Intro

I know what you're all thinking. "This bitch is crazy" and for the most part, you're probably right. But not this time, my craziness didn't cause me to be so harsh towards Chris. It was him. See, Chris is the type of nigga to do some fucked up shit to someone then see them and act like nothing had happened at all, that's the kind of shit that made me cringe, he didn't want to talk about anything, he just always said "fuck it" in EVERY situation, that's why when he left on the note he did I wasn't surprised nor was I worried about him being mad at me because I knew sooner rather than later he'd be back acting like we was cool. Shit even when he said he wanted to - just talk - he wasn't really trying to talk.

Truth is, Chris asking about the scar struck a nerve and it made me angry all over again, which is exactly what I didn't want. I didn't want to be angry. And that's why I kicked him out before things would only get worse. I didn't want to speak about it with anyone, especially not with Chris. I didn't want to ever have that conversation with him.

The iphone Chris had given me a week ago now flashed, which is funny because 1. no one had my number and 2. Shit I didn't know my own damn number.

"Hello?" I answered rudely because of course it could only be Chris.

"Why don't you sound happy to hear from me." He answered sarcastically making me suck my teeth in response.

"Chris, how did you even get my number? I asked dryly and heard him shuffle on the other end.

"What you been doing?" He said acting like nothing had happened and it hadn't been a week since we'd spoke.

"Working." I could literally feel him shaking his head on the other end, and I already knew there was a clench of his jaw to go with it.

"I thought we agreed that if I let you stay at my apartment you'd stop...working." He edged out, I knew he was upset.

"Let me? Unless you forgot, you offered or should I say, begged for me to stay and I said yes, I haven't asked anything from you. Furthermore WE didn't agree on anything, so I don't know what gave you that impression." I heard him kiss his teeth again and decided that I was done with this conversation.

The phone rang countless times after that but I didn't want to pick up, or stay on. His un saved number flashed across the screen but this time it was a text not a call.

- Kam, please pick up and stop acting stupid. -

My eyes rolled and just as I was about to slide the phone into do not disturb, it started ringing again.

"What Chris? What?" I was irritated and he knew.

"Kam we ain't going to get anywhere if you keep being so damn stubborn, I just want things to be cool between us, I don't want to keep arguing." I felt bad then, he was really trying and i was being so hard on him.

"...why'd it take you so long to call?" was all i could think and i heard him chuckle. "I thought i should give you some space to think...why you miss me huh?" he said with confidence and i scoffed. "No." I said shutting him up.

"What are you doing right now though?" he said taking me down from my laugh. "Mmmm why?" again i heard shuffling before he came back to the speaker.

"You want to come to the studio and chill with me, i got a writing session tonight with sevyn and kmac, I think you and sev would get along." He proposed and i shook my head as if he could see me. Here Chris go always trying to make me some new friends, that never worked before.

"No, you already let me stay in your house and bought me a phone, i don't want you making me friends too. I'll chill here, i'll be alright." he sucked his teeth.

"Its not even like that, I want you to be there....please?" i didn't answer and he knew my mind was made up.

"i can't come get you, but i left the keys to the range in the draw under the sink, you know how to drive right?" he said and i pulled the phone from my ear and looked at it crazy. "You want me to drive your car?" i asked in disbelief and he relied with a short "yes and i'll text you the address" before cutting the call.**********

When i got off the phone i won't front i was nervous, to see if she'd really come, but when i heard the buzzer to the studio, Kevin, sevyn and i were writing in go off i eased up. I got up to let her in and was slightly blown away by what she looked like. She smiled shyly before moving in to hug me and i moved aside to let her in.

"Ya'll this is Kamaiyah , Kam this is Kevin and that big head over there that's sevyn." They both smiled and Kevin stood to shake her hand.

"Hey its nice to meet you." He said looking down at her, she used her hand to brush her hair back and smiled up at him. "You too.""Girllll you are so pretty!" Sevyn beamed and Kam blushed before thanking her.

"Alright we paying for this studio time lets get back to work!" i joked and watched Kam as she sat off by the corner watching us work. An hour or so later, I sat with her on the couches not saying anything but just talking, kind of like we used to.

"You remember the time we got caught sneaking into g'ma crib at like 3am on a week day and she beat the shit out of us BOTH?!" i said making her bust up in a fit of laughter she nodded. "You was like 'G'ma stop i want kids one day!" i laughed so hard i could have sworn i was going to pee. Our laughs settled and we continued to ramble on about any and everything we could think of in the present.

Sevyn was lost in her phone and eva, Kevin's girl had joined us a little before.

"Yoo breezy. Wifey's at the door." When he said that i did a double take, but i had to play it off because i didn't want anybody to get the wrong end of the stick. I stood up off the couch and heard him mumble a "busted" as i walked past.

"Baby. What are you doing here?" i asked when i let her in and she furrowed her brows followed by a number of quick blinks. "What i can't surprise my man now? Stop playin, i brought you some food." Was all she said walking further into the studio and waving over to eva and Kevin, she looked right past sevyn back to me... they uhhh didn't really see eye to eye.

"Thank you baby." I said bending down to kiss her lips and she kissed back.  "Mmm baby i wanted to ask, how come both your cars were outside? I aint seen that range in forever now that i think about it." She rambled for a second before her eyes finally met Kam and she practically shut herself up.

"Chris, who is this?" she asked looking at Kam, but speaking to me. I looked over at her too and she was steady glaring at cae. "Oh baby, this is uhh-" Just as i was about to answer the door to the studio came open again, this time to reveal mijo with a bag of chips in hand, he stopped dead in his tracks when realised he'd walked in on something and looked around observing everyone' face, just as i'd imagined when he spotted Kam he did a double take.

"Kamaiyah?... OH MY FUCKING GOODNESS KAM!"