Part 72

Christine's POV

Flashes of Jungkook's smiling face were showing. Everywhere I turn, he was there. His laughs, his smiles, his cuddles... everything was showing all at the same time. Video collage is what it seems, until everything slowly died out, only leaving Jungkook infront of me as we were back in my hospital room.

"Is this really what you want?"

I shook my head as my tears were tearing up.

"No... I don't want this..."

"I guess... this is goodbye."

I was shaken awake by my brother who just sat me up and hugged me tight. He didn't say a word as he just had me in his arms, swaying me softly, back and forth.

"Uljima... It'll be okay soon. Just give it some time... Both of you will be fine..." he said in a low voice as he stroked my hair.

"Oppa... I wanna go home." I said.

"Are you allowed to?" he asked, letting me go as he rests his hands on my shoulder.

"I don't know... But I want to..."

"Okay... Let's talk with Dr. Jiyoon okay? I've talked with your school principal as well."

"When am I coming back to school?"

"When Dr. Jiyoon says so." He said smiling, ruffling my bangs as he stood up. "I'll go look for her okay?"

I nodded with my eyes looking down. As I heard the door click closed, I look up to see everything blurry. Closing my eyes, I let the warm fluid run down my cheeks.

It was silent.

It was chilly.

It was cold.

It was lonely.

My phone rang twice only to see a message from Sungmi. I unlocked my phone and saw my home screen wallpaper was our selca together during the boys tour just before we went to his parent's house... We were wearing matching clothes by then, thanks to Miji eonni who packed my clothes with skirts and cardigans and dressed me up with the same concept as what the boys were doing for the day: Haruman.

Just one day, if I can be with youJust one day, if I can hold your handJust one day if I can be with youJust one day...If we can only be together.

If we can be together, Can you please stay with me?

Funny how I was the one who pushed him out, yet here I am, begging him to be with me.

...

"I don't think I'll be allowed to school..." I told Sungmi who was on the other line. She sent a message to call her when I was free, and now that I did, we've been on the phone for more than 2 hours.

"Is that so... we miss you already. Jongin and Jaebum and I..."

"I miss you guys too, you know."

"But we don't have to worry cause Jungkook is taking care of you right?"

Things just froze and even oppa who was sitting on the couch, browsing through channels stopped to look at me. It wasn't on loud speaker, but I guess my sudden silence alarmed him. I smiled it off, not wanting to worry him more as I spoke back softly to Sungmi.

"Actually, we've broken up, but everything's alright. Don't worry, I have oppa to take care of me anyways~" I tried to sound as cheerful as possible.

"BWOH?!" I had to distance the phone from my ears as her shouting was unbearable to let my phone near me. Her continuous ranting was heard but I wasn't able to hear it. Oppa lightly chuckled at Sungmi's reaction, but I couldn't ignore the different emotion in his eyes.

"Calm down, calm down. We've asked Jiji eomma if I could leave the hospital, and she said right after one of my therapy, I'll be home. You can visit me then."

Just as it was said, a nurse came into my room.

"Ms. Min, Dr Jiyoon is waiting for you in the therapeutic clinic."

"Sungmi, I gotta go. I'll call you later okay?" I hanged up without even waiting for her response as I was too eager to leave this place already. This room that haunts me with the decision I made that I thought was right.

"Yah yah be careful!" Oppa said, rushing to me as I scrambled my legs to the side of my bed, tangling the tubes that was connected to me in the process.

"M.mian..." I said as oppa helped me untangle it from me.

"You're seriously clumsy, no joke. You're accident prone because you're not careful, pabo."

"But you'll be there, so I don't have to worry." I smiled as his eyes soften.

"Ofcourse. I'm not going anywhere, you can't push me away too."

You can't push me away too.

"It's not like I wanted to." I mumbled back, standing up on my feet now.

"Arrasso. Come on" Oppa offered his arm as I linked it with mine while the nurse helped me bring the dextrose.

..

"I still can't understand why you suddenly want to leave. Are you sure about leaving, love? I can monitor you better when you're here..." Jiji eomma tried talking me out again. I didn't tell her about it. Maybe I just didn't want to talk about it with her, knowing that she'll have the mother talk with me that would probably make me cry again.

