chapter 16

Chapter 16.

- No, I want an exact answer.

SuA turned to look at Mrs. Kim's serious face, she was surprised, what did her mother mean….?

- The kiss mark on your neck belongs to Siyeon, right? One in the first day, another one today.

SuA unconsciously touched her neck, she now had her long hair loose, her mother must have noticed when her hair was blowing in the wind.

- I slept with a girl at a bar, that's all - SuA explained, her heart pounding with tension.

- Is that girl at the bar the one who kissed you at the pool late last night?

SuA's eyes widened, her mother saw her and Siyeon last night....

It was already very dark then...

- Kim SuA, let me tell you this, you can love any girl, but definitely not Lee Siyeon, okay? – Mrs. Kim's stern face became more serious.

SuA pursed her lips, looking straight ahead, not daring to face her mother, she was embarrassed to let her mother see that scene.

She spent sweet moments with Siyeon at the pool, and in bed last night too. Even though she knew Siyeon was still upset about her answer, she had no choice.

Her high self-esteem does not allow her to easily agree to all kinds of relationships, sneaky love with a soon-to-be-married person, the kind of relationship she hates, even her feelings for Siyeon have never gone away.

- Since when did Siyeon and you happen, before Siyeon met Jaejoong or after? I've talked many times about you taking your girlfriend home to play if you have one, you all said that because you're busy you don't get to know anyone, but it turns out that you're secretly in love with Siyeon, right?

- No, she and I are just colleagues, there is no secret dating at all - SuA replied coldly.

- ……………………

- My story with Siyeon happened before Siyeon met Jaejoong, but I've decided on this anyway, I won't have anything to do with her outside of work.

- Are you sure?

- Is it sure if I bring a girlfriend to meet you? – SuA narrowed her eyes and raised her voice.

- Oh, that sounds reasonable - Mrs. Kim looked at her daughter with half an eye and then adjusted her position, preparing to close her eyes to sleep.

SuA breathed heavily, looking out the window where the clouds were floating. Last night after making love, she was so tired that she fell asleep, and when she woke up, Siyeon was nowhere to be found, Siyeon must have gone back to the room with Jaejoong. SuA's flight was earlier than Siyeon's so she only had time to see Siyeon for the last time in the hotel lobby, Siyeon only glanced at her once.

An expressionless look, a far from when it was just the two of them.

She knew that she was hurting Siyeon, she didn't expect Siyeon’s feelings for her to be so big.

But she had already decided, she would give up.

Flashback

In one of SuA and Siyeon's own vlives, a fan commented, "Are you two going to get married?"

SuA was very open to that question, she looked at Siyeon and laughed.

- What is marriage?

- It's two people's bond with the law - Siyeon said excitedly.

- Siyeonie, do you want to be legally bound with me?

- With you?

- Yes.

- So, do you want to change your last name to mine?

SuA laughed.

- You’re the one who has to change.

The two looked at each other and smiled happily, the atmosphere filled with joy.

End flashback.

The working schedule starts again, Dreamcatcher every day goes by opening their eyes early in the morning, closing their eyes is when the moon has risen too high.

Everything is still normal, only Kim SuA's indifference has increased a level, that torments Siyeon's spirit a lot.

SuA only interacted with Siyeon a few times when in front of the camera, but when the camera was off, she acted like a stranger to Siyeon. Siyeon felt depressed and in pain, SuA's attitude was completely different from the day in Tokyo.

Especially after SuA confirmed that she had been secretly in love with Siyeon for a long time, but now she was treating Siyeon like that.

On the inside Siyeon seemed to be corroded by acid, but on the outside she appeared as nothing, as an independent girl and did not need anyone to take care of her.

Everyone around noticed the abnormality in Siyeon and SuA's relationship, Gahyeon who knew everything best, because SuA told her about it.

- The fact that Siyeon loves you is something that I already know - Gahyeon sat on the balcony looking into the distance, gulping down a large beer can.

- Did you know before? - SuA looked over in surprise.

