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Neteyam and I have been.. I don't know how to name it.

I guess we have been hooking up for quite some time now. We would tell the others were going training, or banshee riding, but oh boy.

We haven't really made it official tho, which is really  bugging me, but if you get to know Neteyam, you find out hes not the best with words. But thats okay, I loved his every flaw too. Just like I loved him.

There is no denying, I fell in love. I dont know about him but I did. And it accidentaly came out in one of our... sesions. Like there was this one time..

It was 4 weeks ago, some time after the ritual.

I was doing Tuks hair, and he came from behind me.

"Y/n.." He smirked. "We have to go train."

I raised a brow. "Let me at least put a flower in her hair." I grabbed a flower from the ground, putting it in Tuk's braid. She hugged me before running off. "Okay, I'm done."

I ran up to him, and once we were sure no one saw us, he grabbed my hand and pulled me to a cave. He slammed me against the wall, and kissed me passionately, our lips moving in sync as I tried to catch my breath.

After a few minutes, he went down to my neck, and started kissing it roughly.

"Oh God.." I hissed in pain as I scratched his back.

He chuckled against my skin, making shivers go down my spine. 

"God, I love you Neteyam." I said, and he suddely stopped kissing my neck, and we made eye contact. Before I knew it, he kissed my lips again, without saying a word back. Then the night just got more intense, but I wont go into details. He didn't return the words tho, not once.

I was worried I was just his side piece, that he uses to please himself.

Then there was another night, it was a few days ago. We were doing it again, and after that we both just laid in each other arms under the stars.

"Neteyam.." I said and he hummed in response. "We keep doing this, but we never made it offical."

"What do you mean?" He sat up, making me do the same, opposite of him.

I sighed. "What I mean is, you never use reasuring words, or treat me like a girlfriend."

"That is not true." He put his hand over mine. "You know I like you.." Suddenly, he  grabbed me and put me over him, so I was sitting on his hips while his hands were on my thighs and he was leaning on a rock.

"I do." I smile. He carresed my cheek, and started kissing me, until it started getting intense again and I sat up. "No, this is what  I mean!"

He sat up too. "Wait, what's wrong?" He tried to grab my hand, but I pulled it away.

"Neteyam, you treat me like a-"

"Like what?!"

"Like a toy!" I lowered my ears. I wasn't letting anyone take advantage of me.

"Y/n.." He slowly approached me. " I didn't wanna make you feel like that.."

"Well you did. And until you figure out what is it that you want.. Don't talk to me." I turned around to walk away.

"Y/n, I'm sorry!" He yelled out, but I didn't listen. I hesitately walked away, as much as I wanted to be into his arms.

We have been avoiding each other ever since. Today, I was hanging out with Kiri and some other girls, when I felt someone approach us. It was Tuk.

"Hey Tuk.." I pat her head. She smiled, and gave me a paper. 

"Neteyam told me to give this to you." I opened the note, and it said 'Meet me at the forest.'

"Guys, I gotta go. I'll see you later." I said my goodbyes to the girls, before running off. 

I went to the forest, and Neteyam was nowhere to be found. That was until I heard someone from behind. "You actualy came." Neteyam said, sitting on a branch.

I rolled my eyes. "Why wouldn't I?"

He jumped down, and walked over to me. I stepped back, even tho I wanted to kiss him so hard right now.

"Relax, I thought about what you said and.." He blushed. "Im sorry. I couldn't control myself around you.."

My ears flinched. "Oh!" I laughed. "You sure you aren't just using me?"

He frowned. "No! God Y/n.. You clearly have no clue how much I actualy love you."

I smiled. "That's all I wanted to hear." I approached him to kiss him, but he pulled away. "Hey!"

"No. Follow me, I wanna show you something." We started running through the lit up forest, playing a game of tag and laughing.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"I wanna talk to you about something." He smiled. We ran more, until we made it to a new area. There was a huge tree, with glowing tendrills hanging from it like curtains. It was beautiful.

Neteyam walked ahead of me a bit, and I swung around the area, allowing the tendrills to touch my body.

"This is a place for prayers to be heard and sometimes answered." He said, looking at the tendrills.

I grabbed it gently in my hand, and started hearing voices around me.

"I can hear voices when they touch me." I chuckle. He came next to me.

"We call this the tree of ancestors, who live within Eywa." He said. Suddenly, woodspirits came flying to us.

I looked over at Neteyam, and got Deja vu from the first time we met. He smiled at me as we made eye contact. I was getting sad, because of whats ought to happen to their clan. He doesnt deserve it. None of them do.

I turned around touching some more of the tendrills. "You know, one day we might not see each other anymore." I said.

My back was facing him, so I couldn't see his expression. "Yea, I know.. Even if you do stay with the clan, we might not be together." I quickly turned to look at him, shocked, only to see him have a dissapointed face. "You are omaticaya now, you may choose your own mate. Someone who will make you happier." Now his back was facing me.

"You think?" I crossed my arms.

"Li'zuhan is a great spearsman." He said.

"I don't want Li'zuhan."

The sides of his mouth curled up a bit. "Na'maye is a good rider."

"Yea, he is good."Neteyam quickly turned around and looked down at the floor betwen us. "But I don't want him either." He looked back into my eyes. I got closer to him. "I've already chosen."

"The man is very lucky then." He smiled.

I rolled my eyes, and placed my hands against his chest, and he put his on my waist. "He must chose me tho."

He got lost in my eyes. "He already has."

A breath I didn't know I was holding in escaped my lips. I looked over at his lips, and before I knew it, after days, we kissed again.

He pulled away fast tho, and pulled me down to sit in front of him.

"Wait. I wanna prove to you that I'm serious about us." He said before putting his braid in front of him.  He raised his queue in front of me, gesuring to me to do the same. I did as he said, and without a second thought, I felt a rush go through my body as we conected the antenes of our queues.

I could feel our minds and body connect. Next to our emotional bond, now we had a physical bond too.

I sighed, before him and I opened our eyes at the same time, and immidietly after I sat over him in a cradling position. We started kissing, like magnets refusing to part from one another. 

He put me down gently onto the moss, as it glew underneeth us. His hands started going lower. And lower. And lower. And the night started getting more steamy and passionate by time.

After like 3 hours passed, I collapsed on Neteyams chest, with my leg over him, and my hair completly ruined.

I took deep breaths, as he rubbed my back. He chuckled at my weak state. "Are you okay?"

"Yea.. More than okay." I sat up to kiss his cheek, before laying back down. I thought for a moment, and realization hit me. I am about to betray these people, right after mating with him. I screwed up, bad.

"I can sense you're having bad thoughts." He said sitting up. I did too.

"Neteyam. This isn't the real me.. My real body is out there somewhere." I scoffed.

He pointed to my chest. "This is real. You are real." He kissed my forhead.

I smiled. "Still. What if I betray you. How can you trust me?"

He sighed, pulling me back onto his chest. "I trust you Y/n. Whatever happens.. It is not your fault."

"I love you Neteyam." I put my hand over his chest.

"I love you too. We are mated for life now, Y/n.I am with you now."