Part 7

Christine's POV

I woke up the next morning feeling Kai's hands on mine and I saw him on the floor with a pillow and a blanket. He slept there holding my hand through out the night.. So it was his hand.. I dreamt of holding appa's hands.. Guess thats why it felt real.

Suddenly my phone rang. It was Sungmi. I checked the clock. 5am. Why is she calling so early? I gently let go of Kai's hand and picked up my phone from my night stand where my father's vase was on the opposit side of where Kai was..

"Yoboseo?" My eyes hurt. I think it's swollen from all the crying I did yesterday..

"Yah Min Christine! Are you okay?!" She panicked

"No. But I'll be." I said

"Jungkook called me and said that I should take care of you. I didn't let him go until I knew what was going on.. I'm sorry for your lost.." She said the last sentence silently and it triggered my tears once more.

"Thanks. I'll see you later. I have to get ready" I told her and with that we hung up. I stood up. Touched the vase and blinked my tears away.

"Cry. Don't hold up your strong front. Don't do this like what you did when your mom died. You don't have to be strong for anyone." Kai said hugging me from behind.

"Mm.. Cause I dont have anyone anymore" I cried and I felt Kai's hug grow tighter. I turn around and faced him. He burried my face onto his chest as I cried some more

"Don't talk like that... It hurts.. What am I here for?" He said and I just held onto the back of his shirt tightly.

After all the crying, we only had time to shower and get dressed before going to school. Both of us didn't take our breakfast. We were both late for our first subject but he still ran with me to my class before he ran to his.

"I'm sorry I'm late." I said as I stepped in the class with everyone looking at me.. I spot Jungkook's empty table and my heart sank.. I thought he'd be here today..

"Get in and take your seat." My teacher said and he continued discussing.

I took my seat beside Sungmi and she looked at me and squeezed my hand. I forced a smile and tried to focus in class.

I tried.. I really did.. But my mind just goes blank and everything becomes so silent... I hear appa calling my name.. Laughing with me... Carrying me on his shoulders... Making silly jokes no one would understand but me.. I hear appa's apologies.. Appa's bitter memories.. Everything...

"Ms Min!" My teacher shouted and it got my attention.

"Oh?" I stared at him blankly

"If you're not feeling well then don't attend classes. You're not normally like this." My teacher sighed in disappointment but I couldn't care less. I was so emotionless right now. I feel so numb.

~lunch~

"Hey, you want me to accompany you to lunch today?" Sungmi asked and I smiled at her sadly shaking my head

"I'll be fine.. Go now your mom's waiting for you.." I said quietly as I pushed her gently towards the direction she always go. Where she takes her lunch with her mom.

"Mom would understand if I dont show up today" she said stopping me from pushing her.

"Its fine.. Thanks.. But I want to be alone for now.." I told her and she got it. She hugged me one tight hug and left to her mom.

I walked up to the roof top. I stood on the middle of the space infront of me. Then and there I felt so alone.. So helpless.. So miserable.. So much in pain that I curled myself, hugging my knees and crying once more. I've never cried so much in my life. Not even when mom died. But now I can't control it. I lost my control. I cried and cried and cried and cried.

My lungs hurt. My eyes are swollen. I can't breathe. I can't see. My vision's all blurry. I feel weak, I dont know if I could even stand up.

"Umma.. Appa.. Why would you leave me like this..." I cried

Jongin's POV

I got a call from manager nim but I didn't want to pick up. Christine needs me..

I ran up to the rooftop and I opened the door gently, revealing a curled up girl crying so desperately in the middle of the space infront of me.

She was shaking so bad.. Crying out loud that she didn't notice the steps I took as I went closer to her..

"Umma.. Appa.. Why would you leave me like this..." She said as she cried.. It tore my heart apart to see her in so much pain and I can't do anything.

I helped her up and made her sit on the bench and let her cry on my shoulder as I squeezed her hand all through out.

When she calmed down, my phone rang. I didn't pick it up and left it on my side. My message alert tone rang and she grabbed it with her fast hands, unlocked my phone with ease and read the message.

