16 - That Day

Shinobu could never forget that day. No matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't. Shinobu went everywhere after Giyu left, but everywhere she looked, she could always see a part of him in it

Shinobu hated it. No matter how much she drowned herself in alcohol, no matter how many miles she travelled, he could never leave her mind

It's been two years, yet everything was still so clear to her. Shinobu could always close her eyes and transport herself to that balcony

Shinobu couldn't pinpoint it. She could never explain why Giyu was so hard to forget.

Was it because he was her first love? Was it because he was her first heartbreak? Shinobu never knew

Then again, Shinobu could never explain her feelings for Giyu, anyway.

Occasionally, she thinks maybe that was the reason why they fell apart

She doesn't know. That's all she could ever say. She doesn't know

There were so many reasons why they broke up. They were far from perfect

They yelled, well, mainly she yelled, they fought, they didn't communicate properly, they didn't talk about their problems

They just acted like they were okay even if they weren't. No matter how much they were falling apart, they pieced themselves together when in front of others

Giyu told Shinobu he was tired of waiting for her to love him

Shinobu told Giyu she was tired of waiting for Giyu to be harsh for her

They both knew it wasn't going to work out.

It still hurt Shinobu

She knew deep down she loved Giyu

In a way, she just couldn't accept it

Maybe that's why she never said it

They were in a relationship for 2 years, yet Shinobu felt like she never knew Giyu at all

She rarely saw him cry

Whenever he had a problem, he would keep it in. Giyu would never tell anyone what was bothering him, what was burdening him

Giyu kept so much to himself, yet Shinobu loved him like it was all she ever knew

That day, when she heard him say he didn't love her anymore, Shinobu felt like her heart fell from her body

That feeling...

Shinobu could never shake it off

It never felt like they left that balcony. Shinobu's still looking at him that day

Shinobu never understood Giyu, but that day, it felt like she knew him more than he knew himself

When Giyu said he didn't love her anymore, she knew he was lying

Liar.

Liar.

Liar.

The thing Shinobu hated most about Giyu was that he always put her first. Even at the cost of himself

Giyu hated seeing Shinobu hurt. Giyu hated seeing Shinobu weak. And their relationship made her both

He hated seeing it so much that he broke them off, knowing Shinobu could never have the strength to

Giyu knew Shinobu could never let go

So he did

That's why he lied

That's why he didn't cry

That's why he tried so hard to look unaffected, even though his heart was getting crushed and pummeled on the balcony floor

Shinobu knew Giyu cried after closing his apartment door

But she never said anything

If only he knew how much she wanted him back

If only he knew how much she yearned his presence

If only Giyu knew Shinobu could never hate him

Shinobu could never hate Giyu

But she had to

Couples that break up peacefully and become mature about it grow distant. There's no reason to stay because all that's left are good memories and good endings

Couples who break up and forgive each other step out of each other's lives with a smile

They would leave silently

They would never look back

That's why Shinobu chose to hate Giyu. Even if it hurt, she hated him every day just so they had a reason to stay. So they could remain in each other's lives

Shinobu keeps hating Giyu, and Giyu keeps waiting for it to end

That's why they're still connected

That's why their road still isn't closed

Shinobu knew he wanted her to hate him. To despise him for destroying what they had

Giyu loved her so much that he couldn't stand seeing Shinobu loving someone that broke her, that's why he allowed her to hate him

Because he broke Shinobu

That's why he lied that he stopped loving her

Liar.

Liar.

Liar.