~13~ A date?

~13~ A date?

We ate some of the snacks we bought in the supermarket, drank a bottle of water and looked up at the sea and the waves. Nobody else was there except us, except a few sandpipers and seagulls.

I lay on my back again and looked up into the sky. A white cloud in the shape of a mask flew over us. Yibo lay down next to me and pressed his head against mine and looked up at the sky, too. "What are we looking at?" He asked me.

I pointed to the cloud with one finger and said, "It looks like a mask."

"That's right, it really looks like one."

Yibo reached for my hand and with his thumb stroked it. My whole hand felt a tingling sensation. "Tell me about your husband's twin brother. Why is he the black sheep of the family?"

"I don't know everything either, but what I do know is enough. His parents said that even as a little boy he was always different. He liked torturing animals and causing chaos. He was always causing trouble even in kindergarten and had probably been violent there many times before. His parents tried everything possible, but nothing helped. So they sent him to the country for a few years to live with his grandparents. But even there it didn't last long.

When Seo Kyung was back in Seoul he was eleven years old and started to meet shady guys. He drank with them, took drugs, and when he was thirteen, he even sold drugs. He even sold them at school.

He sold them to a boy of his age with a heart problem, and he didn't even tell him what the maximum dose should be. The boy took the drugs and died. But instead of regretting, Kyung just laughed. And because he was too young, he was only warned and not punished. His parents, however, had demanded punishment. But the court did not give in.

Kyung did not even shy away from mixing drugs into his own twin brother's food. He stole from his parents, sold things from the household and even one of their cars. All together with his gang.

When Kyung turned sixteen, he ran away from home and worked in a nightclub in the black economy. The owner of the nightclub secretly ran a brothel and was pimping for more than 20 prostitutes. He made Kyung his right hand and once he did so, Kyung betrayed his boss to the police and then took over the business completely.

Drug trafficking, pimping, illegal brothel, smuggling of women and goods. For about half a year, he also ran an organ trafficking business. But he gave up all that except for the nightclub after he found his present wife. But not because he wanted to be a better person for her. He learned that the dancer was actually a daughter of a mafia boss and by giving him his business, except for his beloved nightclub, he got the hand of the dancer.

When he became a father, he did not want his daughter and always left her with his parents. But at some point, they said they would no longer go along with it. Out of anger about this, he held a knife to his own mother's throat and told her that as soon as the child is three years old, they will take responsibility for the child. He and his wife want to get back into the business and could not use a child in the process. And that is why he is the black sheep of the family. They don't see him as their son anymore and they said that if he really delivers his own daughter to them, they will take her in and raise her, but they don't want anything to do with him."

Yibo shook his head. "So he's just evil and crazy?"

"I don't know. I met him twice and he was always nice to me. But every time I saw him, I got goose bumps and my blood froze in my veins. He has a strange aura that probably only attracts like-minded people."

"I see. I hope we won't run into him in Seoul."

"I don't think so."

Another cloud passed overhead and it looked like a teddy bear. I smiled because it reminded me of a teddy bear I once owned as a child. A girl from kindergarten had given him to me for my birthday and told me that she loved me. Unfortunately I lost the teddy bear when my parents took me to visit my aunt. We always went by bus and I must have left it there.

Yibo suddenly bent over me and looked me in the eyes. "ZhanZhan." Said Yibo in a hoarse voice and my heart started racing like crazy.

"Mn?"

"Where did you and Seo Joon have your first date?"

With a dry throat and certainly bright red cheeks, I said: "At the amusement park. We actually wanted to go out for dinner and a movie first, but changed our minds when we saw a poster of the amusement park. That's also where we had our first kiss."

"What do you say if we go to this amusement park tomorrow and re-enact your date?"

"Something you want to re-enact again?"

"Please, Zhan."

"Mmm, all right."

"Then you and I have a date tomorrow."

"A date?"

"Yeah, we'll make it like a real date, like you guys did."

"And where does that give you Yibo?"

"I'll get to know you better. I'm coming closer to you and I've been wanting to go to an amusement park for so long."

"Oh, okay. We'll go tomorrow. I think we should get back on the road. It's getting dark."

"ZhanZhan, let's wait until the sun goes down."

"But I'm starting to get cold."

"Then I'll warm you up."

"How?"

"Let me show you." He said, and then suddenly covered my eyes.

"What is this?"

"I'm going to warm you up."

"By covering my eyes?"

"No."

"What then?"

"Like this. He said, then kissed me suddenly. My heart almost stopped. "Your lips taste sweet ZhanZhan."

"What the heck was that?"

"I bet you're warm now. Your cheeks are really hot." He said, giggling.

"Why do you always have to tease me so?"

"Do I?"

"Uh, yeah. Of course!"

"Why do you think that?"

"Who kisses a guy you' ve known a few days and still has another man in your heart?"

"ZhanZhan, what other man? There's no one else here, and I would never kiss anybody else but you. Besides, now let's go. I don't want you to get sick."

Yibo got up and pulled me up. I wanted to step aside to pick up my bag, but instead Yibo pulled me into his arms and held me tight.

"I know you're not ready, but as soon as your heart allows it, I'll be there to fill it for you again."

Speechless, I hung there in the arms of Wang Yibo. My heart was racing like crazy and Yibo was pressing me so hard to him, that I could feel his heart beating. It was almost racing faster than mine.

Yibo turned his head to me and whispered: "ZhanZhan, I will give you all the time you need. Just don't run away from me." Then he touched my cheeks with both hands and kissed me again.

I didn't know what to say, so we silently packed everything up and went back to the car and of course Yibo held my hand again. My heart slowly calmed down again as we were on our way home.

"Yibo?"

"Yes?

"You want to wait for me?

"Yes I do. Will you allow me to wait for you?

"Mn."

"Really?" Yibo drove the car to the side and looked at me. "So you're not telling me to give up?

"That's right."

"Then I'm happy to wait. But don't expect me to just sit around and do nothing. I'm trying to convince you of myself." He said, smiling and hugging me. "Thank you, ZhanZhan. Thank you for not rejecting me right away."

I don't know if there will ever be more between Yibo and me. But I will try to follow the sound of my heart. And my heart gets loud when Yibo comes near me. I feel very comfortable with him and he pulls me out of my dark world.

I just wish I didn't feel guilty about Seo Joon.