Chapter 8 : Hold On

Sunday: 7:30 am Phoenix,AZ

Sharae's P.O.V

" I can't have this baby" " Keh yes you can, PUSH!" As I was helping keh deliver her baby. I saw destin on the roof with a bottle in his hand. Before I could get to him he jumped. " Sharae YOU DID THIS, Sharae!sharae"

" Sharae!" " WHAT?!" I screamed out of fear. " Don't holla at me hoe, we making breakfast you want some?" Keh asked while destin was in his phone behind her. " Yeah" I one worded her. " You good?" She asked " Yeah mama, can I talk to destin real quick. We will both be down." " I'll see you later" she walked off leaving me and destin to our selfs. I need to check on his mental state, I didn't have that dream for no reason. " so how you feeling after LA? I've notice last  night you really weren't there mentally. AND I also notice you and Tank was basically dry humping when we got back to the villa." " I mean my heart isn't all the way prepared, the shit literally happened 48 hours ago, but I'm just going thru the phases of a breakup and GWORL  you all in my business, we was in the cut doing our thing, how you spot us out?" He said chessing hard as hell. " you was too damn quiet so I had already knew you was somewhere being grown" " Haha" he said bending over to twerk. " Just be careful, he's just like giveon, fine and still in the closet" " He came out as Bi a year ago, whatchu mean?" " Has he been out with a guy publicly in an affectionate way? No. All I'm saying is let y'all shit be private but not a secret. He need to let his hoes know that it's his nigga over them." " Yeah, you right well he's supposed to be at the Houston Show so I'll talk to him about it but in the mean time I'll be thinking on it.Thanks Sis" we shared a hug " I don't know what I'll do without you or Keh" " No problem, I can't believe you pulling these niggas tho, you got the juice" " And he's already tasted it. I give a whole new meaning to When we ..  " FUCK" we both said laughing going out the door to head downstairs for some breakfast. " Hey" Keh came to me softly. She untied my robe and wrapped her hands around my waist and gave me a big ole kiss . A bitch ain't even brush her teeth yet that's love fr " Damn" is all I said. " ha ha, come on I got you a plate." She guided me to her room while kiara grilled me across the room. Like all in my shit like ' boo bitch the fuck is you staring at' but I didn't have time to fight her with them dirty ass socks. Keh took me to her room downstairs where my plate was with a glass of orange juice on the dresser. I immediately started bussing down my plate that consisted of cheese eggs, cheese grits, fried catfish, biscuits and gravy and a side bowl of cut fruit. " You fixed all of this for me?" I asked " yeah, some of us ate earlier, I was fixing your plate while you were upstairs with destin." " speaking of destin" I said while I was putting my plate on the dresser and starting on my fruit bowl. " have you been checking on him?" " always, why what's wrong?" She asked " I had a dream that he was on a roof with a bottle in his hand and he jumped, that's why I woke up yelling, that shit scared me." I put down my bowl and was now facing keh. " I know he may seem fine but I know him, plus now you know he's talking to tank, so he's moving fast and I know when he starts doing that, he's trying to cover up like he's good." We were walking back to the kitchen to put the plates and glass in dish washer. " Damn, I'll make sure to be on the lookout out" " Thank you" I grabbed and kissed her. I'm not gone lie, I love the pace that we are both going, not too slow and not too fast. I mean she can do what she wants, technically she's still single and I am as well. " Damn do y'all ever get a chance to breathe" kiara said out the cut. " Kiara, we're supposed to be friends remember, why you gotta act like that" Keh said to kiara. " Friends? With your ex?" I asked, I don't want to be possessive but I know being friends with keh isn't kiara's intention. But I know her heart is pure so ion gone react until I see action. " yeah, ain't no bad blood on my end and since we are going to be on this tour, might as well let bygones be bygones, Just until the tour is over" " what's that supposed to mean?" Kiara asked raising her eyebrow. " That mean that ass is getting cut off the moment y'all hit LAX. So enjoy your time with her while you can" I said confidently. We were about to get it cracking until I heard a pair of heels traveling down the hall way.

