fifteen

The next two weeks were hell for me. I barely slept a wink and if I did get sleep it was for ten minutes and then I'd wake up screaming. I couldn't get the images of Shikamaru out of my head and I  could tell it was affecting him as well. He wanted to help me but he didn't  see what I saw. He didn't see the blood...so much blood. Tsunade-sama was gonna start me on medication to help with the sleeping but I didn't think that would help at all. It just kept me in the dreams.

I was staring out of the hospital window, yes hospital. I was to stay here because I wasn't eating as well. I tried but i couldn't keep it down. I felt sick Everytime something touched my tongue. Like I was swallowing blood

I watched as some kids played catch on the road and smiled at how carefree they were. Shikamaru was out in the corridor with Tsunade probably discussing what to do with me.

"Hi Kakashi." I said, not looking away from the kids as the silver haired man appeared in my room.

"Yo." I looked at him to see him pulling his mask down and sitting at the end of my bed.

"How are you holding up?" He already knew the answer but still asked.

"I don't know..." I turned and continued to watch the kids play, laughing with each other.

"it's normal to get nightmares about these kind of things. They're scary" he didn't look at me as he said the sentence but I knew he was telling me I'm going to be okay.

"I can't get it out of my head..." I whispered looking down at my hands that were covered in Shikamaru' non-existent blood.

"It takes time, but trust me it gets easier to deal with as you try. You're gonna be okay." I looked up at him to see him looking at me. He had went through this after losing me and suddenly I felt guilty. It must've been so hard.

"Hey don't be feeling guilty for something you didn't do. Besides I'm fine, just knowing you're okay now. I can finally move on from it." I smiled at him feeling thankful.

"Shikamaru... you two are good for each other. I'm happy he was the one you picked to replace all of this." He gestured brightening the mood. I chuckled making him smile.

"You'll get better in no time. Just take it day by day." He ruffled my hair as Tsunade walked in with my boyfriend. Shikamaru took one look at my smile and grinned widely. I felt a blush spread across my cheek as he continued to stare at me.

"Well I'm off now. Shikamaru, kami" he had his mask back on and I smiled up at him.

"Thank you." I said gratefully. I actually felt a little better after our talk.

"Anytime." He was gone in a second. I looked up at Shikamaru who had sat where Kakashi just was and blushed again. I didn't even know why I was feeling shy.

"You okay?" He was smiling at me something I hadn't seen since this whole thing happened.

"I'm going to be." I smiled, laughing as he tackled me into a hug placing kisses across my face. I held him tight.

"Umm im still here." Shikamaru pulled away going red in the face as I stared at him with a love filled gaze. God was on my side when he let me keep Shikamaru.

My stomach decided to awaken from it's slumber as it growled loudly making Shikamaru smile again.

"I'll go get you something to eat right now." He kissed me quickly running out of the room making me feel guilty he must've worried a lot. When he should be worried about himself.

"He's just happy you're okay." I nodded smiling. Thanks to everyone I will be fine.

..... ( A few weeks have passed )

I trailed my fingers across the scars on Shikamaru' chest. Five in total. Five times I could've lost him. I shivered disregarding the thoughts. He was here safe in my arms, I smiled bending down and placing kisses to the raised scars. He was still sleeping as I leaned up and placed a kiss on his neck trailing up to his jaw and then finally his lips. I pulled back a little keeping our foreheads together.

"Don't stop." His husky voice shocked me and my eyes flung open to see his ones looking back. I pulled back my eyes going cross-eyed.

"Hey." I whispered kissing the corner of his mouth. He ran his hands down my waist till he gripped my hips tightly.

"Hey." He whispered back tucking the always loose strand of hair behind my ear.

"Let's not move today." I said tracing his lips with my own. We were both naked having shown our love for each other the night before. I was doing better and so was Shikamaru. Though I did have to leave my house I refused to go there anymore even though I knew that they could track me down effortlessly. It was just too much.

I removed the sheet that was entangled between our bodies and cuddled close. Skin to skin. Shikamaru blushed as my chest met his own and I giggled when I felt his excitement.

"Really?"I said gently teasing him by running my finger along his thigh.

"Hey guys!-" Naruto burst through our door and I quickly pulled the sheet up covering our bodies. does no one know how to knock?

"Did I interupt?"

I laughed shaking my head despite Shikamaru nodding his at the same time.

"What is it Uzumaki?" Shikamaru said shielding my body from view even though it was covered already.

