out to him.

I screamed at him to leave her alone when in reality I wanted her to get the fuck away from him. I wanted to scream that he was mine and she should back off.

I was tired of it all. The pretense, sneaking off like we were commuting a crime when we were simply answering our hearts call. Our crime was falling in love with each other . What was so wrong about that?

I ran my hand through my short hair in frustration. It was getting tiring. I wanted to be the one smiling at him, laughing with him, eating and dining with him. I wanted to be the one he took home but I knew it wasn't possible.

Not when our families were still enemies. Not when they all hated each other. I wanted to be with my man publicly but the risk was far too high.

Keeping it all a secret was the only way to stay alive, to keep our heads on necks and survive. Even when it hurts to see him pretending to love her. Even when it hurts to fight him.

I had to do it but I hated it.

I let out a loud scream as I stared at the bright moon, the forest was quiet, the cold air heavy with the scent of pine and damp earth. I let out a deep breath to calm my nerves. My fists clenching and unclenching in anger.

I felt him before I saw him, his scent hit me first, fresh berries with a hint of the ocean. I loved it. My heart leaped, the electric pull thrumming beneath my skin.

"Jacob." His voice, smooth like velvet slipped through the shadows, sending a shiver down my spine.

"My love, won't you look at me." My heart clenched painfully, a lump formed in my throat as I felt all the shame and anger I fekt towards myself rushing back.

"I'm sorry," I whispered. "I'm so sorry I said all that to you. I-I didn't mean it. Fuck I never mean it! I only said it to get them off our back but I hated every moment of it." My voice broke. "I can't keep doing this Edward. I can't keep insulting you and hurting you with my words. It's so unfair that you always allow me to hurt you. Why do we have to keep doing this? I hate it!" My voice was filled with pain as I spoke, my back turned to him.

I couldn't face him, not after what I did and said to him. Not after I threw such disgusting words at him. All for what? Because I was jealous? To keep up the act?

"My love, do you know how much it hurts hearing that from you?" His eyes pierced mine, burning with a mix of pain and hunger as he stepped closer to me. "And yet while you were saying that I could hear the truth in your heartbeat, I could see the love shining in your eyes. I could hear the guilt and jealousy in your voice." His hands gently cupped my cheeks.

I sighed at the cool feeling, my face gently melting at his touch. "I can never misunderstand you, Jacob. Not when your action screams of your undying love for me. I can feel you, I know you and I know how much it hurts you when you do that." He pressed his forehead against mine.

"I should be the one apologizing to you. For putting you through such pains. But I'm selfish Jacob, even though it hurts I can't lose you. I can't let you go." My breath hitched as our eyes locked, his gold eyes staring at me with so much love that I felt like melting into a puddle.

"Edd..." My heart trembled as he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me flush against his body. My heart started pounding in my chest, blood rushing to my face as he nuzzled his face in my neck.

"I love you Jacob." My body shivered in delight, hearing those words from him always had a way of breaking me in the sweetest way. I felt all my worries wash away as his cold skin pressed against mine. Calming my heart and mind.

"I want you, every single part of me craves for you. And I don't care if it destroys me. I love you too much to care about the consequences." My breath caught as he looked up, his hands cupped my face and it felt like everything was moving in slow motion as he slammed his lips against mine.

I gasped, as his lips moved against mine, soft and sweet, like he was trying to savor the moment, my lips moved against his, my eyes closed as I tried to convey all my feelings through the soft dance of our lips.

"You're mine to love and adore." He whispered against my lips. "Every single part of you belongs to me, Jacob." I moaned against his mouth as he pushed me backwards until my back hit a tree.

He pulled back just enough to mutter. "Tell me you're mine, tell me you belong to me and you'll stay by my side always and forever." I moaned as he pulled back, my chest rising and falling as he buried his face in my neck.

"I'm yours." He nipped at my shoulder and I gasped, my fingers curled in his blonde hair. "Fuck I'm yours! Yours alone." The air became charged as he bit my neck, his tongue pressed down on the spot. I moaned as heat rushed down my spine, making my fuck react as he ran his lips all over my neck, placing kisses all around.

My hands clutched his shirt as his lips latched against my nipples, I gasped, my head thrown back in pleasure as he nipped and sucked them. "Only I can ever see you like this, burning with need and desire for me. Fuck! You have no idea what you do to me, Jacob." He whispered against my skin.

"You are mine, now and always. I'll never give you up." I gasped as his hand moved lower, I grabbed his hair, my mind growing hazy as he grabbed my growing erection through my jeans.

"You're my mate, my love, and my life. I can't live without you. I'd rather go through the pain and pretense of hating you a thousand times than to watch you go. I'm too selfish to let you go."

His words made something in me snap as I started to pull off his clothes with frantic hands. Our lips crashed, my mouth opened in a silent sigh as we kissed, fueled with love and possession. The kiss was bruising, tongues tangled, teeth clashed as we moved like starved animals.

We both got naked, I gasped, the forest swallowing every sound as our every breath showed our desperation and need to claim one another. His pale skin gleamed under the moonlight, his hands left a silent plea as they ran down my body. I shivered under his touch, hunger building in my stomach as he trailed kisses down my body.

I didn't register when he picked me up and laid me down gently on the pile of our clothes, the cool air wrapped around me but my senses were engulfed by him, this scent, the feel of his skin against mine, the sensation that ran through me when he touched me, it was maddening. I wanted him.

I wanted him to own me, to claim me, and brand my insides as his. I wanted him, no I needed him.

"Edward... I want you, please.. I want you to claim me. I want your mark." I whimpered as his teeth scraped against my skin, my hands dusted in his hair, tugging hard as I let out a stream of curse words.

And when he finally slipped inside me, it felt like my soul had just returned, like puzzle pieces that had fallen into place. I gasped, my back arched as I climbed to him, it felt like I would drown in the sea of pleasure if I didn't hold onto him.

He moved and a silent scream left my mouth, his hips moved slowly and it felt like I was losing my mind. Tingles ran through my body, each thrust sending me to the edge as I ran my fingers down his back.

"Fuck, you look so precious," Edward moaned, his voice gruff as he stared at me with hunger burning in his eyes. "I want to be the one you choose, the one you belong to," My fingers ran down his arm, a loud moan leaving me as he moved faster.

My eyes rolled back as his hands moved to my fuck, pumping it in the same rhythm with his movements. "Edward..." I moaned, my brain already turned to mush, and I couldn't think of anything else but him.

"My love.."

"I'll keep coming back for you, always. I'm yours." I groaned, my body trembling as he grabbed my hips, heat consumed me as we moved against each other, our breath coming out in harsh pants as the pressure built in my stomach.

"Edward..." I moaned his name like a plea as I wrapped my legs around his waist, pulling him closer.

He groaned, his movements turning sharp as he abused my prostrate, my head turned into mush as I moaned his name on repeat.

I screamed as my orgasm tore through me. It was raw and shattering as I clenched around him, he trembled, his movements became shallow as he fell on me, his cold skin pressed against my hog one as I planted, my head reeling from the pleasure.

"One day I'll stop hiding you." My heart skipped a beat as he leaned forward and pressed a kiss on my lips. "I will fight against anyone who stands in the way, be it vampire or werewolf. I'll fight the whole damn world if I have to." My eyes teared up as he stroked my cheeks with so much gentleness that it felt like he was scared I would break.

"I love you Jacob, my life." I smiled faintly, my heart leaping in joy as I pressed my lips against his.

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