Kehlani's P.O.V

"Wassup y'all" I heard giveon said behind his evil trifling baby mama, " Why is y'all here?" Sharae butted in " Right" I agreed " last time I check I'm still on this tour as well per YOUR management. Unless you can find someone who is not already booked to replace me, you, you and destin are going to have to deal with it" " yo who the fuck are you talking to like that I.." the sound of glass breaking threw the whole conversation out the window. We ran towards the noise and saw destin breaking all the windows out of giveon's car " bro what the fuck" giveon cried out while destin was on top of his roof slamming his bat into the front windows " HaHa, get active nigga" I heard sharae cheering him on in the background. " Destin get down please he's not worth" " nah fuck that keh, cause why the fuck did he bring her here, do you want to hurt me purposely nigga?" He got a pack of matches out of his pocket, my eyes widened because if this nigga is about to do what i think he's about to do , I know it's about to be some shit. " Im calling the police" Giveon pulls out his phone while destin and justine argue. " What are you doing all this for, you look deranged as hell" Justine was barking a little too much and she needs to slow her roll, when destin is like this, he doesn't give a damn if you're male,female,or pregnant. This niggas hands is 'E' for everyone. "Bitch shut the fuck up, did you tell her that this car is my name nigga. What you gone tell them , that I decided to burn my own car. Did you tell that big mouth ass bitch? she going hard for your stupid ass and you been hiding secrets from her just like you did me. But go hard sis . Bitch you look dumb" I was just in awe with the drama unfolding infront me. He was hurt. Destin dumped his bottle of cologne on top of his car. " Destin,  baby stop!" Giveon pleaded. I was about to stop destin but I felt a handle on my waist. " Let them handle they shit, we both will know when it time to jump in. I don't want you to get hurt in the cross fire." Sharae said in my ear. I surrender but it don't feel right. The next 2.5 Seconds everyone witnessed Giveon's car on fire. Giveon dropped to his knees as he witnessed his only transportation from here on out on this tour is burning  to a crisp , almost like he was bowing down to destin's wrath. We were carrying him into the house to calm him down and suddenly he grabbed giveon face." How could you do this to me! I loved you and you do this shit to me!" Everyone was trying their best to get destin off that boy and after 20 people got involved it happened..eventually. 

Destin's P.O.V

"Destin you have to calm down!" I heard my sister said to me while she was folding my big ass onto the couch. This bitch was stronger than any of them mfs that was holding me back. I was breathing out my nose like a dragon,I was real tight. Why this man broke me like this? Got me burning cars that I BROUGHT! Sharae sat next to me and pulled a joint from behind her ear. " Here smoke this shit, calm your ass down." She fired it up and passed it me. I inhaled the first puff and all of my worries went away. "Don't smoke too much, we have a meet and greet at 5pm before the show." Keh said reaching for the blunt as she passed a second blunt to sharae and we began our rotation .while everyone else was chilling till either the meet and greet or the show. Some people came by and checked on me after my manic episode.I was high and at peace, then all of a sudden I hear the voice of the devil. " DESTIN!WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!" An angry and please let me remember, Pregnant Justine has entered my presence once again. " Justine, Please! This is between destin and giveon, neither one included you when they were having their pillow talk or when they were fucking. there are real feelings involved on destin's end." Sharae butted in ." And you are?"Justine asked in the most nassiest way.But sharae caught that shit real quick  " First of all, who you twisting your neck at? Because I dont know you personally, I fuck with your music but that's it." "Then why are you jumping in his shit if you dont 'know me personally' ?" she mocked. "I'm his sister and obviously you rubbing this baby and relationship in his face is making him do some wild shit, and why do you  keep inserting yourself in this? Like I don't understand. Did you wanted to be in a relationship with both of them? Cause Destin don't do no pussy" " PERIOD!" I agreed. " Look, Just let it go. He choose me over you." She said confidently. "You know what, you're not even worth it. and neither is his old and tired  80s R&B having ass. I have a meet and greet to get ready for. I know you'll be at every show from here on out to watch over your man that you keep fighting so hard for while he's getting hard over another niggas's dick.But I wanted to thank you so much  for putting money into my pockets to reassure your insecurities, it might take you a good minute to get me off his mind, cause the way I  had put it on that man, he'll remember me all the way to his death bed, BITCH!" I walked away feeling in control. Yeah it's going to take a min to get over him but, I have to choose me. Period! " YASSSSS!" I heard sharae cheered me on in the background while I was going upstairs.  I have so much going for me. If a guy doesn't see that then fuck him!

