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just some random shits and rants, ill delete this soon

TO THINK YOU GUYS WERE ACTUALLY WAITING FOR ME TO UPDATE😭

ILOVEYOUGUYSSM

ITS BEEN MORE THAN A YEAR HOLY SHIT

Anyway, i broke up with my bf and now i can finally focus on this story that has been boggling my mind for months now

I had to force myself to sit down and type the story in my head just so i can sleep peacefully

id wake up in the middle of the night  just to add new shits to the story

as much as you guys are obsessed with this shitty story, i am as well

TO THINK I STARTED THIS WHEN I WAS 12 AND NOW IM TURNING 20 AND IM NOT EVEN HALFWAY DONE😭 I CANT

MY LOVE FOR THESE CHARACTERS ARE GETTING OVER THE TOP

IM OBSESSED WITH KAKASHI SO MUCH I DEDICATED AN ENTIRE CHAPTER FOR HIM

if only my character was not a physically 13 y/o kid, kakashi would have been a good love interest AHAHHAHAH

i was thinking back then how would their rs be and i just found it cute as I read what i wrote. LIKE HOLY SHIT WHY HAVEN'T I THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE. Kakashi being a father figure to Lhexi is so ironic like. There would be just too much angst if i did that and it would be seriously complicated writing depressing stuff over and over again. I kept removing Lhexi and Kakashi's parts cuz it might ruin the story but gosh i was so wrong. I should have added them to the other chapters a long time agooo so i just randomly decided to dump them together in a single chapter.

MY EXAMS ARE COMING UP SOON AND IM STILL NOT DONE WITH CHAPTER 61

AND I JUST REALIZED THAT IN ALMOST ALL OF LHEXI'S FIGHTS, SHE HAVEN'T REALLY USED HER REAL STRENGTH

idk how to the end the next few chapters cuz it would decide on what path she would take

looking back, i shouldn't have taken Sasuke as a love interest. idk. he's just too complicated of a character to write. and with all his backstory shit and stuff. like how would Lhexi fit in his story anyway

i should have chosen Shika

he would have been a better fit

and there could have been so much angst between them

and my boi naruto

idk what to do with him

its his first time experiencing betrayal

how it would affect his personality and his whole ideology is so damning irritatingly painful to write

like where do i start??

and i just feel like i have to add every main character to the story

anyway

i just wanna finish this story so bad so i can finally remove it from my system

i wanna start aneww

i wanna move on from this storyyy that randomly started just cuz i wanted to bring my inner ADHD INDUCED IMAGINATIONS to life

gosh i wanna take a break again

i was just so damn happy when i saw your comments likee--

you haven't given up on this story just yet???

IM SO GRATEFUL IDK WHAT TO SAYYY

bear with me kids, your mama's gonna cook a good arc