eight

We were a little ways out of the village. Izumu and Kotestu not sure what they should do but just nodded at Kakashi as he walked me down a path leading to a small lake. The memory of us relaxing here after missions swam through my head as I lowered myself onto a rock.

"You have nothing to be embarrassed about" he said after awhile adding to my embarrassment, unintentionally.

"I'm such an idiot..."

"You're not an idiot."

"I just want to punch myself. I don't get why a kiss on the cheek hurts."

"It's because you love the bastard." I winced at his choice of name but stopped. Had my feelings grown into actual love? Is that why my heart shattered over the thought of Shikamaru with somebody else?

"It's not his fault he doesn't feel the same as I ...do." I said ignoring his look of bewilderment. I couldn't force anyone to feel.

I hugged my knees staring out at the lake, my cheeks still burning and I just wanted to bury myself and hide. I felt angry that I believed he liked me the same. I shouldn't of assumed. Kakashi sat with me and i felt a little better. Maybe an hour passed by and it was quite peaceful. Out of nowhere Kakashi got up and punched the huge tree next to us shattering it with his chidori.

"Kakashi?" He didn't respond just sat on the ground again like nothing happened.

"He likes you." I turned away cheeks going red. What is he saying? Did he not witness the rejection everyone else saw?

"He honestly does. He pushed her away when you left.. he was gonna come after you but I punched him." He glared out at the lake as if he hated the calm water.

"I was so angry when I saw him with her.... I couldn't not land one on him. Sorry." He didn't seem at all sorry and I didn't know what to think. Shikamaru didn't look like he was pushing her away and his coldness towards me was opposite of liking me. He seemed to sense my unsureness.

"You've always been a little slow when it comes to someone else's affection towards you.... Trust me I can tell. I mean he was basically glaring daggers at me when I was in the office." He chuckled, sighing letting it go silent again. I didn't know what to do.

Shikamaru didn't exactly look pleased by my presence. I sighed laying my head against my leg. I just felt embarrassed. Kakashi pulled his mask up suddenly.

"Kakashi-san." A voice interrupted the quiet. I looked back to see an anbu I was still a little weary about the masks but after I remembered stuff I was less scared of the ninjas. Knowing that Kakashi use to be one.

"I know. We'll be back soon." He said not even needing to hear anything from the guy. The anbu dissappeared after Kakashi dismissed him. It was getting cold out.

"Tsunade wants us back... She's worried about you." I sighed ignoring my thoughts for the time being. Kakashi offered me his hands and I let a small smile grace my lips.

He pulled his mask down leaning forward and kissing my forehead. The action made my cheeks heat.

"You're gonna be okay Kam...Kira sorry." He sighed.

"You can call me Kami if you want. I mean it's my name and it's what you're use to." He seemed to decide something before  smiling a genuine smile.

"Kami. Let's get ya home."

......

Tsunade was in a real mood when I made to her office again. Going on and on about worrying her.

There was no one but a red haired guy in there when me and Kakashi entered. I recognised him as one of the people who were in the office. He stepped up to me ignoring Kakashi.

"I'm sorry for my sister's behavior she doesn't know how to control herself sometimes." I scratched the back of my head nodding at his apology.

"Thank you....."

"Gaara." What a nice name.

"He's the kazekage."Tsunade said.  I looked at him before doing a little bow to show my respect. His cheeks turned a bright pink and I found it cute.

When I finished getting told off by the hokage. Kakashi had to stay back, something about what happened earlier, he needed punishment. I tried to stick up for him but he waved me off.

"I deserve it anyways... Go home and eat something. I'll see you tomorrow Kami." I looked at Tsunade-sama who just nodded agreeing with Kakashi. I sighed and bid them all goodbye. I walked down the hallway noticing the girl who was with Shikamaru, Gaaras sister. She was sitting with a guy who seemed uninterested in being here in the first place. She smirked at me.

"Say.. I might go see what Shika is up too." She said standing

I ignored her, rolling my eyes and travelled the rest of the corridor getting away from her childish antics. The nickname coming from her mouth sounded gross.

I was out in the town taking my usual route home when I walked past Ichirakus. My stomach growled and I shrugged I hadn't eaten yet. Pulling the curtain back to see it was a bit packed, villagers were out with their families. I was happy I didn't notice anyone I just wanted to eat and go home.

I took a seat at an empty table and ordered a bowl of spicy pork, leaning against the table. Today was exhausting. Why did I embarrassingly try to throw myself at him? I bit my lip sighing loudly.

"Rough day?" I looked up making eye contact with Sakura. We had gotten a little closer as she trained alot with tsunade and during the three weeks Shikamaru was gone I was there constantly bugging the hokage.

"Kind of." I lowered my head again hearing her sit down with me.

"You wanna talk about it?" I shook my head feeling my cheeks heat up.

"It's embarrassing..." She frowned but nodded. She ordered her the same dish, as my one was placed in front of me. I stirred it not feeling that hungry.

"Okay spill it. You're depressed face is actually hurting me. Who do I need to punch?" I looked up at the girl, a small laugh coming from me.

"Sorry Sakura... Tell me how your day was?" She rolled her eyes at my change of subject but went on about her day. Saying she had hit Naruto for some idiotic thing he did. A few minutes later Ino came in carrying a few scrolls.

