Alone

A/N: Ahem hi guys my name is red in my last chapter... you guys deserve an apology so let me rq bring out my guitar bc i don't have a ukulele.

ahem my apology song *plays a string* SIKE no apologies MUWAHHAHA.

Odasaku: Really? You killed me off and you won't even give a real apology?

Red: Stfu ur 7 ft under

anyways enough goofing around idk i lost my self there im currently sick AGAIN so that's greatanyways im really sorry for all off you but i hope this chapter will make you readers happy<3.

June 10th Saturday 3am.

It has been 3 days after Odasaku funeral and Dazai refused leave his dorm. The principal gave him a few weeks off school to mourn his lost. Chuuya refused to go to school, he spent all his time taking care off Dazai. Knowing Dazai mental health, Chuuya was afraid he might snap and lose it.

One morning at 3am Chuuya woke up hearing the TV turn on, he noticed the brunette wasn't in bed so chuuya got up and walked out off his room and saw Dazai sitting on the couch watching TV. Chuuya noticed something, dazai had no bandages on. He had taken all his bandages off his chest, neck, arms, he was actually shirtless with just sweatpants on.

"Dazai?" Chuuya said in a sleepy voice.

"Chuuya. Sorry did i wake you?" Dazai said turning his head towards Chuuya.

Chuuya shock his head and sat in the couch next to the brunette wrapping his arms around Dazai. Dazai then moved away looking down with a frown.

"What's wrong?" Chuuya asked eyeing dazai.

"I... I don't want you to feel- um.." Dazai stuttered.

"Im not going to feel, uncomfortable, scared, or disgusted at your scars. Ive bandaged you up alot, you don't scare me" Chuuya said pulling dazai closer to him.

The brunette moved closer to Chuuya connecting their hands together.

"Why did you take off your bandages anyways?" Chuuya asked.

"I felt so hot and cold and just uncomfortable that i just needed them off me" Dazai said stroking Chuuyas hand.

"You haven't gotten any good sleep" Chuuya said.

"Chuuya"

"Yeah?" Chuuya responded looking at the brunette.

"When mom left, i was alone. When i left you, i was alone. And now i have you again but what if you end up being gone and then I'm alone. And all my life, ive had Odasaku. But now I'm alone. I want to be alone, to not bring the people i care about into my shitty life. But at the same time, i want someone to be with me till the very end." Dazai said with a heavy breath moving away from Chuuya just a bit.

"Oda said i should live my life to fullest. How do i do that when everything is grey to me. No colors in this world. Just grey." Dazai said leaning on his knees to hide his face.

Chuuya took Dazais hands and brought him into a hug. Hugging him tight.

"Your not alone anymore. Im here, you have me, you will never lose me. The color grey will dissapear. But it will only dissapear when you decide it can. You are the only one who has control on that. And ill be with you, by your side. To help you. You will never be alone." Chuuya said bringing Dazai out off the hug and cupping his face that had tears slowly falling down.

"I love you" Dazai said.

"I love you too, Osamu" Chuuya said giving dazai a soft kiss on his lips.

Dazai then laid on Chuuyas chest. Both laying in the couch.

"Dazai" Chuuya said.

"Yeah?" Dazai said looking at Chuuya.

"Remember the day when you told me that you loved me" Chuuya asked.

"Yeah?"

"Well"

~Flashback~

High school 4 years ago. Chuuya got back from school and he was completely exhausted. He got changed and sat on the couch watching something on the tv. After an hour someone knocked on the door, Chuuya sighed and got up to open the door.

"Oh Odasaku-san. What are you doing here?" Chuuya asked.

"Hi Chuuya, and please call me oda. Im here to ask you something" Oda said.

"Um sure, come in" Chuuya said.

"Is your mom home?" Oda asked entering.

"No she is at work" Chuuya said shutting the door.

"I see"

"So why are you here, and where was Dazai. Idiot didn't came to school today" Chuuya said.

"He's at home. Had a bad night sleep. Fell off his bed and got a twisted ankle" Oda lied, dazai had skipped school due to his father.

"Oh. He should off texted me. God" Chuuya complained.

"So i understand you and Dazai have been dating for almost 2 months now" Oda said.

"Oh- y-you know?" Chuuya said surprised at the sudden mention off his and Dazais relationship. They both kept a secret from their families.

"Yes, its obvious. I saw the way you and Dazai have been hanging out more. Texting. Having sleep overs. Especially at my house all the time. I caught on you two" Oda said.

"Look please dont tell my mom, she doesn't know im gay yet. And i dont know if she will support me" Chuuya said.

"Im not here for that. Im here for something else" Oda said.

"Oh? What then?" Chuuya asked.

"How serious are you with this relationship" Oda asked.

"Well. If im going to be honest. As much as i hate the idiot, i cant lie that he makes me happy" Chuuya said under his breath, emabresed to admit.

"But if im going to be honest. Im sacred admitting that i might love him... I don't know why. But i-"

"Chuuya" Odasaku said cutting chuuya off.

"You're both young teenagers. Let your feelings adapt. And before you start saying i love you to him there's something i need to tell you" Oda said.

~Flash back ended~

"When he said that. I got pissed off, of course. I thought he was telling me that what I was feeling was all fake because we were young. But really he was trying to tell me you guys were moving." Chuuya said.

"Chuuya..."

"Back then. I was scared to love you because i thought i wasn't enough for you. You were the smart kid in highschool. I admit you were also the weird kid. But that was you. You were perfect. If i just listened to you two. Things could have worked out better" Chuuya said.

"Chuuya. The main reason why i fell in love with you. Was you. Everything about you i love." Dazai said with a soft smile.

"We now have each other. And I'm happy that i have you again. I never want to let you go Osamu" Chuuya said looking into Dazai's eyes.

Dazai moved closer to Chuuya connecting his lips with Chuuya's in a passionate kiss. When they separated, Dazai laid on Chuuya's chest and Chuuya started playing with dazai hair. They both soon drifted off to sleep together. In a comfortable silence.

*The world will always be grey in my eyes. But being with you. The world shows a little color again. I love him so much* Dazai thought.

A/N:

HIII hope you enjoyed this chapter. It was hard to write this chapter ngl but bc im super dazai kinnie mode i just did my feelings+story mode=BAM great angst.

Anyways like i said im sick WHILE IM ON SPRING VACATION TF WHAT THE FUCK WHY HDNDKSKKFJFJDK.

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