"Go" she said quietly as she returned my phone

"No." I said but she just shook her head

"It's just a meeting. You'll be back in time. Just go meet me by the lake" she said as this time she was squeezing my hand.

"I can't leave you alone.." I muttered

"She won't be." Jungkook said popping out of nowhere and approaching us.

"Annyeonghasseo Kai Sunbaenim." He bowed and I bowed back

"Don't leave her alone. Arrasso?" I said. I see Christine ah trusts this guy and so does Sungmi.. Who am I to judge those who care for her..

"Mmm. Aigosumnida" he smiled.

I looked at Christine one last time and hugged her quick. As I passed by Jungkook, I patted his shoulder and I left.

I'll be back in time for uncle's last wish.. To be with auntie by the lake.

Jungkook's POV

I wanted to surprise Christine in the rooftop. I couldn't attend morning classes because something came up with the company but now that everyone's okay, I went to school.

"Hyungs! Come with me after class. And uhm dress in black okay?" I told them before leaving.

"Where are we going?" Suga hyung asked

"Why do we have to wear black?" Jimin asked too

"Just trust me." I smiled at them

"Won't you come with us to the mall or something? You skipped morning classes anyways. Why not skip the day?" V hyung asked and I shook my head

"I cant.. She needs me." I told them before leaving. I know my hyungs will be asking who is she.

Don't worry hyungs.. You'll meet her.

It was still a subject before lunch. I went directly to the roof top and I'll be waiting for an hour for her..

How is she? Is she still crying? Will she put up the strong front? Or the cold front? Whatever. If she pushes me away, I definitely have to stay. The hyungs would always remind me

"The more the girl pushes you away, the more they need you to stay."

Arraso hyungs. I remember it well.

I found a spot with shade, on the right most side of the door. Resting here wouldn't be a bad idea since I'd be hidden from anyone's view. I waited until I unconsciously fell asleep.

I woke up with the sound of the door knob twisting and kept still, getting ready to surprise her.

Christine was there.. Slowly walking to the middle of the space with an empty expression.. I wonder why but I came to a conclusion to watch her first.. Maybe she wants sometime alone..

I froze in my place as my heart sank. I heard her sobs as she curled and hugged her knees. She cried so hard it must have hurt her lungs. I cried with her, feeling so helpless not being of any help to her. There was nothing I can do..

She cried in the open and my eyes were glued on her. I didn't even notice Kai sunbaenim coming until he stepped forward about to help Christine up.

"Umma.. Appa.. Why would you leave me like this..." She cried out.

Both Kai sunbaenim and I froze in place. We were both in pain seeing her like this.

He helped her up and led her to the bench and let her cry on his shoulders and he just looked into the open and squeezes her hand.

I should be the one in his place...

I couldn't do anything. I watched her cry and it definitely wasn't a good sight at all. It made me want to wrap her in my arms and comfort her.

"Go" she said

"No" he refused

She said something I couldn't quite understand but Kai sunbaenim's voice was soft but clear

"I can't leave you alone.."

"She won't be" I decided to show myself.

I'll admit it to myself now. I like her. I like everything about her and I want her to be mine. I don't want Kai Sunbaenim with her. It's supposed to be my spot. But I wouldn't be that selfish and childish. She needs him.. And besides. I can't take for granted her situation right now. Tell her my feelings when she's all lost and confused still mourning for her dad.. It was a stupid move to almost kiss her last night.. But now I know my limits. She doesn't need a boyfriend. Not yet. She needs friends who could support her. And she needs me to help her find her brother.. She needs her brother..

Kai Sunbaenim left after telling me not to leave her alone. No worries. I have no plans of leaving her. Not at this state.

I sat next to her and she covered her face.

"I'm sorry I must look horrible" she said burying her face in her hands

"It's fine.. I look much worse when I cry." I told her. "If you wanna let it out, I'll listen.. I'll be here.." I smiled at her and she started quietly

She told me what happened in the past. When her mom died a year ago, she wasn't able to cry. She needed to be the tough one because her dad lost it. How it was hard for her all these time but managed through because even if her father became like that, she still loved him so much. How she never left his side even after all the screw up and hardship her dad was putting her through. To the point where she needed him and slapped him.

