Chapter 58

*Payton's POV*"Will someone just tell me what's going on? What's the big deal?"

I wasn't gonna just drop this, big deal or not. I hate secrets being kept from me, especially if it's about me.

Sean and Cara exchanged worry-some glances with each other, and I guess they gave in.

"Um, well before you lost your memory and everything, you were dating Kaden and uh..." Sean started.

"I know that, I remembered a few days ago," I nodded, but he gave me a glare to not interrupt, which I held my hands up in innocence.

"You were pretty much a thing with Brooklyn ever since you moved to London, and it was complicated.. You chose Kaden over him, and then you were gonna go on tour and everything, but then you lost your memory...." Cara took over, putting a hand over Sean's mouth to shut him up.

"How come everyone else knew about it but me? Wouldn't I have seen something about it on Twitter? My phone? Social media?" I asked.

"Well, while you were on tour, I asked Ethan and the guys to delete everything off of your phone and social media that would give it away.. I gave them your password and they said that they deleted everything," Sean explained. So that's what they were doing with my phone that night.. Everything makes sense now!

"Why didn't any of you guys tell me?" I crossed my arms. I'm still pissed at everyone for not telling me, why would they keep something like that from me? It was obvious that there was a reason that I chose Kaden over Brooklyn, and I still don't know that, and I don't think either Sean or Cara could tell me that. I could've avoided this whole thing, and I could still be with Kaden and this wouldn't be complicated.

"It was for your own good, who knows what would of happened if we told you without you remembering for yourself. Believe us, we would've told you if we could." Cara said, a look of concern and guilt washing over her face.

"Well you didn't tell me, and I had to find out from a person who I barely even know! Did Brooklyn know about this and didn't tell me like you guys?" I asked.

"No, he doesn't remember either.." Cara explained.

"Why wouldn't he remember?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"He was in the same accident with you when we were on our way to the airport.. He was on our football team, he had the same injury you did and doesn't remember anything," Sean said carefully and slowly, to make sure I understood every word.

"Why was I completely oblivious to all of this for weeks?! Do you know what I've put Kaden through?! My own parents, brother, and best friend didn't bother to mention any of this for weeks, and I had to find out about my own life from some stranger!" I was fuming at this point, not even bothering to keep my voice down.

"We thought it was for the best Pay.. Who knows what could've happened to you, we just didn't want you to get hurt," Cara looked as guilty as a five year old stealing from the cookie jar.

"Well I did get hurt, and I've screwed over two relationships in the process. Do me a favor and just leave me alone for a while to think things through? I have to freaking hope that Kaden will forgive me for all the crap I've put him through. Just make sure Brooklyn knows all of this too, he can't be clueless about this for any longer."

I just took off for the parking garage afterwards, not letting them say anything else. I got in my car, and just drove. I didn't know where I was going, but I just kept driving.

How am I going to fix things between me and Kaden? How do I tell him that I don't necessarily have those feelings towards him like I apparently had before? Maybe I still do, maybe it's just because I haven't seen him for a while, and when I do, those feelings would come back? I like Brooklyn now, the annoying asshole he can be, but he has his sweet moments.

But what made me choose Kaden over Brooklyn? What did he do to lose my trust and feelings toward him?

After about an hour of basically driving around in circles, I came to a stop at a Starbucks near my house. I needed someone else to hear me out, and help me through this. I had a feeling that if I thought for myself, then I'd be listening to my idiotic heart instead of my brain.

Immediately, out of no thought, I texted the only person who could always cheer me up, and wasn't involved in this whole middle school secrecy ring.

To; MattHey, meet me at Starbucks by my house? I need someone to listen to my problems and make sure I don't fuck up my life and I thought of you😘😉

I walked inside and ordered my usual drink. Within minutes, Matt responded.

From; MattBe there in 10.

I smiled to myself, as my name was called out for my drink. I could always count on Matt, no matter what time of day it was he'd always be on his way in under 10 minutes with Ben and Jerry's. I love Matt like a second brother, he's always there to tell me about the stupid choices I've made and how to fix them.

I waited for a few minutes while searching into the far ends of Twitter and Instagram, and indeed, there were pictures of me and Brooklyn together, along with Kaden. How come I hadn't noticed before?

Matt walked through the door, and picking up his drink from the counter. He must of ordered ahead with the app..

He sat down next to me on the grey couch.

"Who did what this time?" He laughed.

"I had just found out that the last few weeks of my life had been complete and utter lies." I sighed, taking a long sip out of my drink.

"Ohhh.... You found out.. I told them that you would flip out, hell I would too if my best friends and family were keeping that from me.." He looked down at the ground.

"What do I do? Should I talk to Kaden? Or Brooklyn? I don't know I'm just still so confused over everything," I rubbed my temples, feeling a migraine coming on pretty soon. I always got the worst of headaches whenever I would be stressed or overthinking something.

"Talk to them both, Kaden first to clear things up.."

"I don't even know where I would start. I mean we talked about it before but I never clarified what we were again... Ugh. Why is my life so fucking complicated," I sighed loudly.

"Everything will work itself out, it always does. But you can't blame everyone from keeping it a secret from you, they only did what they thought was best, and they wouldn't of done that if they didn't care about you. Just remember that." He took a drink from his grande iced macchiato.

"I know, I just hated the fact that I didn't know for so long, and everyone else did. Not to mention the fact that I had to find out from Melissa.." I mean an interviewer knew more about my life than I did! And the Internet probably did too, considering the millions of #paytonbeckham, #brayton, #payden, and #kadensgirl tweets.

"You'll figure it out, just talk to the both of them and see what they want to do, and you just use your head and not your heart, and I'm almost positive you'll make the right decision," he smiled.

"Thanks Matt," I said while putting my drink down on the side table to hug him. "I'm really glad that we stayed friends, I don't know what I would do without you listening to my stupid problems," I laughed.

"Probably do something really, really idiotic without thinking," he joked.

"I'm hurt, really," I put my hands over my chest as if to say that I'm wounded by his words.

"It's true though," he winked.

"Yeah, whatever," I rolled my eyes. "You're not exactly Einstein either you know."

"At least I know which way to open my doors," he chuckled.

"It's complicated! And you know that I don't like doors! Right next to the color brown and stairs, they're on my most hated everyday things!" I exclaimed. I don't care what anyone else says, I feel very strongly about my list of hatred.

"You're something else," he laughed.

"Yeah but you love me," I said in a sweet voice.

"Hardly," he rolled his eyes and I punched his arm for that.

I knew what I needed to do, talk to both Kaden and Brooklyn.

But Brooklyn first. Completely ignoring what Matt had told me, telling me to talk to Kaden first, I knew that I had to figure out what he did for me to choose Kaden over him. Even though I was scared of the truth, I needed to know for my own good.