Part 59

Suga's POV (been awhile since I did his POV)

I held my mom in my arms as she cried softly.

"I'm sorry umma.. I didn't know she was like that. I was really surprised.. She was never like that. She was a sweet and honest kid. She's really kind.. How could she be like that?" I wondered

"She just loves you, I guess?" she smiled sadly caressing my cheeks.

"If she really did.. She wouldn't hurt the ones I love."

"There are two people in this world, my dear Yoongi.. One is a person who hurts those people who harms the one they love and the other is the one who hurts him/herself for the one they love. Either they take everything on my themselves and hide it inside, or show it by cutting themselves."

"How does that relate to what happened awhile ago umma? You never did anything to hurt me. Why would she hurt you?" I was getting confused.

"Nothing my son. Come on let's eat. I think our dinner's finished." she said smiling weakly before standing up. My thoughts wondered to Christine.. Was I too harsh? Has she eaten? Where could she have gone?

I sighed as I push her off my mind. She hurt my umma. I'm gonna scold her later. But right now, I wanna spend time with her first.

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After dinner, I went to appa's grave to tell him about what happened today.

"Appa, today I met umma after so many years. She's grown old, but she's still pretty. I didn't see the jerk anymore there, maybe I'll visit her frequently. Are you happy that we're okay again?" I smiled to myself.

"Appa.. There's also this one thing.. Was I wrong? I don't know where Tinnie ah is right now but please guide her home safely. Take care of her.. I'll say sorry when I meet her. What she did was wrong but I also had a fault there.. I didn't let her explain.. We'll talk it out at home.. Please guide her.."

I was startled when I heard footsteps from afar. I didn't know why but I hid behind appa's grave. I took a peek and saw a familiar hoddie and skinny jeans with black leather converse with gray layer.

Christine's POV

I'm tired and my soul feels dry. I stood up from the bench where I was sitting on and started walking. I didn't know this place but somehow my feet knows where to go.

I didn't notice how long I stayed on the bench when I felt my tummy grumble. I left oppa's mom's house around 6 pm more or so and as I look at my watch, it was already 9:30 pm.

After walking for so long, I stopped, and collapsed on my knees as I began to cry again.

"Appa.. Umma.." I cried infront of their grave.

"It hurts.. I'm going through so much right now.. How can I go through this?" I hicced as I try to catch some oxygen needed by my lungs.

"I'm tired of crying but it just won't stop!"

The wind blew and it got awfully cold, making my lungs hurt as I buried my face on my hands.

"The therapy today was very painful appa. Umma, it hurts so much! I really hate needles! Do you know how big the tube was that was connected to my vein awhile ago? I thought I was gonna die. Well, I am dying but I'm getting cured.. Am I? Should I continue this umma? Appa? Stupid brain cancer. It's just... It's so hard.. It's so painful.. And to think that I have to stay strong for everyone.. I don't want them to know.. No not yet.. I want this to pass without them knowing.. I'm being cured anyway.. I think I'll be fine.. But I didn't know it would be this painful and hard.. Umma.. Appa.. Why would you let oppa be mad at me when I need him the most? I know I was wrong.. I shouldn't have slapped the elder but I was so mad! She was using oppa for money and I hated it! It sickened me! He was so happy yet there she was, worrying about money when her son was yearning for the love of a mother he deserved." I cried silently now.

"It's just so hard... Everything's just like a thunderstorm.." I cried but froze when I felt heat over my body.

"Y..Y..You have brain cancer?" the low, shaky voice asked as he hugged me. The voice which made me break down in tears once more as I hugged him back.

"O.o.oppa.." I stuttered.

"Shh.. If it's hard to talk, just answer me with a shake or a nod. Do you have c.c.cancer?" He asked once again. I bit my lip and closed my eyes as I nodded my head. I felt his grip grow tighter as he cursed under his breath.

"No. No. No. This can't be."

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Jungkook's POV

It's getting late and both Yoongi hyung and Christine isn't here yet. They won't pick up their phones.

"Yeah maknae what's wrong?" Jimin asked me as he sat beside me

"It's just that.. I haven't heard from them yet."

"Calm down. She's alright. She's with Yoongi hyung. What could go wrong?"

"Maybe you're right hyung.. Maybe I'm just being paranoid." I shrugged.

"Are you feeling something wrong?" he asked as if he read through me.

"Maybe.. I don't know. Like something's wrong with her but she isn't telling me."

"Funny how I feel the same.." Jimin hyung said as he looked at his hands and clasped it together. "No matter what it is, she must have a reason for not telling it to us.. Don't worry. We'll know it in the right time." he said as he patted my back and stood up. "Come on, help us with the dishes then let's go practice."

"Arrasso." I said as I stood up when suddenly my phone rang.

"Jungkook.. Meet up with me." She said

"Yuri, not tonight."

"I'm at the park. I won't leave until you come." she said and I grunted.

"You'll get cold! Just go home!"

"I won't leave, Jungkook. I'll be waiting by the bench where we first met the day I came back to Korea."