"Oh good Sakura you're here. I don't understand this jutsu at all!... Ohh hi Kira!" I nodded at the blond as she squeezed in bedside Sakura and listened to their conversation. I took a few mouth full but decided I wasn't really in the mood to eat.

"I'm gonna head home, I'm tired. I'm alright Sakura." I said ignoring her worried look. I pushed my bowltowards Ino who was eating from Sakura's bowl and got up, stretching.

"I'll see you guys later." I turned around walking away from the table. I wasn't really paying attention to my surroundings and as I pulled the curtain open I ran into someone's chest. Not needing to look up I could already tell who it was. I quickly took a step back. The embarrassment flooded back and for the thousandth time today my cheeks flushed dark crimson.

"S-sorry." I didn't look up at Shikamaru and passed by him quickly. It wasn't like he'd want to see me right?" I was right as I kept on walking I didn't feel him chase after me. I mentally punched myself. Of course he wouldn't follow me. Why would he?

I made it home ten minutes later kicking off my shoes and collapsing face first into my bed. I buried my head in the sheets wanting to disappear.

As I was busy getting worked up I felt the bed dip and kicked out hard. who the fuck?! I struggled to detangle myself from the sheets, embarrassed to call my self a kunoichi. I clumsily got to my knees grabbing a kunai out of my leg pouch. Shikamaru was here. My eyes widened and the blush returned. Why was he here? I lowered my weapon sitting down slowly. I watched my hands feeling his eyes on me.

"Kira?" I looked up to see his eyes were serious but his cold demeanor from earlier long gone and he resembled my Shikamaru. 

He scooted forward sighing heavily. He looked like he was arguing with himself and I would've laughed at the facials he was pulling if I wasn't so worried about what he was gonna say.

"I'm ...gonna.... Just don't hit me okay? Let me do this?" He said not making any sense. The bruise on his face was the perfect outline of Kakashi fist and I felt sadness seeing it there.

"Fuck it." He said throwing me off guard for a second. Shikamaru leaned forward and quickly placed his lips to my own. It was so fast that I had to think if it actually happened.

My face was extremely hot and I could see his face taking on a reddish hue confirming his lips touched my own.

"Kira?" I didn't answer for a bit still shocked. i flung myself forward and tackled Shikamaru into another kiss. It was rough and it held some of the anger I felt from today. He moaned from underneath me, bringing me closer by gripping my waist as I continued the kiss. He pulled back letting me breathe as he trailed kisses sloppily down my neck. A small moan erupted from me when he nipped at my bare shoulder.

"W-wait." Shikamaru pulled back looking at me something dawning on him.

"What about Kakashi? Aren't you two together?" I felt guilt flood me. I did feel guilty about Kakashi I hated to think that he would hurt if I went with someone else but I wasn't in a relationship with him.

"We're not together.. what about your girlfriend?..." I trailed off looking away. I tried to move but he held me in place.

"She's not my girlfriend quite the opposite. She just doesn't know how to keep her hands to herself." Relief rushed through me and I had to hide the smile that took over my face.

"Someone happy about that fact?" I blushed slapping his chest lightly.

"I'm sorry. About embarrassing you. I was actually quite happy with your reaction at seeing me but I held back because I thought.... I thought you and Kakashi... Ugh this is embarrassing.!" I looked at him, he was telling the truth.

"Why would you think I was with Kakashi." He blushed looking away.

"I, when I left you two to talk. I waited all night for you to... To come and tell me you were alright but I saw you two on a date." He covered his face obviously embarrassed having admitted that.

"It wasn't a date Shikamaru! It's not like that... I thought you'd be asleep so I was gonna see you the next day. Which didn't happen because you left and didn't come  back for three weeks!" I said the last bit angrily slapping his shoulder.

"Ouch! That hurts woman!" I rolled my eyes he deserved it.

"It looked like one. You were blushing and he touched your chin and fuck everything I'm saying sounds pathetic."

I don't remember blushing that night.

"I wasn't blushing idiot. I was laughing! I told him about the eating contest you and Naruto had!" I finished, laughing again. It was a good memory. He groaned embarrassed I always brought it up.

"That's why you stayed away?" I said seriously. He shook his head telling me why he didn't come home until now.

"Then why are they here?" He knew I was just referring to the female.

"Gaara is in a relationship with Naruto. Kankuro is his brothers guard.. not that he needs it and Temari just invited herself along." The red head was with Naruto? That explained his presence here in the village.

I leaned forward a bit shyly and he met me hallway. Our lips touched in a gentle kiss. I pulled back bringing him in to a hug.

"I missed you so much! Don't ever leave the village again."

He held onto me laughing as I finished my sentence.

"So you're the possessive type of girlfriend." I blushed burying my head in his neck. He just called me his girlfriend.

"Mmmhmm you're mine Nara." I said kissing behind his ear enjoying the giggle that emittied from him.

He pulled me closer getting comfortable in bed and I stayed on top of him not wanting to move. I had missed being this close and he had to make up for three weeks without any Shikamaru contact.

He lifted my chin kissing me lightly before smiling.

"I should've kissed you sooner." I nodded agreeing. It would've saved alot of the embarrassment.

(All over the place :/ )