Her mom helped her have the courage. She told me it wasn't just her who slapped his dad.. But also her mom.. Maybe that was why it only took one night for him to change. Oh the beautiful things that came after that, her father wanted to make it up to her and wakes up early in the morning to cook such tasty breakfast, laundry and iron her uniforms and clothes and did the chores as she went to school and worked.

She told me her regrets. If only she knew, she would have said everything she had to say. How she forgave him for his faults.. How she loved him nonetheless. How she was thankful for everything he did and how she was lucky to have him as a father..

She cried silently and I just let her. I held her hand the whole time..

She fell asleep on my lap after crying. Suddenly her phone vibrated and I saw Sungmi's message

"Christine ah, are you skipping the rest of the classes? Should I pick you up by dismissal or what? I'll be with you by the lake! Don't leave me behind alright?"

I woke her up 5 minutes before the classes end.

"Christine ah.." I called her softly

"Mmm?" She said as she sat up rubbing her eyes..

"It's almost time to go home.." I said

"Omo.. I skipped classes.. Appa forgive me.." She muttered as she close her eyes tightly clapping her hands together and bowed down asking for forgiveness from her father. I smiled at her actions

"Oh.. Sungmi ah texted you" I reminded her

She read it and replied and as soon as we heard the bell, we waited for the chatters of the student body going out of the school before heading out to our classroom.

We saw Sungmi waiting on her desk and when she saw us, she quickly ran to Christine and hugged her tight.

"Are you okay now?" She asked Christine and she smiled weakly

"Mm.. I'll get my things. Let's go home to get appa and we'll go to the lake." She said softly

"Okay then" Sungmi said as she gathered her stuffs as well.

I waited for them by the door since my bag wasn't even touched and the three of us walked out with Christine in the middle.

I saw my hyungs outside the gate of the school. It's a good thing they weren't much noticed. I took her hand and smiled at her

"Is it alright if my hyungs pay respect to your father as well?" I asked her and she nodded slowly and thanked me.

"For what?" I asked her quite confused.

"For the thought.." She said and somehow Sungmi and I didnt get what she said until it sank it to me.

"Thankyou for mourning with me" is what she wanted to say.

As we approached my hyungs, I let go of her hand and told them I'll go first and I'll meet them there. Christine still looked lost in her thoughts but Sungmi nodded to me and I ran to my hyungs.

"Hyungs!" I rushed to them and they all looked at me and waved

"So why are we here?" RapMon hyung asked me

"I want you to meet someone. But please be kind to her.. She's going through alot right now" I asked them and they all nodded.

I looked back and they were there already.

"Hyungs, this is Christine and Sungmi" I smiled at them and back to my hyungs

"Annyeonghasseo" the girls bowed and smiled at them.

"Annyeonghasseo" my hyungs bowed in unison

"Who's the one going through alot?" RapMon hyung whispered discreetly and I know everyone was listening.

"Christine ssi" I whispered back

"Annyeong, I'm Kim Namjoon or RapMon" he smiled

"Annyeong, I'm Kim Seokjin or Jin" he did the same

"Annyeong, I'm Jung Hoseok or J-Hope" hyung held out his hand to shake hands with both of the girls

"Annyeong, I'm Kim Taehyung or V" he smiled widely

"Annyeong, I'm Park Jimin" he smiled blushing. Please tell me it's Sungmi and not Christine, hyung..

"Annyeong Sungmi ssi, Christine ah" Suga hyung smiled and everyone looked at Suga

"We met before." He explained and everyone just nodded their head

"So let's go to your house?" I asked her and she nodded and we all left to go to her house.

Author's note

Sorry, I just uploaded the next chapter now.. Maybe it's my birthday gift.. Internet! Haha!

Well I hope to update soon. I promise I'll update as soon as I can ^^