I hang up and sighed. I took my coat and left after I told the hyungs where I'll be going.

~~~

"What's up?" I asked as I sat beside her on the bench a few inches away.

"Let's get engaged next week, what do you think?"

"I think we should get going. Come on. I'll take you home." I said as I stood up and took her wrist when she pulled her arm back.

"Leave her before you get hurt." she said.

"What are you talking about? I won't get hurt if you stop ruining us." I said narrowing my eyes at her.

"Oppa. Trust me.. I don't want to see you get hurt.. I suffered alone to spare you that misery and I'm not sitting here, watching you go through the pain I avoided you from just because of one petty girl."

"Christine is not petty and what the hell are you talking about!" I asked annoyed. What nonsense is she saying right now?!

"I.. I was from the hospital awhile ago, oppa."

"Are you sick? And wait. What does this have to do with my question awhile ago?"

"I got there for my check up. For now, my treatment from London seems effective as there was no more sign of Leukemia in me."

"You had what?!" I was surprised.

"The reason.. I left 3 years ago was to get treated abroad.. I had to break up with you.. Because I didn't know if I'll survive or not.. And I wouldn't want you tied up with me when I die in London and you're here, waiting blankly, not knowing that I was dead already. I prepared for the worst. Therapies were no joke and I had to go through that plus the pain of letting you go." she cried and I felt bad.. So this was what she was telling all along.. I took a step forward and patted her head.

"M..mian. I didn't know the reason behind it but now that I do.. Thankyou.. Thankyou Yuri for loving me so much.. Thankyou for going through such pain just to leave me out of the misery you were thinking of, but just so you know.. I suffered too when you left me with no explanation.. I kept on asking myself if I did something wrong.. A whole year, I was lost. If it weren't for my hyungs and the ARMY.. I don't know.. I was happy but there was still a hole.. Then came Christine.. She filled the missing piece and even showed me more of what love is. I'm sorry, but She's the one I love, Yuri. You'll meet someone who'll love you as much as you deserve it."

"But you're the only one I want."

"Because you haven't met that guy yet.." I smiled encouragingly.

"You don't get it.. I still love you. And I don't want you to get hurt. That's the reason why I want you to marry me now. Leave her.. Before she does.."

"I won't leave her."

"She'll leave you. She just might."

"She won't."

"We never know! With her having stage 2 brain cancer? Who knows when she'll die!" She exclaimed as I stood there, frozen.

My world just stopped.

What did she say?

Christine.. Brain Cancer.. What?

"W.what are you saying? STOP MAKING LIES!" I shouted shakily.

"Oppa.. I'm not lying!" She shouted back as she cried. "I went to the hospital awhile ago and I saw her going into the therapeutic clinic where they give therapies for cancer patients! I confirmed it when I asked for a record of Min Christine from the nurse. I'm not lying.. I just want to save you.." she said weakly as she took a step and tried to reach for my hand.

"I'm.. I'm just so mad." she said squeezing my hand.

"She's already on the second stage and she doesn't even bother to let you know? She'll tell you when both of you are suffering already? She doesn't even love you! She doesn't care about you. All she wants is someone to be with her because she needs you. And when she's gone, she won't mind. As long as she isn't the one suffering."

"If what you're saying is true... then how do you expect me to leave her now?" I said as I took a deep breath.

"But-"

"What you said about her? Not loving me? Using me? Can't you see? She's suffering by herself.. She's fighting alone. I know she is. All because she doesn't want me to worry. She doesn't want me to see her suffering because she knows I'll suffer twice as much. It's much more of a sacrifice. If she was using me, she would have told me from the start and even ask for money for her therapies. I'm not being used Yuri.. Don't worry. I'm in good hands.." I said shakily, still registering the fact that I've learned.

"Why.. do you love her so much?" she asked bowed down.

"It's something I can't control. You'll find that someone too, soon."

"I found him.. Can't you see? I can't control myself. I know it's not my business anymore and you wanted this so I should just let you have it.. But.. I couldn't sit here and do nothing.."

"You did alot.. And thankyou.. For telling me what I should know. You've helped me alot Yuri ah" I said placing my hands on her shoulder. "Hwaigting. I hope you find the right one for you.. But please let me go.. I'm not leaving her. Especially now that I know.. Nothings changing my mind. Please cancel the engagement.. I won't leave my sick girlfriend for something like that. Heck I won't leave her for anything.."

"Please?" I sounded pathetically desperate.

Her head remained bowed down as I felt her shoulder go up and down. She was crying.

"It's been awhile since you called me Yuri-ah..." she said after she sniffed. "You really do love her..."

"I do.."

"Then be happy. I'll tell mom to cancel our engagement.." she said as she softly took my hands off her shoulder.

"Thank-you." I said as I kissed her forehead. "Find your true love quickly okay?" I said as I smiled weakly.

"Make sure you'll be strong for Christine ssi. And tell her I'm sorry for what I did in the past.. I hope she forgives me.."

"She will." I said as I took her in my embrace. "Thank-you for setting me free." I said as I closed my eyes and cry.

It's my turn to be strong for her. Now that Yuri set me free, I have nothing to worry about anymore besides being by my jagiya's side all the time. She needs me. I'll be here for you.

Min Christine.. Lean on me.

I keep on telling you, you stubborn brat..

You have me...

A/N

Okay so Yoongi and Jungkook now knows. ASDFGHJKL My feels for Jungkook and Yuri's argument. <3 Can someone please calm me down fjkdhfuasgfksafgksahfliusaybflaun

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