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YIBO POV

I dropped Zhen Xin and Fan Xing off at Ai and Zed's place; they loved to visit them just as much as Gio and Bin. They also loved having them over. I came back home to get some work done.

I was able to do that for a while untilthoughts of Zhan invaded my mind again. I sighed in exasperation.

Seeing him yesterday didn't do my sanity any justice, I was only just reminded why I missed him so much. And how much I wanted him, it took everything I had to keep my eyes off him in that sexy jumpsuit he wore.

I groaned trying to push him out of my mind and a wave of uneasiness washed over me. The more I tried ignoring this feeling was the more it came. I shook my head and suddenly I couldn't get rid of this voice in my head telling me something is wrong. Something is wrong with Zhan.

I'm losing my freaking mind I thought to myself in slight anger. I willed myself toforget him, but the feeling never left me, I could even feel the slight tremor in my hand. I curse out loud then pulled out myphone, calling him; and it sent me straight to voice mail.

I cursed again getting off my chair, just then my phone rang.

"Wang Yibo." I answered impatiently,

"Hello Mr. Wang, this is Doctor Yenfrom Good Samaritan Hospital." A man said,

I slowly sat back down on my chair.

"Mr. Wang Zhan has been admitted at our hospital. He was involved in a car accident." He said I nodded to myself, understanding that wretched feeling now

"How is he?" I asked, my voice steady as my world came crashing down.

"I'm sorry but we don't prefer to discuss our patient's condition over the phone." He said,

"I understand, I'll be right over." I said and hung up.

My head slipped into my hands, the thought that I might just be losing him all over again hit me like a ton of bricks, the pain beginning again.

I stood up and went out of my study; he had to be okay, for all of our sakes.

I came across Mari in the hallway and shecould sense something was wrong because she stopped me

"Where are you going?" she asked.

"To the hospital." I said and her browsfurrowed in question

"Zhan was in a car accident." I clarified and she gasped dropping the vase she was carrying

"Is she..."

"I'm going to find out." I cut her off starting down the stairs.

I got in my Aston Martin and drove out. Ichuckled without humour, here I was speeding to his side, with the way I feel about him it was bound to happen one way or another.

I arrived at the hospital and sat in thewaiting room anxiously,

"Mr. Wang?" I looked up at the nurse

"Yes." I said and she smiled

"Mr. Wang Zhan's doctor will be with youshortly." She said and I nodded.

Ten minutes later a man in a whitecoat walked towards me. I stood up and he offered his hand

"Mr. Wang, I'm Doctor Yen." He said andI shook it nodding.

"Mr. Zhan is fine Mr. Wang." He said andI closed my eyes for a second in relief

"He just sustained minor cuts and bruises, nothing fatal. He's unconscious but with the sedatives we gave him he'll come around tomorrow morning." Headded.

My brows furrowed "What happened doctor?" I asked.

"I'm not sure but from the report they gaveme he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time." He said

"He was crossing the road when the driver of a van lost control of it heading straight for him." he added.

I breathed in a rush

"He tried getting out of the way, and thatprobably is what saved his life. But it wasn't quick enough to avoid impact." He said and I flinched.

"Had he not moved?" I asked and his eyestightened

"At the speeds which the car was going tocollide with him, it most likely would've killed him or paralyzed him." he said.

"Can I see him?" I asked

"We're still running a couple of tests, he'll come out of the ER tonight, you'll seehim then." He said and I nodded stiffly.

"Thank you." I said and he nodded then hewalked away with some nurse who gave him a file. I sat back down and pulled out my phone.I'd finished sipping coffee, when I saw acouple exiting while carrying their newborn; I then remembered the day Zhen Xin was born. That was one of the happiest days of my life. I threw the empty cup in a trashcan and just then a different nurse came to me.

"Mr. Wang?" she asked and I nodded "Follow me." she added.

We got into the elevators and went further up then she left me at the door of ward 3, she smiled and walked away.

I opened the door and walked into the silent room, the only sound came from the EKG. I walked over to Zhan'sbedside and pulled up a chair.

I watched his motionless form; he hardlylooked alive. I studied his face; he had asmall scrape on his forehead and his lower lip hand a small cut. I couldn't see the rest of him but his arms had a few bruises and bandages.

I wasn't prepared for the throng of emotions I would feel seeing him like this. In the midst of everything, the hurt and heartbreak between us, he almost died. Died on our kids and me.

I took his soft hand in mine and kissed it,never looking away from his face.

"Why must you torture me this way My Zhan?" I whispered.

An hour later a knock came on the door and Bin walked in,

"Hey." He said to me.

"My God." He whispered his brows furrowed in worry, gently cupping Zhan's cheek.

He grabbed a chair and sat on his other side

"Thanks for calling me," he said and I nodded

"What did the doctor say?" he asked.

"He's fine, just unconscious. They sayhe'll come around tomorrow." I said looking at Zhan.

"Where are the kids?" he asked.

"At Ai and Zed's" I said and he paused

"Did you tell them?" he asked and I shook my head

"I don't think telling them is such a good idea, they'll lose it." I said and heslightly smiled.

"Yeah, I think Zhan would want them to worry either." He said.

Bin paused for a while eyeing me, but Ikept my gaze on Zhan as if he'd open his eyes if I kept watching.

"He didn't do it you know." Bin saidsuddenly and I met his gaze in question

"The whole Danny thing." He said and Iraised my eyebrow at him.

"He loves you, I'm positive he'd never dosomething like this." He added and my gaze narrowed

"I thought so too." I said

"But he looked me in the eye and told me himself, what am I supposed to believethen?" I asked, and he gave an exasperated sigh

"He's hiding something." He whisperedalmost to himself.

"Like what?" I probed,

"I don't know, he won't tell me and hekeeps avoiding me," he said, talking about this only brought back unpleasant memories.

Bin wanted to believe the best in hisfriend and I wanted to believe the best in Zhan. I would've agreed with him if I didn't watch him leave with Danny myself.

"Bin look, he's your best friend andyou're looking out for him. I respect that." I said

"But leave this alone, he's not telling you anything because there is nothing totell. He did what he said he did, we are powerless to change that." I added.

"So you're just going to give up on him?" He asked and my mood darkened

"What do you want me to do Bin?" I asked,besides he wasn't exactly crawling back to me begging for forgiveness.

"He's the who didn't honor his vows, I could leave and never come back." I added with slight anger.

"But you're here right?" he said and Iwatched him silently, he shook his head

"I'm sorry, that was out of line." he added then let the topic drop.

He stayed for a while then left, I for oneremained.

I woke up, running my hand over my stiffneck. I checked my watch and it was past 5 am. I then started debating if I should stay until he wakes up or leave before hedoes. A part of me wanted to be here when he did, and another part of me was still bitter and angry over what happened.I love him, if this could not change that,nothing will. But him sleeping with Danny was a knife to my heart; it left a wound I don't think I'll ever heal from.