My Dilemma

We stayed like that for the entire night. Throughout the entire time, though, I couldn't fall asleep. I didn't know if I could say "I love you" back to Lockwood. I also didn't know if I could say "I love you" to Carlos. Shoot. I was in a love triangle. Aghhhhhhhhhhh.

When I felt Lockwood stir, I pretended to be asleep. He stood up, gently lifted me, and carried me to the couch. After laying me down on the couch, I felt him stand by my side. I began to wonder WHY ON EARTH he would just stand there, staring down at me, when I remembered. "

"I love you, Lucy. I'm so deeply in love with you." That's what he said last night.

Finally, I sensed him moving. He was leaning down, and then he kissed me on then forehead. I kept my face the same, though I was cringing on the inside. I didn't know why, though. He was my friend, right? I love him as a friend, but as a boyfriend? I don't know.

After he left to go into the kitchen, I heard George walk down the stairs. He began to snicker as he walked past me.

As soon as George was gone, I went upstairs and changed into some more comfortable clothes. Then, without a second thought, I walked outside.

Time Skip Brought to you by Buttermilk Pancakes (I'm sorry, this is what I'm eating)

I didn't know where I was walking. I didn't have a particular destination in mind. All I wanted to do was get away for a moment. Soon, I was sitting in the middle of a park bench, staring at a duck pond. There was a cherry tree branch with cherry blossoms on it hanging over my head on my left. I picked a flower and played with it absentmindedly.

"Lucy?"

I looked up. Carlos was standing a little ways across from me.

"Hi, Carlos," I replied.

He sat down next to me, on my left. He reached for a cherry blossom, while singing a song.

"Sakura, hira hira the leaves will flutter to the ground. It reminds me of the days when you were here to hold my hand. And the promises we've made along still keeps me holding on. Hold me now, just like other lovers. Sakura, mai-chiru..."

He noticed me staring. "What?""You have a nice voice when you sing."He blushed. "Thanks?""A sakura is a Japanese cherry blossom, right?" I asked. "Yes, correct." We were silent for a moment. "Thank you for singing the English version by Ailee," I said. He blushed even more. "You're welcome?"Lockwood's POVI heard the door close. I walked out the door and saw Lucy walking away. Quietly, I followed her to the park, where she sat down, playing with a cherry blossom. I hid behind a tree.

Then, I saw Carlos. He was talking to her, and I felt something stir inside. Was it... jealousy?

I felt like my heart had felt when he had asked her out. When he had the guts to do something I didn't have the guts to do. My heart felt like it was breaking into a million pieces.

I turned away from them and sat down behind the tree. I pulled my knees up to my chest and hugged them. It felt like it was keeping my heart together, before it broke beyond repair. I rested my head on top of my arms, right before the tears came.

Author's Note:The song that Carlos was singing is called "Sakura". Ailee sings the English version of that song. Yes, I am a Kpop fan. This is a fanfic, so all rights belong to Jonathan Stroud.

Also, shoutout to CelestialNights339 and fanficlockwod123 for encouraging me! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!