Part 63

Christine's POV

As his hands were in mine, we walked to the studio room where the others were. They were all practicing hard but they never forget to smile or laugh. I hate to break it to them but I'll be telling them after we come home. It's not fair since all they've done for me was out of love and here I am, hiding the truth from them.

When Jimin noticed me, he stopped and ran to the stereo to pause their music.

"Hey.." He said jogging towards me. The others now noticed me and went to where we were.

"Hey.. Can I just borrow Jungkook for awhile?" I asked

"Why?" Oppa then asked me.

"I have to go somewhere.." I said not making eye contact with any of them.

"Is it urgent? We really need to practice-" RM was trying to say something but when I looked at him with pleading eyes, he stopped and sighed.

"Will it take long?" RM changed his question.

"We'll try to be as fast as we could." I tried to smile at him.

"Will you tell us where you're going?" Jin asked

"When we come home, you guys will know." I promised them.

Jin and Jimin shared looks before looking at me.

"Come home safely." J-Hope then said to us.

"Yah Jeon Jeongguk. No love hotels alright?" V then said, earning a hit from everyone including Jungkook.

"Kidding! Kidding! You guys are way too serious! Aiiish jjinja!" V said rubbing the parts where he got hit. I just smiled at them and coughed for them to stop and to help poor Taehyung.

"We'll go ahead then" I smiled at them briefly before walking towards the door with Jungkook beside me when someone suddenly hugged me from behind.

"Are you going to the hospital?" oppa whispered and I nodded slightly.

"Is there something wrong?" He turned me around so that I'd be facing him.

"No, just check up." I whispered for Jungkook not to hear. Not yet..

"Arrasso. You plan to tell him this way huh?" he said taking my hand in his and smiling at me sadly.

"He has to know.. And I can't tell him straight to the point so yeah." I shrugged. I took a peek at Jungkook and he was texting someone on his phone, not minding oppa and I as we speak.

"Be careful, come back safely." he said to me and Jungkook

"Ne." We both answered.

"Stay strong." Oppa then told me softly as he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead before we headed out.

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"Are you really not telling me where we're going?" Jungkook asked for the nth time as soon as we got in the cab.

"Jagi, do you remember the time when you asked who Jiyoon umma was?" I asked and he thought about it for a second before his facial expression showed that he remembered.

"Yeah. It was that night in your tent, the first and last time we talked about the topic of breaking up." He said and I flinched.

I know you made me promise but today it's inevitable for us not to talk about it again.

"D.do you remember what I told you about her?" I asked

"That I'll meet her soon?" he guessed.

"Yeah. That 'soon' is today." I said as I smiled at him.

"Uh Jagi, why are we heading to the hospital?" he asked as he realized when he looked ahead and saw where we were going. I looked away, towards the window, admiring the bright lights that shines at the night here in Seoul.

"Because I don't want to hide this from you anymore." I said softly followed by a sigh. I could feel Jungkook looking at me but if I don't want to break down now, I shouldn't look at him. Not right now.

We paid and got off the cab. We stood infront of the entrance of the hospital with him looking ahead as I looked at him, then his hand. My cold hands longing for his to keep mine warm. I bit my lip as I slowly took it. He looked at me and slid his hands off. I was surprised. And scared. Does he know the situation now? Will he leave me now?

He then took my hand as he intertwined our fingers then he held our clasped hands up and smiled.

"Much better." he smiled at me and I returned it with a sigh of relief.

We walked in to escape the freezing temperature outside.

"Where to Jagi?" He looked around then asked me

I looked at the nurse station ahead and took a step when I decided to have a little more time with him before everything I'm afraid of might happen. I dragged him into the door which lead to the flight of stairs if you don't want to take the elevator. We were alone and he looked down on me confused.

"What are we doing here Jagi? Want to exercise?" He smiled but I shook my head

"Can I ask a favor from you?" I looked at him and his eyes soften

"Anything" He smiled

"Can you.. Can you hug me?" I asked biting my lip.

"What?" he asked confused.

"Please.." I said looking down, wrapping my arms around him, my hand gripping my arms as I hugged him tightly. He bent down and enclosed me in his arms, pulling me closer to him.

"Jagi?" he asked as we were in eachother's arms.

"Hmm?"

"What's going on?" he asked and I pulled away but only alittle as my hands stayed on his waist.

"One last favor. Before we meet Jiyoon umma.." I said biting my lip as my heart pounded.

"What is it?" he asked looking at me with his hands on my lower back.

"K.k.k.k...." I'm stuttering. jdfahfsukjghaskjha

"K?" Jungkook said trying to understand me.

"Kiss me." I said looking down as I feel my cheeks hot. I looked up slowly to see Jungkook taken aback with my sudden request with flaring red cheeks.

"A.a.alright." Jungkook said as he slowly placed on hand on my cheek. He smiled at me dearly before leaning in slowly as he softly placed his lips on mine. I closed my eyes as I clutch onto the side of his blazer, feeling my cheeks damp from the tears that fell from my eyes. I slowly parted my lips and he responded by locking his lips with mine. He kissed me with passion and I returned it with all the love I can. I didn't want to pull away. This.. I don't want it to be the last.

He pulled me in closer as he deepened the kiss.

I cried more but silently as I take him in.

Come what may, just be thankful for what you have or had.