"Just wanted to see if you guys wanted to hang?" He said not bothered by my boyfriend's glare.

"Not today Naruto." I said secretly running my hand along Shikamaru' length. He tensed and his face went extremely red as I continued to touch him.

"Naruto. Go away." The blond didn't look up or even react to Shikamaru as he had picked up a book and was skimming through it lazily. I squeezed onto Shikamaru and bit my lip as a low moan escaped him. I started to pump my hand and giggled when he glared down at me.

"Naruto! Get out of my bloody room!" The blond was so startled he fell to the ground. He looked up at Shikamaru and finally noticed his annoyance.

"Whoa you could've asked me to leave nicely."

"Yeah Nara, That's. Not. Very. Nice." I said tugging his hard member with each word.

"Fuck off." He groaned his head falling back with a loud moan and Naruto finally clicked.

"You two are animals. I'm still in the bloody room." He said a blush covering his cheeks.

"Yeah our room! Now get." Shikamaru said not even waiting for him to leave he moved us so I was underneath him, stomach pressed in to the bed. The door slammed shut and I giggled but instantly moaned as his hand came down on my ass with a painful smack. He bent down and placed a kiss to the searing cheek.

"That's not what good girls do, Kira." He said in a hard voice rubbing his member against my butt, making excitement flood me. I loved this dominant side of him that I had come to know the more we had sex.

"I think I have to punish you" he said biting down hard on my neck.

"Mmm yes!" He moaned at my excitement as I pushed my butt towards his waiting cock. He roughly spread my legs so he could fit between them. The roughness just sent my body reeling with pleasure.

Without warning he thrust into my core, completing me. We both moaned as we took in the pleasure we were giving each other.

I turned my head back to see him already looking down at me.

"I love you." The sentiment was returned as he placed a loving kiss against my lips and he continued to show me how much he loved me as the morning wore on.

.........

Still naked, yet tired, we showered before getting up for lunch. My (basically our) new apartment was closer to Ichirakus which was convenient since our stomachs rumbled from the lack of food. We held hands as we walked in and spotted Naruto who looked at us.  His usual teasing manner was replaced by an awkward one. I laughed slapping him on the shoulder.

"Knock first." Shikamaru said ordering us food.

The blond nodded eagerly if the information he was told was critical. We enjoyed hanging out with Naruto until he said he had to train or rather Sakura came in and pulled him by the ear yelling how they had started training an hour ago. I winced as she dragged him along, poor Naruto. I was too busy looking after the two I didn't notice my boyfriend stealing glances at me until I turned back. He was leaning his head on his palm and just staring. I started to feel a little shy and felt my cheeks heat up.

"Do I have something on my face?" I reached up when he nodded.

"Yeah you have some beautiful all over." I laughed at his cheesy ass but secretly enjoyed his praise and I could tell he knew I did.

I never considered myself beautiful even with the memories I have of being Kami. I'm actually pretty average but with Shikamaru. I feel like I'm the hottest thing around.

"You're so cheesy Nara." I said kissing his nose before returning to my noodles. He just brushed a strand out of my face and continued to stare sighing.

"Eat Shikamaru." Cheeks still flushed as I urged him. He nodded but continued to stare. I had enough I covered my face slightly embarrassed but the other bit overjoyed.

"I'm so lucky." He said with another sigh removing my hands from my face.

"Shikamaru stop."I said growing redder by the second. He laughed but finally started to eat. Letting me calm my cheeks down.

I looked back at him and agreed. I was lucky aswell. I watched him finish his bowl and smiled. Very lucky.

"Now who can't stop staring." He said with a laugh but his cheeks heated as I leaned forward and kissed him suddenly.

"I love you Nara. Obsessively."

He paid for our food and led me out the door before answering.

"Obsessively? That word fits perfectly with the way I feel about you. It feels like we're moving too fast but at the same time like we ain't moving fast enough. I feel when I'm with you. Kira I'm in love with you. Obsessively." He reached up and wiped a tear from my cheek and I smiled widely.

"You're so cute Shikamaru. Never change please." His face darkened and he hid it by burying his face in my hair.

"I'm not cute woman!" I just giggled bringing him into a hug.

I continued walking just enjoying his company.

"Oh and Shikamaru?" He looked down at my as we walked.

"I'm in love with you too." I said smiling up my boyfriend. He smiled wide before laughing.

"Of course you are. Who wouldn't be in love with all of this?" He joked but I nodded seriously. Who wouldn't be?