"You already said there was chemo that can be done in the house right? I'll just do that eomma. I feel weaker being contained in one room."

And I want to get away from the place where it hurts to remember such thing... Break-up.

She sighed with a slight smile as she shook her head.

"You're seriously stubborn like your mom."

"Like mother, like daughter." I smiled up at her.

My body received the familiar pain as the thick fluid once again entered my veins. My body aches and I feel like throwing up, but it wasn't a new thing. It's like a routine now. As I've been taking the same therapy for quite awhile now, the pain really lessened. I was used to it. It still hurts, but it's bearable.

Will it be the same with the pain I'm feeling for Jungkook?

It'll be okay soon. Give it time.

I've always wished for time to stop ever since I've heard of my cancer. Precious times spent with the ones I love were the moments when I wished for the world to stop rotating, but now, I wish time would past quickly, making this pain not fade, but lessen at the least. I don't think I'll be able to forget the love I have for him, but I'll get used to it... Or will I?

..

"You're all set to go. As soon as she wakes up from her rest, you guys can leave." I heard a faint voice from the same room where I was. My eyes were still closed but I was half awake.

"Thank-you Dr. Jiyoon."

Was that oppa?

"No problem, Yoongi ah... But do you have any idea of why she suddenly wants to leave?"

"I think that's for her to say when she's ready. Besides, she considers you as her second mother... Soon enough, she'll let you know."

I laid on my side to face them which caught their attention.

"Can we really leave now?" I asked softly as my brother bent down to level himself to me.

"Yes we can, as soon as you're ready." He said, brushing off the strands of my bangs away from my face.

"Then I'll just change and we can go." I said, sitting up with oppa helping me. I was still weak but I wanted to leave.

..

"Call me if something happens okay?" Jiyoon eomma said as she sent us off until we reached oppa's car.

"I will eomma. Thank-you." I smiled, giving her a hug.

"I'll still see you every weekend okay?"

"Yes ma'am." I smiled and pulled away, entering my brother's car who's engine has already started.

"Take care ~" both of us said in unison, something mom and I usually do, say the same thing at the same time.

We drove off in a matter of minutes, leaving Jiyoon eomma waving at us at the parking lot.

"Oppa..."

"Yeah?"

"Can we visit eomma and appa first?"

His silence was a yes as he turned on the radio, only to hear their new song playing as Jungkook sang his part.

Girl let me know, girl let me knowThough I already know it's all over Just so that I don't have any regrets,Girl let me know, girl let me know. Just tell me something, anything.I just wanna know know knowI just wanna know know know,Lingering feelings are holding on before this period mark,That's why you need to tell me something, anything.Girl let me know

"I'm sorry." Oppa suddenly turned off the radio, realizing how painful the truth sounded with the music he himself created.

It pierces right through my heart.

This now made me wonder... If I'm not taking it well... How is Jungkook doing?

"It's alright oppa..."

"Well we're here." He said, stoping the vehicle.

..

After spending a few hours with eomma and appa, we decided to go home since it's also getting late. I didn't notice I fell asleep on the way as my brother shook me awake.

"Tinnie ah~ we're home."

I rubbed my eyes in attempt of waking up myself. I took off my seatbelt and opened the door. The chilly breeze welcomed me, making me shiver. Oppa walked beside me after getting the bags from the back.

We were walking down the front yard with his signature smirk. The smirk that says "I'm up to something" written all over his face.

As soon as we entered the house, party poppers and loud cheering was heard. The moment the lights opened, there was a banner spread across the living room with lots of food and party hats worn by 4 guys and two girls. It was Jin, Hoseok, Namjoon, Jimin, Hannah eonni and Miji eonni.

"Welcome home ~" they all cheered together.

"You guys didn't have to..." I said, smiling from ear to ear as I felt their sincerity and was truly grateful.

"Yoongi texted us you're getting off today, so we planned a little something~" Seokjin smiled at me while Hannah eonni just ran to me.

"I missed you." She whispered as she hugged me tight.

"I missed you too." I said, returning the hug.

"Yah! I just had to leave for America for awhile, how dare you have this condition when I came back?" she said pulling back as she reveals her teary eyes.