- Only you are stupid so you can't see it, SuA, the way Siyeon shows it is enough to prove that she has a crush on you, both me and JiU can see it.

SuA rubbed her forehead, perhaps Siyeon's stubborn and apologetic words had invaded her entire brain, so she couldn't realize that Siyeon had real feelings for her.

- But I'm happy with your decision - Gahyeon ran her hand through SuA's hair, brushing away the curls tangled in the wind.

- Yes, that's what I have to do, my mother already knows everything, and asks me not to date with her.

- That's right, listen to your mother.

SuA heard Gahyeon's words, picked up the vape tube and smoked it, which was something she had been dependent on lately, with the goal of clearing her mind.

She succeeded in acting indifferent to Siyeon for a month, then couldn't help but confess her feelings to Siyeon in Tokyo, and now she has to act indifferent again, even to the point of must be higher.

Her decision killed her mood, the inside was completely black and she indulged in e-cigarettes for a momentary relief.

Currently there is no one in the dorm but Gahyeon and SuA. SuA noticed that these days, Siyeon comes to the studio every time she doesn't have a schedule to work, she didn't do that in the past. Normally Siyeon likes to stay at home, lie in bed to rest, regenerate energy, when she's excited, she comes to the studio to compose music. Siyeon's release of music is also completely natural, not being forced by the company's deadline, so she is in no hurry.

But she's been buried in the studio more than now, eating at the studio, so SuA rarely gets to see Siyeon when she doesn't have a schedule.

There was a little emptiness in SuA, and she had to try to get used to it.

As time passed, at the Dreamconcert music event, Dreamcatcher was placed in a waiting room right next to Ateez's waiting room. Ateez is a group that is not in the same company as Dreamcatcher but has the same music production team, the two sometimes meet at shows, know each other socially.

Today is a bit special, the Ateez group has just changed the new manager is a girl, and when SuA passed by, she was startled, because it was someone she knew.

- Kim Bora - Jeongeui happily stepped forward.

- Oh, Jeongeui, why are you here? – SuA widened her eyes, a girl she didn't expect.

It was her first love.

- I've been Ateez's manager, it's been 3 months.

- Oh, you look so grown up now Jeongeui - SuA glanced at the other girl from head to toe.

She met Jeongeui when she was in high school and the two dated for 6 months, a love so pure and childish.

Every day, SuA took Jeongeui to school, then picked her up home, then took her to eat, hold hands, and kiss her cheeks.

SuA used to love that girl so intensely, and she thought that she would wait for Jeongeui to grow up a little more, then their relationship would progress further. But then SuA was accepted as a trainee at CJ company, so she had to go to Seoul to pursue her passion for her career, Jeongeui stayed at Masan, the two agreed that they would break up amicably.

When she was preparing to go to Seoul to practice at CJ, she accidentally met Siyeon in Ulsan on a family outing, and had feelings for that strange girl, so breaking up was easy for her to pass.

Now after 14 years, Jeongeui has grown a lot, she is even taller than SuA, while in the past, she was a head shorter than SuA. SuA took a few seconds to look at the little girl of the present, Jeongeui had changed her appearance very clearly.

- Don't look at me for so long, I'm shaken - Jeongeui said shyly.

- Ah, it's so good to see you again, I didn't expect you to be an artist manager - SuA tried to regain her normal appearance.

- I didn't expect I'd see you again, it's been a long time, you're getting more and more beautiful, these past years I can only see you through the screen, today I met you in person - Jeongeui happily, hand unconsciously touching SuA's hand.

The happy reunion scene caught all the eyes of the Dreamcatcher members, who were standing not far away. Gahyeon is the one who looks the most calm because she already knows SuA's first love, SuA told her once, she knows Jeongeui's name and has not met the face until today, the rest all look very surprised, especially JiU and Siyeon.

- Who is she, does she know SuA? – Jiu asked.

- That ex-girlfriend - Gahyeon replied nonchalantly.

