<<five>>

yes,two chapters in a row:)

Charlie's pov:

It was the first day of our vacation and our last meet and greet, it has always been like that; meet and greets and vacation came together. We're just lucky we only have one fan meet today.

Leo still doesn't want to talk to me and Chloe being Chloe has been clinging on to me 24/7 ensuring I don't leave her side to go to Leo.

"Sing! Sing! Sing! " the fans chanted over and over again.

Before I could say anything, Leo lift up his mic and started to sing.

Feeling usedBut I'mStill missing youAnd I can'tSee the end of thisJust wanna feel your kissAgainst my lipsAnd now all this timeIs passing byBut I still can't seem to tell you whyIt hurts me every time I see youRealize how much I need you

everyone knew Leo rarely sings so all the fans kept silent, savouring this moment.

I hate you, I love youI hate that I love youDon't want to but I can't put nobody else above youI hate you, I love youI hate that I want youYou want her, you need herAnd I will never be her

he was singing about Chloe and I, I could feel his sadness and tell that he was crying just as I was by the hoarseness of his voice and his red, sore eyes.

I cut him off before he could sing another word.

I miss you when I can't sleepOr right after coffeeOr right when I can't eatI miss you in my front seatStill got sand in my sweatersFrom nights we don't rememberDo you miss me like I miss you?Fucked around and got attached to youFriends can break your heart too, andI'm always tired but never of you.

before I could sing more,

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shitI put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shitI type a text but then I nevermind that shitI got these feelings but you never mind that shitOh oh, keep it on the lowYou're still in love with me but your friends don't knowIf u wanted me you would just say soAnd if I were you, I would never let me go

he sang these words whilst looking at me throughout, I broke his heart.

I don't mean no harmI just miss you on my armWedding bells were just alarmsCaution tape around my heartYou ever wonder what we could have been?

He continued; You said you wouldn't and you fucking didLie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fixNow all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixedAlways missing people that I shouldn't be missingSometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distanceI know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscingBut I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelingsWhen love and trust are goneI guess this is moving onEveryone I do right does me wrongSo every lonely night, I sing this song

our fans started cheering and clapping loudly while I saw at the corner of my eye, Leo drying the tears that had managed to escape, down his cheeks.

"Leondre! Leondre! Leondre! "

"Here's one of our own, hope you enjoy, " Leo managed to get out.

He started talking out Fast Car; I hope some night you'll be reading off this pageCan you hear me in the street light breathing out your name?A dark emotion left me broken tied around my headTied so tight there's not a feeling leftMaybe I should leave to reach a state of inner peaceI know that it is hard understanding you and meOur family is broken, our family is goneI'm writing this letter to tell you I can't carry on

I hesitantly pick up my mic but leo refused to look at me and so By the time we meet againIt may not be me, my friendI'll be someone else

Heart so shattered that I can hardly sleepThe only time I see your face is invested in a dreamI try to forget you, inside I am torn

(I'll be someone else)

Although you are heart broken I am heart broken more

His raps has never sounded as truthful as it is now

I'm gonna buy a fast carA new fast carAnd I'll drive drive drive driveFast carAnd I'm never coming back again

I'm gonna buy a fast carA new fast carAnd I'll drive drive drive driveFast carAnd I'm never coming back again

There is no way to take back my actionsEverything is marred, smeared into the blacknessThe deadness of the wind and the whispering moon

(I'll be someone else)

If there is a heaven I will see you there soon

his voice broke at the last sentence but I ignored it.

"I'm so sorry" I mouthed to him.

he turn his gaze back to the crowd, as if my words had stung him.

Leo's pov: (trigger warning)

The meet and greet finally ended, it's not that I'm ungrateful, I just couldn't bear seeing him.

"Hey, Leo. I'm going on a date with Chloe now but please promise me when I come back, you'll let me explain. "

I nodded meaningless for only I knew I won't be here by then.

If Charlie can break my heart with 3 words I could break his with 1.

he would see me but I won't be here

*I took a post-it and stick it on the bathroom mirror, took the shaver at the sink and filled the bathtub with cold water.

I laid there as I cut one, two, three, four, five

I start working on the other armone, two, three, four, five

soon the bathtub was filled with red tainted water, my body so cold I could feel nothing but my heart ache. Nothing at all. As distant screams lull me to sleep. And a pair of lips with salty tears was the last thing I felt before I slept into unconsciousness.*

@suhtorii goodbye