Meet and Greet

5:00 pm

Sharae's P.O.V

I stand by the sideline while destin and keh did their thing, with their fans. I got a call on my phone from josiah. I excused myself and went outside. " wassup? How is LA" I asked " hey ma, LA is good, how's Phoenix?" Why the hell does he sound like that? " Why the hell do you sound like that?" I know my child, and I know he's on some shit. " I got somebody on three way with us." " Hello, Sharae" I know nigga did not call my son, just so I can talk to him. How the hell are you going to use the same person you abandoned as bait. Really nigga 🙄 " I feel like y'all should talk, that's the only way y'all can co parent" Josiah said, He's very optimistic, that's cute and all but I'm not feeling it. " Co parent? Nah I raised you all on my own, you're grown now. If you want to stay in contact with your father that is up to you baby, but me and him have no reason co parent, especially when the other parent was never present until now." Listen y'all I was hot, tight, mad the fuck up. You mean to tell me NOW you want to be apart of your child's life, when he is almost grown. I actually Envie him, he got to walk away leaving me a 12 year old girl to raise a child and I was still one myself. I got out the mud on my own. And I thank God that he was with me every step on the way, but it wasn't easy, trying to better my life and raise a child on my own. " But I'm here now, I know I wasn't present and that was dumb of me, especially when I help you make josiah. Now you have his father to help raise him." I twisted my neck so quick on the phone, a bitch got whip lash. HELP? " Help? Now you want to help, why are you just reaching out all of sudden. Me and JoJo have been in the lime light, since I started Attire Drop. He has always been around!" I was screaming at that point. I gave him a piece of my mind and 5 minutes later his dead beat ass wanna respond" why are you doing this? Like what kind of question is that? What do you think I'm doing this for, because obviously to you I'm not doing this josiah" " yes, why are you doing this? I don't know what is in that 'run away' head of yours, either it's to clear your conscience or maybe to impress your colleagues, you're a nfl hall of famer with 2 rings and your son is a potential nfl  AND nba pick and he hasn't even made it to college yet. You tell me." It was silence over the phone, so I continue talking " you don't have to answer that right now , but let tell you this shit, I raised him on my own, you went overseas leaving your seed behind! We will have our conversation,  I just need my answers then I'm done with you. Just build your relationship with your son!" I hung up the phone and apologize to josiah over text:

That boy worries me sometimes. I went back inside. When I got inside keh and destin were answering questions from interviewers. " I am currently single at the moment but I am looking, and there is nothing wrong with looking for love." Keh looked over at me mouthing out 'are you okay?' while destin was answering a question. I winked at her and I shook my head reassuring her . " next question please?" Destin said into the mic, A woman stood up and looked back at me. Oh my god it's Justine 🙄. Great " Hello, I am Justine Sky, and I have a Question for..."

Kehlani's P.O.V

" Kehlani." Justine called out my name. " You said that you were single, correct?" Where is this bitch going with this, the whole world witnessed on their phones of my recent break up with kiara, if she announces that I'm talking to sharae, the internet is definitely going to drag me and Justine's bitch ass know that. " Well, that is a lie" everyone in the room gasped waiting for every ounce of this tea Justine is about to pour. " She's in a Situation-ship with the owner of the one of the most profitable company in 2023, Attire Drop, right, Sharae ?" Cameras and microphones were turned to sharae, hoping that she will spill some more tea. 🙄 Fuck My Life . My dancers and crew already knew, it was just people on the outside looking in did not. " AND, I know y'all want to know who  her real child's father is" My eyes widen and destin stood up " Yo chill the fuck out, this isn't the place for all that." " No, destin she needs to tell me because what does Justine mean by her 'REAL' child's father. Am I Adeya's father?" Mico asked . Mico is one of the drummers on the tour. This isn't his first time being on my tour, he started touring with me 4 years ago . Me and YG were broken up and we had a threesome with Justine. Round that time period, I was still messing around with YG on the low. So it was hard to tell, at the time until I found out how far along I was with adeya, but Justine knew the whole time. The room went silent and tears were rolling down my face while others from the shade room to tmz were holding phones, cameras and microphones waiting for my answer. It's actually sick to see that their paychecks are being paid from my embarrassment. I shook my head no, crying horribly. " Who is it?" Mico asked " It's YG's Kid" is all I said before I ran out of the interview in tears, hearing my peers calling me from a distance. YG didn't want nothing to do adeya. Especially after I recorded a break up song about his ass and dropped it on Valentine's Day. Mico always wanted children so I told him adeya was his. Yeah it was wrong for lying to him for this long but I wish I could've just taken this to my grave and give adeya a father that wanted to be in her life. Ig I was selfish about my decision.  I ran into the buildings janitor closet when I heard Mico shout my name" KEHLANI!" Mico screamed causing me to jump. Mico got in front of me and slammed the door behind him. " I quit!" Mico screamed in my face. " You're not the only person that can get me a job, matter of fact, I'm not coming to the show, I'm going back to Atlanta, TONIGHT!" I know he's hurt but say it don't spray it nigga. " you don't have nothing to say, you made me believe for 4 years that I had a child and BITCH it was a lie" " well you might wanna calm down on that bitch wo.." "Shut the fuck up" I was trying my hardest to grasp for air as Mico's grip was getting tighter and tighter around my neck. " Mico..Let ...Me ..G" " I told you to shut the fuck up" he was actually smiling while my face was getting bluer and bluer by the second. He let me go and I dropped to my knees, coughing and gasping for air as I felt all the blood rushing back to my face. " so now that we know adeya is not mine, I still want children, and you owe me that Kehlani." He gripped my legs and slid them across the carpet while we was getting on his knees. I fought a good fight but next thing I knew I felt a strike on my forehead and everything went black.