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Jungkook's POV

Our hands were intertwined and she took a step towards the nurse station when she suddenly took me to the flight of stairs which was empty.

"What are we doing here Jagi? Want to exercise?" I joked, trying to make her feel better. Whatever she's thinking of right now, she looks really bothered.

"Can I ask a favor from you?" she suddenly asked.

"Anything" I answered, looking at her tenderly. Will she tell me now? I thought we were to visit her sick Jiyoon umma..

"Can you.. Can you hug me?"

"What?" I asked confused. Why does she have to ask for this? I guess she won't tell me yet..

"Please?" she said sounding sad as she wrapped her arms around me. I bent down and hugged her tightly.

"Jagi?" I asked as we stood in eachother's arms.

"Hmm?"

"What's going on?" I asked

"One last favor before we meet Jiyoon umma." she said loosening her hug as she placed her small soft hands on my sides.

"What is it?" I asked, curious.

"K.k.k.k" what the hell is happening to my girlfriend. V hyung! Is this you?

"K?" I asked, encouraging her to continue. Please let it be that she's just stuttering and not speaking alien.

"Kiss me." she then said looking which took my off guard. I..it was a word. I feel my cheeks grow hot as she looked up to me with her cheeks turning into light shade of pink.

"A.a.alright." I stuttered the word out. I slowly took my hand to her warm soft cheeks and leaned in slowly. I could feel my heart pound. This isn't our first kiss but with Christine, everything just makes my heart pound.

I gently placed my lips on her and I kissed her as tenderly as I could and closed my eyes. She parted her lips and I locked it with mine. I felt her clutching onto my school blazer and a second after, I felt something warm touch my fingers. I slightly opened my eyes and saw her crying.

I pulled her closer and kissed her deeper.

Tell me what's wrong

Baby, don't cry..

Hajima..

Those were the thoughts I want her to feel as I kiss her.

When we pulled apart, we were both out of breath. I placed my forehead on hers as we both closed our eyes.

"Jagi, Saranghaeo.." she whispered.

"Nado, Saranghae" I answered back, catching my breath.

"Jagi, mian?"

"Wae?" I asked now looking at her.

"I know you said we shouldn't talk about this again, but after later.. you gotta think it twice.." she said looking away. I took her hand in mine and tugged it a little to make her face me.

"Are you talking about the thing again? B.b.b" I couldn't even say it now.

"Yeah. Breaking up.. That's what I'm telling." she said as her eyes were filled with tears.

"I won't leave, damn it! What do I have to do to make you believe that?" I said now frustrated.

"It's not that I want you to leave.. trust me.. If only I was a selfish bitch, I would have kept it all to myself just not to lose you but I can't do that to you. You deserve happiness.."

Before I could even protest, she shh-ed me, placing a finger on my lips.

"Let's meet Jiyoon umma now." she smiled sadly before she started walking out.

"Tell me what I have to know." I told her stopping her from her tracks as I held her hand.

"Jeongguk please.."

"Min Christine." I called her sternly.

"Please.." After calling her name ever so manly, I sounded desparate and frustrated when I begged her.

She looked back with tear stained cheeks as she bit her lip.

"I have cancer. I'm on stage two.. Jiyoon umma's my doctor. She's mom's friend from way back. Jungkook, I'm dying. This is why I keep on asking you to think twice. If you leave now, I can still manage since I'm still somewhat strong and you won't be burdened to be the good guy and not leave the pitiful Christine. I'm not yet that pitiful.. I swear I'd understand and bare no grudge against you if you leave me.. I'll wish for your happiness. I'm sorry I-" I didn't let her finish as I pull her into my embrace, hugging her tightly as I rest my cheek on the side of her head.

"Finally.." I sighed as I let my tears fall. Is this tears of Joy? Pain? Both?

"W..what?" she asked surprised.

"Finally, you told me your burden." I said looking down on her, but not releasing her from my embrace.

"S.s.so what's it gonna be?" she asked softly.

"Are you scared?" I asked her and she just buried her face on my chest as a response.

"Pabo. I won't leave. I told you I'll be with you every step of the way. How many times do I have to tell you that you have me. I mean it Jagi, I won't leave. Now that you told me, I should be the one you'd lean on okay?"

"You're seriously.. not leaving?" she asked bewildered.

"I'm not. I won't. I'll never. Why? Would you leave me if I'm the one who has cancer?" I asked her and she shook her head violently. I chuckled.

"Same goes for me, pabo. That's why I'm here. I'll be your support when you feel weak. Don't act all tough. Arrasso?" I said.

"Owh... Komawaeo.." She said crying.

"Shhh... I'll always be here. I won't leave.. So don't be scared to tell me such important things alright?" I said now crying too.

"With cancer or not, I still love you. And knowing that you have cancer didnt make me love you less." I said making her show her face to me as I stroke her hair.

"It actually made me realize how I could never live without you. It made me treasure you more. I never plan on leaving you. Remember? Hell would freeze if I let you go?" I tried to smile as tears continue to run down my cheeks. She laughed as she cried, wiping the tears off my cheeks.

"Stay strong. You're not alone." I then smiled at her and hugged her once more.

"Mm. We'll stay strong. Right?" She said.

"Yes Jagiya.. We will." I assured her.

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A/N

So I decided to update and the stay with me, I'm doing my best. I'm currently in ninja mode because exams. :))

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