"No more tears. I've had enough... Please don't shed anymore tears for me." I said, holding her shoulders.

"Mian.."

"It's okay." I smiled at her.

Everyone welcomed me warmly and ate the food Jin prepared for this event. Everyone was having fun and once again, I felt the energy coming back to me. They'd make me laugh and have a great time, with Jimin always beside me. He was really taking care of me well... Just like how Jungkook did before.

As we were all gathered around the living room, eating as we chat with eachother, I asked a question that made the chatting quiet down.

"Where's... Jungkook?"

"Taehyung called, saying he was at the dorm with Jungkook. Don't worry, we didn't leave him alone." Jimin said, smiling at me with his lips pursed, brought up to the side.

"Hey hey hey, how about this, since Christine ah got out of the hospital, let's all grant her one wish." Hoseok smiled brightly and everyone agreed.

"I... Only have one wish for everyone."

"What is it?" Oppa asked.

"Don't leave Jungkook alone... You guys head back to the dorm and stay with him. I'll be okay with oppa... Jungkook needs you. All of you..."

Everyone became quiet.

"Don't pity us. Don't pity me. Things happen for a reason and the things that happened were meant to happen anyway. If we're meant to be, we'll find our way back to each other... If we're not then this is all for the best." I smiled, hiding the breaking of my heart as I said those words.

"But we can still visit right?" Namjoon asked

"Ofcourse. Visit me as frequently as your schedules allow you." I smiled.

"You must be tired, come guys. Let's just visit tomorrow. It's late anyways." Jin said, standing up with the others right behind him.

"Goodnight guys." I said, hugging each and everyone of them.

"I'll visit tomorrow too okay?" Miji eonni smiled at me as she gave me one tight hug a loving sister would.

"That would be great." I said, hugging her tightly.

"Be strong. I'll be here for you. He'll come around."

"I don't know if that's a good thing... I dont even know if I'll survive." I cried softly in her arms.

"Don't ever say that. Don't let your brother hear you. How can you expect him to stay strong and fight when what he's fighting for gave up already?" She said cupping my cheeks. "You have to stay strong, do you understand?"

"Ne."

She smiled as I felt arms wrap around me.

He spun me around, making me giggle as it tickled. As my foot felt the ground, he turned me around.

"You should smile more often okay? Cheer up. It'll be okay. I'll be here." Jimin smiled, kissing my forehead.

My stomach churned. It can be confused with butterflies but with a little stabbing of my heart. This was how Jungkook kissed me when he's comforting me...

"Thanks Jiminie." I smiled as they went to their van. Hannah was left behind when everyone went ahead. Even oppa walked Miji eonni to the van, leaving the both of us alone.

"Aren't you riding with them?" I asked

"I will... I just... I have something to ask you." She said, not being able to look at my eyes.

"What is it?"

"Is there... Something between you and Jimin?"

What?

"No. Why do you ask?"

"I... You see... I'll explain it next time. Thanks Tin~ Rest well!" She said, regaining her cheerfulness, hugging me tightly before running to the others.

Oppa walked back and we waved them goodbye together.

"It's been a long day huh? Come on let's tuck you in bed." He said, guiding me to my room.He laid me in bed and pulled the cover up to my shoulders.

"You need anything else?" He asked sweetly.

"No, oppa. Take a rest. Thank-you.." I smiled and he returned it, giving the softest kiss on my forehead, his brotherly love oozing all over the place, comforting my aching heart.

"Goodnight, Tinnie ah." He smiled, leaving my room to give me my space for rest.

As I lay on my bed, staring at my ceiling, my message alarm tone disturbed the silence that was eating me alive.

I took my phone and my heart skipped a beat before breaking into pieces. It was a message from him.

자기야, 보고싶었어. Jagiya, I miss you.

A/NI'm so sorry it took awhile, I had to upload this from my mobile. Here's the chapter you've been waiting for! Hope you guys liked it! For those who messaged me, I couldn't view my messages in mobile. As soon as I open my laptop, I'll reply to you guys! I'll be taking one of the entrance exams for my college tomorrow. Hope I do well... Wish me well guys! Take care ~