My vision came back 20 minutes later with Mico on top of me, raping me and no one even knows. The reason why no one knows where we are,is the fact that we are on the side of the building, where there was no person in sight. After he nutted in me, he put on his clothes. " you'll thank me in 9 months, you know the abortion law is effect right. Yeah, call you in 9 months, bitch." He walked out laughing like the devil he is. What about Me? I just laid there in awe with what just happened. An hour later, everyone found me laying there lifeless. " Somebody call for an ambulance!" Destin shouted. I felt slaps repeatedly hitting my left cheek but I couldn't talk or move. I was in a state of shock. I felt my body being touched from my shoulders to my calf's and I instantly became present to situation and I went crazy. " GET OFF OF ME!, NOOOOOO!" I was squirming like a mother fucker, I felt a sharp pinch going into my neck and everything went from cloudy to black.

Sharae's POV

Destin and I were pacing back and forth in the parking lot as keh was being released from the hospital. It's the fact that he raped her, in a janitor closet. " Imma kill him" Destin said stumbling back onto the sprinter. " You drunk ain't it?" I said seriously. " Yeah, why?" He said with an attitude. And I caught that. " Whatchu catching an attitude for, I just asked your drunk stumbling ass a question. I don't know what's going on in that head on yours, but you better get that shit straighten real quick before keh comes out here, she was just raped destin. Tighten up nigga, the fuck" I lit and took a pull of my blunt when I heard destin mumbling in the background. " Speak up" I said turnin my head in his direction. I'm already on edge from what happened to keh and the phone call I received, so I'm already tense and now I got this drunk nigga in front of me wantin some smoke. Tuh! Ight. " What?" Destin raised his eyebrow. " I said speak up nigga! You in your feeling bout some other shit, when keh is on her way out here. Set that shit aside." " You don't think I'm hurting Rae? That's my best friend and I'm sorry that shit happened to her. But I'm just supposed to toss my shit aside, like that shit doesn't equally hurt?" " Yes cause that's what it means to be a friend" I said in his face. "Friend? Tuh!" He took another swig of his brown liquor that he had in a damn brown bag, with his crack head looking ass and he said this shit. " Tuh? Did I say something wrong, cause there had been plenty of time I've had to set my personal shit aside to be there for a friend." " you don't want to be Kehlani's friend, you want to be her woman." He said drunkly. " Duh, everyone including her ex knows that shit nigga, I'm over here spitting your dumb ass some real shit and you come out your mouth saying some shit like that, Nigga you childish as fuck." " Hey!Hey! I hear y'all ass all the way in the back, chill that shit out, keh don't need that shit" Jamie said at the stairs of the sprinter with her arms cross. " I can stay outside, take his drunk ass to the bunks" Jamie took destin inside the sprinter and keh came out with her one of her other besties with a sad look on her face. I helped her into the back of the sprinter. I carried her and placed her in her bed and I was about to walk out, so she can have her space. "Rae?!" Keh screamed " Yeah what's wrong,ma?" I asked genuinely. " can you stay with me for a lil while longer. Until we get back to the vila?" " Yeah" I took my shoes off and came into her bed. I cuddled her as her face was buried in my neck. " I'm sorry about earlier, you didn't deserve that, rather you lied or not." I expressed to her as I was playing in her hair. " Yeah, me too. I just feel disgusted. You know?" We looked each other in the eyes, when I looked in her eyes, it was sadness and rage just flowing in her eyes. " I'll protect you forever, as your friend and if you want, as your lover" her eyes glowed in the night sky as we pass numerous of street lights on the highway back to the villa. " Thank you, no matter what, you'll be in my life forever." She pecked her lips against mine and she fell asleep in my arms. Now y'all think this shit is about to be peaceful but do you remember that dream I had earlier, welp who knew it would've came to pass eventually....

