6

One evening...

Nanon called Clare.

Hello? Clare answers as the number was from Local Phone centre expecting it to be Ohm cause it's been 3 days since she talked to Ohm. She was completely shutting down all the doors while leaving that one window for a slight hope between them.

Hello Clare. It's Nanon. Please hear me out before hanging up the call I know you hate me now. Nanon said with a heavy heart. Clare didn't answer but Nanon understood her silence.

Emm....no matter what happens please stay with Ohm. He said. Clare was so shocked to listen him.

It was a mistake Clare. And I bet there is no doubt that he loved you cause he did. He loved you more than his parents. And I think Ohm deserves a better life. That's why I am saying you this please hear him out do not shut him down understand him.

All I wish for you is your happiness with Ohm. And You both deserve each other. Nanon said with tears filled eyes while Clare was listening to him with a heavy heart.

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The next day

Clare opened the door for Ohm who was waiting for ages just to face her.

He moves into her room awkwardly. And sat on the bed. Clare walked in with a milk coffee.

Nanon asked us to meet him. Ohm said after what felt like ages.

Yes I know. Clare replies.

I"m sorry for my actions Clare. Ohm said in a low soft voice reaching for Clare's hands immediately her tears started rolling down which Ohm whipped it off.

Can you give me one last chance? He asked gently. .

Ohm's POV

There he was standing at the corner of his condo well dressed up in a white shirt and blue jeans.

We both had that one minute eye contact and then Nanon pulled 2 large suitcases with him keeping back in my trunk. He sat next to me.

Where are we going? I asked.

Changmai Bus Stop. He answered.

Nanon why are you going to Changmai? Clare asked from the backseat.

Yeah. The institute promoted me to their higher branch in Changmai.

When are you coming back? Clare asked.

Let's see. He asked and I started my Car with full speed.

There was utter silence in the car we 3 were not daring to talk but something was wrong with me I felt very uneasy I don't know if I was angry or sad.

Did you decide this on your own or was it  your Father's decision? I asked him while he  was silent for a while.

It was my choice. He said.

And I really wanted to study in Changmai and then I will give my final in the Bangkok if possible I will try to stay in Bangkok for a while and then........I will leave to Singapore. He said I looked at him and he nodded with a smile.

It's already 9:00. Can you make it fast Ohm? He asked after a while and the sudden nerve of Anger triggered within me as I took a left turn.

Where are you going? He asked. I didn't answer.

Ohm....where are we going? Clare asked this time but I didn't answer her either.

Ohm stop the car. Ohm I SAID STOP THE CAR. He screamed.

SHUT THE FUXK UP YOU MOTHERFUKER DO NOT SPEAK A WORD UNTIL I STOP THE CAR. I screamed back banging my hand on the streeing wheel.

You both please stop fighting. Clare said tapping my arm.

It's your Boyfriend who is getting on my nerves. I don't know Clare if I miss the bus your Boyfriend better leave me in the Changmai.

Changmai Goddammit.

Ohm you should literally control your anger that is the reason why people leave you. You do all those things in anger expecting the other person to agree with you. He said I stopped the car l know what he is talking about.

Yes. And?

Ohm. I am warning you do not make the things complicated which already are.

I am saying this you are going to stay here with me then give your exam while you are preparing from here. And trust me I won't let you to live in the Changmai. I SAID WHAT I SAID.

A tight slap landed on my cheek followed by Clare screaming Nanon's name and in that moment I saw his eyes turning red he was typically shaking with anger and fear.

I took a deep breath cause I couldn't take the slap neither the face he made as if he was hating me at this moment. I got off from the Car.

Clare go talk to him. I heard Nanon saying to Clare. Clare followed me..

Nanon's POV

I was in the Car watching Clare walking behind Ohm.

Ohm sat on a rock. Clare sat back beside him.

Did I cross the line Clare? He asked.

Guess I messed it up very bad this time.

It's always me who is making everything complicated. I don't know why I am like this but this is hurting me Clare. He said all those things to Clare and I assume that Clare already know what happened between us that night and at that moment I felt there is nothing to hide anymore.

I don't know what will happen in the future. I guess I am too used to having Nanon beside me all the time. I am too used to you talking care of me in all ways. And this is scaring me Clare.

