~18~ Fight on the beach

~18~ Fight on the beach

With the two bottles of wine and a few snacks that we quickly bought on the way, we arrived at the beach one after the other. This time many others were here and that although it was quite fresh. The wind created big waves on the water and a few brave ones ventured out to the sea with their surfboards.

We opened the first bottle of red wine, which was not only a dry wine but also tasted super sour. None of us would get drunk from this wine. We didn't even open the second bottle.

My thought that it would be nice to do something in a group turned out to be wrong. There was no real atmosphere and so we sat there in silence most of the time until Woo-Seok had the idea that we could play truth or dare.

I never really liked this game, but to avoid this deadly boredom I was even willing to play this game. But neither Hae Jin nor Yibo were in favor of it, instead they suggested that we could simply ask each other questions that we were interested in.

The others agreed and one question after another followed. Seung-Youn seemed to have a special interest in me, because his questions were directed exclusively at me. Where do I come from, how was I in school, where did I study and when did I fall in love for the first time.

"When I was 18." I answered his last question to me.

"And how long did it last?" He wanted to know.

"Four years!" I answered, and Yibo's gaze grew darker and darker.

"Was your relationship serious?"

"We were married."

"What was the reason for the separation?"

"His death!" I said, and Yibo stared at Seung-Youn angrily. But apparently he didn't understand what Yibo wanted to tell him with his gaze, and even when Woo-Seok told him that it was enough now, he asked another question.

"What did he die of?"

"He died by accident. Do you want to know anything else about Zhan? Or is that enough for you? Want me to tell you his name? His name was Park Seo Joon, he only turned 23, loved Zhan more than his life and treated him like his greatest and most precious treasure. For him, he stayed in Beijing and did not go back to Seoul to work for his parents in their huge companies. He wanted to stay with Zhan, wait until he graduated from university and then go to Seoul with him. He had made many plans and even planned to start a family with Zhan. Yes, the parents of Seo Joon loved and still love Zhan and that from the very beginning. They love him so much that they want him to move to them and live with them. Anything else?" Hae Jin asked angrily.

Hae Jin got up and walked away from us. I ran after him and told him not to take it to his heart and to calm down. But he was just angry. "I don't understand why he didn't just stop asking. Did he really have to ask about how he died?" I understood his anger very well and I know how important Seo Joon was to him. After all, they grew up together and did everything together. The two also had many plans and with the death of Seo Joon, a part of Hae Jin's soul died with Joon.

I kept talking to Hae Jin until he calmed down again and was ready to go back to the others with me. Meanwhile they got into an argument. When we got close enough, I heard Guo Zifan say, "If Seo Joon were alive, you'd have gotten one from him on your snout." I stared at Hae Jin and was shocked. I've never seen Guo Zifan angry.

"It doesn't bother me that you're trying to get to know Zhan better, I just mind that you didn't realize when it was enough." Yibo screamed.

I ran to the others and told them to calm down and take a deep breath. I felt sorry for Woo-Seok because he sat there like a pile of misery and had tears in his eyes. Guo Zifan and Yibo screamed at Seung-Youn and didn't even give him the chance to defend himself.

"That's enough!" I yelled and finally got everyone's attention. "I can't believe what's happening right now. We're not in kindergarten. Don't you think I'm capable of saying when it's enough? If I didn't want to answer these questions, I would have said so! I can't believe you guys are going off like this just because of these questions! There are worse things than that. "

Everybody was staring at me and probably couldn't believe that even someone like me can get loud. I think I wouldn't have become so loud if I hadn't looked at Woo-Seok, how sorry he was and how much he was suffering. Somehow he reminded me of myself. The way I used to be when I didn't know how to act.

"Seung-Youn, you should take care of your boyfriend, he's not feeling well right now. Yibo and Zifan, it's totally wrong for two to talk to one person at this way. Or rather, shouting. I understand if you're angry, but that doesn't give you the right to act like that. We're all adults here. We should be able to discuss problems calmly." I scolded and shook my head.

I sat down next to Woo-Seok and handed him a handkerchief when he could no longer hold back his tears. The others stared at us in silence. And when I had enough of their looks I got up, pulled Woo-Seok up and went for a little walk with him. He apologized to me for Seung-Youn: "He just wants to make sure you're good enough for Yibo and won't hurt him." He explained to me.

"So first of all, you don't have to apologize and neither does Seung-Youn. It's okay and I don't mind talking about my husband or his death."

"I'm very sorry that he died."

"Yes, I'm sorry too." I said and smiled. "But there's nothing I can do about it."

"I'm sure it was hard for you."

"It was and it still is. But I'm learning to deal with it and put it behind me and thanks to Yibo, I'm feeling much better these days."

"Yeah he's great, isn't he?"

"Yeah, he is. I mean, I felt terrible for over two years and nothing helped. And then I meet Yibo and suddenly I'm actually happy again. I'm starting to enjoy my life again."

"Yeah, him, too."

"Him too? What do you mean, "too"?

"Yibo had a boyfriend back then, too. They met when he was 16 years old. His boyfriend was already 20 years old. They had been together for two years. Unfortunately, Yibo found out at the university that for his boyfriend he was nothing more than a fling he had beside his fiancée. The fiancée had also been at the university and the two ran into each other every day. Yibo's boyfriend said he really liked him but could not imagine a future with him and would get married soon anyway. This had been a real shock for Yibo, especially when he found out who the engaged woman was. It took him a long time to get over it, and from then on, he never let anyone near him again."

"I see. So it was like a trauma for him?"

"You could say that. And it took a long time for Yibo to even talk to anybody again. That's why Seung-Youn is afraid for him. He just doesn't want Yibo to get hurt again."

"I understand that. But Seung-Youn should also learn to trust Yibo. He's not the naive 16-year-old from back then. He's very mature and very smart. And he knows what he's doing. That's why Seung-Youn should hold back and let Yibo do his thing."

We talked for another half hour about all sorts of things before we went back to the others, who by now had made up and were talking animatedly about some sport.

Yibo held his hand out to me and then pulled me to him. He put his arms around me, gave me a kiss on the cheek and whispered: "I'm sorry that I freaked out like that earlier. I hope you're not mad at me anymore and that you had a good chat with Woo-Seok."

"Yes, I'm fine. Don't worry. And Woo-Seok is a really nice guy. I like him."

"Hopefully not more than me."

"No, I don't."

"So you like me?

" Maybe I do."

"Zhan Zhan, do you like me?

"Yes, Yibo, I like you.

"And I love you, ZhanZhan." Whispered Yibo and kissed me on the cheek again.

I won't tell him what Woo-Seok told me and wait for him to tell me himself about his ex-boyfriend. For now, I just want to enjoy the time on the beach and hope that there won't be any more discussions.

I was at the lake earlier and looked at the little baby geese. Aren't they cute?