Monday: 1:00 am

Everyone was chilling at the villa to call their nerves for today, since keh show was canceled due to an innocent civilian told the shade room what happened to keh earlier in the janitors closet, her publicist and your manager decided to cancel two of her shows to set her mind right, so no Phoenix or Las Vegas show but we will start touring again once we reach Houston which is 2 weeks from now. while everyone else was chilling me, destin, jamie and a few other of keh's close friends were in her master bedroom, drinking , smoking, and just call our nerves for today. It may not solve all of our problems right away, but it will put it on pause for a good min. I've been watching destin almost the whole night. That fight we had did not set right with me at all. " You know what, fuck that nigga , he don't deserve me" destin poured and took another shot, wiped his mouth and went to the balcony. I was following him and I wanted to apologize for earlier. " Hey" I said tiptoeing was onto the balcony. " hey" he said quietly. " I wanted to apologize for earlier, tensions was high and we both lost our cool, but we both know that your anger came from another place." Destin hop on the balcony wall and I got flashbacks of this moment. My dream. He laughed like psychotic patient who finally is at their breaking point. It scared me. " I'm still hurt, I'm not going to lie, I put my heart and soul into that man and he took my heart and stomp on it, in front of the world and in front of y'all, and the crazy thing about it, I would take him back if he asked." He wiped his tear that was rolling down his cheek and took another swig out his bottle. " I might as well die" I managed to stand up on the wall and I panicked and called everyone in that room . " hurry, get him down from there!" We both cried once they put him down from the balcony wall. " why would you do that? Why would you do that?!" I said shaking destin while I was crying my eyes out. I pulled him into a tight hug. " how would you think our sister would feel? How would you think mama would've felt if you did something that fucking  crazy" keh came and Hugged both of us and we all just cried. We all have had an emotional day and we all reached our breaking point. Monday:5:00am

Keh was on the phone with adeya, while her mom was getting her ready for school. I was in the keh's bathroom pissing all the liquor I had 3 hours ago, destin is still up and we were texting while I was on the Toliet :

I texted back 'Goodnight 😘❤️" and closed my phone. Then I started to ease drop on keh's conversation once I heard my name. " What do you think about mommy's new friend sharae?" She asked " I like.. her, she's pretty and she protects you, which means.. she will protect me" I smiled at her response. Let me find out we bout to be a family and shit. " Yes baby she will, I think mommy will take the next step with her, I have to get the green light from you, because she will be around you as well." " yeah mommy, shoot your shot" I giggled, what her little ass know about shooting a damn shot 😂. They talked some more and they said their goodbyes and I came out the bathroom. " You was listening weren't you" keh asked turning in my direction. " yeah, shoot your shot" keh busted out laughing and I pulled her into a hug. " I was deadass" I said to her seriously. Her face went from laughing to blushing. " Well, I'm just going to say it. Sharae I'm starting to develop stronger feelings for you.But after yesterday I definitely want to take things slow" " I gotchu, I'm on your timing, technically you're still single, and we can just play the 'flirty friends' role until you want otherwise" I kissed her on her forehead and we quickly went to sleep.

2 weeks laterHouston, TX

Kehlani's P.O.V

I've been more peaceful these days. I've had 2 weeks off from the tour since everyone from my management has agreed that I needed a break from tour after being raped from Mico. But Everytime I go to sleep, pieces and pieces of the day keeps coming back to me and one of the things I remember was Mico saying " you'll thank me in 9 months" I already went to the closet cvs and brought 5 packs of the dual pregnancy test which means I will be taking 10 in all, just to be sure. Everyone was still sleep and I creeped past sharae to get to the bathroom.

20 minutes later:

I took all 10 pregnancy test and I looked through all 10. And all of them said POSITIVE. " Oh,no"

Next week I will be adding two more chapters, see you next episode

Xoxo - Sharae😘