- Huh? - Siyeon panicked.

- Hey, is that strong love that SuA used as inspiration to write songs? - Yoohyeon covered her mouth.

- SuA likes girls? – Handong is innocent.

- This is too predictable - Dami shrugged as if she understood.

- Probably, who knows - Gahyeon answered Yoohyeon and went into the waiting room, she felt uncomfortable inside, it was like the feeling when she knew SuA was secretly in love with Siyeon.

SuA composed music while in love with Siyeon, but the other was a deep love in her past, and it is not clear who was the inspiration for SuA's songwriting.

A conundrum, more difficult than when placing stock orders, Gahyeon had to pull out her phone to play a game, taking a deep breath.

SuA exchanged phone numbers with Jeongeui and returned to her waiting room. When she walked in, she suddenly felt a cool breeze, everyone turned their attention to her as if waiting for her to confess something.

But it's really no big deal, Jeongeui is a relationship from her past, she doesn't have any special feelings for that girl anymore, the two are simply friends. .

- That girl looks really cute - JiU said, her face not very friendly as if she wanted to sarcastic.

- Hmm..um... - SuA hesitantly sat down next to JiU.

- Gahyeon told me so everyone knows, your ex, right? – Yoohyeon pouted.

- The girl who inspired you to write that No Dot song? - Handong frowned.

- No, no, it's someone else - SuA glanced at Siyeon, she saw Siyeon's gaze falling on her but was immediately cut off, she sighed, the atmosphere in the room was quite awkward.

Actually when composing music, she thought about Siyeon, she was secretly in love with Siyeon at that time. A strong love is something she wants to give Siyeon, but with the current situation, of course it's not possible. She had to sink her enthusiasm to the bottom, killing it gradually.

Just now, she was just going to say hello back and forth with Jeongeui, but Jeongeui took the initiative to ask for her phone number for easy communication, and even suggested that Jeongeui invites her to dinner someday, she hummed, didn't know how to answer.

Her relationship with Jeongeui was originally painless, both respected each other and agreed to part ways for SuA's career, so when she met Jeongeui again, she did not feel awkward, everything was very comfortable.

The pain and the awkwardness were the emotions she felt when Siyeon was near her.

Siyeon is always by her side, but she always feels sad and uncomfortable, she is a person who has a high need to express her true feelings, when she cannot do this, she feels extremely frustrated . But she had no way to deal with it.

Siyeon sat in the corner of the room, playing games on her phone, trying to forget the miserable feeling inside. Seeing SuA having fun with another girl, she couldn't help but feel jealous. It's common for SuA to be close to a certain girl, there are many girls around Sua, but Siyeon isn't so jealous like that.

This time is different, because this is a person from SuA's past, her ex-lover who once had a strong love for SuA. They must have been in love before SuA came to DCC for an internship, ie when she was still in school. SuA's youth is associated with that cute bangs girl….

The more she thought about it, the more pitiful she felt, Siyeon's face became colder and colder to hide her true feelings. She wanted this schedule to end quickly so that she could go home, bury herself in the studio, and then she would feel some peace.

When she doesn't see SuA, she won't have to feel pain anymore.

At the same time, the phone rang with a message, Siyeon stopped playing the game and opened it to read.

“When you finish, let's go to dinner” – Jaejoong.

“Okay”

The music event took place with great success for 3 hours with 15 different kpop groups. Everyone packed up and was about to leave, JiU announced that the company had booked a table at the restaurant for dinner and then went home.

- I have an appointment with someone else, you just go - Siyeon dialed the phone to order a taxi.

- Do you have a date with someone? - Yoohyeon asked.

- My fiancé

Siyeon disappeared from view, SuA stood dumbfounded on the spot, feeling her energy gradually disappear.

- Don't tell me you don't want to eat dinner - Gahyeon stood next to SuA and guessed the other's mood.

- Yes, I go back dorm, even if I eat, I don't have any appetite - SuA boredly left, ordered another car to go back to the dorm.

End chapter 16.