What will happen in the future if we don't see each other anymore? Does that mean I am already losing the people who I thought will be dear to me. Ohm said.

I got off from the Car.

YEAHHHH OHMMM....Why do you take all the blame? I said running to Ohm.

I don't think we need to meet each other. Let's end it Ohm. You and Me and our friendship let's end it for our future. I said gulping a lump in my throat.

Life will move fast, we will live differently happy and free.

You are saying we don't need to see each other anymore? What did I even do Nanon that you are running away from me?

It's me. I said when I was standing in front of Ohm.

It's me who crossed the line. I said it looking deep into his black orbs

It's me who is the problem. I said this to Clare this time.

I was the one who was confused all the time. I couldn't stop this disease within me and the problem is within me and that's why I am leaving you Ohm. I want to give this space I don't want to hurt both of us neither Clare which is killing me with guilt. I never wanted you both to put in a situation I never wanted to see you sad Ohm. Tears started rolling down my eyes even if I wanted to control it but I was weak maybe because I really want to leave Ohm just because I want him to be happy and that happiness he can get only from Clare cause I am cursed to be with him.

So it's you? Huh? Ohm said. I nodded.

And that's why I want to make it right.

And you think the solution for this is you leaving me? Ohm pointed the space between both of us and I nodded.

And all of a sudden he slapped me very hard on my face followed by a punch.

What the fuck? I screamed punching him this time. We both were literally abusing each other I was hurt and he was angry.

Both of you stop fighting. Clare was stopping us crying and screaming we both didn't care at that moment I was pouring all my energy into Ohm this ain't helping I need to hurt him more if that makes him leave me.

Ohm sat on my waist punching on my face pulling my hair tears started rolling down my face not because of the physical pain but because of how we are hurting each other mentally and physically till the very end.

Ohm Stop it. Clare screamed and in that anger Ohm pushed Clare and Clare elbow was bleeding with blood as it hits a rough surface of the road.

Ohm immediately ran towards Clare where she pushed him away.

ENOUGH. BOTH OF YOU.

It's me who should be guilty cause now I feel like you both are fighting because of me. If only I wasn't there between you both the ending might have been different.

I knew Nanon's feelings. But I never imagined that you are being like this Ohm. (She said crying pushing Ohm away)

Now for God sake stop lying to each other and be honest with each other at least for once.

I will wait in the car you both talk. Clare said and ran back to the car.

We both were sitting on the road his leg clearly covered in the bluish red bruise and I was bleeding from my lips. He was breathing heavily as if he was still angry with me I looked down at my shoes as if I was going to burst at any moment cause if it's not now it will never.

Awwh. Yes. I like you Ohm. Not as a  best friend but as a Man. And I know we both are guys and I know these feelings are forbidden but I can't stop having these feelings for you Ohm. And this was my deepest secret where I never imagined I would say this to you. I kept it to myself because I never wanted you to hate me.

Finally I said it. And at that moment I didn't feel a reason to stay as I walked away.

Nanon. He called. I didn't turn back.

Nanon. He called again but all I could do was walk out the tears form my eyes are pouring out as I was hiding the deep ocean within me. This shit was indeed breaking my heart day by day and now it's worst of everything.

Nanon. Will you still walk out if I say I kept a secret in the back of my mind all the time. I stopped in my track.

He was stepping closer to me as I could hear the footsteps towards me.

I was afraid just like you. I kept it to myself cause I didn't meant to hurt you. He held my hand and made me turn towards him I didn't dare to look at him face neither I wanted to show my ugly tears to him.

He was practically shaking while holding my hands his voice coming out as a low squeel.

I....I (Ohm gulps) I don't know why I feel something odd when I am with you in the boys locker room. I don't know why I always end up getting nervous when we are showering after the game. His hold around my wrist got tight and he was crying.

I know I should not be having these kinds of thoughts but every time you touch me I just wonder how it feels to have you so close to me.

And every time you cry when things fall apart all I can do is hold you. I know we can't be together forever but I always wanted to be a shoulder when you want to cry. (Ohm gently places Nanon's hand on his own cheek)

Live happily? Ohm asked.

No that cannot happen without you or Clare. He answered.

I need you and Clare. To be happy. He said and all I could do was cry.